Love for a limited time

Chapter 269 You Can See Me From Your Head
At least once in my life, I forget myself for someone, I don’t ask for results, I don’t ask for companionship, I don’t ask for possessions, I don’t even ask you to love me, I just want to meet you in my most beautiful years, all kinds of twists and turns , All kinds of hardships, I have no regrets, no complaints! ——Liu Xia

I waited for two days, but Junxi didn't tell me about his surgery.

It was Zhibin who waited and told me that the driver who died at the scene of the car accident had no family and had been alone for so many years.

I closed my eyes and sighed, the Han family's methods are really clever, it seems they have been prepared for it!

I stood in front of the window of the ward, with traffic passing by, people walking together or in a hurry, from sunrise to sunset, I always kept that thing in my heart!
In the past two days, the doctor came to check Junxi's body every day, measure his blood pressure, and even started to pay attention to his diet.

I naturally knew that this was preparing for the operation and adjusting my body to the best condition.

He didn't tell me, and I pretended not to know, just serving him daily as usual.

The two of us put down our official business, and this period of time is really like a fairy couple.

Aunt Yao went to the hospital to see Junxi every other day, and I greeted her with a smile every time. Although she felt a little uncomfortable in her heart, she was patient. Before she left, she always reminded me to take good care of my body, and children are important!
That day, Zhibin came to pick Junxi up, saying that he was going back to the company to deal with matters. Women are always sensitive, so I had a hunch that the person Junxi was going to meet today was Han Xiaoya.

Han Xiaoya also visited Junxi a few times during the period, but I blocked them all, so she didn't see her!

Junxi is going out suddenly today, so I'm naturally a little skeptical!
So, after he and Zhibin left, I put on my hat and glasses, tidied myself up, followed them out of the ward, took a taxi and followed them!

Sure enough, Junxi didn't go to the company, but made an appointment with someone in Happy Hour, instead of taking a box, but in the lobby.

I watched Zhibin help him sit up and leave, and then I found a seat not far from him and sat down. Anyway, Junxi can’t see me now, so I can sit where I can see him. After about 5 In a few minutes, I raised my head and saw Han Xiaoya pushing the door in. She was still glamorous and decent, and I couldn't help feeling funny.

I really don't know how long she will have to pretend like this!
Han Xiaoya walked to the dining table with generous steps, opened the stool, and sat down gracefully and proudly.

"Why are you sitting here?" Han Xiaoya's voice came into my ears clearly, obviously, she is used to sitting in a private room!
"It's very good here!" I naturally guessed that the reason why Junxi chose to be in the lobby was to avoid suspicion!
The waiter presented the menu, Han Xiaoya ordered the meal she liked, and then ordered Junxi's meal according to Junxi's taste, and still said politely: "Thank you." and handed the menu to the waiter.

The waiter bent slightly, held the menu in both hands, turned and left.

Junxi picked up the coffee on the table, took a sip, with a calm expression and a flat tone: "I have something to talk to you about in person today."

Han Xiaoya didn't raise her head to look at Junxi: "Accompany me to finish this meal first and then talk about other things!"

The waiter just brought the food.

Junxi didn't move his chopsticks, as if counting the time, he waited until Han Xiaoya was about to finish eating, and then said, "If I announce the truth of this car accident at this time, I'm afraid it won't matter to you or to me. The Han family is not good!"

Han Xiaoya paused holding the chopsticks, unable to eat anymore, she put down the chopsticks, raised her head, looked at Junxi's plain face, and asked, "What do you mean?"

Junxi smiled, seemingly indifferently, but in fact he was as cruel as he could be: "The meaning is very simple, it is to threaten you to let go!"

Han Xiaoya clenched her hands tightly and stared at Song Junxi, as if she couldn't believe that Junxi said what she just said.

Junxi's threat, she naturally understands that their two engagements have been terminated, no matter what the reason for the dissolution is, it is over and time has passed, but Han Xiaoya's current behavior is completely breaking the law. That's it!

