medical marriage

Chapter 438 Why Don't You Let Me Have a Baby?
Not only Qin Jiaodi didn't come back at night, even Yu Yanfeng and Song Qingyun didn't come back. Yu Jianxing and Shi Jianxin finally called back and said they were going to watch the chess tournament in H City.

The villa was packed to the brim, but all of a sudden, there were only three of them left.

Shi Youxi couldn't help but wonder, wouldn't it be a family collusion?

After finishing dinner, Yu Ziyao came up and knocked on the door: "Youxi, it's time to eat."

She flinched, especially wanting to answer that he didn't want to eat.

But she was already hungry for a meal, and went home after having breakfast with him in the hotel in the morning, but left home in a fit of anger.

She even forgot to eat lunch at noon. If she didn't even eat dinner, she might run out of food for the little bean sprouts!

Gritting her teeth, she said to Little Bean Sprout, who was playing with a new toy and couldn't put it down, "Let's go, for Little Bean Sprout, Mommy endured it!"

Little Bean Sprout looked at her with her big eyes wide open, and said "ahhh" again, as if responding to her.

Opening his mouth, saliva trickled down the corner of his mouth again.

Shi Youxi couldn't help but laughed, and while helping him wipe away his saliva, he said, "How many girls can stand you in the future?"

Holding him and opening the door, Yu Ziyao stood outside the door, reaching out to pick up the little bean sprouts.

When she wanted to hold her, she put her hands behind her back.

"Let's go, eat." Shi Youxi said with his head down, and went downstairs first.

Yu Ziyao followed her with little bean sprouts in his arms, speechless all the way.

Shi Youxi went directly to the restaurant, Yu Ziyao put the bean sprouts on the small bed and raised the fence.

The little guy can turn over by himself now, if he is not careful, he will have to turn over from the bed.

"Be good, baby, play by yourself first! Daddy and Mommy are going to have dinner, I'll come over to accompany you later, huh?"

Yu Ziyao covered the quilt and touched his little cheek lightly. Little Bean Sprout thought it was food, so he turned his head quickly and opened his mouth to enclose his finger.

Yu Ziyao smiled and gave him a teether, he shook it and stuffed it into his mouth.

In the quiet living room, he could hear the rubbing sound of his small gums and the teether, and he started biting again.

"Are your gums starting to itch again? My baby is about to grow teeth again!"

Yu Ziyao looked back at Shi Youxi, he must have been bitten by the little bean sprouts again, right?Every time a child grows teeth, his gums will itch and he will start to like to bite things.

She used to complain to him when she was bitten, but now she will endure it by herself when she is having trouble with him!
Sighed, a little helpless, a little melancholy...

For a meal, the two ate it peacefully, but they didn't talk in the middle.

Yu Ziyao gave her food, and she ate it too, but she was still unwilling to talk to him.

"Youxi, what's the matter, tell me, let's solve it together!" After all, he couldn't help it, put down his chopsticks, put down the bowl...

I couldn't help letting go of my self-esteem, and chose the person who raised the white flag first.

"You will solve what should be solved, and it is not my turn to solve what should not be solved." Shi Youxi said lightly, and took a mouthful of spinach.

Chewing hard on purpose, making an unpleasant sound of smacking his lips.

Just like her mood at the moment, she was extremely irritable, but she had to suppress it!

"About ligation, I want to explain." Yu Ziyao took the initiative to bring up the topic after thinking about it.

"Okay, I'm all ears!" Shi Youxi put down the bowls and chopsticks in his hand, sat upright and looked at him with a hint of sneer.

"Sterilization is not permanent, it is only temporary contraception..."

"I don't study medicine, so I don't need to popularize this knowledge. I just want to know, why don't you let me have a baby?" Shi Youxi interrupted him with a hand, and asked straight to the center of the question that had troubled her all day. heart knot.

"First, I don't want you to suffer from the pain of having a baby anymore. That kind of pain lasts for more than ten hours. It hurts me to see it!

Second, it is enough for us to have small bean sprouts, any more will only make you more tired!
This night of intermittent sleep has exhausted your physical strength, and your weight is three kilograms lighter than before you gave birth to the bean sprouts!
Third, you are only 23 years old now, when Xiaodou Sprout grows up, you should try a new life, instead of just living around children like this...

