What do you want in life

Chapter 62 Don't Want to Lose Your Smile (13)
Li Zhen looked like a sculpture, and he didn't respond to her at all.

His coldness made Xiaoying at a loss. She lowered her head to accompany him and was silent for a while, then slowly said: "Li Zhen, we have been married for more than three years. If you have anything to say, you can just say it directly. Don't be so stuffy in your heart." What? I really don't know what to do with you now."

Li Zhen slowly raised the water glass, brought it to his lips to take a sip, then put it down again, slightly tugging at the corner of his mouth, "Yes, we have been married for three years...but you can be sure that your heart is completely on Me and this family?"

Xiaoying's heart tightened all of a sudden, "It's unfair to me when you talk like that, I..."

Li Zhen turned around and faced her, "Are you being fair to me? For three years, you have stayed at home peacefully and said nothing, but as soon as he appeared, you couldn't wait to go out to work!"

His sharp eyes approached her, "You pretended to apply for the job as if nothing had happened. In fact, you have already planned it, didn't you? You just kept it from me, ha! How stupid I am! To believe that you are really bored. Want to go out to work—you can even ignore Xiaozhi!"

"I didn't!" Xiaoying was annoyed by his judgment and criticism, trembling all over, but had to fight hard, "I went out to find a job because I didn't want to stay at home boring anymore! So did Xiaozhi, he couldn't Always follow me, can't always be in a narrow environment, he needs to communicate with others, otherwise he will become more and more withdrawn, less and less social, besides, he likes to go to kindergarten, if you don't believe me, you can ask him yourself! "

Li Zhen just sneered, "How nice to say! Everything is for the sake of my son! Then let me ask you, why did it happen so coincidentally, why did he choose to cooperate with the company you work for instead of another company?"

Xiaoying was forced by his uncontrollable growl so that she could no longer meet his eyes, she turned her face away, speechless.

A heart was swallowed by regret, why did she take chances in the first place?Why is it so easy to listen to Fan Zhijun's persuasion?Why not stick to what she's trying to do—find a company that can offer her an accounting position before going out?
If that's the case, can she avoid the crusade that Li Zhen has the upper hand tonight?
However, can some things really be avoided?It's like she never forgets about Shen Juncheng, which she herself doesn't want to admit, like the ghost that haunts Li Zhen from time to time in the past three years?
The knot is always there, it's just not the right time for it to break out.

In anger, Li Zhen had already put down his water glass, clamped Xiaoying's chin with one hand, and pressed his whole body on her body, completely embedding her in the softness of the sofa. The flames were burning in his eyes. In the moment of fear, Xiaoying Ying's thoughts went back to the long, distant past by accident...

Li Zhen, who confessed to her for the first time, was shy and shy. He didn't take off his gentle mask like now. He walked beside her gently and asked her, "Can you give me a chance?"

At that time, his eyes were full of passionate flames, but Xiaoying felt inexplicably afraid. Could it be that she had already read what happened to her today from his eyes at that time?
The mist gradually covered her eye sockets, and under the dim light, Xiaoying's eyes became crystal clear.

Surrounded by anger, Li Zhen's face became paler and paler, and his voice was hoarse, "Tell me, what kind of deal did you make with him? Otherwise, how could he be willing to treat such a big man?" Give it to you alone? Are you... are you?"

Li Zhen gritted his teeth and couldn't continue, the scene that suddenly flashed in his mind made him go crazy!He couldn't help but increase his strength bitterly.

Xiaoying felt that her chin was about to fall off from his pinching, she burst into tears in pain, and struggled in his arms tightly encircling her, "He and I, we have nothing! Let me go! open!"

"You still lied to me!" Li Zhen was annoyed by her resistance, and said through gritted teeth, "Don't think I don't know anything! Tell you, Han Xiaoying, I know everything about you and his past! Why did he come here? , why did you go out again, you guys, you must have some kind of conspiracy! It’s been three years, you’ve been with me for three years, you regret it, don’t you? So when he turned around and came to look for you, you rushed over! Han Xiaoying, what on earth are you When can I wake up?"

Xiaoying was crying and resisting under his accusation, but suddenly, her whole body froze. She fixedly looked at Li Zhen's eyes that were close at hand, and the panic and helplessness in her eyes receded like a tide. down.

"In that case," she suppressed her twitching, and there was already anger in her throat, "Since you knew everything, why did you come to me back then? Why did you marry me? Why did you marry me? Acting so generously?"