"You also know that the Han family is in turmoil now, and it is already precarious. If this is reported at this time, bankruptcy is certain!"

Song Junxi said these words very calmly, every word.

Very simple, choose one of the two.

Let go from now on, then he will not blame this time.

If he doesn't change his nature, then he will no longer care about nostalgia!

Han Xiaoya's body trembled in disbelief!

Song Junxi was waiting for Han Xiaoya to speak!
But one point, two points... After 5 minutes, Han Xiaoya never said a word.

He twitched the corners of his lips, smiled again, then looked at Han Xiaoya, and suddenly said in a very gentle voice: "Xiaoya, I really regret that you have become like this today!"

Han Xiaoya looked at Song Junxi's eyes, and gradually became a little astonished.

Song Junxi's eyes were dark and deep, and he said: "We grew up together, in fact, I have no feelings for you. When I was young, I always thought that the person you liked was Wenxuan. Later, I met Xia Xia, I just realized what true love is. When we were young, you and I could only be regarded as best friends, like siblings, like me and Zhibin, or just childhood sweethearts! I thought Xia Xia was dead, anyway If you want to find someone to marry, it's better to be you than someone else, but now that I think about it, I was wrong, I shouldn't have thought so in the first place, I delayed you, gave you hope, and let you down!"

When I heard this, I suddenly understood that Song Junxi has always disliked Senior Lu, not only because he is almost a generation older than him, but perhaps the initial hostility is also because Han Xiaoya likes to be more stable and charismatic than him. Lu Xuechang, because of a child's possessive desire for the things he likes!

I puffed up my cheeks, good Song Junxi, you've been hiding it from me so much!
Han Xiaoya sat there motionless, without even blinking her eyes, as if she was surprised by Song Junxi's words. After a long time, she moved slightly, put her hands on the table, and tightly squeezed the cup, feeling a little sour. He called out, "Junxi."

Junxi gave a faint "um", his eyes were always calm, even when he said that just now, there was no ripple.

Han Xiaoya must have been crying, she lowered her head, took the tissue on the table after a while, and wet her tears gently.

Song Junxi's hearing is very good now, so he can naturally feel that Han Xiaoya is crying. He seems to be very patient, and he waited until she wiped away his tears before speaking again: "Xiaoya, in fact, I have never kept this from you. The person I love is Xia Xia. It's not that I haven't thought about putting her down and living with you. However, people can't force themselves. Wronging yourself is actually wronging others. I can't be by your side but my heart is with her. That also wronged you, I thought you understood this kind of feeling, so it was my fault that I overestimated myself and you. "

Han Xiaoya sat upright in her seat, her movements were still dignified, and her expression was a little dazed.

"I know you have been wronged, so I am trying my best to make up for you. When I knew that you were the one who caused the video of my mother almost going to jail for framing Xia Xia, I immediately chose to forgive you. Do you know why? I feel that I was wrong in everything! I am making up for it!"

Han Xiaoya looked at Song Junxi in surprise.

Song Junxi was always calm, he curled his lips and smiled, although he couldn't see anything, he still looked in Han Xiaoya's direction and said: "But those compensations, you take it as indulgence, if you don't If you do this, I think I will still be grateful to you in this life!"

Han Xiaoya pursed her lips slightly, but did not speak.

Song Junxi looked at Han Xiaoya and said, "Xiaoya, you arranged all those things in University A back then, right?"

A big?Junxi is talking about the fact that we were expelled from the school because we lived together outside the school. Although Song Junxi and I voluntarily dropped out of school and finally ended, someone still knows the reason.

Han Xiaoya remained silent.

Song Junxi pursed his lips and smiled coldly. He slightly raised his head: "What? Now, you still refuse to tell me the truth? In fact, I didn't suspect that someone was secretly playing tricks back then. But I was the first to rule out you, because all the news about Xiaxia I knew came from you. Later, Wu Gang told me that it was Cai Jiajia! I relaxed, but some time ago, I met Cai Jiajia, Only then did I realize that it was you! But I don’t blame you for this matter, even if the school didn’t know about it, we would not be able to study in school under such circumstances, but I just didn’t expect that it would be you who did this!”