I was supposed to promise you to have a child at the age of 26. I also wanted you to live the life you want to live like other girls after graduating from college, and you don't have to enter married life so early.

Although I'm sorry that the arrival of Little Bean Sprout disrupted all plans, but I want to make up.

I don't want you to listen to other people talking about their youth after graduation, but your memory is full of children and families.

We have a lifetime to take it slow, but your youth is fast.

The 20-year-old you and the 30-year-old you will have different thoughts and psychology in many places, but the life you are living now should be the life you lived when you were 30 years old.

Are you willing to be trapped in a world where there are only me and my child, for the rest of your life? "

Shi Youxi listened quietly, but his heart was boiling very restlessly. Are these the reasons why he chose to have a vasectomy?

Even with such a reason based on her, would he still secretly hide it from her?

She just said last night, let him put her on an equal footing with him, because they are husband and wife!

But he didn't take her words to heart at all!

He didn't regard her as a wife at all, he never thought of discussing with her, and everything was based on his ideas, helping her to make a decision!

But she only deserves to know the result forever, not the process!
Shi Youxi felt cold, why couldn't they confess when they were together?
How good would it be if he could talk to her like today instead of letting her discover his decision by herself?
If she hadn't accidentally seen the message on his phone today, how long would she have been kept in the dark?
After one, two, three years of hard work, when he found out that he couldn't conceive, did he ever think about her feelings?
Have you ever thought about what she should think?
She no longer knew whether to thank him for thinking of her so much, or to be angry at his self-righteous decision...

Shi Youxi silently picked up the chopsticks again, took a mouthful of white rice, but tasted salty.

"Youxi." He reached out, held her hand holding the chopsticks, and looked at her with a frown.

"When I'm with you, what I hate the most is that I can't find my place. This feeling... Hehe, I'm really powerless!" Shi Youxi twisted her wrist, broke free from his hand, and wiped her Turning her face, she raised her head and looked at him stubbornly.

"When I am happy, I don't need to care about what role I am in your heart. When I am unhappy, I don't need to care about what role I am in your heart. When encountering things, I have to ask myself , What am I? Is it your little pet? I just need to be responsible for smiling every day. I don’t need to know too much, don’t need to care too much, don’t interfere with anything, and don’t care what’s in your heart. Everything, you will help me do it well!
That's all!

Yu Ziyao, let me ask you, if one day, I do the same, I don’t need to ask your opinion on anything, and I will tell you the result after everything is done...

Of course, sometimes there is no need to tell the result, such as the ligation problem this time!

If I didn't happen to see it, maybe, in the next two or three years, I can only live in inferiority complex and guilt!

You are so fierce, several times in one night, and each time takes so long... But I have not been able to conceive a child for two, three, or even ten or twenty years!

Where am I going wrong?Why can't I get pregnant?But I want to give you another child so much, what should I do... Wait, these questions will come one after another.

I can't discuss it with you, because you will definitely tell me, don't worry, just let nature take its course!If you can get pregnant, you can get pregnant, if you can't get pregnant, we still have little bean sprouts...

But do you know that the more this happens, the more uncomfortable I will feel?The more you can't forgive yourself?
Until the end, I may have wiped out the last bit of self-confidence. At that time, I will feel that I am not worthy of you, and I can't even bear a child for you!What is the result of various depressions?If you don't want a divorce, you can find another woman to have a baby, I don't want to hold you back!
Otherwise, see you in the next life, I will take a step first..."

"What nonsense!" Yu Ziyao couldn't hear her many hypotheses, which he had never imagined!
But now after listening to her ears, I realized that what she assumed was so natural, and it was so natural that it made him feel pain in his heart!
"Can't you listen to it anymore? I can't listen to it like this? But what should I do? These are really the true portrayal of me two, three or five years after your vasectomy!
Yu Ziyao, my nerves are rough, but it doesn't mean I have no nerves!Just because I have a big heart doesn't mean I don't have a heart!My IQ is not high, but it doesn't mean I'm stupid!
All you can think of is your thoughts, I am not a puppet, I have my own thoughts and nerve induction, none of them can develop according to your thoughts!

I am an independent life, an individual, not a parasite attached to you, I can't follow your footsteps and walk my life without thinking!