During Li Zhen's questioning, the power gathered around him was dispelled like a puff of breath, his eyes were blankly turned away from Xiaoying's face, and he swayed back and forth around.

While he was in a daze, Xiaoying casually wiped away the tears on her cheeks with the back of her hand, and there were still sharp pains on her chin. She stared at Li Zhen angrily, then pushed him with her hands, intending to leave Released from his imprisonment.

But Li Zhen sensed her purpose, suddenly increased the strength in his hands, and pressed her furiously, as if he wanted to push her whole body into the sofa!
Xiaoying suddenly had difficulty breathing, her face flushed red, and she cried out in surprise and anger, "You're crazy!"

"Yes! I'm crazy!" The suspicion, fear and anger that had been entrenched in Li Zhenxin's head for the past few days were all vented at this moment. He raised his palm, slapped his wife for the first time, and said every word: " I was driven crazy by you!"

Xiaoying was dazzled and dizzy by this palm. She hadn't recovered from the shock, but Li Zhen suddenly pressed her down in a leaning posture, ripping off her clothes...

"Li Zhen, you bastard..." Xiaoying's grief-stricken cursing was soon lost in Li Zhen's menacing attack. Even if she was extremely angry and made the greatest resistance, Li Zhen is a man after all. , the strength is much greater than hers, and in the end, even her sobs were too low to be heard, and the only thing that circled in the living room was Li Zhen's rapid panting...

The mirror reflected Xiaoying's slightly swollen eyes, bruises and bruises on her ears and shoulders that had not subsided, and her face was even less shiny. She shook it from side to side and took a few photos before taking a powder box from the shelf. , opened it, took out the powder puff and puffed it up vigorously according to those parts.

On Monday, she had to go back to work in Kelan, her vacation had come to an end, Fan Zhijun called her last night to confirm with her about going back to work.

At that time, Li Zhen was sitting on the sofa opposite her, and when he heard her talking on the phone, his eyes turned gloomy from the pages of the magazine to her face.And she was holding the phone, suppressing her resentment, ignoring Li Zhen's slightly threatening eyes, and promised to go to work as scheduled.

After putting on the makeup, the little scars on the neck and chin still couldn't be completely covered up, and it was easy to reveal the truth after a few careful glances, so she had to put down the hair that was already tied up behind her head, and slowly combed it neatly , let them drape over your shoulders.

When it was almost cleaned up, Li Zhen walked in.Xiaoying didn't even look at him, she just threw the comb in the frame of the shelf, turned around and wanted to go out of the bathroom, but was blocked by Li Zhen.

"Are you still planning to go to the company?"

"..."

"What about Xiaozhi?"

"I will send him back to kindergarten." Xiaoying explained to him patiently and coldly, "I have already discussed with their teacher. He is also willing."

In front of her awe-inspiring expression, Li Zhen couldn't use his force anymore, and took two steps back, but he still didn't retreat from her face.

"You look like this," he coughed twice, "it's better not to go out yet."

Xiaoying sneered, "Don't worry about it."

"...I'm sorry." Li Zhen finally uttered these three words with difficulty.

Xiaoying tilted her head to one side, not looking at the expression on his face, but her nose was sour.

All day yesterday, he left Xiaoying who was heartbroken and went to the company to work overtime. He didn't come back until evening. He didn't say a word about the roughness of the night before, as if everything was taken for granted.Xiaoying naturally didn't want to say another word to him, her tears had already been shed when Xiaozhi was taking a nap.

Swallowing the bitterness in her heart, when Xiaoying turned her head again, the indifferent expression returned to her face. Some things cannot be wiped away with just one or two words.

"Let's go, I'll wake up Xiaozhi." She kept the calm and cold tone before saying to Li Zhen.

When he was about to brush past him, his arm was grabbed by Li Zhen. He embraced Xiaoying, his eyes turned to the scar on her neck, and his heart felt like being pricked by a needle. The pain spread from one point to the other. , "I was wrong...can you forgive me?"

In fact, if he hadn't lost his mind because of being tortured by jealousy, why would he be willing to treat Xiaoying like that.

Xiaoying's body froze into a piece of ice, and even the palms of her hands felt cold. She silently let him hold her with a sullen face, without making a sound.

"Mom, mom..." Xiaozhi woke up in the room and called out to his mother in a daze.

