The queen bullies me every day

Chapter 503 [The Empress Dowager's Extra Story [-]] It's a dream come true

(The inscription is excerpted from "Wu Ye Cry Last Night Wind and Rain")
Time passed day by day, Xuan Jue grew up day by day, and the emperor and I also began to grow old.

The emperor has become more and more confused lately.

His love for the Gongsun family is especially strong, which does not affect his need for more fresh women to stimulate and satisfy his desires.

The three-year draft was reduced to a two-year draft when he was 80 years old.

It's not that I don't know the reason why indulging in wine and sex hurts the body. The imperial doctor told me many times and asked me to persuade the emperor, but I just said, "The emperor is the son of heaven. I am a woman in this palace. If you talk too much, you must Let the emperor feel that this palace is jealous."

Those concubines in the harem rarely get close to the emperor, Gongsun brought those people to my palace, and wanted to invite me to persuade the emperor to restrain himself and put the dragon body as the most important thing.

I didn't go, and advised them not to go.

I still remember that I was leaning on the phoenix seat at that time, watching the strange or familiar faces dangling in front of me, blending with the light and shadow, I was a little dazed.

"Those newly selected show girls are old enough to be your children. Can you stop the emperor? Talking too much will be annoying."

Just this one sentence dissuaded everyone, but Gongsun's family knelt outside Chaoyang Palace for half the night because they really wanted the emperor's good.

Those who used to be in love with each other, what about now?

Sleeping warmly in the Lang Pavilion, I don't hear my concubine crying in the courtyard.

At that time, I felt a little lucky, glad that I pulled out early in the morning and didn't get stuck in the mud.

On the emperor's 83rd birthday, I had a big fight with him.

Because it was a trivial matter, I was annoyed because he said that Xuan Jue's temperament is too weak, which is not as good as Xuan Fing's, and needs to be tempered.

The stability of the country and the elimination of internal and external troubles are the great achievements of the 72nd Department of the Zhang family.

What does he mean by saying this to me now?
I know he never said anything without reason.

He told me from the side, "Now that my country is in order, I don't need the help of your foreign affairs department 72. Compared with Xuanjue, I prefer Xuanjue to be the emperor."

Is there such a good thing in this world?
The Gongsun family has won the favor of the emperor, and his children will come to share the throne with my children?

After that time, every time I saw Gongsun, I felt a sinister smile hidden on her face.

Show off your power and show your minions at me.

I premeditated and wanted to make a deal.

On the day of the draft this year, I added a medicine to the emperor's tea.

Not poison, but a flirt that made his blood boil.

He is a lot older than me, how can he bear such a stimulus?

Therefore, his sudden death was expected.

Only after he dies can my son's throne be preserved.

The Zhang family's lifelong efforts will pay off.

I know I hate poison, but why isn't he vicious?
I just did what he wanted to do before him.

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As a mother, you will always know and protect your children the most.

As for when I found out Xuan Jue's identity, it was actually much earlier than everyone exposed Hai Sheng's true identity to me.

I've always felt it, but I've always refused to believe it.

Speaking of Haisheng, I am really ashamed of this kid.

If he had been completely taken away by the illness when he was young, and those bizarre encounters in the future hadn't happened, I wouldn't feel so sad.

He was so young then, what was wrong with him?

I was wrong.

A misunderstanding made me give Xuan Jue all the hard work that should have been devoted to Hai Sheng.That kid hates me, and rightfully so.

But he shouldn't hate the world, and shouldn't use his misfortune as an excuse for his tyranny.

I took his life with my own hands, and fell into deep self-blame afterwards.I killed not only his individual, but also the first half of my life.

Since then, there has been a gap between Xuan Jue and me.

The estrangement comes from their own demons, and the embarrassment of facing each other without blood relatives.

I also dare not face it. All my life's efforts have been wasted.

As for Xuan Jue, he is really a very good child.

It is he who makes those glaciers that I care about melt away under his warm erosion.

He didn't say anything, he didn't do anything, he just told me with his own actions that no matter whether I was his biological mother or not, he would treat me as his biological mother and always be filial to me.

Is it enough?
I think that's enough.

Just like I have never lost half of my love for him because he is not my own son.

When I was able to reconcile with myself, it was like tearing off a black sackcloth that had been covering my life.

In the past, the slight light revealed from the gaps in the linen cloth, I thought it was where all the light was.

Until I lifted the sackcloth and looked directly at the dazzling sun, I didn't know that life could be so bright.

Later, Xuanjue's biological mother, Dragon Mother, found me. She told me about Xuanjue's situation, and told me that only I can save him in this world, and the price I paid for this was my own life.

She asked me if I would.

I am willing.

Her eyes widened and she asked me why.

Where did it come from?

I smiled and told her that all mothers in this world treat their children with the same heart, and it would be boring if we had to get to the bottom of it.

Mother Long took out my blood marrow. In the remaining half a year of my life, with my children and grandchildren by my side, this life is considered complete.

When the end was near, I begged the Dragon Mother to continue to live in my place.

I'm afraid to see my close relatives feel sad for me, and I don't want to leave with worries.

She promised me.

Several years later, she came to find me and said that I had passed away and walked very peacefully in front of Xuan Jue, and that he could continue to live his own life freely.

My obsession should also dissipate.

I was supposed to re-enter the six realms of reincarnation, but Mother Dragon kept me.She said I look like Qing'er.

"Stay here? Return to the East China Sea with me, and a hundred years of loneliness will always be a companion."

She smiled at me, and I nodded in response.

Looking back on my life, the ups and downs are like a dream.At the end of the day, I have done what I deserve, and I have never left any regrets.

To say something wrong, the only thing I learned from Dragon Mother.

She told me that the late Emperor's love for me was far deeper than I thought.It's just that he has his own stubborn temperament, and he is too close to me, afraid that the world will discuss his right and wrong, and he will do this in order to please my mother's family.

So he suppressed and buried this love in his heart, preferring to torture me rather than face it bravely.

I asked Dragon Mother how he is doing now.

She pointed to the handsome young man fishing on the shore of the East China Sea and told me that he was the descendant of the late emperor.

When I appeared in front of him, he only glanced at me, and tears welled up in his eyes.

The sea breeze was blowing slightly, I think he was blinded by the wind.

(End of this chapter)