What do you want in life

Chapter 45 Can the Oath of the Past Become Forever (24)
The figure in the dark gradually became clear, a man in a white coat came towards her, his face was blurred, but she could hear him grinning at her, "Wu Qiuyue is dead, isn't this what you dreamed of? You can finally get your wish! You cursed her to death, didn't you? It must be you! Hahaha..."

His laughter was like the ugliest noise in the world, torturing her eardrums and nerves, and then destroying her whole being!
"No, no, no, I don't want to be like this, I don't want to..." She stepped back, trying to avoid the accusations that surrounded her from all directions, while holding her neck, desperately shaking her head in denial, "I don't want her to die , not me, not me..."

She turned around and wanted to run away from here, but suddenly found that there was a cliff behind her, and she couldn't hold back her footsteps, and she fell down immediately!

"Ah——" she yelled, waking up from her dream.

She sat up in the dark, panting heavily, covered in cold sweat.Realizing that it was just a dream, she raised her arms in a daze, and then buried her face deeply in her palms.

Then, sobbing softly.

The next afternoon, Li Zhen really came to look for her again.

He also brought a few brand-new tools, and after sitting for a while, he ran into the bathroom to fix the sink faucet.

It turned out that when Li Zhen went to the bathroom yesterday, he accidentally discovered that the faucet was leaking, so he kept an eye out for it. He went to the hardware store to buy some necessary tools at night, and planned to come over and fix it for her today.

It took him half an hour to disassemble the halter, find out the problem, wipe it clean, wrap it with a sealing tape and put it back together again. When Xiaoying came out of the kitchen, the halter looked brand new.

Since then, other facility failures in this house have been exposed one after another. As a senior engineer, Li Zhen has a pair of dexterous and capable hands, and it seems that there is nothing that cannot be recovered in his hands.From basin faucets to water heaters to gas stoves, he has become a free home improvement repairman who comes to the house voluntarily.

Seeing Li Zhen enthusiastically repairing things here and there, Xiaoying was both grateful and uneasy, "I'm so sorry, I asked you to help fix things as soon as I came here."

Li Zhen just smiled at her gently, "It's a little effort."

Because of these "little things" one after another, Xiaoying had to invite Li Zhen to dinner again and again, most of them were at Xiaoying's house, and occasionally went to restaurants, but every time she paid the bill, Li Zhen was the first.

The working hours of the supermarket are short, and Xiaoying works the day shift for the first month, and she will be fine after three o'clock.

When she went to work, Li Zhen wandered around with her bag on her back, but as soon as she came home, Li Zhen was already waiting for her at the door.The two had dinner together and sat and chatted for a while before Li Zhen left and went back to the hotel to rest.

For several days in a row, nothing less than this.

Li Zhen didn't say anything, and Xiaoying didn't like to speak out to drive people away. Besides, from the bottom of her heart, she longed for someone to accompany her at this time, to dispel some of the deep-rooted loneliness after returning home, even if it was only for a few days.

The conversation between them also gradually changed from being polite to more and more free and in-depth mutual understanding.

Xiaoying learned from the chat that Li Zhen's experience was actually not smooth. His parents were from an ordinary family in the south, and he had an older sister who was married and had children.

Li Zhen got to where he is today entirely by his own efforts.His parents are very loyal and have never made too many demands on Li Zhen. Even so, Xiaoying can still feel deeply from his words that Li Zhen is a genuine filial son.He not only respects his parents, but also pays great attention to their feelings. Therefore, even though his parents have never urged him about dating and marriage, he still hopes to give his parents an explanation as soon as possible.

Every time the chat came up with such a sensitive topic, out of instinct, Xiaoying would distract it with other things as soon as possible.Li Zhen could feel it naturally, but he was not in a hurry or annoyed, he just quietly waited for the next opportunity.

Gradually, Xiaoying began to understand his real purpose in coming to G County.

Once she understood, she fell into anxiety full of contradictions again. This time, it was no longer because she felt that Li Zhen would bring pressure on her, but because she was afraid that she would not be able to stand up to his persistence and agreed to him.

Promise him, it will be a lifetime thing, is she ready for this?

Xiaoying found sadly that her heart was so empty, she couldn't imagine going back to the past with Shen Juncheng, but she couldn't drive him out calmly and accept another man's kindness.

On a certain evening, they had already had a simple dinner and stayed in the spacious balcony, with the evening breeze blowing, and the setting sun sprinkled a piece of golden yellow on the ground.

