Paper rose

Chapter 87 The End of the Carpet (1)
Bai Yan didn't speak, but just shook his head, big tears rolling down his cheeks.

"Tell me, how did he fold it?" Kang Jian looked at her with tender eyes.

"That...isn't important." Bai Yan bit her lip and shook her head even faster.

"Which one is important?" Kang Jian's heart was trembling when he asked this sentence, and a huge joy rolled up like a tsunami like a thousand waves, rushing towards his face.

Bai Yan burst into tears and threw herself into his arms, wrapped his arms around his neck tightly, and buried his head in the crescent of his neck, "Kang Jian, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry..."

Kang Jian's hands froze in the air for a while, but within a second, he also hugged her waist and patted her back, "Silly girl, it doesn't matter, it doesn't matter at all." He murmured Repeatedly, talking, the eye sockets also became a little hot.

He raised his head, looked at the ceiling, took a deep breath, it really didn't matter, as long as she came out of the closed world, recognized him, loved him, no matter how big the grievance was, no matter how long the wait, he could bear it.

The tears of the white geese are like a sea that has burst a dike, and the tears can't stop.She cried for a while, raised her head, looked at him, then buried herself in his arms, and continued to cry.

His white shirt was wet with tears and snot, he simply ignored her, hugged her tightly, and let her cry.

Since Shang passed away tomorrow, she hadn't shed a single tear. All the grief was buried in her heart, making her lose her sanity.Sometimes, there is a channel for emotions to clear up. After venting fiercely, it is easy to face.

Finally, Bai Yan stopped crying, her shoulders twitched, and she gasped lightly in his arms.

He brought her knees together so that she could sit comfortably, looking at her red, swollen eyes with distress.

"Kang Jian," Bai Yan blinked, and pressed his wet cheek against his cheek, "I'm sorry, I... shouldn't have forgotten you. Actually, I'm not alone, I still have you."

"Yeah!" He nodded and looked at her encouragingly.

"Before I met you, my whole world was...tomorrow," Bai Yan paused, "He made me feel that it was not a mistake for me to come into this world. When we first got married, your indifference, your My mother's humiliation, and many other things, I am actually very painful and at a loss, but as long as I think about tomorrow, I can survive. I can't describe what he means to me, just like the backbone of the body, he... ...Suddenly leaving like that, my whole body is distracted..."

"It takes time to heal a broken heart," he said softly, a smile on his lips.

She stared blankly at his gentle eyes, and frowned guiltily, "Kang Jian, are you blaming me?"

He stroked her cheek, "You are my wife, but you are thinking of other men. Of course I have to complain. But I also have the responsibility. If I were by your side and hugged you that day, you wouldn't collapse Closed. In fact, Bai Yan, you are not collapsed, you are escaping, you are afraid. What you could have before, and what you thought was the most impossible to change is Shang Ming's love for you. He let go, and you were shocked. Stuck, afraid of everything, afraid that you will not be able to hold on to everything again, you even think that I will leave one day, so you hypnotize yourself and isolate yourself from the outside world. In your world, There is no loss, no parting, and no pain."

She stared at him intently for a long time before she said, "Will you...will you leave me?"

"Silly girl." He smiled and scratched her nose, "Your net has caught me tightly, can I leave? Besides, I don't want to leave, we still have a lot to do !"

She sighed softly, took his hand and pressed it to her heart, "Yes, I'm very scared, I'm afraid that I'm the only one in this world, and everywhere I go, I'll be filled with blank eyes and ridicule, as if I'm a living here The burden of the world. Without the encouragement of tomorrow, I can't face these. Now I know that I was wrong, there is no tomorrow, I... and you, you still need my love..."

"This is my smart wife. It's not that there is no tomorrow, and you have me after the next best thing, but you have always had me." He didn't dare to show too explicit joy, and carefully pecked and kissed her Lips, "Tell me, is your heart still hurting?"

