swear not to be concubine

Chapter 142

Xu Zhongxuan took a rest today, but he didn't go back to Tongzhou. He just sat in his study and thought about things.

Recently, the emperor's health has become worse and worse. It seems that the days are getting worse, and he does not know when he will die suddenly.But even so, he hasn't said anything about Li Chujun yet.For this reason, the current ministers in the court can't help but speculate in private.

Speaking of which, although King Liang is the general trend at present, and King Ning is declining day by day, it is still necessary to make complete preparations for this kind of thing, so there is no slack in the slightest.Everyone tightened their strings and did not dare to be careless, so even on Xiu Mu's day, he stayed in Beijing, fearing that something might happen at any time.

And Jian Yan, he looked at the camphor wood brocade box on the top right of the desk, thinking silently in his heart, he didn't know what was going on with her now.Although he has replaced all the people serving Zheng Guogong and Li Yi with his people, so as to make Zheng Guogong stand aside and make it easier for Jian Yan to work in the backyard, he also arranged for Qi Hui and Bai Wei to enter Zheng Guogong. The house is by Jian Yan's side, but he is still worried, always afraid that something will happen to her.

He suddenly had the urge to meet Jian Yan.

He is a man who wants to do it when he thinks about it, so he stood up immediately, and strode out of the study door.

He was about to order Qi Sang to prepare the horse, but before he could call Qi Sang, he saw him rushing in from the courtyard gate.

"My lord," the midsummer day is really hot.Even though Qi Sang ran all the way along the long corridor and didn't get a little bit of sunlight, his forehead was still covered with beads of sweat.

But now he didn't care about whether it was hot or not, he just stood in front of Xu Zhongxuan with his hands down, raised his head and announced: "Mr. Le'an is here."

Xu Zhongxuan was taken aback.

Jian Yan is here?How could she come to him now?But what happened?

Rao was always calm, but at this moment he was still a little panicked.

He hurriedly stepped down the steps and was about to go to the front to meet her, but just as he went down the steps, Jian Yan had already come.

His little girl was wearing a light purple silver gauze jacket and a white thread-pick skirt, with a confused and frightened face, and she felt a little fluttering when she walked.

"Yan'er," Xu Zhongxuan called her in a low voice, quickly went up to meet her, stretched out his arms to support her, and asked, "What's wrong with you? What happened?"

Jian Yan didn't answer.She just leaned her head in his arms, and also called him in a low voice: "Xu Zhongxuan."

Xu Zhongxuan stretched out his right arm to embrace him firmly, and at the same time waved to Qi Sang and Siyue, Bai Wei and Qi Hui who followed Jian Yan.

The four of them withdrew very winkingly.

At this moment, Jian Yan felt that the strength in her whole body was taken away by someone, and she really couldn't even stand firmly.

Seeing this, Xu Zhongxuan simply bent over and hugged her, then strode into the study.

There is a couch under the moon-hole window in the study, covered with mats of asparagus grass.

Xu Zhongxuan carefully placed Jian Yan on the couch, but before he straightened up, he realized that his belt was being pulled, and at the same time Jian Yan's low voice came over: "Xu Zhongxuan, don't go. "

Xu Zhongxuan originally wanted to fetch water to wipe her face, but now seeing what Jian Yan said, he didn't go. Instead, he sat on the couch and asked her softly: "What's wrong with you?" ? What happened? Tell me."

Jian Yan still didn't answer.

She just got up from the couch, knelt down in front of Xu Zhongxuan, looked at him with red eyes, and twitched her nose: "Xu Zhongxuan, I want to cry."

Xu Zhongxuan was startled at first.

No one is looking at others eagerly to make this request.

But seeing Jian Yan's current appearance, he also knew that she was not joking.

She must have been very uncomfortable during this period of time, right?But she had to hold on.

She wanted to take care of and appease Li Xin, and the knot of Nie Qingniang's suicide had always been stuck in her heart.She wanted to avenge Nie Qingniang, so she had been planning how to make Aunt Wan Li Nianyi and the others receive the punishment they deserved.

But she was just his little girl, and she shouldn't have endured so much pain.

When Xu Zhongxuan thought of this, he felt oppressed and dull pain like a big stone was pressed in his chest.

He stretched out his hand and gently held Jian Yan in his arms, with a soft voice: "Cry. I will always be here with you."

Although he is thin and his arms are not necessarily wide, but lying in his arms can still make Jian Yan feel safe.

It seems that the boat that has been bumping and wandering has finally found its own safe haven. All the ups and downs, the anxiety and confusion of the rest of the life after the catastrophe, this moment can finally be released happily.

Jian Yan burst into tears in his arms.

Since Nie Qingniang died, she has been holding on, and she didn't, and she didn't dare to let herself shed a tear.She was afraid that if she cried, all the unwillingness and hatred in her chest that had been supporting her for revenge would also be vented, and then her whole body would collapse.But now, lying in Xu Zhongxuan's arms, smelling the reassuring Canaan wood fragrance on his body, she feels that it doesn't matter if she collapses like this.

And Xu Zhongxuan was there.He was always by her side, so she cried unscrupulously.

And Xu Zhongxuan didn't look down at her.

He didn't dare to look down at her crying sadly.

He blamed himself very much.It was all because of his incompetence that Jian Yan had to bear so much pain that she should not have endured.

She was supposed to live a carefree and happy life under his wings.

Xu Zhongxuan's eyes dimmed, and his arms hugged Jian Yan more tightly.