Li Chen leaned against the railing, looking down at this small county town. Among the large low-rise houses, there were occasional tall buildings, which seemed a bit abrupt and funny.

"It's actually pretty good here. I went for a walk in the suburbs today. Many places have not been developed yet, maintaining the original rural style. It's a pity that the reconstruction projects spreading outward from the central business district are becoming more and more intensive. Maybe it's too late. Before long, the whole city will become like other cities without its own characteristics." Li Zhen talked with a little regret.

Xiaoying sat inside the door and drank a cup of ice lemon tea that she made herself. Listening to his analysis, she smiled and refuted him, "County G is not a tourist city. It is rare to have a passerby who observes it as carefully as you."

She just teased him casually, and after finishing speaking, she found that something was wrong, as if her taste had changed.

Li Zhen turned his head, against the light, Xiaoying couldn't quite see the exact expression on his face.

Behind him, the huge red sun that was slowly falling to the west was like a bright and brilliant halo, setting off Li Zhen, but he just stared at her quietly without saying a word.

At that moment, Xiaoying seemed to be hit by some kind of sixth sense. She seemed to have grasped the tranquility and safety she had always dreamed of, a person who could silently accompany her, a place where she could accommodate herself.

She stared at him silently in her own hallucination until he inevitably came towards her.

He walked up to her, stopped, squatted down, and held her hand.

Her expression was still hazy, unable to recover from the huge visual impact just now.

"Xiaoying, you should know why I came here." His voice suddenly became hoarse, "I came to County G entirely to try my luck... I didn't expect my luck to be so good."

"But I..." Xiaoying's heart trembled, and the layers of defense surrounding her heart made a sound of disintegration that made her despair, "I'm not as good as you imagined, I..."

"No, you don't need to explain anything," Li Zhen quickly interrupted her, "I just want to know, are you... willing?"

Xiaoying fell into a crazy tangle, she felt that she was going to be unable to hold on!
But why is she holding on?For whom does she need to support?
Suddenly, the terrible nightmare from the previous night flooded into her mind again.

When there is no one around, she often has the same thoughts as in a dream - she often thinks of Wu Qiuyue's "death". This kind of thought makes her feel guilty, but she can't stop it. They dance when she is weak-willed. Come out to tease her and stimulate her, she had to spend several times of energy to suppress them, but she almost collapsed.If this continues, she feels that her soul is about to be eaten away by the devil.

Perhaps, this is the best result.She had to find a home for herself, to cut off the last trace of nostalgia for Shen Juncheng in her heart, to calm her heart down, and to drive away the ghostly demon entrenched in her body.

It's really time to make a break, for herself and for Shen Juncheng.

Her gaze gradually focused on Li Chen's face in front of him. He was still waiting for her reply. Apart from anticipation, there was also a trace of deliberately concealed nervousness on his face.

She remembered that he was on the side of the road when he confessed his love to her for the first time, and he also had such a throbbing expression, her heart was suddenly moved, and this move was not only because of his love for her, but also because of his love for her. It also included his care and help to her all the time in the past two years. Although she rejected him, she could not forget all the benefits he had done to her.

To this day, she is still only touched by him.

However, after experiencing the heart-wrenching love affair with Shen Juncheng, this touch was of great significance to her—it made her feel the tranquility and indifference that she longed for now.

"If there is a third chance, I hope you won't reject me again."

Now, this opportunity really presented itself, it was in front of Xiaoying, waiting for her decision.

Xiaoying suddenly closed her eyes violently, something in her heart fell off heavily, and it made a broken sound when it was thrown on the ground, which was both a rupture and a rebirth.

Just let her life flow into a trickle from now on, she really needs it.

Before the pain surfaced in her heart, Xiaoying didn't hesitate much, she trembled slightly, and leaned into Li Zhen's arms almost with a little determination!
He greeted her with joy, embraced her lightly, and then held her tightly.

While snuggling into Li Zhen's arms, an inexplicable thought still couldn't stop popping into Xiaoying's mind. Is there any difference between their arms?
Li Zhen's lips pressed down in a timely manner. Xiaoying didn't give herself a chance to find out the answer. When she closed her eyes, she accepted his intimacy and cut off all the ties connected with the past in her heart...

In the middle of the night, Xiaoying suddenly woke up from her dream. In the clear moonlight in a room, she suddenly saw the person lying next to her. A cold, hopeless strangeness suddenly gripped her heart tightly, as if the previous All courage and determination counted.

no no!I can't do this.She reminded herself in a panic, lying silently on the bed, not daring to move.

