perfect hidden marriage

Chapter 280 Sensitive and Fragile Pain Nerves

Last night, Su Jin drank a glass of wine in the hotel, and added a sleeping pill to the wine.

She didn't treat herself badly, forcing herself to eat, drink, and then go to sleep.

Sleep as if dead.

Closing and opening the eyes is called sleep; keeping the eyes closed is called death.

People are willing to sleep, because they know that they will wake up after sleeping; people are afraid of death, because they know that sleep will be eternal.

Su Jin likes to sleep when she is tired.Sometimes, I even think that one day in the future, if I can go to sleep without pain or injury, that would be a good thing.

Only this time, the quality of her sleep was not very good. Alcohol and sleeping pills could not calm her down. In the sleeping state, the disturbing dreams were terrible, and they were all old things from the past, suffering and unsightly. .

At the beginning of human nature is good.

But people have a good side and an evil side.

When one does not hesitate to sacrifice everything in order to achieve a certain benefit, the evil of human beings will be revealed nakedly.

And she has witnessed all kinds of ugly mental outlooks in human nature.

The weak are innocent, the strong are terrible.

All of these, like a ghost, followed her weak and made her suffer.

Brother Erjin is the only bright color in all the gloomy past, which can warm people's hearts. The Su family made her understand that there are more good people than bad people in this world, and bad people will all get retribution.

Finally, she woke up from a nightmare.

Yang Jiahui was sleeping next to her.

Her exclamation made her frightened and asked:

"What happened?"

Su Jin hugged her body, trembling.

As for Yang Jiahui, she wiped her tears. Although she was curious about what she dreamed about, she didn't press her because she didn't speak.

After an unknown amount of time, Su Jin calmed down and asked:

"What time is it now, I want to go for a walk... I want to blow some air..."

Yang Jiahui went with her.

The sky was gray, it was four or five o'clock in the morning, and the wind was a bit cool. Su Jin looked at the scenery along the way—it was obviously a beautiful scenery, but in his eyes, it was a different kind of cold and gloomy——

The mood determines the beauty of the scenery.

This sentence is not false.

Because the mood is gloomy, the scenery becomes gloomy.

Otherwise, facing the dawn, what he should have is a joyful longing—the weather forecast is fine today, which means that she can see the fiery red sun rising in the east—the grayness at this moment should be a kind of hope gray.

But now she doesn't have that idea at all.

She walked slowly, and the small pebbles had already been polished round and smooth by countless visitors, and she felt a slight pain when she stepped on her feet.

The cold wind made her feel cold.

After she came out, she never spoke again.

Because the heart is still flustered.

She wants to draw strength from nature, calm herself, find a way out, let herself feel at ease, and no longer suffer from hesitation.

Yang Jiahui followed behind, watching worriedly: Su Jin is too quiet.

That year, after she broke up in love, she was so quiet. In the end, she jumped off the bridge without saying a word...

Afterwards, she said: "It's no wonder that a person who can swim will die if he jumps into the river. I just want to wake myself up... The cold lake water can have a very good stimulating effect."

After the dance, she was indeed sober, but Yang Jiahui would not believe that she had no intention of dying that time.

Today, she is quieter than that time.

Yang Jiahui went up to hold her hand, not knowing how to break the silence.

After walking for a long time, she opened her mouth:

"Su Jin, I think that everything in the world has two sides, there is a good side, and there is a bad side."

Su Jin stopped and listened quietly.

"When we measure a person's good or bad, we often carry our initial impression of this person. Whichever side you fall on the emotional scale will have a larger percentage. Su Jin, this time, your emotional reaction is so big , does it mean that you have no more love for Su Mubai?"

Yang Jiahui asked softly what was in her heart.

Is there any more love left?
It's really hard to answer.

This is exactly what she thought about last night.

From the age of eight to 22, 14 years, except for the time in college, she and Su Mubai got along day and night, and their love was stronger than gold.

She firmly believes that there are very few feelings that can compare to the depth, devotion, and unforgettable relationship between them... But life just tore them apart abruptly.

Yes, it's not betrayal, it's breaking up.

She hated and resented the man for four years, but he still loved her deeply.

But for her, she married another person. When he saw that she was about to succeed, she didn't stick to it. She married someone else, lost her body, and after being moved, she found that the man who gave her short-term happiness was playing tricks on her. Do your best.

Yes, he used his scheming to possess her and make her fascinated by him.

so funny.

So ironic.

Her heart couldn't stop aching because of such a fact.

Well, to be precise, it was these two men who were tingling the sensitive and fragile pain nerves in her brain.

"Hey, I said, you can't do this. You and Su Mubai have passed. Xiao Jin, you can think clearly. Now, Jin Hengyuan is your legal husband. He is your man. As for Su Mubai, he is Qin Xue's man is Su Peng's father..."

Yang Jiahui tried to persuade her to use morality and responsibility to remind her: some things are in the past, they are in the past, and they can no longer be obsessed with it. To be a human being, there are some principles that must be followed.

was interrupted:

"Mu Bai is not Qin Xue's man, nor Su Peng's father...Jia Hui, we have misunderstood Mu Bai from the beginning to the end."

