What do you want in life

Chapter 40 Can the Oath of the Past Become Forever (19)
"This is not the farewell between you and Juncheng." Shen Nanzhang was in a heavy heart, but facing Xiaoying who was already loose, he couldn't bear to hit again, and said slowly: "But it's a good thing for you to separate now. , you can think of it this way, your relationship has been permanently insured, Juncheng will remember you forever, and be grateful to you, it is better than watching your relationship wither and die. I am someone who has experienced it, and I can tell you very clearly , when a person reaches a certain age, he will not take the relationship between a man and a woman so seriously... One day, you will all understand."

At the time of parting, Xiaoying did not give Shen Nanzhang a clear answer on her final decision, and Shen Nanzhang did not force her. He knew that making this decision was difficult, but he was willing to gamble on Xiaoying.

Before leaving the tea room, Shen Nanzhang told Xiaoying again, "Out of this box, I hope you can forget everything we talked about."

Xiaoying understood the powerful relationship and nodded calmly.

In order to show respect for Xiaoying, the car took her back to her residence first. Along the way, she sat side by side with Shen Nanzhang in the back of the car as before going to the teahouse, but she was no longer in a disturbed mood, and she was no longer wary of various things from Shen Nanzhang. Class inquires as everything is basically settled.

After getting out of the car, Xiaoying and Cao Wenyu also greeted each other, and just about to turn around and enter the cave, Shen Nanzhang poked his head out of the car and called her.

She turned her head and saw Shen Nanzhang's old and tired face under the street lamp. He was staring at her deeply. Although he didn't say anything, Xiaoying had already read the begging in his eyes.She turned around abruptly, and ran upstairs as if flying.

When Cao Wenyu started the car, he quickly glanced at the boss in the rearview mirror. Shen Nanzhang's kind and kind face just now had no expression on it.

He coughed lightly, "Did the conversation go well?"

If Shen Nanzhang can't settle this matter even if he comes forward, then the troubles in the future will be even more difficult, because it will be his turn to solve it next.After following Shen Nanzhang for ten years, Cao Wenyu has already understood his personality. Shen Nanzhang is a trustworthy businessman with a good reputation in the circle.

Rituals come first and then soldiers. Rituals and soldiers are by no means isolated, but fight side by side. If "rituals" fail, then you can only go to "soldiers".

It took Shen Nanzhang a long time to say slowly, "I hope this child can understand." His tone seemed to be full of regret.

After entering the door, Xiaoying slammed the door shut, leaning against the door with her back, panting heavily.

The room was clean and tidy, with a few boxes neatly leaning against the corner, ready to go.In the past few days, she had nothing to do at night, so she sorted out the things she wanted to take away carefully, anyway, it was only a few days before departure.

However, the mood of expecting joy was completely destroyed by tonight's tea party.

The excited mood gradually calmed down, but the body still felt soft, as if suffering from a serious illness, and I couldn't lift my spirits at all.

She took a shower and laid herself flat on the bed, her mind was as blank as a page, but she knew that she had to draw a conclusion from this emptiness.

It's late at night, only the stars twinkle boringly in the black night sky, leisurely and ignorant of the sorrows of the world.

She lost sleep silently like this until the stars left the scene, and a wisp of white appeared in the blue sky.

A new day begins again and again, peacefully no different from the past.

Shen Juncheng called Xiaoying early in the morning.

"Guess where I am now?"

"……you say."

"I'm on the edge of Minghu Lake! Let me tell you, it only takes a quarter of an hour to walk from our new home to Minghu Lake. I just calculated it. From now on, we can take a walk by Minghu Lake every night. The scenery here is really beautiful. Xiaoying, can you imagine it? It's even more beautiful than the picture!"

In his impassioned description, Xiaoying's heart was as cold as a piece of ice. She would not only use this piece of ice to hurt herself, but also the person on the other end of the phone.

"However, no matter how beautiful the scenery is, without you by my side, I always feel that something is missing." Shen Juncheng smiled and said softly: "I really hope you can fly over to accompany me immediately, Xiaoying, I regret it , did not insist on lobbying you to come with me."

Tears slipped down Xiaoying's face quietly.Her occasional sobs aroused Shen Juncheng's vigilance.

"What's wrong with you? Are you crying?"

"No, no." Xiaoying reached out to wipe away the tears on her cheeks, and said in a disguised way: "I was outside, my eyes were blinded by the sand..."

