What do you want in life

Chapter 63 Don't Want to Lose Your Smile (14)
She felt his hands gently brushing away the loose hair around her ears, his gaze had shifted from her face to her neck, and the messy bruises made his eyes lose color all of a sudden.

"What is this?" He asked in amazement, "Could it be that he...to you..." He suddenly felt that he couldn't breathe.

When he was shocked, Xiaoying quickly broke free from his hand, avoided a place three meters away from him, and tried to remain calm and said: "Don't guess, it has nothing to do with him. It's me..."

Shen Juncheng stared at her in disbelief, "You yourself?"

There could never be a more shabby excuse.

He suddenly stepped over to Xiaoying, and stretched out his hand to confirm his guess. Xiaoying sensed his intentions and backed away again and again. Because she was flustered, she didn't notice the little bed behind her——

"Be careful!" When Shen Juncheng shouted these two words, it was too late, she leaned back!
Shen Juncheng almost rushed over to grab her, because of too much force, the two hugged each other and fell into the sofa next to him, Xiaoying happened to be on top of him.

When she realized the terrible situation and hurriedly wanted to stand up, Shen Juncheng grabbed her hand tightly but refused to let go!

Xiaoying looked down at him, and suddenly burst into tears, "Just let me go, the matter between me and him has nothing to do with you."

"No!" Shen Juncheng looked excited, "I let you go because I thought Li Zhen could make you happy!" He sat up with his arms around her, "But now I'm not sure!"

"Are you sure what has anything to do with me?" Xiaoying also became agitated, she couldn't bear the heartache and reluctance in his eyes, it would only drag her into a deeper and more dangerous vortex!

"I'm already married to him, and I'm his wife! Who are you? Why do you meddle in our affairs?" She used extreme irrationality and fierceness to cover up her inner fragility, but the questioning voice sounded like So powerless and pale.

"I loved you once!" Shen Juncheng stared straight at her, his voice suddenly became hoarse, "Now... I still love you."

A wave of enthusiasm rushed into Xiaoying's eyes in an instant, and she quickly turned away from her distorted face, begging him choked with sobs, "Let me go, don't torture me anymore, and don't... torture yourself anymore."

Shen Juncheng suddenly hugged her tightly and buried his head in her arms. After so many years of self-consolation, he was no match for the real possession in his arms at this moment. How could he let go, even if this is not the warmth he should have!

His loss of control made Xiaoying even more terrified. What she was really afraid of was not Shen Juncheng, but herself. She knew that if she allowed herself to take that step, then everything she had painstakingly worked on over the past few years would be ruined.

She no longer begged him verbally, and once again used the same trick as when she left him ten years ago-to break off his fingers that were imprisoned on her body one by one!

The two silently staged the same scene several years ago, but now Shen Juncheng is no longer the bewildered high school student at that time, his persistence made Xiaoying's heart tremble.

"Tell me, what is he doing to you?" His eyes were burning with the hope of rebirth, as if as long as she told him the truth, he could have her again.

Xiaoying ignored him and just tried to get rid of him wholeheartedly.

Shen Juncheng's stubborn face gradually showed the certainty of victory. He stared at Xiaoying's face that was flushed from exertion and anger, and his breathing gradually became unsteady. In his dream, but at this moment, his dream has come true, he was in a trance for a moment, his heart fluttered, and he couldn't help but bowed his head and moved closer to her face...

The door of the room was pushed open suddenly, and Xiao Yuxin walked in excitedly, "Mr. Shen..."

As soon as the words started, they were stuck in the throat - on the sofa, Shen Juncheng was hugging Han Xiaoying, their faces were almost touching together!

Xiao Yuxin couldn't believe her eyes, the back of her head seemed to be hit hard with an iron object, and the pain caused an echo in her ears.

Taking advantage of the momentum, Xiaoying jumped out of Shen Juncheng's arms, tidied her clothes and hair in a panic, but the blush on her face could not be concealed no matter what.

"What's the matter?" Shen Juncheng sat on the sofa with a sullen face and didn't move.

Xiao Yuxin had already woken up, she didn't have time to sort out her emotions, the first thing she thought of was to check Shen Juncheng's face, when she saw the impatience on his face, she knew that he was not easy to mess with at the moment, so she had to swallow all the grievances After entering the stomach, she first explained in a low voice, "I knocked on the door just now." Her eyes quickly glanced at Xiaoying.

