first countess

Chapter 590 We are all waiting for you
After more than ten years of darkness, once I tasted the taste of sunshine, I would never let go of it. It didn't matter what I wanted, it was just because I felt reluctant to give up, especially it was something I had always hoped for.

Just like his feelings for Qianqian, just like what Qianqian said when he rejected him, it is only because he is used to it, and also because he is afraid, that he wants to grab what can be caught desperately. As for why he is afraid, he is very clear.

The darkness of more than ten years can't match the sunshine of more than two years. Sure enough, people are greedy animals, but how much he wants to keep greedy like this, but the sky seems to not favor him at all.

That hateful man appeared, and appeared as soon as he appeared. It had no effect on him. He still lived his own life, but some dramatic things would always happen.

People with the same bloodline really have the same attributes. Like that man, the darkness in his heart cannot be suppressed no matter what. Once it erupts, it will definitely be a rhythm of self-destruction.

And now he has fully realized that because of the uncontrollable psychological darkness before, he temporarily agreed to the man's proposal, and completely threw himself into the boundless darkness again.

He knows that they all want to pull him out again, it seems easy, as long as he agrees, or nods, it will become as if nothing happened, but he really doubts in his heart, broken Can the broken jade be glued together without any trace?

The answer is definitely not. Even if the broken things are restored to their original state, they are no longer what they were at the beginning, and those tiny traces will always remain.

"Sister Qianqian, it's really an extravagant wish for me to be able to call this name again." Looking up, looking directly at Qianqian's eyes full of tolerance and expectation, Qing Yesheng flashed a touch of relief and peace in his eyes.

Maybe I really let go of some obsessions, and sometimes I will relax myself, just like myself back then, when my mother died, I closed all perceptions, and I won’t be so sad, although I feel a little self-deceiving , but it's better than suffering all the time.

Qianqian smiled lightly, with a freshness like rain: "Xiaosheng, this title has never been a luxury for you. I have been waiting for you at the same place, but you are stubborn and don't want to turn back."

"If you take a little time to look back, you will suddenly find that there are actually many people standing behind you. Some people may have brought you pain, but with the support and encouragement after the pain, But there are other people to give and accompany.”

"You are never alone, because we are always by your side, your world stubbornly does not let us enter, we are willing to wait at the entrance, when you feel that the time is up, you are willing to share with us and be with us."

"It's said that people who can't see through are not scary, but those who can see through are terrible, and you are obviously the person who can't see through. Even if you can see through, I don't think it's scary. In my perception, if a person even himself If you can't beat it, then you will really become the carrier of some factors, be manipulated, and be played |."

"Xiaosheng, time waits for no one, can you understand?" Qianqian didn't know how many times this was the first time she had asked her. She was so patient that even she couldn't get used to it, but more A silent exclamation.

After all, a child is a child, and her mind is mature, but carrying the right things is really a headache, but she is willing to have a headache, because this is a child of her family, the child she pulled out by herself, why? Can fall into the abyss again.

If you don't admit defeat, you won't lose. If you don't admit defeat, you will stand up and fight. Jun Qianqian is not so easy to be defeated. No matter how firmly Qing Yesheng's heart is locked now, she will not know it bit by bit. Unknowingly poked a small slit in it.

Then she unceremoniously stuffed in the things that should be infiltrated. If she didn't cooperate, she really didn't mind forcing the other party to cooperate, but she could afford to wait a little bit patiently.

"Sister Qianqian, you really know me. I didn't expect that the first person who told me that he knew me really knew me." Qing Yesheng sighed slightly with emotion.

When did he himself become so emotionally ups and downs, it seems that since that man came to him, he began to change, the disguise has always been worn on his face, and even directly integrated into his heart, otherwise how could he be with Qianqian? After getting along for so long, she didn't find out.

He knows how sensitive this group of people are, and he has witnessed it with his own eyes. He still remembers that when he met Dongfang Ye and Dongfang Yantian for the first time, they all looked at him twice at the same time.

At that time, he was beating drums in his heart, and all kinds of uneasiness came one after another, but years of cultivation had turned into a good adjustment, so he didn't have any problems in front of Qianqian.

But it can be regarded as telling him in a disguised form that he is not strong enough. Sure enough, he is not from the same world, and his acceptance needs to be adjusted. He always thought that Qianqian really believed in the side he showed.

It wasn't until today that he found out that he was really the only one acting, and everyone around him was also acting with him. Could it be that he couldn't bear to expose it, hehehe.
In the past, he would definitely feel like a clown, but now it's different from the past, he doesn't feel superfluous at all, maybe after some things, his mentality has also undergone a strong change.

What Qianqian said just now has already analyzed him so deeply, any rebuttal words will seem very weak and far-fetched, and he himself does not want to refute, because it is the truth.

"Sister Qianqian, I understand what you said, I understand what Brother Wei and Brother Liujin said, I understand what Sister Wenwen said, I will appear here today, in fact, I also have hidden expectations and selfishness in my heart. "

"A person who has lived in the same world for a long time is indeed lonely, especially if he trapped himself in that circle, it feels even more desolate."

"It's hard to find something I want to grab, but the facts tell me that it's not something I can get. If I can't get it, then destroy it. The first reaction in my heart."

"Unwillingness, resentment, and all kinds of emotions in the dark occupy my body and mind, making me unable to think, and I can't think, but I was led away blindly, and it was obvious that I was going to the end, but I felt like my whole body was exhausted It’s the same, and we can’t move forward.”

Qing Yesheng closed his eyes gently, a tear slipped from the corner of his eyes, the desolation and powerlessness in his tone were so obvious, but also so pitiful.

(End of this chapter)