"It hurts. Thinking of leaving tomorrow makes my heart ache." She looked into his eyes frankly, "But you are more important."

"What's so important?" He wanted to help her understand the confusion in her heart at once, and bit her finger coaxingly.

"We are family." She spoke slowly, word by word, but with great force, "I can't let the people who love me down and feel tired."

"My wife, it's okay to be tired or disappointed. The most important thing is that you make me feel your love. Just like when I was in Yuzhou, although the future was unpredictable, you said that you would wait for me in ten or five years At that time, I was not in despair. I learned that you used some tricks to let me land safely. At that time, I was ashamed and blamed myself, but I felt happy. It turns out that I am so important to you; it turns out that you love me so much .”

"Kang Jian, I'm not good, I've made you worry." She looked down at the shapeless paper rose in her hand.

It turned out that she was so important to him; it turned out that he loved her so much.

Kang Jian curled his mouth: "Honey, you can forget everything in the future, but you can't forget my love for you. Get up, your legs are numb, I should help you take a bath."

"Huh?" She looked at him wonderingly.

He pinched her cheek with a smile, "During the four months you were lost, I did not personally do anything about you."

The little face flushed abruptly, and she stood up shyly, turning her face away. "From now on, I... will do it myself."

"Honey, I'm not complaining, but I'm enjoying it. Your heart forgets me, but your body remembers me firmly. This is my only comfort." He rubbed his legs and stood up with a smile , leading her to the bathroom.

It's really strange, once the mind is clear, everything is slowly remembered.

Bai Yan remembered that at noon in the early spring, Shang Mingxing and Leng Feng were sitting in Leng Feng's apartment, and told her about the accident tomorrow; he remembered that he went to the operating room out of control, and then the memory stayed at that moment, and when he woke up, Kang Jian sat In front of her, I handed her a paper rose. The room was stuffy, and there were crickets chirping outside the window. It must be summer!
In the past four months, what did he do for her, how did he live in the original small bungalow, she didn't ask carefully, and don't ask, as long as she remembers that he loves her.

Love gives strength and courage to people, heals pain and rejuvenates hope.

Tomorrow, she will forever keep this name in her heart, just in her heart, nothing else.

One cannot deny the whole life just because of one loss, and one has the right to make oneself happy, because at this moment, she is not just her own.

A ray of dawn came into the bedroom from the window, Bai Yan turned sideways, the even breathing by the pillow and the warmth from the body under the quilt, which was only a little distance away from her, all reminded her how much this man treats her. cherished.

Their embrace was as close as in the past, there was no strangeness of being separated for four months at all, and she didn't feel any strangeness: the body seemed to have an independent memory system, and once touched, it could evoke that familiarity.

This was Bai Mumei's previous bedroom. Except for the bigger bed, the other furniture remained the same.When taking a shower last night, he was afraid that she would slip and stay in the bathroom.She undressed in front of him, and saw each other naked, a little embarrassed, but not uncomfortable.

After the two of them took a shower, they went to bed.

He took her in his arms, hugging, just hugging.In this way, Kang Jian felt very satisfied. He was worried that she was just sober and psychologically unable to accept too intense intimacy, so he waited for her to accept it naturally.

The two talked for a while. He talked about his work and the decoration of the new house in Binjiang. A huge stone was lifted from his heart, and he fell asleep soon, smiling in his sleep.

Suddenly, Kang Jian changed his posture and buried his face in her neck, motionless, as if he was sleeping soundly.

She moved her body carefully, turned her head, and looked at the thin face resting on her shoulder and neck with the corner of her eye. His eyelashes were slightly undulating, the bridge of the nose was straight, and the thin lips were tightly pressed.She sighed in her heart, he didn't sleep soundly, he seemed to be alert all the time.For more than 100 nights in the past, he must have been very worried about losing himself!
As soon as he moved, Kang Jian immediately opened his eyes and hugged her even tighter, "Xiaoyan, what do you want?"