Shen Juncheng smiled and said, "Why, is it windy over there early in the morning?"

"Yeah." The tears couldn't be wiped clean, "It's very big..."

As soon as he got out of the train station, Shen Juncheng excitedly ran towards the direction marked with the words “Taxi stop” and stood in the queue. He was not at all irritable, and there was still a lingering smile on his lips.

This trip to City H was really not in vain, not only the accommodation was settled, but also his work problems were solved - he chatted with the executives of that company quite well, and the other party repeatedly asked him to go there as soon as possible, and gave Although the salary is incomparable with what it used to be, it is already quite attractive to the wage earners who live a small life.

He really wanted to call Xiaoying immediately and tell her that he would be home soon, but he found that the closer he was to her, the more he missed her.

But then I thought about it, I just sent her a text message on the train 10 minutes ago, maybe she is busy with something at the moment, and it is a bit boring for her to run around to answer the phone all the time.Anyway, he will see her soon, thinking of this, he couldn't help grinning, the line ahead is shortening rapidly, the taxis are like crucian carp crossing the river, the stream is endless, it will be his turn soon...

When he arrived at the door of the house, before Shen Juncheng had time to take out the keys, he slammed on the door first. He imagined that Xiaoying hurriedly put down the pots and pans or brooms and rushed over to open the door for him. A sweet and sly expression appeared on his face. He suddenly felt a little mischievous, and deliberately moved aside, intending to scare Xiaoying after she opened the door.

After two or three minutes, the door did not open. The smile on Shen Juncheng's face faded. He frowned, walked back to the door, and knocked a few times tentatively. After confirming that there was no one in the room, He shrugged in disappointment, slowly took out the key and opened the door himself—Xiaoying might have gone to the supermarket.

The house was much cleaner and tidy than when he left, to be precise, it wasn't just clean, it seemed that a lot of things were missing.He looked around and searched carefully. What was missing?

All the colors here seem familiar and monotonous, because what he can see are all his own items—he suddenly realizes that what is missing are Xiaoying's things, her colors.

His heart sank suddenly, and his eyebrows frowned more and more tightly. Although he still didn't know what happened, but his premonition was so bad, he threw the backpack on his shoulders on the sofa, and rushed into the room .

The room is also clean, without a trace of dust.He opened the closet with a clatter, and gasped suddenly—the half of Xiaoying's clothes was empty!

There was a buzzing in his head, a little pain, but he tried his best to control it, and comforted himself that nothing would happen, it shouldn't—she might have tidied up her clothes in advance.

He took out his mobile phone from his pocket and quickly dialed it to Xiaoying. The long beeping tone made his heart settle down a little. He walked into the living room while waiting, his eyes still wandering around.

There was a suitcase standing in the corner, he recognized it, it was brought with him when he came out of Shen's house, he walked over to pick it up, it was very light, and there was nothing inside.

There were still long tones on the phone, but no one answered, and when he turned around, his eyes slid across the dining table, and after a short pause somewhere, he slid back again——

Under Xiaoying's commonly used printed porcelain cup, there was something like a letter, and his heart thumped, as if he had fallen into a deep pool, but he had to struggle to stand up from the cold water.

He threw away his cell phone, took a few steps up and grabbed the letter in his hand.

There was no reminder on the envelope except for his name. He stared at Xiaoying's handwritten name for a moment, and his heart slowly froze like this. All along, he had been rejecting the idea that it might come from the Shen family's obstruction. , maybe because he didn't dare to think about it, let alone how to face it, that's why he wanted to take Xiaoying away so eagerly.

But the current situation has already made him feel that he has missed a certain key point.

It was only when he opened the envelope that he realized that his hands were trembling a little, as if he could hardly stand upright at the moment, and could only lean against the edge of the table to get some necessary support.

However, the last bit of luck in his heart was still unwilling to surrender. He took out a piece of paper folded into the shape of a diamond flower from the envelope, and when he disassembled it, he almost tore it because of his impatience.

In the end, his eyes inevitably fell on Xiaoying's beautiful handwriting, hoping to find an answer that would make him feel at ease or break his heart.

"Juncheng,
I'm gone, don't ask me where I'm going, don't ask me why, and don't come to me, I won't see you again.This is my final decision.

I have always believed that there must be a god in the dark to arrange, otherwise, how could I meet you when I was 16 years old?You let me realize that in this world, even the most unfortunate people have a chance to be happy, as long as they treat life well and seriously.

