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Chapter 79 Pretending to Forgive Me (2)
Tang Ye had guessed that the girl might be born to her, or maybe she wasn't.To be honest, he was just astonished, and felt that it was not easy for her.Either way, she must have had a reason for doing it.People are always easy to be tired of the past.

They waved goodbye, and Tang Ye walked alone under the arch made of bougainvillea at the gate of the courtyard. Not long after the rain stopped, a gust of convective wind passed through, and the water droplets accumulated on the leaves fell together with the fragmented petals, and a few petals perched on his shoulders.Tang Ye flicked the purple-red petals with water droplets, turned his head and said to Ju Nian who was a few steps away: "I don't know why, but I suddenly remembered what a friend said to me - he said that there are two things in the world It’s the most helpless, the same is flying flowers and rain, and the same is the past. But I think, since there is a wind blowing past, it will disperse as soon as it disperses, what do you think?”

Ju Nian returned to Feiming's ward, and saw Han Shu standing there waiting.She had experienced too many things, but she didn't feel that his sudden appearance was any surprise.

"Feiming...she hasn't woken up yet?" Han Shu was a little embarrassed.

"The doctor gave her medicine." Ju Nian paused, and when he opened the door, he still turned sideways, "Do you want to come in?"

"Wait." Han Shuming nodded, and closed the door of the ward again with his backhand, "I have something to do with you, don't wake her up."

Ju Nian glanced at him, but didn't refuse, walked away a few steps, and found a place to sit down.It was he who said there was something to do, since he didn't open his mouth, she wasn't in a hurry.The hospital corridor at night is as quiet as the courtyard covered with loquat leaves.

Han Shu suddenly felt panicked and out of breath for no reason. He anxiously walked back and forth in front of her, pointed at Ju Nian, lowered his voice, and said, "You raise your daughter on his behalf. You raise their daughter on their behalf, you...you..." He didn't know what to say, seeing that she was silent all the time, he could only sit beside her helplessly, his whole body was wrapped in a sense of powerlessness.

"How could you do this?" He let out a long breath after asking, and muttered to himself, "That's right, I should have guessed that you would be like this a long time ago, you are stupid to a certain extent."

There is actually a thin layer of veil between "I can't believe it" and "I figured it out".Han Shu laughed at himself, isn't this what Xie Ju Nian would do?Wu Yu is dead, if the child's identity is not visible and no one wants it, how could she make Wu Yu's child homeless.If she would do this, she would not be the Xie Ju Nian today.

"Do you think they look alike?" I don't know if too many changes have diluted the sense of alienation between Ju Nian and Han Shu, so she just sat beside him and asked lightly, without grudges, grudges, or reasons The problem of unforgiveness is like an old friend who has not been seen for many years.

Before Han Shu tonight, many people had comforted Ju Nian, including teachers from the school, Tang Ye, and Ping Feng who came and left after hearing the news.They sympathized with her and extended a helping hand to her. Some were puzzled, some complained, and some tolerated Feiming's existence... But they didn't understand the reason, and Ju Nian didn't intend to. explain.It's not that she deliberately concealed it, but it's been too long, and many things are difficult to explain from the beginning. Even if you try your best, there are some things that others can't understand, because those people and those things don't really exist in their memories. Pass.Only one goes without saying, only one says, and I should have guessed so.Ironically, this person turned out to be Han Shu.

Although Ju Nian doesn't like to have any contact with Han Shu, she still has to admit that he also has a part in the past that she has experienced. Apart from Chen Jiejie, he is the only one who has witnessed those past, which is something that they cannot let go of. a part of.

Many times, Ju Nian said to herself, as long as she remembered that there was a boy named Wu Yu in this world, and only she remembered her little monk, that would be enough.Among the years she had, only those years when the little monk existed were colorful, and they were truly lived with flesh and blood. Live peacefully in the world of memories.However, when she held the twitching Feiming in her arms, when she realized with horror that maybe one day she would lose even Feiming, and even this embrace would become like a void, then what was left of her?Are there any memories left?But if this memory only exists in her heart, who will prove to her that it is not just a dream?What else can she use to support the small world she depends on for survival?
Now, Han Shu is beside her, he is not him, not Han Shu, he is a mirror to see Xie Ju Nian's past.He really reminded her that those pasts were not illusions.

Han Shu replied with a sneer, "Of course she does. She is like her father and her mother, except that she is not like you."

After he finished speaking, he regretted it. Didn't he agree to treat her well from now on?Even though the expected hug ended without a problem, how could he still be unable to control his mouth.

Fortunately, Ju Nian didn't seem to mind too much.She leaned lazily on the back of the chair, Han Shu lowered his head inadvertently, the light in the corridor made the two shadows on the terrazzo floor very close, he changed his posture slightly, and they really seemed to be cuddling.