"I'll get up and make you breakfast."

Kang Jian blinked and let out a sigh of relief, "Today is Saturday, we don't have to go to work, we will go out to eat later. After eating, let's go shopping."

She let out an oh, relaxed her body, and pressed her body closer to his arms.

The two of them stayed in bed until nine o'clock. After washing up, they went to a porridge shop opposite the cultural compound to have porridge.

"Major Kang, take your lover out shopping!" the porridge shop owner warmly greeted.

Kang Jian smiled and nodded.

"You know them very well?" She was a little surprised.

"We are regular customers of this shop. The porridge the boss gives us is the thickest and thickest, isn't it, boss?" Kang Jian turned his head and asked.

The eyes of the owner of the porridge shop almost popped out of his sockets. Was Magistrate Kang talking to his wife just now?Can his wife understand?
The two left the porridge shop, Kang Jian took Bai Yan's hand, "Speaking of which, you are a native of Yun County, now, as a landlord, take me to the places you most want to visit. "

Bai Yan took him to school, to the grove in the suburbs, to a small supermarket near the hospital... These places are where she and tomorrow have often stayed, today, it is a formal farewell, From now on, it will be kept in memory, and she will leave her love to Kang Jian wholeheartedly.

Along the way, the two didn't talk much, she stopped, he stopped, she looked around, he looked at her.

"Okay, let's go home!" After turning around, I was a little tired, and it was almost noon, and both of them were sweating.

"Xiaoyan," Kang Jian pulled her into the shade of a tree, "don't forget anything on purpose, you can bring it up tomorrow if you want. I can't replace the past of you and him, but the present I gave you And in the future, he can't replace him. I can't compare with him."

She raised her head and stroked his face.The skin under his palm is warm, and his smile is warm.

She raised her head slightly, and put her lips close to his ear, "I love you, Kang Jian!"

This does not seem to be a word of love, but a solemn promise.

Kang Jian smiled and hugged her tightly.

With two days off in a week, it is rare for Leader Kang to spend time with his wife without doing business.He didn't tell other people the news of Bai Yan's recovery, for fear that others would run over in surprise and take up the time he and his wife were alone.

Two days passed very peacefully.He looked at Bai Yan quietly, and when she walked into the yard and looked at the windows of the shop, she just sighed, and there was no severe pain on her face.

In the past four months, while she closed herself, she was also working hard to heal her wounds!
I went to work on Monday, and in the morning was the county's flood control meeting, which was held in the county government's conference center, and Kang Jian was the first to speak.

Bai Mumei called and asked if she wanted to accompany Bai Yan?Kang Jian said no more.To be honest, he was afraid of accidents, so Bai Yan still followed him, feeling more at ease.

"I used to be like a briefcase, going here and there with you." The two walked to the street, and when they heard that she followed him to work, business trips, and entertainment, Bai Yan blushed like a ripe tomato, and didn't care. Have the courage to move forward.

Suddenly, she tilted her head again, and said confidently: "However, you also have to thank me. Without my foolishness, how could you have the image of being close to the people today. Speaking of it, my sacrifice is quite big."

Kang Jian didn't smile, but was very excited in his heart.It's been a long time since Bai Yan's teasing tone!
"Yes, wife, you are my good wife." He closed his eyes dotingly.

The two entered the county government office, and the passers-by greeted Kang Jian respectfully. No one was surprised when they saw the white geese, and no one noticed any difference in the white geese today.

Bai Yan rolled his eyes at the sky, speechless!

Jian Jian had already revised and proofread the speech, and put it on Kang Jian's desk.

Kang Jian said to Bai Yan: "Find a magazine and read it yourself, I'll familiarize myself with the speech first."

Bai Yan patrolled the room, the newspaper was the Party newspaper, and the magazine was either "Half-Monthly Talk" or "Party Affairs Work". His small mouth was pursed, he took a pen in boredom, and scribbled on the paper, thinking about what to do in a few days. Going back to Binjiang to work, she also wanted to check on the decoration of the new house.