Therefore, although you left later, I was able to continue walking because I understood this truth.

I didn't expect that we would meet again, and I couldn't believe you would propose to me!Maybe you don't know, at that moment, I really feel very happy.I think, even if we can't be together in the end, having such a beautiful time in my memory is enough for me to live my life well.

Juncheng, I believe in fate. Since we have been unable to get together again and again, maybe it really shows that there is no destiny between us.

I don't intend to complain about anything, let alone others, everything is a decision I made after weighing - my departure is the best result for you.

Go back to your parents, they really love you.

Don't worry, I'm going to be fine, and I hope you are too.

Another: The letter box is in the drawer of the bed cabinet. I will return the contents to you, and you can do whatever you want.

Goodbye, I wish you happiness!
Han Xiaoying

Today"

After reading a few lines, Shen Juncheng's eyes were red, and the words in black and white clearly confirmed his desperate guess.

But how could he believe what he saw!
Just before he went to City H, he made an oath to Xiaoyingshan, vowing to go to a bright future together.Even, just over an hour ago, he heard her voice and received her text messages, nothing unusual!

However, he couldn't believe it, because the handwriting on this piece of paper was indeed written by Xiaoying, so neat and delicate...

How could she do this to him?
He picked up the mobile phone that had been thrown on the sofa and dialed her number again.

"You must answer. Tell me what happened? Tell me why?" He murmured fiercely in his heart, "Han Xiaoying, answer the phone quickly! Answer the phone..."

"The number you dialed is off or out of service area..."

"No—!" Shen Juncheng roared in pain, and slammed his fist on the table!
In the office of the Shen Group headquarters, Shen Nanzhang sat in a soft black leather chair with his eyes closed.Housework is always more tiring than business affairs. Before his son comes back, he is destined to continue to be so tired.

Someone knocked on the door, very polite and rhythmic, and he could guess it was Cao Wenyu just by the sound.

"Come in!" Shen Nanzhang said, straightening his waist.

It was indeed Cao Wenyu who stepped through the door, "Mr. Shen."

Shen Nanzhang nodded to him, Cao Wenyu walked to him, bowed his head slightly closer to him, and whispered a few words, in fact, in an office with no one else, he didn't have to be so careful, Shen Nanzhang guessed that he was used to it, And his cautiousness is also what Shen Nanzhang is most satisfied with.

After Shen Nanzhang listened to his report, the confusion in his eyes immediately settled down, he sighed silently, and Han Xiaoying finally left.

After all, that girl was educated and reasonable, and she didn't force him to use other means, and he really didn't want to use cruel tricks on her. From a certain point of view, he even admired Han Xiaoying a bit.

But Han Xiaoying's departure didn't let him relax because he knew that Shen Juncheng would come to him soon with anger.

"How is Juncheng?" Shen Nanzhang asked.

Cao Wenyu pondered for a while, and said truthfully: "He looks crazy, looking for Miss Han everywhere, and at this moment... Maybe he is coming to us... to find you."

"Let him come." Shen Nanzhang smiled lightly, and said calmly, "What should come will always come, and what he has to face must also be faced."

About an hour later, Shen Juncheng broke in as if overcoming thorns and thorns, with a salty stormy breath on his body.

Shen Nanzhang noticed his rare unkempt appearance, his hair was slightly messed up, and his clothes were a little wrinkled. Shen Juncheng used to be a person who paid attention to his own image. Thinking of this, Shen Nanzhang still felt an unspeakable pain in his heart pity.

"Xiaocheng." He sat still in the chair, and called him kindly, as if nothing had happened, "Why did you think of coming here at this time?"

Cao Wenyu was in a dilemma at the door, wondering if he could help.

Shen Juncheng's entire face was distorted. He put his hands on the desk, looked down at his father imposingly, and asked through gritted teeth, "What did you do to Han Xiaoying?"

"I don't understand what you mean." Shen Nanzhang looked at him calmly without even twitching his eyelids, "What happened to her?"

"She's gone!" Shen Juncheng tried his best to hold back, and uttered these three words through his teeth. At the same time, he threw the letter that Xiaoying left him in front of Shen Nanzhang.

Shen Nanzhang picked it up and read it, nodded thoughtfully, then looked at him and asked, "Do you need my help?"

"You just need to tell me, does this matter have anything to do with you?"