Xiaoying noticed it, and she couldn't hold back for a while, and she was worried that if she didn't leave at this time, Shen Juncheng would definitely not let her leave when there was no one in the room, so she hurriedly said: "Since you have something to do, I'll leave first. "

She didn't look at anyone while she was talking, and when she was done, she rushed towards the door in a hurry.

"Wait—" Before Shen Juncheng could finish his sentence, Xiaoying's people had disappeared without a trace.

Shen Juncheng propped his elbows on his knees, rubbed his stiff face with his palms, and asked Xiao Yuxin again in a drawn out tone, "What's the matter?"

Xiao Yuxin obviously hasn't recovered from the shock just now, until she heard the irritability in Shen Juncheng's tone, she explained as if awakened, "Oh, there are two media that want to interview you alone, and they are very local. Influential publication, so I..."

Shen Juncheng made a gesture to stop her from continuing, "You can communicate with them for me - anyway, you are clear about the projects we are working on now."

After sending off the newspaper reporter, Xiao Yuxin returned to her office, almost slumped in her chair.For the first time since entering Shen's for more than a year, she felt a kind of tiredness slowly rising from the bottom of her heart.

But this tiredness was not caused by the intensity of work, but by the disappointment with Shen Juncheng.

She didn't know Shen Juncheng's reason for recruiting herself into Shen's, but she was very clear about her purpose of joining Shen's, and she came for Shen Juncheng.

Long before entering Shen's, she knew Shen Juncheng, and she had heard about his gossip more than once, and even saw new faces changing frequently beside him in some public places.But even so, Xiao Yuxin still has confidence in herself. She is confident not only because of her innate beauty, but also because of her strong professional ability and ability to understand people.

As for Shen Juncheng, she still had a very strange feeling. She felt that he shouldn't be the playboy he is now. No matter how sweet the girl around him is, it seemed to him that it was just a necessary embellishment. In the glitz of his life, only Xiao Yuxin could read the deep loneliness buried under his smile.

At that time, Xiao Yuxin, who approached Shen Juncheng, was so confident. She believed that as long as he found someone who could understand his loneliness, he would change and stop being sensual, and she was undoubtedly the one who could bring him back A woman destined to be on the right track.

It only took her half a year to prove her strength to him. No matter what she did, she would do whatever it took to achieve full marks.She did win Shen Juncheng's approval and affirmation of her, but that was only limited to work - she was neutral to him, she represented a part of his work, of course, this part undoubtedly satisfied him.

But in life, he never seemed to notice her existence, and his eyes on her always only stayed on the achievements she made.

He still dates girls of different walks and colors in different ways, and occasionally takes them out to socialize, which has become a topic that others like to talk about.

For all of this, Xiao Yuxin did not feel impetuous, nor did she feel jealous of those girls who could possess him, because she knew that it was just a short-term possession, and what she wanted was far more than that.

She silently searched for her own opportunity, took part of her energy from work, and used it to carefully dress herself up, trying to awaken Shen Juncheng to look at herself from the perspective of women.

Her efforts were not in vain.

On the night when she decided to invest in City H, she came out of the banquet box with him talking and laughing. Under the bright moonlight, his eyes slowly fell on her creamy cheeks, and she finally saw his eyes. The daze and deep meaning in her eyes made her heart tremble at that moment.

He stretched out his hand and gently stroked her smooth face, the softness in his eyes accumulated, "You..."

She decisively grabbed the slightly trembling hand and moved it to her lips. She took a sip in his palm, and when she raised her head to look at him again, she caught a glimpse of the burning flame in his eyes. The corner of her mouth twitched into a triumphant smile.

He drank a little that day and couldn't drive, so Xiao Yuxin took him home first.He sat beside her, silently, and just glanced at her quietly when he thought she was not paying attention.

After getting along with him for a long time, Xiao Yuxin discovered that he is actually a cautious and traditional person, and his frivolous and unruly nature seems to be acquired.

When he reached the door of the apartment, he waved goodbye to her, and then pushed the door to get out of the car. He was not so drunk that he could not tell the direction.But she insisted on taking him to the door, knowing in her heart that after tonight, it would not be so easy to wait for such an opportunity.

