Love for a limited time

Chapter 181 It took ten years to beat him
My mother and I went upstairs together, and when we entered the room, my mother asked me: "What's the matter with you two, it's weird, didn't you say that you will move to a new house over there after you get married? Why are you so anxious!"

"It's nothing, he is worried about you, he knows that you are not in good health, and he is afraid that the construction on the other side will affect your rest!" I didn't tell my mother that I saw Song Junxi today, so as not to worry her.

"Xia Xia, Zhiwen was there today. Mom saw his good intentions, so she didn't refuse. In fact, Mom still wants to live alone. It's not good for you newlyweds to live with an old man like me!"

"Mom, why do you think so, Zhiwen's parents are both in his hometown, and he has a younger brother in his hometown, and he can't get away, so you are the only one, and you can take care of us when we live together.

As you can see, he is busy with work, and I am also very busy in Sister Yueyan's studio every day. I can't take care of my family at all. You can't help me take care of it! "

Dad has already left, only Mom is left, how could I leave her alone.

"Mom just moved over there, I see you are in a hurry, you have a red nose and red eyes!" My mother laughed at me.

"Mom, I can't live without you!" I hugged her, "Mom, you're the only one I have left, you are not allowed to leave me!"

"What stupid things are you talking about? Mom will leave you one day, and Zhiwen will be your closest relative in the future. Mom just hopes that you will love each other and live a good life!"

My mother took my hand: "Xia Xia, the wedding day is getting closer, you can't be stupid!"

"Mom, I know, don't worry!"

After I took a shower, I picked up my phone and checked. There were two missed calls and a text message. I'm downstairs!
No name was written, but I knew there would be no one else but him.

I didn't want to ignore it, and was about to turn off the phone and go to sleep, when he was calling, I pressed the answer button in a panic.

His anxious voice came clearly from the phone: "Xia Xia, I'm downstairs, I'll wait for you until you come down!"

I silently hung up the phone and sat on the bed in a daze.

Time passed by, and it was almost twelve o'clock. I stood at the window and looked down, and I saw his slender figure, leaning on the car, smoking a cigarette with his head bowed.

When did he start smoking, he never smoked before.

Then he smiled bleakly, in ten years, many things will happen, and many things can be changed.

He doesn't want such a dazzling Han Xiaoya, how is it possible, maybe he just feels guilty towards me!

I forced myself to lie down and sleep, but as soon as I closed my eyes, my mind was full of him. I knocked my head heavily, telling myself not to think about it, not to think about it again.

But he didn't listen at all, he was sad, he was bright, he was affectionate. . . . .

I put on a coat and went downstairs in slippers. When he saw me coming down, he looked surprised, threw the cigarette butt on the ground, and stamped it out.

"I thought you'd let me wait all night!" Song Junxi didn't show any impatience, looking at me with a smile on his lips, his face was full of exhaustion.

"Song Junxi, what are you doing? Bitter tricks? We are over, don't come to me again!" We had already ended ten years ago, and if we do this now, it will only make each other more painful.

We tried so hard to be together ten years ago, what happened?
It's impossible for me and him.

"Xia Xia, I know you have suffered a lot for so many years, and I will never let you be wronged again!" Song Junxi stretched out his hand to hug me, but I took a quick step back, but he was empty.

"It's impossible for us, it's impossible, how many times do you need me to say it before you understand, you stay away from me now, we live our own lives, this is helping me, I beg you!"

In the silent night, under the gray street lights, I broke down and yelled at him.

"Xia Xia, I know you don't love him! I don't believe you have forgotten me!" Song Junxi took a step closer, and I took a step back. Gradually, I had nowhere to go.

He wanted to reach out and pull me, but I threw it away with all my strength: "Why do you say that I don't love him? If I didn't love him, how could I marry him? If you remember anything else, it’s just hate!"

His feet touched the steps behind him, and he almost sat on the ground.

Song Junxi grabbed me, and I backed up subconsciously again, staggering, trying to pull me back, but it was too late, I fell straight backward.

Just drop it, what is this pain?
I opened my eyes without the pain I imagined.

I did fall to the ground, but he was underneath, so I didn't feel any pain.

But he must have fallen hard, after all, he was bearing the weight of two people.

I felt distressed for a while, got up and quickly pulled him up: "Are you a fool?"

"Xiaxia!" Song Junxi took the opportunity to hug me: "I don't believe your words, I don't believe you love him, you still love me, right? Xiaxia, let's start again, shall we?"

I was crying so hard, I leaned on his shoulder and wet his white shirt after a while.

I bit his shoulder hard, but he didn't move at all. I couldn't bear to see the little blood oozing from the place I bitten.

How much love is in my heart, how ruthless I am now, very helpless, I desperately want to forget, spent ten years, but I can't match his words of Xia Xia!
I hate myself for being like this, I can't be like this.

I can no longer bear the pain of losing a loved one!
"I don't love you anymore, I really don't love you anymore. The love ten years ago has exhausted all of me. I have really let go. There are many kinds of emotions in this world, not only love, we can't So selfish, Junxi, we can't do it anymore, the ending was already doomed ten years ago!"

I broke away from his arms and squatted on the ground crying loudly, this is the first time in ten years that I indulged myself like this.

For ten years, I have been telling myself every day, don't cry, be strong, I don't have time to be weak and cry, and remember the past.

The road ahead requires me to walk step by step alone.

For so many years, I didn't even have the right to grieve.

"No, I came back this time to find you. I have the ability to protect you now, and I will never let the tragedy of ten years ago happen again. You believe me, I only want you now, Xia Xia, you can't marry him The one you love is me!" Song Junxi bent down and slowly helped me up.

"I don't love you anymore, I haven't loved you for a long time, Song Junxi, I have forgotten you for so many years, and you have a good life, don't you? We all have our own lives, don't be so entangled anymore , you have your Han Xiaoya, I have my Chen Zhiwen, we will go our separate ways and have nothing to do with each other!"

I'm cruel, if this entanglement continues, it won't benefit anyone, it will only make each other more painful.

Let it go!

"Xia Xia, I will never let you go again!"

"It's up to you, whoever I want to marry is my freedom, don't come here to look for me again, I will move out tomorrow!"

(End of this chapter)