Han Xiaoya's complexion was very heavy, obviously she didn't expect all her affairs to be revealed.

She looked at Junxi, clenched her hands into fists, and was obviously trying her best to control her emotions. After a while, she opened her mouth and said, "What are you talking about all of a sudden now?"

"It's very simple, Xiaoya, let go, you have no choice!"

There was silence between the two of them!
Han Xiaoya stared at Song Junxi's dark eyes and sneered slightly.

Song Junxi was waiting for her answer, very patiently!

Han Xiaoya was so angry that she lost her mind and gritted her teeth. In order to calm herself down, she stretched out her hand to hold the cup, took a sip of coffee, and brewed her emotions. After a long time, she spoke again, her tone still clear and her attitude still arrogant: "Do you think Now I have nothing to be afraid of!"

Song Junxi was silent, as if he wanted to hear what she would say next.

His hands are folded together, his expression is still calm!

Han Xiaoya took several deep breaths, and then said the next words in one breath.

"Yes, I did what happened back then, I admit it, but it's like you said, your things have been known to everyone, I'm just a matter of convenience, I was the one who made the video, the car accident made you blind It's all me, but the result I want is not your accident, it's Liu Xia, when I knew it was you, I was so annoyed to death, I know you are blind, I wish I could goug my eyes for you, no matter what I do , that is, Liu Xia is the most innocent and worthy of your love, while I can only be the most vicious."

The more Han Xiaoya talked, the more excited she became.

"When you, I came back from France to look for you, but you didn't even look at me. You only had Liu Xia in your eyes. I can bear it, but even if your family knows about your affairs, you still think about it when you can't protect yourself. She, I can only do that to make you give up!"

"You said you can't lose Liu Xia, but I can't lose you! You never thought about my feelings from the beginning to the end, Junxi, I have done so much for you over the years, I don't believe it, you can't feel it at all My love for you, you just turn a blind eye!"

"And me? I know that you love Liu Xia, not me, but I insist on staying by your side. I know it well, but I am obsessed with it. What am I doing? It's just because I love you You! I even thought that I would forgive you even if you still had contact with her after you married me!"

"But how did you do it, to ask me to leave so cruelly, but as long as there is a little space for me in the space around you, I won't do that at all!"

People who fall into blind love are irrational.

If it is a feeling that can stop at will, how can it be called love!

What's more, she is such a perfect woman.

It would be fine if I was better than her in everything, but I am a person who is worse than her in everything!
How can this make her calm down, until one day, all the restlessness and irrationality turned into unscrupulous methods!
Han Xiaoya's voice sounded a little sad.

She hasn't had a good life these years, seeing that the person she likes is clearly in front of her eyes but can't walk into his heart.

"So, Junxi, don't blame me for being cruel. From the beginning to the end, you turned a blind eye to my feelings. I was just her substitute. If this is the case, why should I keep her? In fact, I am not cruel enough. , besides her, how can there be so many things today?"

When Han Xiaoya said this, a stubborn determination flashed in her eyes, and tears fell down. Although she knew that Junxi couldn't see it, she still looked at his face with nostalgia, and said word by word while crying: " And now, I have nothing else to do but to do that, really nothing else to do."

"I love you, I have no way out, there is no way out, there is only this way, I will naturally go on and never look back!"

Sitting there, I could hear every word and every word clearly, and suddenly I felt a little pitiful for her, such a proud lady from a great family, crying and saying, she loves him and has nowhere to go!

No way.

"Xiaoya, if you go on like this, you will miss your parents!" Han Xiaoya's body shook slightly: "They should also be ashamed of me as a daughter who is not up to date, what have they got by your side for so many years? Nothing , It’s all just a joy! How can you say that I am willing, Junxi, how can you say that I am willing!”

Han Xiaoya's tone was still so affirmative, she said: "Don't try to be courteous and affectionate to me, no matter what, Junxi, I will not let go, even if I can't get it, then no one can get it , Liu Xia, is she worthy too?"