She looked back and examined Li Zhen's sleeping face in her dream again. His clear facial features and peaceful eyebrows and eyes were all things she didn't dislike, even though she didn't love him either.

But what is the use of love?
In addition to bringing her short-term pleasure, the rest is endless pain.

She finally convinced herself, suppressed the desire to repent, turned over, and lay down with her back facing him.

After a long time, she sighed silently and calmed down again, although there was a place in her heart that seemed to be hollowed out, and the wind blew past, making a lonely and boring sound of purring.

The next day, Li Zhen's vacation came to an end, he had to catch the [-]:[-] p.m. train back to City J, and it was Xiaoying's turn to rest, so she accompanied him to the souvenir market to buy some things, had lunch together, and finally sent Li Zhen Really on the train.

Regarding the future of the two, Li Zhen did not rush to make a conclusion. Before leaving, he just grabbed Xiaoying's hand, smiled and held it firmly, and said, "I will come again."

Four months later, Li Zhen formally submitted his resignation letter to Nanxiang. Shen Juncheng was shocked to receive the resignation letter, but also surprised by Li Zhen's behavior. Not without covetousness, he tried his best to poach them, but based on what he knew about Li Zhen, he was not the kind of employee who only cares about money. Besides, Shen Juncheng's treatment for him was no lower than that of the outsiders.

He called Li Zhen to his office and questioned him carefully, "What's the matter with you? First you said you were going to take a vacation and didn't see you for two weeks, and now you said you were going to resign! Can you give me a reason to convince me? If If there is something unreasonable at work or dissatisfaction with the treatment, just tell me, there should be nothing between us that cannot be discussed, right?"

Li Zhen smiled at him, "Neither, Mr. Shen, whether it is work or salary, there is no problem. I also know that you have always valued me, but I have to say sorry because——I am leaving J City."

"Leaving City J?" Shen Juncheng was even more surprised, "Where are you planning to go?"

Li Zhen hesitated for a moment, then replied with a calm smile, "Go to City H."

Shen Juncheng's heart felt as if he had been hit by something, and his mind was suddenly in a trance. He suddenly looked at Li Zhen, and the latter's face was the same, calm and peaceful as always.

"I have worked in J City for eight years. If I continue to stay, if there is no accident, I may live peacefully until I grow old like this, but I don't want that. I really want to try again in another place. Life is too ordinary. Sometimes would be boring."

Shen Juncheng narrowed his eyes to examine him, "You didn't think so before."

"Really?" Li Zhen smiled, "People change."

Shen Juncheng was speechless, he threw Li Zhen's resignation letter heavily on the table, "What if I don't let you go?" He was suddenly a little resentful, he trusted Li Zhen so much, but Li Zhen suddenly hit him He was caught off guard, "Once you leave, who should be responsible for the things you should be responsible for? Tell me, who can replace you? As long as you can name a name, I will let you go immediately!"

"Zhao Liang, Zhao Liang can." Li Zhen replied quickly, walking up to him at the same time, "Mr. Shen, the engineering department actually has several engineers with good potential. As long as you dig patiently, many people can help you—I am in the engineering department. , not the best."

Shen Juncheng met his calm eyes and was speechless for a while.

In the evening, Guo Jia came to Li Zhen with cooked food, and Xiaoyu had already arrived one step ahead of her.

As soon as he entered the door and saw the empty house, Guo Jia couldn't help shouting, "Hey! Li Zhen, you're not good enough? Didn't you just resign? According to my estimation, Nanxiang will have to keep you for a month anyway. Bar!"

Li Zhendao: "My resignation letter has been approved by the company. I will hand over all the business in my hands within two days, and then rush to City H as soon as possible——Xiaoying is not feeling well right now. I want to go there early to accompany her."

Guo Jia smacked her lips, "I told Xiaoying a long time ago that you are an out-and-out model husband, and I really hit the mark! But I really admire you for being able to get the job done so quickly. Xiaoying can handle it, and before the two of you get married, you even have a child, it really kills two birds with one stone!"

Li Zhen didn't feel embarrassed, and smiled lightly, "Soldiers are expensive."

"Yeah, it's fast enough." Guo Jia continued, "What's the name of a saying—"A dog that bites doesn't bark"..."

"What do you call that?" Xiaoyu, who was originally taciturn, suddenly frowned and gave her a sideways glance, "It's really ugly."