Finally, Su Jin spoke up, but it was to defend Su Mubai.

"What? What did you say?"

Yang Jiahui was taken aback:
"Misunderstood?"

"Ok!"

Su Jin responded lightly:

"To protect me..."

"Hey, why am I getting more and more confused the more I listen..."

Yang Jiahui felt that she couldn't understand:
"You should explain it to me well..."

"Okay... let me tell you..."

Su Jin said in a low voice: "However, before that, I want to tell you about the things before I came to the Su family. I have never mentioned those things to others. Because...it is very dark... "

She hugged her chest, walked forward slowly, and slowly told all the things she experienced when she was a child, and then she also told Su Mubai's difficulties in marrying another.Only the fact that Mu Bai is not the Su family's son was not mentioned.

Yang Jiahui was stunned on the spot.

One, she never imagined that Su Jin was so miserable when she was a child.

Second, they really misunderstood Su Mubai.

It turned out that from the beginning to the end, Su Mubai never failed Su Jin.

In addition to being shocked, she couldn't help feeling distressed.

"Mu Bai shouldn't have kept it from you, such a big matter. Why did he carry it all by himself. He's stupid, isn't he..."

Su Jin's eyes turned red all of a sudden, she lowered her head and kept swallowing tears——

Yeah, so silly, so silly.

He should have said it, but he didn't.

Or, he has other unavoidable difficulties, so he can only carry everything by himself...

"Now, what do you want to do?"

Yang Jiahui also became confused, but she still persuaded:
"Ah Jin, you belong to your husband now. No matter how much Su Mubai has suffered for you, you have already formed your own family. If you want to reunite, what will Jin Hengyuan do? How could he agree? Besides, he treats You are so nice."

Jin Hengyuan treated her very well.

But the scheming is too heavy.

She was a little hard to bear.

Covering her face, she sat on the stone bench by the lake, her heart in a mess.

Yes, what should she do next?
I don't know how long to sit still.

Yang Jiahui suddenly came over and pushed her:
"Xiao...Xiao Jin, look quickly, Jin Hengyuan is here."

Su Jin was taken aback for a moment, then looked up, and sure enough, he saw that on the winding path lined with trees, Jin Hengyuan was walking slowly towards her with his hands in his pockets and walking calmly.

The morning glow was overwhelming, sprinkled on the lake, and the breeze swayed, bringing thousands of golden lights, which shone under the bright blue sky and reflected on the man.

White clothes, black pants, red flowers, green trees, blue waves, golden waves...

This is a painting.

And he is the most dazzling existence in the painting. He is indifferent and has a cool sleeve, making it impossible for people to see that he is such an unfathomable person—it will make people feel that he is a sunny man who can warm others. He is a warm man who can be trusted completely.

He did warm her, but he did hurt her.

"Yang Jiahui, I haven't had breakfast yet, please help me buy fried dumplings. Thank you."

Jin Hengyuan smiled at Yang Jiahui, and politely dismissed her.

Not far away, Bao Feihong stood guard, and when Yang Jiahui approached, the two left hand in hand.

However, after walking a few steps, Yang Jiahui turned her head and glanced again, her eyes were full of worry.

Su Mubai and Jin Hengyuan, who will Su Jin choose?

What would happen to Jin Hengyuan if he chose Su Mubai?

They are now husband and wife.

If you choose Jin Hengyuan, what about Su Mubai?

He was miserable enough.

At that moment, she felt that no matter what Su Jin chose, it would be a kind of harm to the other.

She couldn't help but sighed softly.

On the embankment of the lake, only the two of them looked at each other and stood under the rising sun.

"Crying? Why are your eyes so red?"

One step away, Jin Hengyuan stared at him with such a focused and serious expression.

Su Jin watched silently, without turning his face and angrily on the spot.

That's irrational.

She felt that she should use a calm perspective to study this man carefully.

He is her husband, but he is still a stranger to her, even though they already have the closest relationship, even if they have talked heart-to-heart several times, even if they have shared the simple things in life... But his complexity, She still hasn't fully understood it.

He was able to find this place, which means that he already knew that she had met Su Mubai.

This man is really calm.

"How did you come?"

The hoarse voice revealed a bit of coldness that could not be concealed.

"I should have come here a long time ago, but I came late to pick up something. Do you want to know what it is?"

His voice was as gentle as ever.

But Su Jin was not interested.

That's none of her business.

But she had no chance to say no.

When getting along with this man, the rhythm is always in his hands.

The next moment, his hand stretched out, a big fist spread out in front of her, and a shiny silver bracelet appeared in front of her:

"Recognize it, is this your thing?"

Then her attention fell on the gadget the child was wearing, and she instinctively touched her wrist.

Really, yes, that was the bracelet she had worn as a child.