Junxi's face turned cold in an instant: "In that case, then my trip today is really useless, but that's okay, the friendship we grew up with is over!"

After Song Junxi finished speaking, he took out a pen-shaped thing from his pocket and pressed it.

Han Xiaoya's face turned pale in an instant, and she stood up from her seat all of a sudden: "You... you are so cruel!"

Han Xiaoya wanted to snatch the pen, Song Junxi felt it all at once, and put it away again: "Do you think you can snatch it away?"

Han Xiaoya glanced around, then sat down: "What do you want to do?"

In fact, Han Xiaoya estimated that when she was so determined to negotiate with Song Junxi before, she naturally knew clearly that the car accident did not leave any clues at all, and she had a lot of chips, so she felt that she was sure to win the negotiation.

But he didn't expect Song Junxi to prepare this move!Naturally she was panicked, if this recording was exposed, she would really be doomed, maybe half her life would be spent in prison, what else is there to talk about!
Song Junxi got up: "I'll give you time to think about it, and call me when you think it through!"

Li Zhibin was coming in from the outside and helped Song Junxi out.

Han Xiaoya sat there wanting to lose her temper, but she didn't want to lose face in public, so she could only endure it.

In fact, I really admire her, if it were someone else, the table would have been overturned long ago, but she was able to get up and leave gracefully, which is really rare.

I got up after they all left and was about to take a taxi, only to find Zhibin's car parked at the door, as soon as I got out, he got out of the car and leaned against the car door and waved at me: "Here?"

I subconsciously wanted to escape, and turned around pretending not to see, Li Zhibin had already walked over, dragged me into the car, and pushed me into Junxi's arms: "Brother, you got it, Xia Xiadu Following you is bad, I even learned things like stalking, but it’s too unskilled, next time stalking at least change into clothes I haven’t seen before, and whoever enters a restaurant still wears a hat and glasses! fool!"

Junxi listened to Zhibin talking in front and kept laughing there, very indulgent, not angry at all!

"I was just passing by. I saw that you two were sneaky, so I went in and took a look. Who knew you had an appointment with Han Xiaoya!" I explained forcefully, but it was obviously very pale, and there were many loopholes!

Li Zhibin laughed without embarrassment: "It's true that it's sneaky, but it doesn't seem to be us!" I glared at him fiercely, but the nature of this vicious tongue has not changed at all!

Zhibin sent us to the entrance of the hospital, but he didn't go up. On the way, he received a call from Uncle Li, saying that my aunt was sick and asked him to go back.

"Why don't you tell me, you go see Han Xiaoya!" I helped him sit up on the hospital bed.

I heard their words clearly, Han Xiaoya is very dangerous now, and he can't see now, what if he is in danger?
"I originally wanted her to turn around, but I didn't expect her to be obsessed with it!" Song Junxi frowned first, and then said: "If I knew that she was so reluctant, I really shouldn't have agreed to be engaged to her. For her, there is always love." What a debt!"

I know that Junxi actually wants to give her another chance. In fact, Junxi is a very nostalgic person. After all, they grew up together. Although it has nothing to do with love between men and women, the relationship between them is naturally deep.

"If she wants to understand and sincerely repent, I will send her out of City A, but if this continues, I will hand over this recording to the police!"

Song Junxi squeezed the recording pen, using some strength in his hand: "I can't let this kind of thing happen again, pampering her should be enough!"

"Junxi, after listening to Han Xiaoya's words, even I feel that I am a little sorry for her. If it is not a last resort, don't hand this over to the police. She is really pitiful!"

Song Junxi shook his head and smiled: "It's her who indulged the evil thoughts in her heart. What does it have to do with you? If I were with her, you would be so unreasonable. Those who broke up and divorced are all entangled like this. Isn't the world in chaos, but it's just hurting in the name of love, so that I can feel more comfortable in my heart! You don't have to feel guilty!"