"What are you in a hurry for? I'm just a metaphor."

"Your analogy is inappropriate."

"The words are rough and the rationale is not rough..."

Listening to the two of them arguing, Li Zhen interjected with a smile, "It would be great if you could go there together to accompany Xiaoying. With you here, it must be very lively, and she won't always feel bored."

Guo Jia and Xiaoyu looked at each other, and then quickly turned their eyes away.

"What am I going to do?" Xiaoyu muttered leisurely, "I'm not familiar with the place where I was born in H City."

Li Zhen spread out the dinner, spread the plates and set the chopsticks, and said with a smile: "I know, you are all busy, so that's all I can say—come on, let's all sit down and eat."

"Hey! Life can never go well." Guo Jia sighed, "But she is really lucky to find you."

"No," Li Zhen corrected her, "I found her."

The three gathered around the table to eat, Xiaoyu also brought a bottle of red wine, and everyone poured a glass, congratulating Li Zhen on his double happiness in advance—the groom and his father together.

Guo Jia asked: "Is your wedding time set?"

"Just at the end of this month. Xiaoying said that she didn't want to spend too much time and extravagance, and that's what I meant. Just set up a few tables in H City to make the most of it. Come down and talk about it, my family has no objections, and they will go to H city to attend the wedding." Li Zhen said, looked at Xiaoyu and said, "Xiaoying's relatives here are also your family, she is still hesitating Don't notify your parents, they are very busy, and this notification will definitely cost them again, so..."

Xiaoyu put down the chicken leg in his hand, grabbed a paper towel and wiped his hands, saying, "They, hmph, don't matter if they don't notify, they might not go if they notify..."

"No matter what, you still have to say hello." Guo Jia persuaded from the side, "It's the elders after all! Xiaoying has nothing to do with whether you go or not."

"That's what I mean too." Li Zhen nodded, "Let's see how Xiaoying decides."

Xiaoyu picked up the cup and said to Li Zhen: "Brother Li, you will be my brother-in-law from now on! Come on, brother-in-law, I will respect you first!"

Li Zhen raised his glass with a smile to meet his in the air, and then drank the fine wine in the glass in one gulp.

After drinking and eating, Guo Jia rushed to wash the dishes, but was stopped by Li Zhen, "You are a guest, how can I let you wash? You sit with Xiaoyu for a while, and I will finish cleaning soon."

Guo Jia saw that he couldn't rob him, so he had to stop, and looked around the living room, Xiaoyu was nowhere to be seen, and he slipped into the balcony to smoke while they were robbing him.

In the haze of smoke, Guo Jia came to him, looking at the gloomy sky like him.

At this moment, the happy and relaxed expressions on their faces just now were gone.

"Do you think Xiaoying will be happy with Li Zhen?" Guo Jia asked in a low voice.

"It should be." Xiaoyu puffed out a puff of smoke heavily, as if his thoughts were not on it.

Guo Jia sighed silently, this seemed to be the final result, but even she, a bystander, was a little bit unwilling, "But, she and Shen... oh."

Xiaoyu straightened up and gave her a sideways glance, both amused and moved by her worried expression.The smoke slowly drifted into Guo Jia's nostrils, she turned her face away completely unconsciously, Xiaoyu saw this, and quietly snuffed out the cigarette butt in her hand.

"Actually, I have always admired my sister." Xiaoyu clenched the railing with both palms, "She has been very calm since she was a child, and she has never regretted anything. Even when she broke up with Shen Juncheng when she was a teenager, I am I have never heard her cry or complain. She has always only looked forward, because there may not be anything worth nostalgic looking back."

Guo Jia was so engrossed in listening to it that he didn't even notice Xiaoyu's sneaky gaze.

Xiaoyu suddenly laughed self-deprecatingly, "Speaking of which, even if the past is nostalgic, if you can't keep it no matter what, then what reason is there to hold on to it?"

Guo Jia looked at him in bewilderment, but Xiaoyu looked away instantly.He put on a relaxed expression, looked at the night sky, and said with a quiet smile: "So, I believe in my sister's choice."

Guo Jia fell silent in the silence.

When he was about to leave from Li Zhen, Li Zhen suddenly looked at Guo Jia and Xiaoyu with a smile and said, "Xiaoyu, do you still live with Guo Jia?"

Guo Jia's eyelids twitched, and Xiaoyu responded indiscriminately.

(End of this chapter)