swear not to be concubine

Chapter 143

Jian Yan was sitting on the wooden kang by the window, lowering her head and slowly rubbing a dress in her hand.

Teeth-white pair of jackets, cuffs embroidered with pink branches and peach blossoms.On the light blue lower skirt, the petals of pink peach blossoms are embroidered at the waist, and the pink peach blossoms are embroidered in the middle, and the pink peach blossoms are embroidered in branches at the hem of the skirt.

Although it is just a skirt, you can see the beautiful peach blossoms in spring, and there is a peach blossom rain in the breeze.

Madam Wei was sitting on a small twig beside her, and she said to Jian Yan: "... this dress was ordered by Madam to be made in Liuxian Pavilion early in the morning. Yes, I said to use the best material and the best embroiderer, so this dress has been made for nearly three months, and it was just delivered today."

He took out another black lacquered mother-of-pearl brocade box, and inside it was a set of golden silk peach blossoms: "This is also a set of head coverings that my wife ordered Li Jingcheng to make in the best treasure house in the capital, and it is also for the girl to wear on that day of."

With trembling hands, Jian Yan took the brocade box over, and casually took out a golden silk peach hairpin.

The red gold hairpin, the head of the hairpin is a few peach blossoms clustered together.Among the stamens is a pink pearl the size of a little finger, which is very valuable just by looking at it.

She couldn't stop thinking of what Nie Qingniang said to her with a smile at that time.

"My Yan'er was born so soft, beautiful and charming. When you reach the age of Ji, Mother will invite all the female relatives of the noble families in the capital to watch the ceremony. Let them all envy me for giving birth to such a good daughter." .”

It will be her 15th birthday in a few days, and Nie Qingniang sent her the custom-made dress and jewelry, but she is not here anymore.

Jian Yan tightly held the golden peach blossom and pearl hairpin in her hand, lowered her head, sobbing softly.

When Mother Wei saw her crying, she couldn't help but shed tears.

"Ma'am, she died so badly." After all, Madam Wei couldn't hold back, crying more and more sadly, "Who knew Madam would do such a tragic thing."

Ever since Wei Momo saw Nie Qingniang lying on the bed lifelessly that day, she was frightened and stimulated. In addition, she is old, so these days she has been sick, lying on the bed and getting up. No, but I just got better in the past two days, and I can walk a few steps in the courtyard with a cane.

But whenever she thinks of Nie Qingniang, she still sheds tears.

Seeing her crying, Jian Yan became even more sad for a while.

But she stopped crying afterward, pulled the corners of her lips slightly, tried her best to squeeze out a smile, and stretched out her hand to take Wei Wei's hand to comfort her.

"Nurse Wei, don't cry. You are an old man beside my mother. Now that my mother has passed away, to me and Xin'er, you are our relatives. So you have to take good care of your body, Xin'er and I In the future, I will have to ask you to teach me something."

Nanny Wei knew that she was trying to ease her heart, and wanted to laugh, but she still couldn't laugh, so she could only hold Jian Yan's hand tightly, nodding incessantly while weeping.

"The old slave saves, the old slave saves. From now on, as long as the girl and the son don't dislike the old slave, the old slave will always serve the girl and the son."

Xu Zhongxuan's actions were quick, but within two days, the emperor arrived at Zheng Guogong's mansion to resume Li Yi's will.Because of the urgency of the war, he was ordered to set off for the border immediately.

The day before departure, Li Yi had someone call Jian Yan and Li Xin over.

After Nie Qingniang's accident, Jian Yan asked someone to clean up a yard next to the Xinyi Pavilion and came out. The siblings lived next to each other. One was to make it more lively, and the other was to take care of him conveniently.

Li Xin was originally timid and didn't talk much, but after Nie Qingniang left, he talked less and less, and often sat there alone in a daze.Seeing Jian Yan, she was naturally anxious.

When Li Yi sent someone to call her and Li Xin, they were having dinner.After Jian Yan thought about it, she still took Li Xin to the front yard together.

She knew in her heart that no matter what happened in the final battle, since Li Yi went to the front line, he would not come back.

He can't come back.Since Xu Zhongxuan agreed to her, then he will definitely be able to do it.

and……

She held the two pieces of raw gold in her purse.

These two pieces of raw gold were originally left by her for Li Yi.Husband and wife have to share weal and woe, Nie Qingniang swallowed the gold and died, Li Yi's heartlessness was indispensable in this, so when she saw the two pieces of raw gold, she stayed.

She kept these two pieces of raw gold for Li Yi.

Thinking of this, Jian Yan tightened her grip on the purse hanging around her waist.