They kissed in the elevator, and the kiss was in full swing, sweeping all the way into his apartment...

During the whole process, he kept his eyes closed, and the sweat slid from his face to his solid chest, and then fell into her arms drop by drop.

She always thought he was gentle and gentle, but she didn't expect his enthusiasm to almost suffocate her to death.

In the middle of the night, she woke up slowly from her sleep, and looked sideways at Shen Juncheng who was lying beside her. He fell asleep, but the loneliness that had been hidden in his handsome facial features for a long time was lingering.

She couldn't help reaching out, and gently touching with her fingertips, trying to smooth him out.

As soon as his fingertips touched his face, he held his hand, and he put it under his cheek with an expression of attachment.Yu Xin didn't dare to move, so she could only let him lie on the pillow like this.

He still didn't open his eyes, and murmured in the silent night, "I... miss you so much..."

Yu Xin was completely stunned by that desolate tone.

After that night, the relationship between the two didn't seem to have fundamentally changed. She was still his right-hand man, and she never asked much about his private life, but she clearly felt that his side suddenly became much colder. There is no frequent flow of girls anymore.

They occasionally live together, but mostly on her own initiative.He stopped messing around, but he didn't show any pity for her because of it. All his interest seemed to have shifted from having fun to this project in City H.

Yuxin can only comfort herself about this, at least compared with the past, it has already made great progress, and everything should not be rushed.

It's been like this for half a year, until today.

It wasn't until today that she seemed to really understand something. Maybe she was wrong from the beginning. It turns out that his nature has never changed. He is just that kind of person. It's just a matter of awareness, he doesn't even let off married women!
But when she calmed down and thought about it carefully, she felt that it was not the case. When she broke in suddenly, although she only had a glimpse of the expression on his face, it was already deeply engraved in her mind like an imprint. .

Such a painful and sinking expression is definitely not just for a moment.

A long time ago, the words he said in a dream that confused her suddenly popped up from the memory bank, "I... miss you so much..."

There was a thunder in her ear, and she seemed to be shocked by a terrible secret. All the previous doubts and puzzles were smoothly implicated at this time: she came to invest in City H, valued Ke Lan inexplicably, and took the initiative to go to Ke Lan For a visit, ask her to write a note asking Han Xiaoying to come over...

Yu Xin stood up from the chair all of a sudden, walked quickly to the window, panting heavily, her whole body was hot, but her heart was instantly icy cold.

The mobile phone on the table suddenly rang, and she walked over to answer it in a daze. It was a call from a director of the chamber of commerce surnamed Zhang, who said he had something to discuss with her, and asked her to go out and have dinner with him at night.

Her usual wit was gone at this moment, she listened dully, and finally asked, "Do you need Mr. Shen to come forward?"

Director Zhang let out a meaningful laugh, "I won't bother Mr. Shen with such a trivial matter. I believe that Ms. Xiao will definitely get it done if she comes forward!"

After closing the line, Yuxin's mind turned around a little bit, and she slowly realized that Director Zhang was actually a drunkard who didn't want to drink—he had been looking for him several times, both openly and secretly.

Yu Xin took a deep breath, gritted her teeth, and pushed the door to go out. She wanted to throw this problem in front of Shen Juncheng and let him make up for her.

In the office, Shen Juncheng was standing in front of the window smoking a cigarette. When she walked in, he didn't even turn around.

"Mr. Shen, Director Zhang from the Chamber of Commerce just called to say that he invited me out for dinner tonight. He... has something to talk to me about."

Shen Juncheng blew a smoke ring out of the window, looking a little upset, "Did you say something? Or is it about the qualification certificate?"

"...No." She believed that he could hear something from her tone, "He didn't mention a word about helping us with the special qualification certificate."

After a while, he turned his back to her and said slowly, "If you want... just go."

"What if I don't want to?" Yu Xin felt chilled by his indifference.

Shen Juncheng turned his face, and Yu Xin realized in an instant that the soft look in his eyes that used to belong to him had been replaced by indifference and businesslike, "You don't have to go, no one is forcing you, Yu Xin."

Yu Xin resisted the urge to cry, and nodded fiercely, "...Okay, I'll go!"