The bamboo curtain on the window of the moon hole has been rolled up, and a cluster of hosta flowers can be seen in the corner.Occasionally there is a breeze, and the white and slender hosta flowers are shaking gently, with a refreshing fragrance.

Jian Yan didn't know how long she had been crying, anyway, Xu Zhongxuan never interrupted her.

He kept holding her like this, letting her cry like this.

In the end, Jian Yan felt a little embarrassed.

She gradually stopped crying, stretched out her hand, and wrapped it around the sachet hanging on his leather belt.

The dark green sachet, embroidered with orchids and flying butterflies, was the one she made for him back then.

There is probably something like mint in it, and it smells refreshing.

When Xu Zhongxuan heard her crying stop, he lowered his head to look at her.

The little girl's eye circles were red, the tip of her nose was also red, her face was full of tears, and the hair on both sides of her temples was messed up just now in his arms.

Even if Jian Yan didn't look in the mirror, she knew that her current appearance must be ugly.

So she turned her head, buried her whole face in his arms, and said sullenly: "Don't look at it."

Xu Zhongxuan chuckled, stretched out his hand to hook her chin, and lifted her face up.Then he reached out and gently wiped away the tears on her face.

The face under the fingertips was as white as snow under the moon, as smooth as tofu, and the eyes that had just cried were extraordinarily clear, as bright as a puddle of clear water.

Obviously looking at such a slender and weak body, how come there are so many tears.

Xu Zhongxuan shook his head and smiled wryly, then stretched out his arms to wrap her in his arms, resting his chin on his head, and asked her softly: "What happened? Can you tell me now?" ?”

Jian Yan froze when she heard the words.

In fact, she felt that what she made today was a bit hypocritical.But she didn't know what happened before, and there was a kind of tyranny in her heart that wanted to kill.

To be honest, she was a little intimidated by herself.

In front of Xu Zhongxuan, she felt that she didn't need to hide anything from him, so she said, "I don't know either. How should I put it, I just suddenly felt dazed, as if I had become a completely different person. I don't know myself like this, and I can't accept myself like this. But I have to avenge my mother's revenge, and I can't back down."

After a pause, she said again: "Actually, it's nothing. I think maybe I'm too tired recently, so I just want to cry. Now that I'm crying, I feel much better."

So those things that have not been done, still have to be done.

But when Xu Zhongxuan heard this, he felt only distressed.

Earlier, he had mentioned to Jian Yan that Aunt Wan, Li Yi and others should let him handle it, as long as she was doing well, it would be better than anything else, but Jian Yan refused.

She had a firm expression at the time, and what she said with red circles was that my mother's revenge must be avenged by me, a daughter.At that time, he couldn't do it, so he had to answer.

But hatred is a double-edged sword.

If you take revenge on others, why not hurt yourself?Xu Zhongxuan didn't want Jian Yan to bear these burdens.

It's fine for him to do such a thing.

So Xu Zhongxuan thought for a while, then carefully considered his words, and said slowly: "Yan'er, you can put aside all the affairs in Zheng Guogong's mansion for the time being. From now on, let me do those things."

"No need," Jian Yan shook her head, "I've almost solved it, and Li Yi is the only one left."

Xu Zhongxuan was silent for a while, and then said: "Recently there is chaos in Waci, and the court urgently needs a general to go out to fight. The emperor intends to use Li Yi. I have thought about it. Let him lead the troops to fight against Wacha, make great achievements in battle, and wrap his body in horse leather. It will be greatly touched. Even if the king of Liang succeeds in the future, with Li Yi's contribution, he will not do anything to Zheng Guogong's mansion. What do you think of my method?"

Jian Yan didn't make a sound.But she also knew that this was the best way.

In fact, she also knew that even if she hated Li Yi again, what would she do to Li Yi?

Killing people will pay for their lives. It is impossible for her to take a knife and stab Li Yi to death.Just let him be sick for a long time, and then end up dying like this?But there will still be people who are suspicious.It would be better to let Li Yi go to the battlefield as Xu Zhongxuan said, and use his military achievements to pave the way for Li Xin's stable future.

She always wanted to think about Li Xin's future.

After Jian Yan thought back and forth for a while, she gritted her teeth and nodded in agreement.

Xu Zhongxuan secretly breathed a sigh of relief.

Then he got up and took the brocade box on the desk, opened it, and inside was a jasper jade hairpin.

The fineness of this jasper is very good, as green as a pool of green water, and the jade hairpin carved on the head of the hairpin is in bud, slender and soft.

Xu Zhongxuan explained: "Two days later it will be your 15th birthday, and I should have given you a gift, but now your mother has gone, and there is no one in charge in Zheng Guogong's mansion, and you are in the midst of a funeral. During the period, I’m afraid this gift can’t be done. After thinking about it, I only bought this jasper magnolia flower hairpin for you. As for the others, Yan’er, I’ll supply them to you later.”

Jian Yan stretched out her hand to hold his hand, choking with sobs: "No need. Xu Zhongxuan, this is already very good."

How lucky to have him by my side no matter what the situation is.

Xu Zhongxuan stretched out his hand to hold her hand instead, and at the same time raised his other hand, and put the jasper orchid hairpin on her bun, and then hugged her tightly into his arms.

Then he lowered his eyes, and lightly kissed her black and soft hair, thinking in his heart, these matters must be resolved quickly.He didn't want to see Jian Yan continue to be sad like this.

(End of this chapter)