That year, after she was abducted by human traffickers, the bracelet in her hand was snatched away by them. Her memory is very vague, but she deeply remembered that there was a bell on the bracelet, and there was a beautiful totem on the surface of the bell. There is a dragon on it, and the round and bright bracelet is engraved with thin characters, like Sanskrit.

"Where did you get this?"

She was startled, and took it over with a hoarse voice.

Of course, it is impossible to wear this bracelet on her hand now, she is an adult, not a child.

"Are you sure it's yours?"

He watched.

"Mine. Lost for many years."

Since she can remember, this silver bracelet has been there.

She should be delighted to see old things again.

But at this moment, she really couldn't be happy.

"How did you get it?"

She looked up, with layers of doubts in her heart:

"Also, how did you know that I had such a silver bracelet when I was a child?"

I feel that this silver bracelet is a bit strange.

It suddenly appeared in front of her without any warning, there must be something famous here.

"Remember Li Gong? It's the man who beat you up...I found him, and he gave it to me."

"Li Gong?"

Su Jin thought for a while, and the distant memory was brought back.

Of course she remembered that it was a terrible man who raised four wolf dogs. If anyone dared to be disobedient, he would let his lackeys bite people.Whenever someone disobeys his wishes, he will be beaten and kicked by him.She couldn't remember how many beatings she had suffered at the hands of that man.

So, when I thought of this person, my body trembled for no reason.

"He was imprisoned for 16 years. Now he can no longer do evil to hurt you, don't be afraid."

Jin Hengyuan immediately comforted him.

Surprised, Su Jin's thoughts were startled and confused, and he looked at him complicatedly:
"You...you went to check what happened to me when I was a child?"

Otherwise, how could it be so clear?
Jin Hengyuan stared fixedly, and smiled lightly: "Xiao Shu, you told me all about your past yourself, have you forgotten?"

Su Jin was taken aback.

Did she mention those things to him?

no!
Since being adopted by the Su family, she has never mentioned the life of being trafficked and sold, nor the life of living in the village when she was a child.

Although her adoptive father and adoptive mother once asked, but she only said that she couldn't remember, and never mentioned it again, so even Su Mubai didn't know what she experienced before she was eight years old?
"When did I tell you? Why don't I remember?"

Su Jin frowned.

"A long time ago."

His eyes staring at her were a little bright, and amidst the overflowing light, a pleasant voice sounded slowly:
"That year, I was 14 years old and you were eight years old. We met in a poor mountain valley in Baiyun County.

"That year, I had a scar on my forehead and my hair was very long...

"That year, I gave you medicine because you were beaten and had a high fever for several days and nights. The fever never went away, which made me worry and stayed up for several nights.

"That year, I remember running up the mountain and picking flowers for you, because you wanted to smell the flowers, and you said that if you didn't see those flowers before you died, you wouldn't rest in peace when you died.

"Later, your fever subsided, and I washed your hair. At that time, you had a lot of lice growing on your hair. I tried many ways to help you get rid of these nasty little parasites...

"Oh, by the way, you are still a stubborn little girl, because you offended them, they wouldn't give you food, I gave you the food quietly.

"Later, they wanted to send you away and sell you to a distant place, and I secretly took you away...Unfortunately, the plan failed...

"Later, I spent a long time and finally saved you...

"In the end, I went to the hospital and told you to wait for me obediently. But I went to look for you again, but I couldn't find you again...

"..."

Su Jin stared at him dumbfounded, his brain was completely confused again, and his heart was beating wildly.

This is impossible.

How can this be?

How could the boy he described be him?

This is completely impossible.

But if it wasn't for him, how could he know so clearly?

She widened her eyes in disbelief.

A faint smile magnified infinitely from his face while she was stunned, and the corners of his lips curved up gracefully:
"You also told me that you love to laugh. No matter how they beat you, you have to laugh, because the smiling face is different from the crying face. You are afraid that if you cry all the time, you won't remember how to laugh. You said you should always laugh, Because you are afraid that your grandma will not recognize you..."

Oh, yes, this sentence was indeed said by her.

but……

How did that happen……

This is incredible...

She stroked her lips with her hand...

The thin water light spread out in the bottom of the eyes, and the deep surprise layer upon layer swayed...

Do not believe, doubt...

In the end, I realized because of a certain association.

So, no matter how much anger, no matter how much resentment, no matter how much sadness, all turned into indescribable emotions at the next moment...

She really wanted to hit herself on the back of the head, wondering why she didn't have such an association?
The word "two catties" basically means Jin Er.

So that's where the name came from!

She just said, how could someone marry such a strange name.

It turns out that the real meaning of what he said about gain and loss, here, the so-called predestination, is also because of this reason.

When he blinked, tears welled up.

This is because of her loss and recovery.

Weeping with joy.

"Why are you crying?"

He stretched out his fingers and gently wiped away the tears in her eyes.

She covered her mouth, sobbing more and more.

Can't answer.

Emotions boiled completely at this moment.

She didn't expect it!

How can she think of it?
The person next to her pillow is actually the elder brother Erjin whom she most wanted to see in the past 18 years.

(End of this chapter)