She almost rushed out the door, such a violent reaction surprised even herself, even—ashamed and indignant!In the corridor, she bumped into Xia Bin who was oncoming.She was teetering on the high heels, but fortunately Xia Bin helped her in time.

"Ah—Yu Xin, are you okay?" Xia Bin was surprised when he noticed her red eye circles and abnormal expression.

"It's okay!" Yu Xin pushed Xia Bin to hold her hand, and walked straight forward with her head down.

She didn't take a step out of her office until the lights came on that day.

Many things cannot be figured out in a short while. She doesn't know what Shen Juncheng wants to do next, and her actions must be based on his plan. Over the past year or so, she has become accustomed to thinking like this problem.

At the beginning, she still had expectations for Shen Juncheng, hoping that he might take the initiative to talk to her, even if he didn't apologize.But as time passed, her expectations were lost a little bit, and she became hesitant and at a loss.

In the deepening disappointment, she once again realized that she was wrong. From the very beginning, she would be wrong.

Shen Juncheng's heart may be really lonely, but this loneliness is definitely not something she can save.

The date with Director Zhang is imminent, and Yu Xin is still immersed in the misery of frustration.

If she was a purely emotion-driven person, then what she should do now is to leave Shen's, but she is not.

She can neither convince herself to treat work and emotion separately, nor is she willing to just hand over the results of half a year of hard work to others. In any case, she is not reconciled.

Someone was knocking on her door, and there were two short beeps. She was startled, and quickly stood up from her chair. She was about to run to the door, but after thinking about it for a while, she changed her mind and shouted, "Please come in." Slowly move towards the window.

It was Xia Bin who opened the door and came in, the concern in his eyes did not fade away, "Yu Xin, you..."

Yu Xin didn't want to hear him say something that made her unhappy, so she turned her head and asked first, "What's the matter?"

Seeing her calm expression, Xia Bin was a little relieved, "Oh, Boss Shen came to me just now and said that you have a dinner tonight, so let me go with you."

Xiao Yuxin lowered her eyes and listened to him quietly. She couldn't tell what it was like in her heart, but she still warmed up. After a few seconds, she nodded without being polite to him, "In this case, it's getting late, we Let's go now."

The two went downstairs together, Xia Bin went to pick up the car, and Xiao Yuxin stood downstairs waiting for him.In the night, she couldn't help turning around and looking up at the familiar window on the twelfth floor.

The lights were still on there, and she vaguely saw a person standing in front of the window, motionless, like a sculpture.

Her eye sockets were suddenly wet, and she suddenly lowered her head, ordering herself not to look at the scenery that did not belong to her.

In the morning, Zhou Ting walked into Li Zhen's office with a smile on her face.

"What's so happy about it?" Li Chen raised his head from the computer and glanced at her.

Why she is so happy, of course he knows.

Sure enough, Zhou Ting stretched out her hand from behind, handed a beautifully packaged small square box to his desk, and said sincerely, "This time I have raised my salary, I should thank you very much, Mr. Li!"

Li Zhen picked up the box in his hand and weighed it, and said with a smile: "Thank me for what, you should thank yourself, if you don't work hard, no one can help you - what is this?"

"I picked a tie myself. I don't know if you like it or not?" Zhou Ting said with a worried expression.

Li Zhen raised his eyebrows and opened it with a smile.

Lying in the box was a light purple tie with diagonal stripes. Li Zhen didn't like the style and color very much, but he still smiled and said, "It's beautiful, thank you!" in the drawer.

"I wanted to treat you to dinner, but I know you can't go back too late, your wife will wait for you, so I bought you a gift." Zhou Ting explained happily.

"Then go eat, there's nothing wrong with it." Li Chen didn't change the smile on his face, "How about just tonight?"

Zhou Ting was a little surprised. After a moment of stunned, she smiled and replied, "Of course."

It was almost ten o'clock, Xiaozhi had already fallen asleep, but Li Zhen hadn't come back yet.

Xiaoying wandered from the room to the living room, restless. Li Zhen had a very regular schedule. He usually worked overtime no more than nine o'clock. After nine o'clock, he would call Xiaoying in advance to tell Xiaoying that he would not come back on time without saying hello like today. The situation is rare, unless it is during a conflict between the two.

(End of this chapter)