Song Junxi patted me on the shoulder and let me lean into his arms: "I am the most sorry person! I can't even give you a corner of peace!"

"It's fine that I am like this, you are mine, I am yours, and this is what I want!"

Junxi got up in the morning and took a shower. Zhibin happened to help him bring a change of clothes, and I changed them for him: "You look younger in this dress today!"

He held my hand and smiled: "We haven't dated for a long time, how about going out with you today, the street must be very lively!"

Song Junxi smiled as beautifully as before, even though he knew he couldn't see it, he still smiled and nodded: "Okay!"

Junxi can't see now, so he can't drive, and I haven't driven by, and I don't have a driver's license, and I haven't passed the road test twice!
We took a taxi, originally we wanted to take the bus, which felt more youthful, but I am not suitable for crowded places now.

I am going on a date to the most lively place, the weather is not very good, it is gloomy, adding a bit of cold.

I supported Junxi, and he walked forward along my footsteps. Junxi's appearance really had nothing to do with blind people, and the sunglasses made him look like he was trying to be cool at best.

The street was indeed very lively. It happened that a store opened, and a large stage was set up at the entrance to perform lion dance.

This is quite a novelty. At most, the ones that are opening now are looking for some small stars or local bands to be lively, and there are not many lion dances like this.

The gongs and drums were loud, and many spectators gathered.

Junxi also heard the commotion in front: "What's so lively in front?"

"There is a lion dance ahead!" We are still far away at this time, so I can probably see a few lion dancers on the plum blossom pile on the stage.

"Oh?" Junxi seemed to be interested: "Do you want to see it?"

I am pregnant with a child, and there are many people there, so it is better not to go, I am afraid that we will get separated.

"I can see it here too, but when I get closer, all I see are people!"

Junxi nodded: "Okay, didn't you say you want to drink that milk tea, is it nearby!"

"Just a little ahead!"

We have always been holding hands. Suddenly a group of people passed by. There was an intermission for the lion dance over there. Many people who watched the excitement left. The two of us were suddenly surrounded by the crowd. After a while, Junxi’s hand and mine were separated abruptly. I subconsciously turned around to look for Junxi, but the crowd was surging in an instant. I was afraid that people would squeeze me, so I subconsciously protected my stomach and retreated to the side, waiting for this wave. When people passed by, I couldn't find Junxi either.

Junxi can’t see anything, and now I’m separated from him again, I feel a sense of panic in my heart, is he squeezed in the crowd, this street is full of people, hurrying, I run left, right, There were people everywhere, but the figure I was looking for was not there.

And the lion dance over there started to perform again after the host's introduction, and the sound was deafening.

I called his name and couldn't hear him at all.

There were too many people, I broke out in a sweat, this is the busiest place in the city, and the most crowded place, coming and going, I just feel dazzled, and the people around me are changing their blood every minute.

I became more and more anxious, tears began to roll in my eyes, but in the end, I still had no choice but to move forward and continue to search in the direction of the crowd!
Song Junxi has an outstanding face and outstanding temperament. Standing in the crowd, he is the focus, so it is very easy to recognize him in many crowds.

His eyes couldn't see anything, maybe he was squeezed away with the flow of people just now, or he accidentally took the wrong hand...
When I thought of this, I became more and more worried, no, I was a little panicked.

Will there be any accidents for him?
What if you can't find him?
Junxi’s blindness is originally because of me. If I lose him again, I will really die. I shouldn’t say that I want to drink this milk tea. I know that there are the most people here. Shouldn't!

What if he meets a bad guy?
Could he have been waiting for me at the milk tea shop? Maybe he followed the crowd and the milk tea shop is a little ahead. I thought of this and walked forward. The weather is a few degrees below zero and I am already full of energy. My head is sweating profusely.

The milk tea shop doesn't have a big facade, there are two tables on the first floor by the window, full of people, there is no Junxi, the second floor?
Maybe because there is no place on the first floor, maybe he will wait for me on the second floor. Knowing that he is blind, he will not go upstairs at all, but I still go up to the second floor with a glimmer of hope, but I still can't.