Shen Juncheng's hands on the table were clenched into two fists. At this time, if he spoke rationally, he was completely forceful.

Shen Nanzhang still had no surprised reaction, "You...doubt me?"

"Is not it?"

"So, what do you think I did to her?"

"You forced her to leave me! You, maybe you even threatened her..." Shen Juncheng, who was in anger, suddenly felt a gloomy chill crawling up his back.

He knew that Xiaoying wanted to stick with him, so what made her finally decide to leave him?Could it be that Shen Nanzhang was just persuading, so it was impossible for him to do something else?
Shen Nanzhang read the panic from his expression, chuckled twice, then raised his face and said: "You guessed not completely wrong! Two days ago, I did ask her to meet..."

After the conjecture was confirmed, Shen Juncheng's anger quickly raised his head again, "What exactly did you tell her?"

"I didn't say anything special, just chatted about the daily routine." Shen Nanzhang looked at him, "Shouldn't this be against the law?"

"Impossible!" Shen Juncheng gritted his teeth, "You must have said something serious to make her want to leave me!"

"Since you don't believe me, why don't you ask her herself?"

"I can't find her!" Shen Juncheng couldn't hold back anymore, he punched down, and the back of his hand accidentally touched the corner of a pen holder, blood was dripping immediately.

Shen Nanzhang frowned, and ordered Cao Wenyu loudly, "Wen Yu, go get some bandages!"

At the same time, his own hand had already stretched out naturally, trying to grab Shen Juncheng's injured palm to examine, but he resolutely dodged it.

"No need!" He ignored his injuries, and fixed his eyes on his father, "Please tell me the truth, what did you... tell her?"

Shen Nanzhang looked at his stubborn son, the kindness in his eyes was slightly cold, he took a deep breath, put his hands on his cheeks, his face became more solemn, and finally stopped playing hide and seek with him, "I want to know Tell me about your plans for the future..."

"Why didn't you come to me and ask?" Shen Juncheng interrupted him, asking angrily.

"Is it useful to find you?" Shen Nanzhang narrowed his eyes, and the kindness in his voice suddenly withdrew, "Your mother was lying in bed for three days straight, did you care about her? Did you call to say hello? "

Shen Juncheng's breathing was uneven, his head drooped slightly, "I don't know...no one told me..."

Shen Nanzhang smiled desolately, "What a good excuse! If you really had her in your heart, would you still ignore her? Now that Han Xiaoying is lost, you seem to have lost your soul, and you still blame her Here I come! Juncheng, I really feel chilling for you!"

"..." Shen Juncheng lowered his head, closed his eyes and was speechless, his heart seemed to be twisted into countless pieces, each piece was bloody, and each piece felt painful.

Cao Wenyu took the bandage and came back again. He wanted to bandage Shen Juncheng, but he refused. Cao Wenyu couldn't force him, so he had to put the bandage at the place closest to him.

"Son," Shen Nanzhang said in a relieved tone, "Father is not a heinous person, let alone do anything to hurt your friend, otherwise, how do you tell me to face you in the future? Xiaoying left, naturally she has her considerations, her Maybe she feels insecure with you, maybe she feels uneasy about your current situation. Since she has made it so clear, why should you force it?"

"No, it's impossible!" Shen Juncheng's face showed pain, "She can't leave me so easily, she can't...just leave!"

He reached out and grabbed the parting letter back in his hand, straightened up, and murmured to the void as if swearing: "I will find her back, even if we break up, I want her to give it to me personally." Let me tell you!"

Just like when he came, Shen Juncheng was swept out again like a gust of wind, Cao Wenyu wanted to chase him out, but was stopped by Shen Nanzhang.

"Stop chasing him, let him calm down for a few days before we talk." At this time, Shen Nanzhang seemed extremely rational.

At the back entrance of the Shendao Nightclub, Shen Juncheng was sitting on the steps dejectedly, with disheveled hair, a coat casually draped over his shoulders, and a white gauze wrapped around his right hand.

Xiaoyu pushed the door open and came out, seeing that Shen Juncheng, who was always well-dressed, had become the virtue in front of him, so shocked that the cigarette in his mouth fell to the ground.

"Brother Shen, have you been robbed? How did this happen?"

Shen Juncheng hasn't stopped since he got off the train. He ran around looking for Xiaoying, and he didn't have much strength left.

(End of this chapter)