Love for a limited time

Chapter 268

I let go of his hand and went to call the doctor, but Junxi wanted to hold me but was in vain.

"Xia Xia, turn on the light!"

"Why do you turn on the light in the morning? I'll call the doctor first!" I hurried out of the room and asked the doctor to come and check him!
Did an inspection, everything is normal, nothing serious!
He was lying on the bed, his deep eyes that could not see to the bottom were quietly opened, he listened to the doctor's instructions very seriously, and finally said politely: "Thank you!"

"Xia Xia, go downstairs and buy some fruit for me!"

"Okay, I'll go right away!" I saw that the doctors and nurses were all here, and I went down without any serious problems.

When I went upstairs, I ran into Zhibin. The doctor had just finished the examination, and he brought his clothes over: "Xia Xia, you go inside to take a shower and change your clothes. You haven't rested all night. You've got blood all over your body!"

Song Junxi frowned deeply immediately: "What's wrong with you?"

He shook his head: "It's okay!"

"I'll feed my brother, you go take a shower first, with your clothes, people who don't know will think that something happened to you too!"

"Let me feed him!" I washed my hands, and took mouthwash and asked him to rinse his mouth!

Song Junxi sat there, very cooperative.

I took a bun and handed it to him. When he stretched out his hand to take it, he missed it first, then touched the bun, took it, and ate it.

When I feed him porridge, I always feel that something is wrong, but I can't tell.

I heard the two of them talking when I got out of the shower.

"Brother, brother... where is it?"

Li Zhibin seemed to be reminding Song Junxi something.

"Brother, what's the matter with you?" Li Zhibin paused for a moment, and suddenly called out: "What's wrong with your eyes?"

"I can't see it!" As soon as Song Junxi finished speaking, the thing in my hand fell to the ground, and I pushed the door and came out, ran to him, and shook my hand in front of him.

He heard my footsteps: "Xia Xia!"

I had lost all my sanity, and stumbled towards the door: "I'm going to call the doctor!"

"No need, I asked the doctor this morning!" Song Junxi wanted to reach out and hold me, but he didn't.

His complexion was a bit heavy, he took a deep breath, and after a long time calmly said: "Congestion has blocked the nerves and caused blindness, because it is inside the skull, the risk of surgery is too high, and if the blood is not well drained, life will be lost." Dangerous, the only possibility is to wait for the congestion to spread by itself, but if it spreads slowly, it may crush the nerves and cause permanent blindness, the doctor said so!"

His tone was extremely calm, as if he was relaying something that couldn't be more ordinary.

He asked me to buy fruit in the morning just to pay me to understand the situation.

He said in the morning that he would turn on the light, but if he couldn't pick up something, he was blind at all!
My face was extremely pale, and I opened my mouth and said, "How did it become like this? I don't believe it. I have to ask the doctor myself. I don't believe it!"

Li Zhibin's complexion was also particularly ugly. He stretched out his hand, grabbed my arm, and patted my shoulder!
What does blindness mean to Junxi?
A perfect human being is fatally flawed.

He fell heavily from the pinnacle of his life.

A myth in the IT world suddenly became a disabled person. For him, such a blow is nothing more than a death!
Or, suffering harder than death!
If you die, you can finish it all.

And now?

If you are blind from birth, you will not have such high expectations from everyone. The starting point is different, and the ending point will be different.

But he wasn't, he came from a wealthy background, he was a young man, and he was at the peak of his life at this time, but he suddenly had such a sudden change, how could he accept it?
My world fell into a daze.

If it weren't for me, Junxi would not have lost his light.

If it wasn't for me, Han Xiaoya wouldn't have done these crazy things.

If it weren't for me, there wouldn't be so many incidents.

It's all me, it's all because of me that Junxi became like this!

Junxi's blindness cannot be concealed. When Aunt Yao came to the hospital, I knelt down in front of her and said, "Aunt Yao, I'm sorry, it was all me. Junxi drove over to save me. I'm only blind, sorry!"

Aunt Yao's expression was blank for a while, she stretched out her hand, pulled me up, stared at me for a long time, the frost in her eyes seemed to have gathered thousands of words, but in the end it came together into one sentence: "I I heard that you are pregnant, get up, the ground is cold!"

I know, Zhibin must have told her, he must have told her about my pregnancy because he was afraid that Aunt Yao would blame me.

Song Junxi sat quietly on the hospital bed, his eyes looked straight ahead, his eyes were still unfathomable, he looked the same as before, and his eyes even looked clearer than before.

But I know that in those eyes, I can no longer see any objects and colors.

I quietly walked to the side of the bed, he heard the sound, and turned his head slightly.