Xiaoying pushed away Li Zhen's shackles, and walked out of the bathroom without looking back.

Li Zhen couldn't make peace, so he stood there in embarrassment. He could still feel the coldness when he held Xiaoying's palm just now. He turned his head slowly and saw a slightly haggard face in the mirror. There are green stubbles on the clean chin, and the cynical taste in the eyes that can't get rid of, it's so strange that he doesn't look like himself.

At nine o'clock in the morning, Xiaoying showed up in Fan Zhijun's office on time.

"You are finally back!"

Fan Zhijun enthusiastically stood up to greet her, his eyes touched her face, he was slightly startled, and then smiled again: "Is it more tiring to take care of the children at home than to go to work?"

"Yeah!" Xiaoying reluctantly responded with a smile, and changed the subject, "How is the project going?"

Fan Zhijun waved a red invitation card in his hand to her, in a good mood, "Shen held a bid opening press conference this afternoon, and invited more than a dozen interested suppliers and some media, and we are also invited! "

Xiaoying glanced at the clusters of red on his hand, and said hesitantly, "Then I'll..."

"Of course you have to go with us!" Fan Zhijun grabbed her words, looked at her face again, and said considerately: "Just go and listen, it doesn't take much effort, there are fewer people going, I'm worried Will Shen's side think that we don't pay attention to it?"

Xiaoying laughed. Of course she understood Fan Zhijun's subtext. He thought she was the key person in this project. If she didn't show up on such an important occasion, Shen might misunderstand what happened. Besides, Fan Zhijun had already sniffed her before. When Xiaoying vaguely wanted to withdraw, one of his strings was always tense. Now that the horoscope has not been written, the wind direction may change at any time, and he really dare not take it lightly.

"...Okay." Xiaoying couldn't think of any reason for her refusal. When she returned to the workplace, she naturally had to follow the rules in the workplace-everything was followed by her boss.

Xiao Yuxin presided over Shen's bid opening meeting, and Shen Juncheng also made a short speech on stage.

Xiaoying sat in her team below the stage, looking at Shen Juncheng who was looking at the bright-eyed Shen Juncheng on the stage from a distance, but she couldn't hear what he was saying at all.She just wanted to take a good look at him when no one was looking, a wish that couldn't be fulfilled on any other occasion.

Today's Shen Juncheng is no longer the little boy who would circle around her or even hug her sobbing ten years ago. His gestures and gestures seem to have a natural and determined temperament, as calm as if he was born like this. .

When Li Zhen scolded her half-heartedly in hysterics, how dare she really deny in her heart that she no longer had any illusions about Shen Juncheng?

He is the catastrophe in her life, even if they are separated, he still occupies a place in her heart; even if she is determined to marry, she cannot completely forget him; now, he appears in front of her again, in her life In the middle of the day, her gaze was attracted by him again, and he exuded a deadly attraction all over his body, trying to drag her into an inescapable vortex...

She suddenly lowered her head, as if suddenly waking up from a dream, she pinched the pen in her hand hard, and her fingertips hurt. She wanted to use that perception to remind herself that she could no longer sink, even if Li It's really bad for her, but he really loves her, she can't make him sad, and Xiaozhi, their son...

When the press conference came to an end, an employee wearing Shen's uniform came up to her and asked her in a low voice, "Excuse me, are you Miss Han Xiaoying?"

Xiaoying nodded hastily.

A small note fell into her palm immediately, she opened it, and saw a line of delicate handwriting on it, "Miss Han, please come to room 1215 after the meeting, I have something to talk to you about. Xiao"

Facing this unfamiliar handwriting, Xiaoying was a little dazed. Fan Zhijun, who was sitting next to her, had already seen the meaning clearly, moved closer to her, patted her arm with his hand, and whispered to her, "Go .”

Xiaoying turned her head to look at him, the latter's eyes were full of anticipation and secret joy.

Take the elevator to the twelfth floor, there are long corridors on the left and right sides, seemingly endless at a glance, Xiaoying walks to the nearest floor layout plan, and is planning to carefully study how to choose the direction. The door of the room opened with a click, and Xiao Yuxin walked out from inside.

There was no one else near the elevator, and Xiaoying stood there very conspicuously. Xiao Yuxin recognized her as soon as she caught sight of her, and greeted her with a smile, "Miss Han!"

The smile on her face was perfect, neither reserved nor too close, and she had a very measured grasp.