Li Yi lives in the front yard now, because Xu Zhongxuan greeted that doctor, so he has been 'ill'.

But in the past two days, his 'illness' has gradually recovered.

Those who want to go to the battlefield need a good body after all.

But even if his illness is cured, his whole person looks more than ten years older than before.

A hydrangea palace lantern was lit on the roof of the room, and candles were lit everywhere, illuminating the room brightly.

Li Yi was sitting in an armchair in the open room.

Jian Yan and Li Xin stepped forward to salute, each called their father, and then stood aside with their hands down, both of them lowered their heads, and said nothing.

Li Yi sighed secretly.

He knew that this pair of sons and daughters were born with him.

Although the father-son or father-daughter relationship between him and them was not deep in the past, but with Nie Qingniang's death, that meager father-son and father-daughter relationship is gone.

He opened his mouth and gently let the two of them sit down.

Jian Yan and Li Xin didn't speak, but sat in the first and second armchairs on the right.

He still lowered his head, didn't look at Li Yi, and didn't intend to speak.

Li Yi looked at them with a good eye.

These were originally his two sons and daughters, but now they have turned into this appearance.

He sighed, opened his mouth slowly, and said, "You two brothers and sisters are right to resent me. It's me, alas, it's all because I don't know people well."

That day after Jian Yan interrogated all the maids and servants in Tongxiang Courtyard, she asked Si Yue to record Aunt Wan's crimes over the years, and then sent Ting Feng to show Li Yi the stack of papers.

She wanted to let Li Yi know that Aunt Wan, who was soft-tempered and docile in his heart, turned out to be such a femme fatale in private.

After Li Yi saw these, he was really furious immediately.

He immediately sent someone to stick Aunt Wan to death.

But what good is that?Even if he killed Aunt Wan right now, Nie Qingniang would not be able to come back, and his two sons and daughters were separated from him after all.

But originally, if Jian Yan hadn't lost back then, Nie Qingniang would not have been lingering in bed for so many years, Jian Yan would not have suffered so much, and Li Xin would not have become a cowardly person because of Aunt Wan's calculations .

Originally, the four of them should be together with He Lele, but now, he and Nie Qingniang are separated by yin and yang, but Jian Yan and Li Xin will never get close to his father again.

What has he done all these years?But now, everything is his own fault.

Li Yi felt heartbroken instantly, and his eye circles felt a little hot.

But he still tried his best to hold back.It's just that when he opened his mouth to speak, his voice still couldn't stop choking.

"I always dream about your mother these days. In my dreams, she is still the gentle and smiling little girl who can be shy when she says a few words."

When he said this, his choking sound became louder and louder, and he couldn't speak at all.I had no choice but to stay silent for a while, and try my best to calm down my emotions.

After a while, I heard his voice saying again: "Xin'er, I always think of you when you were a child these days. When you were just born, you were wrinkled and your eyes hadn't even opened yet, so I knew You stuffed your fist into your mouth. When you were young, you were actually a very naughty child, very lively. If it wasn’t for what happened later, you wouldn’t have become such a temper now. Hate me To think that you have always believed what Aunt Wan said, and scolded you like that every time I saw you. Xin'er, do you really blame Daddy in your heart?"

Li Xin hung his head and did not answer.

But his eye circles were red and his nose was sour.The hands resting on the lap were tightly clenched into fists.

Who doesn't want to have a dad who loves them?What's more, Li Yi is still so tall and mighty in his heart.What he admired most when he was a child was his father, and he thought that when he grew up, he would ride a steed and go to the battlefield like his father, and become a person who galloped on the battlefield like his father and made the enemy fearful.But then he was frightened like that, got seriously ill, and then became cowardly, always afraid that someone would harm him, but at that time Li Yifei didn't comfort him, on the contrary, every time he saw him Sometimes, he would always be reprimanded for acting like a smug, unfit to be on stage.

But several times, he also saw Li Yitong talking to his elder brother in such amiable manner, praising his elder brother like that, with an undisguised love in his tone and expression.I even scolded him in front of my eldest brother a few times, how could I, Li Yi, who is so famous, have such a cowardly son as you?Why can't you be half as good as your big brother?
And now my mother is dead again, and she committed suicide.Speaking of which, although Li Nianyi and Aunt Wan were the masterminds, in the end Li Yi also contributed to the flames.

Li Xin's clenched fist clenched and then loosened, loosened and clenched again.

Over the years, he has been used to lowering his head when talking to people, not daring to look into people's eyes.Especially when facing Li Yi.