"Major Kang, it's time for us to go." Jian Jian walked in with the meeting minutes, and glanced at Bai Yan.

Kang Jian looked at his watch, nodded, and patted Bai Yan, "Xiao Yan, are you staying here, or going to the venue to accompany me?"

"I don't want to listen to your high-spirited talk, I'm right here. Hi, simple!" She raised her eyes and smiled at Simple.

"You...you..." Jian Jian pointed at her in astonishment, his mouth opened and closed, but he couldn't say a complete sentence.

"What did I get on my face?" Bai Yan wondered and touched his face.

"You're awake!" He simply looked at Kang Jian and then at Bai Yan inquiringly, his face flushed with excitement.

Kang Jian smiled, grabbed the speech script and walked outside.

Bai Yan understood, and gave a simple look, "What did you wake up? I'm not in a coma. I was just sick for a few days."

I simply pinched my arm, it hurts!

"Yes, yes, I was sick for a few days... Uh, not a few days, but more than 100 days. Nurse Bai, you made a mistake." Simple and serious.

"Secretary Jane?" Kang Jian walked to the stairs, and it seemed that Jian Jian hadn't followed.

"Major Kang, I'll be right there." Jian Jian shook his head and sighed, took out his mobile phone from his arms, and dialed in a hurry, "My dear, hurry up, ask for leave and rush to Yun County. What's wrong with Baiyan, Oh, what's wrong with her. Don't worry, it's not a bad thing, it's a good thing. She's normal, and she's staring at me..."

At an arm's length away, Bai Yan heard an earth-shattering scream coming from the microphone, she shrugged unbearably.

For some reason, the eye sockets became sour.

Maybe it's too happy!
At six o'clock in the morning, Kang Jian was awakened by his biological clock on time.

As soon as he opened his eyes, he saw Bai Yan leaning on the bed and staring out the window in a daze, motionless.

Kang Jian smiled slightly, sat up, stretched out his hand to pull Bai Yan into his arms, and hugged her tightly, watching the faint morning light outside the window with her.The morning sun fell in large swaths in the small courtyard outside, reflecting the flowers and trees, and casting a beautiful red color.

"Thinking of Liu Jing and the others?" He asked in a low voice.

Bai Yan didn't speak, but nodded, then shook his head again.

Liu Jing, the head nurse in the operating room, and several nurses drove over from Binjiang immediately after receiving a simple call.At the moment they saw Bai Yan, several people hugged and cried and laughed at the same time.Kang Jian specially found a car, and accompanied them to visit the slightly famous scenic spots in Yun County, and then Bai Yan bought a bunch of vegetables, and gathered in the small courtyard to eat hot pot on a hot day.In order to let them play freely, Kang Jian deliberately delayed his return until very late.

Jian Jian had already sent them to the hotel to rest, and Bai Yan sat at the messy table with his chin in his hand, smiling foolishly.

"Are you happy?" He hugged her from behind.

"Kang Jian, everything from before is slowly coming back." She raised her head and accepted his falling kiss.

"Familiar friends, familiar topics, people talking about... Heh, actually I didn't say anything, I just listened, but I was very happy in my heart, as if I had never left them. Oh, by the way, Lin Feng gave birth Son, now she can be as valuable as mother and son."

"Who?" Kang Jian heard that the name was very strange.

"My classmate from the nursing school is also my colleague. She is a super beautiful woman like Yi Tongtong..." She stopped and looked at him sideways.

"Go on!" His expression remained the same.

The name Yitongtong has almost disappeared with the passage of time, and there is not a single wave in the bottom of my heart.The last time he saw her was at the second-hand car market.Later, she called him once, saying that she was in the south and met a good friend who might help her go abroad. He didn't say anything, and went to work after hearing.

(End of this chapter)