Xiaoying naturally recognized her, so she hurried over to say hello, "Hello, Miss Xiao!"

Xiao Yuxin glanced at the layout plan, pursed her lips and said with a smile: "This thing has long been out of date, come with me."

Xiaoying followed her and walked in another direction, but the doubts in her heart did not dissipate, "I don't know what Miss Xiao wants from me?"

"It's not me looking for you, it's us Mr. Shen who wants to see you."

Xiaoying stumbled in her heart.

Yu Xin slowed down and stood side by side with her, "I heard from Xia Bin that you took a whole week off last week to take care of your children?"

"Yes!" Xiaoying replied absent-mindedly.

"You are such a good mother!" Yu Xin smiled innocently this time, "By the way, you and your husband have worked in Nanxiang before?"

"En." Xiaoying didn't know what her intention was, so she nodded cautiously.

Relief appeared in Yu Xin's eyes, her footsteps stopped suddenly, and she stopped in front of a certain room.

"It's here, Mr. Shen is waiting for you inside!" She waved to Xiaoying and left gracefully.

Xiaoying controlled her heartbeat, walked to the door, raised her hand and knocked a few times, and soon the door was opened, and Shen Juncheng appeared in front of her.

"Come in." He greeted her with a faint smile.

Xiaoying hesitated behind him, she knew it was risky for herself, because every time she got close to him, she couldn't think normally, especially after three years of separation, she felt as if there was a very strong feeling in her body. The fire, which was difficult to suppress, continued to heat up, trying to burn her into ashes.

But in the end, she closed her eyes and walked in.

His office is the same as the one in Nanxiang before, spacious and bright, except for the necessary furniture and office supplies, there are not many unnecessary things.On the table in front of the window was an expensive coffee machine. She remembered that he liked drinking coffee very much.

Shen Juncheng was making coffee for her at this time, and asked casually, "Is your son okay?"

"……Um."

"I've always wanted to meet him, but it's a pity that I never had the chance—does he still like the gift that Xia Bin brought over last time?"

"I like it... Thank you for thinking about him."

Shen Juncheng came over with two cups of coffee, handed one of them to her, glanced at her uneasy expression, chuckled lightly and said: "You said that you don't want me to appear in your life, but since you are here I'm here, it shouldn't be too much to meet you, right?"

Xiaoying didn't know how to respond to him.She held the coffee in her hand and lowered her head, the warm warmth from the cup was quickly transferred into her palm, driving away her innate coldness.

Hearing his gentle voice again and feeling the unique aura emanating from him, Xiaoying's heart couldn't calm down anymore, and she didn't even dare to look at him.

That unexpected encounter in the corridor of the restaurant, perhaps because she was not psychologically prepared, she was able to control her emotions and communicate with him as freely as possible.

And in the days to come, as long as she had nothing to do, her mind would involuntarily drift to that afternoon, when they stood opposite each other in front of the backlit window.She recalled his smiles and every word he said countless times, just like she used to read his letters from across the ocean.

"Why don't you talk?" Shen Juncheng stood in front of her without moving away, his gaze remained on her face.

For three full years, he trapped himself in a world without her, he spared no effort to indulge himself, and even indulged in sex, but he was still unable to fill the vacant part of his heart.As soon as you close your eyes, her appearance will slowly rise from the trembling water, smiling, and staring at him with eyes full of tenderness...

Now, she was in front of him, but he couldn't do anything, he couldn't say any sincere words - just because that would hurt her and hurt her current happiness.

It took him three years to convince himself that as long as she was happy, even if she wasn't by his side, he should feel relieved.

When he finally let go of this knot, he dared to truly walk out of the memory, dared to walk in front of her again, smiled at her, and greeted her family generously.

At this moment, he had nothing else to ask but to take a good look at her.

Xiaoying's back was against the edge of Shen Juncheng's desk, the solid touch gave her strength to support her, she slowly raised her head, and met Shen Juncheng's eyes.

Both of them were in a trance for a moment, because they read something familiar in each other's eyes, Xiaoying couldn't bear the lightning-like stimulation that touched her heart, she looked away in a panic, but suddenly felt a burst of warmth on her cheeks, yes Shen Juncheng's palm.

This behavior beyond the limit suddenly disturbed the pool of water in Xiaoying's heart. She was stunned for a moment, and instinctively wanted to raise her hand to brush it away, but Shen Juncheng pulled her closer to him before her.

(End of this chapter)