I was very touched by what you said, I was really touched!
But when you think these are for my own good, have you ever asked me what I think?Have you considered what kind of life I want?When you helped me arrange my next life path, did you think that I might not want to take that path?

What's wrong with only you and the child in my world?Shame on you?
What's wrong with my experience being different from others, is it a shame?
I just want to give my youth to the person I love the most, what's wrong with the person I love the most, is it ashamed?
I just want to be so unambitious, I just want to surround my husband and children, I just want to give them the warmest home, a safe haven for them to return to when they are tired, what's wrong, is it a shame?
Yes!

Maybe, as a wife and mother, I don't feel ashamed!
But I am sitting in the position of Mrs. Yu!

Wearing the halo of the Young Madam, the heir of the Yu Clan Group, so incompetent, know nothing, really shameful..."

"Stop talking! You know that's not what I meant! Why did you distort my meaning like this and demean yourself?" Yu Ziyao felt as if his heart was pierced when he heard her crying.

He stretched out his hand to hold her tightly in his arms, letting the tears wet the clothes on his chest, but in his ears, she was crying softly because of her grievances.

She suppressed her emotions, desperately trying not to cry, but when she met him, she couldn't control herself anymore...

I really hate myself for being so useless, so I said I won’t cry!

"I'm sorry, don't cry! I'm sorry!" Yu Ziyao stroked her hair, apologizing loudly, but in return she cried heartbreakingly.

Little Bean Sprout in the living room seemed to have sensed Shi Youxi's sadness, and he, who had rarely cried, suddenly burst into tears.The little hand kept waving in mid-air, and the little fist grasped and loosened, as if trying to grab something.

"Okay, don't cry, look, when you cry, little bean sprouts cry too!" Yu Ziyao's ears were filled with the cries of the mother and son, and his heart was about to collapse.

I had no choice but to let go of Shi Youxi, and ran over to pick up the little bean sprouts, the little guy's face was crying until his whole body was flushed.

Yu Ziyao kissed his little face with distress, and coaxed softly: "Okay, little bean sprouts, stop crying! Be good, stop crying!"

However, the little guy didn't listen to him at all, but cried even louder, even his lips turned purple.

"Youxi, look at Little Bean Sprouts, she's crying out of oxygen!" Yu Ziyao had no choice but to hug her and let Shi Youxi coax her to look at her.

Shi Youxi glanced at Xiaodou Sprout twitching, startled, he had never cried so hard before!

Busily sniffing, took the little bean sprouts: "Baby, don't cry, we won't cry!" She held his armpit, let his two feet step on her lap, raised up and down His body, as if playing in normal times, let him dance on his legs.

Little Bean Sprout seemed to understand, stopped crying, looked at Shi Youxi, and really didn't cry.

After a few jumps, the little guy started giggling again, even though his eyelashes were still wet...

Shi Youxi looked at Little Bean Sprout who obviously didn't understand anything, but seemed to know everything, and couldn't help feeling sad again.

Tears fell down, and the little guy also flattened his mouth.

Shi Youxi hurriedly wiped away the tears, and smiled reluctantly at him. After looking at her cutely for a while, the little guy began to happily wave his arms and dance on her lap.

"Let me hug it!" Yu Ziyao saw that she was struggling to hold it, so he reached out to take it and let him bounce on his lap.

The little guy weighs more than 20 kilograms and is more than 70 centimeters tall. He is tall and strong, and he feels tired when he is held in the hands of the slender Shi Youxi.

Shi Youxi took out a tissue and wiped away the tears on his face. Seeing the father and son having fun, he felt a little embarrassed.

She didn't know whether to continue the topic they discussed just now, or this topic ended here...

However, he hasn't expressed his opinion yet, he hasn't said whether he will pay attention to her opinion in the future!

"Let's talk about it later!" Yu Ziyao sighed helplessly as if he had seen through her thoughts, and said softly.

Shi Youxi nodded, got up to pack the dishes, but he stopped him: "Leave it alone, I'll come later."

Shi Youxi glanced at him, shook his head, withdrew his hand, and continued to tidy up.

Yu Ziyao didn't stop her anymore, but just stayed with her with Xiaodou Sprout in his arms, watching her busy back.

What she said just now, was revolving in his mind over and over again, shaking his heart over and over again...

(End of this chapter)