What do you want in life

Chapter 66 Don't Want to Lose Your Smile (17)
Xiaoying didn't have any particularly convincing reasons for him, so she just slowly said out the pre-printed belly draft, "I have done everything I can do here with you, and the project is in the final stage, and the result is beyond my control." , so, I thought, if it's convenient," she raised her head and glanced at Fan Zhijun, "you once said..."

Fan Zhijun understood what she meant, and said first: "Yes, I understand what you want to say. I promised you before that when the Shen's project is implemented, I will find a way to transfer you to the finance department. My promise to you, I will I still remember it! But Shen’s matter is not over yet, I think you can wait until the results come out, it’s only two or three weeks.”

Seeing that there was no expression of approval on Xiaoying's face, he pondered for a moment, and told her the truth with a bit of a heavy heart, "Xiaoying, it's not that I don't want to help you now. But the company is based on grades, and we're still paying for grades." I don’t know, even if I tell the higher-ups to help you, it may not be useful, I, alas, today is different from the past.”

Xiaoying heard a hint of desolation from his sigh, and her heart sank a little. Fan Zhijun's current situation is indeed delicate and dangerous. He seems to be walking on a tightrope, with a cliff beneath his feet. By relying on Shen's smooth flow, he can land safely, otherwise, he may fall down at any time, life and death are uncertain.

The other party has difficulties, and she is not aggressive, and she didn't have too much hope at first. She brought up the old covenant to pave the way for the real purpose later.

"President Fan, since this is the case, then I have one more request."

"Just say it, as long as I can do it." Fan Zhijun said hastily.

"I want to withdraw from this project of Shen's." Xiaoying said softly but firmly, "I can help you with some daily affairs, but you still leave it to Xiao Jiang and Wang Kai for matters related to Shen's." Bar."

Fan Zhijun hissed deeply, then glanced at Xiaoying again, "Well..."

"Mr. Fan, I don't mean anything else. It's just that I've heard a lot of gossip about my... special relationship with Shen." Xiaoying explained to him, "If these words If there are too many people in the Shen family who are worried about the impact, they may make judgments and choices that are beyond our expectations. I have thought about it for a few days, and I think it is better to explain it clearly to you. "

Fan Zhijun clenched his chin with his fingers, seeming to be lost in thought. In fact, he may not be unable to perceive the truth of the matter, but since Xiaoying said so, and it made sense, he had no reason to refuse it outright.

"That's good!" He put down his hands and tightened his lips as if he had made up his mind, "It's up to you. In principle, you don't need to interfere with the negotiation and communication with Shen's, but some related internal affairs, You don’t need to come forward, such as handling documents related to Shen’s, you shouldn’t have a problem with this, right?”

"Naturally." Xiaoying breathed a sigh of relief, "Thank you, Mr. Fan."

It's the weekend, and there are uncontrollable laughter in the office.Xiaoying sat in her seat, but she couldn't feel a trace of relaxation and pleasure. She rubbed her face vigorously with both hands, trying to cheer herself up.Thinking back when she was flustered at home, she didn't seem to be so troubled now.

However, people need to be fulfilled, and fulfilled worries are better than boring emptiness.

Reminiscing about the conversation with Fan Zhijun in his office this morning, she rekindled hope in her heart. Fan Zhijun gave her the greatest concession, as long as she survived this period, and waited for Shen's project to be implemented-based on her understanding of Fan Zhijun. Based on her understanding, she felt that the possibility of this matter was extremely high—he would definitely find a way to help her transfer to another post. By then, she would be able to exercise in her new post with peace of mind for a period of time, and then find a chance to jump out of Kelan.

She knows that her plan is a bit despicable, but other than that, she has no better choice. People are selfish and weak. She can't do everything on an extremely stable rule line. There is no way to persist as stubbornly as Shen Juncheng, because she lacks his self-confidence and sense of security, and she has been like this since she was a child.

Thinking of Shen Juncheng, her heart throbbed again.If he could be a little more ruthless, or a little more decisive like himself, wouldn't it be better for them to each other?
She shook her head vigorously, no longer dwelling on this hopeless problem.

The mobile phone on the table was ringing, she glanced at the number, it was Li Zhen.

"I'll go home for dinner tonight, and I'll tell you." In the receiver, Li Zhen's voice became even and steady again.