"I asked why Chen Jiejie seemed to disappear from the earth for a year or two. It turned out to be because of this. She didn't have to have her own daughter, so why did she give birth? Hasn't she thought of coming back to Feiming all these years?" Han He said that he was afraid that too long silence would end that "snuggle", so he had to say something, but when asked about this, Ju Nian's silence made him angry again, "I knew there must be no, that guy is too unethical. Yes Yes, does she know that Feiming is being raised by you?"

Ju Nian said: "I didn't know it before, but I probably know it recently."

Han Shu patted his thigh, "She called me a few days ago and asked about you in a roundabout way. I thought she cared about me..." He stopped here, coughed to cover up, and continued She continued, "But it's not surprising when you think about it. I guess she doesn't dare to recognize this child now."

"is it?"

"Do you still think that the Chen family is as prestigious as before? A few years ago, Chen Jiejie's father failed to invest and fell into a big stumble in a project. Their Chen family is getting worse day by day, and now they are just relying on the family to support that share." It's just superficial."

Ju Nian thought of the couple he saw at the supermarket that day, "That's not bad, either."

Han Shu sneered, "Is it not bad? She knows it herself. Didn't she get divorced a few years ago? She stayed abroad and wandered around. I don't know how chic she is. In the end, she came back to remarry in despair. Without the Zhou family, she would probably have to go abroad Washing the dishes. She has short hands to hold people and a soft mouth to eat people, so she has been peaceful in the past few years. Fortunately, she has given birth to a son, otherwise life may not be easy. If I were her, I'm afraid I would have to take the If you keep this matter secret, you will not tell it even if you are killed."

He glanced at Ju Nian, then slowed down his tone and continued: "But although Feiming was born by her, she hasn't raised her for a day, so it's not as good as you have a fate with this child. If you didn't count on her in the past, even if it is Now, there is no need to count on her. Don't worry about things that are not clear... Don't worry about things that are not clear. There is also me, I will..."

He had never spoken in such a difficult way before. He was embarrassed and nervous. On the one hand, he was afraid that what he said would be too explicit to offend her, and on the other hand, he was afraid that it would be too subtle, so that she would not be able to understand the other meaning.

Ju Nian was indeed a little surprised, and couldn't help but glance at Han Shu. Under her gaze, Han Shu didn't know how to continue the next sentence, so he hurriedly took out a card and stuffed it into her hand indiscriminately.

Ju Nian was taken aback by him, and immediately stood up, "What... oh... no need..."

Han Shu easily got annoyed in front of her again, "Is my money dirtier than Tang Ye's?"

Ju Nian was afraid of alarming the nurses and other patients, so he hurriedly said, "I didn't bring enough money when I came out, and I didn't bring a passbook either. Mr. Tang put it on first, and I'll return it to him tomorrow."

After she finished speaking, she felt that Han Shu's face looked better, but she didn't expect that it was the unintentional "Mr. Tang" that made Han Shu feel relieved.

Han Shu pushed her hand holding the card back, "Take it as if I gave it to Feiming, I know, she has nothing to do with me, but I really hope she is my daughter, just like Chen Jiejie and Wu Yu, As long as there is Feiming... between them... well, not talking about them, I mean... I can treat her as mine... anyway, take care of her like you... don't get me wrong, I'm not because of you pity And to compensate you, whether you are pitiful or not... I am not saying that you are pitiful, I want to, I think..."

The more Han Shu talked, the less he knew what he was talking about. He thought that normal people would not be able to understand what he was trying to express.

But Xie Ju Nian was never a normal person.She cut him off.

"You know it's impossible, Han Shu."

Han Shu's face turned from red to white, and he gritted his teeth secretly, but his heart that was floating was settled because of her words that had no room for change.The worst and most embarrassing is nothing more than this, so what are you afraid of.At least it means she understands.

"You're rejecting me, right? It's nothing, it's really nothing." After comforting himself, he tried to put on the cynical smile he was good at, and said cheekily, "You said just now, it's impossible, Han Shu. Then I'm not Han Shu, you think I'm a passer-by who just passed by, we just met, say something casually...shall I say hello to the head office?"

Ju Nian was helpless, and handed back the bank card that belonged to him again, "Hi, Han Xiaoer, goodbye."

Seeing that Han Shu was not moving, she leaned over and put the card on a prominent position on the stool beside her, shook her head, and walked back to Feiming's ward.

"Orange year." Han Shu stopped her from behind.He pulled her hand forcefully, but the force was very light when he closed the card in her palm, "When something happens, can you think of me first? It's just a way for you to pretend to forgive me."

(End of this chapter)