His father has always been so harsh to him...

But after a while, Li Xin finally took a deep breath, then he raised his head and looked into Li Yi's eyes calmly.

"Father," although his voice was a little trembling, but his eyes were still firm after all, "I hate you. If you hadn't trusted Aunt Wan all these years, my sister would not have been lost back then, and my mother would not have been sick all the time. I will not be like this, and my mother will not die. But now, look at what my mother, sister, and I have become? Even if you feel remorse in your heart, you also ordered Aunt Wan to be shot, but What's the use of that? Everything in the past will never happen again. So what kind of father-son relationship is there between us? Let's leave it at that."

Speaking of this, he bowed his head again, and smiled self-deprecatingly: "But I'm just pretending to be affectionate. Father, I'm afraid that you never have any father-son love in your heart."

Having said that, he no longer ignored the shocked expression on Li Yi's face, got up and walked out of the room on his own.

He didn't want to stay with Li Yi for another moment.

Li Yi looked at his thin but still straight back, and felt as if a knife was stirring in his heart.

His son actually hated him so much.

But Li Xin was right to hate him, all of this was originally his fault.

He held back his tears and looked at Jian Yan who was still sitting there without moving.

But he opened his mouth, but in the end he didn't know what to say to Jian Yan.

This is his only daughter-in-law. Of course, if he didn't listen to Aunt Wan's words, but listened to Nie Qingniang's words, and searched for her in Longxing Mansion from door to door, he might be able to find her back, and she would not be affected. Suffering for so many years.

But even knowing that she had suffered so much, when Li Nianyi and Aunt Wan said they wanted her to marry away to the northwest instead of Wen'an County Lord, he did not object and agreed.

What Qing Niang said is right, there is obviously room for redemption, why didn't he make it back?

As long as, as long as he agreed to Xu Zhongxuan's marriage proposal at that time, then all this would not happen now.

He is sorry for his daughter.

"Yan'er," he finally opened his mouth with choked sobs, and asked in a low voice, "You, do you hate Daddy?"

Jian Yan looked up at him without making a sound.

How can the current Li Yi still be as tall and mighty as she was when she first met?In the past two months, he has lost a lot of weight, his face is even more haggard, his temples are gray, he looks ten years older.Not to mention the red circles under his eyes, the way he wanted to cry but tried his best to hold back, it was really pitiful to look at.

But how pitiful can it be?If you do something wrong, and you say a few good words at the end, if you look pitiful, will you be able to write off all the wrong things in the past?
Jian Yan's hand that had been holding the purse loosened.

She reached out to untie the purse, then stood up, and put the purse on the rosewood Eight Immortals table beside Li Yi's hand.

Then she turned around and left the house without saying a word, and went out to look for Li Xin.

She also had nothing to say to him.

But Li Yixian didn't know what was in the purse.But when he couldn't wait to reach for the purse and open it, and poured out the contents, he couldn't help crying.

Huo Ran lying in his palm were two pieces of raw gold.

At that time, Qing Niang died by swallowing gold, but now Yan'er gave him these two pieces of raw gold, the meaning of which could not be more obvious.

Li Yi couldn't help but folded his palms together, tightly holding the two pieces of raw gold, tears stained his face.But then he started laughing like crazy again.

The next day he led the army out.Three months later, the news came that Wacha was defeated and Li Yi, the commander-in-chief of the three armies, died.

The emperor was greatly moved when he heard the words, and immediately decreed to give Li Yi the posthumous title of Zhongyong.At the same time, his son Li Xin inherited the title of Zheng Guogong, and he was hereditary, and he was granted the iron certificate of Dan Shu.His daughter Li Nianyan was granted the title of Le'an County Lord by Le'an Township Lord Jin.

Later, some soldiers in the army rumored that when the commander-in-chief Li Yi took the lead that day, he had no sword wounds on his body.And after that, Waci had already been defeated, and it was time to clean up the battlefield, but then Li Yi, who seemed to have nothing wrong with him, was shaking on his horse's back. Save time, just let go.

When Jian Yan heard such rumors, she was standing in front of the courtyard gate of Ya'anju with her hands together, looking at the golden ginkgo leaves all over the ground.

All she was thinking was, so be it.

It's just that if people really have an afterlife, I still hope that Nie Qingniang will never meet Li Yi again.

Then she looked up at the blue sky above her.

In the golden autumn of October, the sky is high and far away, and the sky is cloudless.A wind blows from the foot of the mountain in the suburbs, rolling up a thick layer of golden ginkgo leaves on the ground, just swirling like that, all the way away.

(End of this chapter)