"Okay, I got it." Xiaoying also replied lightly, and then pulled up the line neatly.

They have recently returned to the normal life mode before. Xiaoying never asked about the suspicious relationship between him and Zhou Ting, and Li Zhen never thought of explaining it to her.The days were as peaceful as if nothing had happened, but both of them knew in their hearts that there was actually a raging undercurrent under the seemingly calm water, but no one was willing to take the initiative to destroy this tranquility.

Xiaoying used to think that the married women shown on TV always use the excuse of "for the sake of the children" to stay with men when they encounter family problems. Only then did I realize that as a mother, some psychology is similar and cannot be detached.

The only thing she is thankful for now is that Xiaozhi knows nothing about these grievances between adults. He lives in his own world carefree.

Li Zhen didn't break the appointment, and went home on time when he got off work, and had a rare warm dinner with his wife and son.Although Xiaoying didn't talk much, she always answered Li Zhen's questions. The atmosphere between the two of them was a little colder than before, but it was much better than the tense situation not long ago.

While peeling the fruit, Xiaoying's sense of security regained a little bit. She was stunned by the pool for a while, feeling that the situation was developing for the better. Although it was slow, it still gave people hope.

She came out with sliced ​​pears, and called Xiaozhi who was having a good time to come and eat. Li Zhen squeezed a piece and stuffed it into his mouth, and walked over to catch Xiaozhi, "Boy, come and eat some fruit!" , be careful to make your mother unhappy and beat you."

Xiaozhi kicked his two calves to resist, "Mom won't hit me!"

"Mom doesn't beat Dad!"

"Father, please forgive me!"

There was long-lost laughter in the living room. Driven by such a warm atmosphere, Xiaoying said to Li Zhen: "I have made an agreement with Mr. Fan today. From now on... I don't need to take care of Shen's business anymore. Promise to help me apply for a change of guard after a while." Her explanation showed obvious signs of showing favor.

Xiaoying's idea is very simple, since she chooses to live with this person for the rest of her life, no matter how much she regrets the past, she should cherish the person in front of her and work hard to live the present life well.

Li Zhen lowered his eyes and didn't look at her, "Why don't you just resign?"

His suddenly cooling voice made Xiaoying startled, she paused for a while and said, "I can't find a suitable job even if I resign now, besides, Xiaozhi is quite used to it in kindergarten..."

"No one will think you are redundant if you stay at home." Li Zhen snorted coldly.

Xiaoying didn't like it very much, "I'm not even 30 years old, so I can't just stay at home and not go out. Now I finally have a chance..."

"You don't even think about how you got this opportunity." Li Zhen's voice suddenly became sharp. Although the voice was not high, Xiaoying was really surprised by the meanness in his tone, "You can still say it thanks to you."

"What did I do? Are you going to say that about me?" Xiaoying suppressed the unhappiness in her heart and fought back in a low voice. The child was beside her, and she didn't want him to notice that her parents were arguing.

"What did you do that you don't know?" Li Zhen turned her head to look at her, Xiaoying noticed the jealousy in his eyes, and her heart went cold. , The company should not be mentioned.

But at this point, it was too late to be upset, Xiaoying could only let him vent her anger.

"Han Xiaoying, when you went to Kelan, didn't you know that they were interested in Shen's? Why did your boss give you this opportunity? Didn't he hope to extract some useful value from you! You have been led by him until now , to be grateful to him! Do you have any brains?"

Li Zhen has never used such harsh words to comment on her. Although his voice is not high, every word and every word pierces into Xiaoying's heart like a sharp knife. This is not only because of his meanness, but also because More than half of what he said was right.

Before that, Xiaoying kept whitewashing herself in her heart. She was almost cheating herself, but Li Zhen said it mercilessly. How could she stand it!

But Li Zhen hadn't finished speaking yet, "If you're not brainless, then you're pretending to be confused, right? You know you'll meet Shen Juncheng sooner or later, so you put on airs in Ke Lan and wait for him to take the bait, then You two can rekindle your old relationship!"

"Li Zhen!" Xiaoying stood up abruptly, trembling all over, and said, "Don't spout blood!"

Xiao Zhi, who was lying on the floor building a model castle, heard the movement, and unconsciously raised his head to glance at his parents, his little face tensed up a bit.