I left the milk tea shop very disappointed, and quickly took out my mobile phone to call Junxi, but it was turned off.

I almost forgot that Junxi seldom used his mobile phone after he lost his sight, and he didn't bring it with him when he went out today. Thinking of this, I feel more panic in my heart.

There are still people coming and going on the street, no less than before.

I suddenly thought, should I go back and see, maybe Junxi was taken away by the crowd, and then found that he was separated from me, maybe he went back to the place where we lost and waited for me.

Yes, that's it, I have to go back and look for it again, if he is not there, I can only call the police and call Zhibin.

I didn't care much anymore, I ran quickly, and anxiously shouted at the crowd in twos and threes to excuse me, and headed to the place just now, for fear that I would run too slowly, Junxi was anxious to wait.

It's only two or three minutes away, but I feel like I have crossed thousands of mountains and rivers.

I was a little out of breath, and I started looking for the place where I was lost. As soon as I looked up, I found that he was standing there straight. For a while, countless people passed by him, but he remained motionless and patient, like I am sure I will see him.

I was almost crying with joy, so I rushed towards Song Junxi, and then hugged his waist fiercely. I didn't know what to do, so I just wowed and started crying like a child.

It turned out that the moment we were rushed away by the crowd, he was led forward by the crowd for a distance, and he found it immediately, but he couldn't determine his current position. There were too many people and crowded, so he couldn't see clearly. , just when the lion dance started again, he walked in the direction of the sound.

I found an approximate location and stood there waiting for me to find him.

He said that after two people get lost, they will rush to find each other. If you go in the same direction and he goes in the same direction, it will make the two go further and further apart.

In fact, the best way is to wait in the lost place!
He said that he originally thought he would have to wait for a while, but my reaction was not too slow. I knew that I would go back to the original place to look for him. When he was there, he felt a person fall into his arms, and he was relieved.

The pear blossoms that I cried were raining, so relieved that he was helpless again. After groping for a long time, he finally touched my face. With his hands, he gently wiped away my tears. It's consolation: "Don't cry, it's because I didn't plan well today and chose so many places!"

When I heard him comfort me like this, I cried even harder. I grabbed the clothes on his back and said out of breath: "I was scared to death, I thought I lost you, never I can't see you anymore!"

Song Junxi didn't say a word, just wiped away my tears, after a long while, he couldn't hear my sobbing, and then slowly said: "What is there to be afraid of, silly girl, this road is only so long, no matter you go Wherever you go, no matter how far you go, I will be there waiting for you! As long as you turn around, you can see me."

On the street where people come and go, I flung myself into his arms unscrupulously, crying like hell, I don't care what other people think, that's what I want, not only to see him, but also to feel his presence.

This little accident made me no longer in the mood to make appointments. Now I just want to go back as soon as possible, as long as he is fine.

He and I took a taxi directly back to the hospital. In the ward, I snuggled into his arms.

"Xia Xia, I actually want to go shopping with you. After so many years, I found that I seldom go shopping with you, and I haven't fulfilled my husband's duty at all. I want to watch a movie with you again, Xia Xia, actually I asked you out today because I want to change a relaxed environment and tell you that I am going to have surgery, but unfortunately, I messed it up." Song Junxi smiled with his lips curled up, with a look of helplessness.

"I'm blind, I can't protect you at all, just like today, the sweetness of dating has all turned into panic, I don't want this to happen again.

Xia Xia, if I do not succeed in this operation, if I die, I will wait for you on Huangquan Road. I must not drink Mengpo soup until you arrive. Waiting for you, and then in the next life, I will continue to walk with you.

Actually, you know, I never thought that I would still be trapped in my next life. I think it is too hard for you and me to be together in this life. In the next life, I must meet someone who is better than me!
But, now I regret it, we have missed so much in this life, I don't think these decades can make up for your suffering, I will pay it back in the next life! "

Junxi's voice is very low and soft, but I can hear it very clearly. Everything between us feels like a dream, unreal!
(End of this chapter)