Li Zhen also stood up, and looked at Xiaoying face to face, his eyes were a little red, "I hope I'm spitting blood, but whether it's true or not, only you know in your heart-you and him, locked in the office are not two times at a time." Is it time?" He gritted his teeth, "I know what you are doing!"

Xiaoying only felt her hands and feet were cold, and even her tongue began to stiffen, "We, we didn't do anything!" Her voice sounded weak, and even she felt contemptuous when she heard it.

Li Zhen stared at her hard, the panic on her face was like a dose of poison, injected into his blood, making him feel boiling and stinging all over his body, love and hate intertwined in his eyes, he said word by word , "If you want me to believe that you are innocent, then resign and go home immediately! As long as you come back, I can ignore everything between you and him, and we can live a good life as before."

Xiaoying looked at his condescending eyes, as if he had already condemned her, and now he was forgiving her. If she knew it, shouldn't she kneel down and kiss his feet?

"What about you?" The stubbornness and humiliation that had been buried in her heart finally emerged in her eyes, "Since you don't trust me so much, can I also question you and your assistant?"

"You mean Zhou Ting?" Li Zhen's expression froze for a moment, and then he sneered, "I have nothing with her, we are just normal colleagues."

"How do you prove it?" Xiaoying gritted her teeth and yelled at him. Her internal organs were controlled by grief and anger, and she could no longer bear Li Zhen's superior tone and attitude, "You sent her to the supermarket and talked to her alone I went out to eat, and I called you, but she answered it! You were so drunk that she sent you back! Do you think this is normal?"

"I really have nothing with her!" Li Zhen said angrily, "Don't change the subject, I'm talking to you about your problem now!"

Xiaoying sneered uncontrollably, "Whether it's my problem or your problem, I don't see any essential difference. Li Zhen, don't put yourself on the moral high ground and shoot at me. You are better than me, and you are better than me." Not going anywhere!"

Li Zhen, who thought he had the chance to win, suddenly realized that Xiaoying was on an equal footing with him. Her eyes were rippling with the way he looked at her before, with the same suspicion and hatred, and besides that, there was a hint of disdain.His heart seemed to be blocked by something, and he couldn't breathe.

He approached her, the veins on his forehead were throbbing faintly, "I repeat, there is nothing between me and Zhou Ting! Don't let the wind turn into rain!"

"The wind is the rain, don't you?" Xiaoying still had a sarcastic smile on her lips, "Li Zhen, don't you think you are a typical example of 'Only state officials are allowed to set fires, but the common people are not allowed..."

"Pa——" A clear and loud sound of skin colliding resounded in the living room, breaking Xiaoying's remaining sentences and quieting the whole room.

Li Zhen's hand was still in the air, his expression was dull after being angry, while Xiaoying, covering the left half of her cheek, stared at him incredulously!
Xiaozhi also stopped all the activities in his hands in a corner of the living room, knelt timidly on the ground and watched the fierce conflict between his parents, not daring to say a word.

A child is the most sensitive creature. Ever since his parents started to argue with each other, he has been worried, and played by himself very obediently, without bothering any of them.Perhaps, he had hoped that his quietness could alleviate the anger of his parents, but unfortunately they had already forgotten his existence.

Xiaoying's astonished expression made Li Zhen sober in an instant. Her left eye was rapidly red and swollen, and at the same time, tears quickly filled her eye socket.

"I'm sorry..." He murmured, regretting that he had acted too hard, and the hand raised in the air turned to reach her face, trying to comfort her.

The sharp pain deepened Xiaoying's humiliation and anger, she suddenly pushed his hand away, and tears rolled down her cheeks!
This is the husband she chose. If it doesn't make sense, you can still use slaps and fists to make her obey!She had lived with him for three years, as if she had never known his true face until recently.Before that, he hid it so well that he never mentioned anything about the past. He even made Xiaoying think that he was such a magnanimous man, so magnanimous that he didn't care about anything.

It turned out that it was all an illusion.At this moment, his ferocious face made her feel scared and loathed!

"Does it hurt..." Li Zhen took two steps back in embarrassment, his eyes were still fixed on his wife, but he was no longer angry, but full of guilt, "Xiaoying, I..."

Xiaoying no longer wants to hear any explanation from him, he is always like this, getting angry and then apologizing, then getting angry again, then apologizing again, it's endless, and he doesn't know how to repent!
She pushed away his arms that were trying to wrap around her again, and rushed towards the door, pushed the door hard, and swept out, the door made a violent slamming sound behind her, shaking the whole room. Everyone trembled all over.

"Xiaoying——" Li Zhen chased after a few steps, and stopped abruptly in front of the closed door.He turned his face away and saw his son staring in horror in the corner. The vigilance and shrinking in his eyes made Li Zhen feel a pang in his heart.

"Xiaozhi, you stay at home, daddy goes to get mom back, okay?" He changed his soft voice to talk to his son.

"Yeah." Xiaozhi nodded vigorously.

Li Zhen reluctantly twitched the corner of his mouth towards him, which was regarded as a comforting smile, and immediately opened the door and chased him out.

Xiaoying didn't run far away, she ran downstairs, stood at the door and looked around blankly, not knowing where the way out was.But she didn't want to stay, she suddenly felt deeply tired of this doorway that went in and out all day, as if it was another self, not the real Han Xiaoying.

She chose a direction at random, and stumbled forward, her face felt like a tree had fallen out of control, half in the water, half in the fire, and there was nowhere to express the grievances in her heart, she could only vent it by walking.

The sky was getting dark, and there were very few pedestrians around. Xiaoying felt their surprised gazes, but she didn't care anymore. Even if the mountains collapsed and the ground cracked, she wouldn't take it to heart.

"Xiaoying--Han Xiaoying--" Someone called her from behind, it was a familiar and disgusting voice, she had never felt that Li Zhen's voice was so hollow and annoying as she is now.

She quickened her pace and ran forward, feeling helpless and exhausted, and was soon caught up by Li Zhen, who grabbed her arm, and the body she flung out also fell back, just in time to be hugged by him .

"Go away! Let me go!" Xiaoying started kicking him, tearing his clothes, and even lowered her head to bite his arms that bound her. He was like an unknown rope, binding her when she was weakest. He held her, and then tied her tighter and tighter. She felt that she was about to be strangled to death by him.

She bit down on Li Zhen's bare wrist, he snorted, but still didn't let her go, Xiaoying's mouth suddenly filled with an unpleasant smell of blood, she let go of her mouth in a daze, drooping her eyes Looking around, there is a circle of clear tooth marks on Li Zhen's wrist, and blood is slowly oozing out along the tooth marks.

The sharpness of the blood woke up Xiaoying, her frantic brain suddenly quieted down, and the corners of her lips trembled, she looked at Li Zhen in horror, who just stared at her intently, without anger or panic in his eyes.He reached out to wipe the red around Xiaoying's mouth, this time she didn't dodge again.

Her expression looked like some kind of frightened small animal, her eyes were empty, like a vast and empty field, Li Zhen suddenly remembered the scene when she first met her in County G, at that time, she was also like this His expression, as if his soul had been emptied, leaving only a shell.

At that time, he had a strong desire to inject color into her eyes and rekindle her old smile, and he thought he had done it.

But Xiaoying in front of him was even more embarrassed than three years ago, and he felt a tearing pain in his heart.

He hugged her violently, hugged her stiff body tightly, regretted endlessly, "It's my fault, I shouldn't lose my temper with you, let alone hit you... I'm just afraid, I'm afraid of losing my You, I'm afraid that you will leave me and Xiaozhi...and never come back again...I'm sorry!"

Xiaoying's body uncontrollably picked up chaff in his arms.

"Come back with me, Xiaoying, Xiaozhi is still waiting for us."

Xiaoying burst into tears, she didn't know why she was crying so sadly, she just wanted to cry hard, let tears wash everything, even though tears can't wash everything.

Guo Jia and Xiaoyu walked out of the train station. On this day, the sun was shining brightly in H City.

"The weather is really nice!" Guo Jia admired sincerely, then turned to look at the big backpack on Xiaoyu's shoulder, "Hi! Do you want me to help?"

Xiaoyu is thin, but not weak at all. He smiled at Guo Jia and said, "You want to embarrass me, don't you?"

Guo Jia also laughed, "You are such a good uncle! I don't know how many times a year I can visit your nephew, and I buy so many things every time. If you want to pack them in sacks instead, maybe you will give the administrative law enforcement car to him. Called."

(End of this chapter)