"Xia Xia!"

I stretched out my hand silently to pull the quilt for him, lowered my head, and tears fell down before I could speak.

People's hearing is especially good when they can't see it. I still tried my best not to make a sound, but he still felt it.

In the past two days, he seems to have gotten used to it. He precisely touched my position, his fingers were cold, he stroked my face, and wiped away my tears: "Don't cry anymore, you cry like this, our child You can feel it too, you don't want him to be unhappy in your stomach!"

Junxi smiled and comforted me, he knew that besides him, this child is what I care about the most, and, we lost once, this child can't have another accident.

His voice sounded particularly pleasant in the quiet ward, with comfort, as if nothing had happened, and he was still the perfect Junxi before.

However, the more it happened, the more uncomfortable it was in my heart.

I know that he just doesn't want me to be sad and feel guilty, so he pretends to be calm and calm. In fact, how sad he must be in his heart.

How terrified a person is in the endless night, I am afraid that he is so helpless in his heart now, and he still has a little hope in the dark night, because the dawn will always come, but he...
His eyes may never see again!

Junxi's injury is similar to my mother's in the past, both in the brain, but Junxi's is more complicated, his bruised part is too close to the central nervous system of the brain, surgery is very risky!

Moreover, the doctor who operated on my mother happened to be in City A to give a report. After so many years, he had already passed away. At present, the success rate of such an operation in China is extremely low!
It is possible to lose his life in the operation, and he will never have the opportunity to see him again.

But if you don't do it, just like the doctor said, you will be completely blind when the blood pressure and nerves die.

Song Junxi smiled lightly, and said lightly: "Don't think too much, I'm fine."

He always said that he was fine, and he didn’t tell me how painful he was. He carried everything by himself. When Aunt Yao lost his temper and beat his back to pieces, he also said that he was fine. Until now, the scar on his back It was horrible, he said he was fine even when he hurt his ribs, even this time, he still said he was fine before he vomited blood in front of me and passed out.

When will he tell me that he is not good, that he is uncomfortable, that his life is worse than death at the moment, the more he is like now, the more I feel like a knife is piercing my heart.

There was so much pain buried under his calm eyes, I couldn't bear to look any more and turned my head aside, raised my hand, wiped away the tears on my face, moved my lips, but didn't say a word.

He was also silent.

It’s been almost a week, and the doctor said that the lung injury will be healed in a few days. It’s just the eyes. It depends on the opinions of the patient and family members. He explained the consequences clearly to us. It is a challenge to wait for the consultation of brain experts to study the best plan. In a certain way, the hospital still hopes to perform surgery. Wilson in the United States is already contacting the best brain experts abroad.

Song Junxi has always been calm, without any impetuous or rebellious phenomenon. Li Nuo and Wu Gang all came to see him, and I stood aside to make room for them to have a good chat. At first, everyone was worried that Junxi's proud temper It was difficult to accept such a situation, and everyone gradually let go of their hearts.

At first I thought so too, until one day, I woke up in the middle of the night!
The moonlight was very good that day, and although it was dark in the ward, it was not too dark to see.

I woke up and found that Song Junxi was standing in front of the window. His tall figure seemed to be covered with a layer of mist because of the night, which made people feel distressed.

He is only wearing a single shirt and no coat. Although there is heating in the ward, it is winter after all. I want to approve a coat for him, but I am afraid that it will break his deep thinking. I spy on his helplessness like this. , should not want people to know that he is so sad.

People in our class, those who are familiar with him will call him brother, even if they are not familiar, they will be called by the head of the class.

A person who is worshiped as a god, don't want people to see his helpless appearance falling into the clouds!

I got out of bed gently, not daring to put on my shoes, for fear of making a noise that would make him notice, I stood beside him silently, keeping a little distance, he looked out of the window where he couldn't see anything, and I just silently looked at the whole body. Lonely, he didn't move his body until it was almost dawn, one step at a time, walking very slowly, as if he was counting his steps, then he found the bed accurately and lay down.

I squatted on the ground, wanting to cry, this short road, from the window to the bed, how many times he counted, how many times he walked!
After more than an hour, I pretended to just wake up, and served him meals and medicine as usual.

The sun is particularly bright, but unfortunately he can't see it, but I still want this kind of sunshine to shine into his heart and let him feel it.

In the afternoon, I accompanied him to go downstairs for a walk. I walked very slowly, I supported him, and he followed my footsteps.

Song Junxi has outstanding looks, he will become the focus of attention wherever he goes, even in the hospital, people like to look at beautiful things.

Because of the attention, everyone naturally looked more carefully, and soon someone discovered that he couldn't see, and sighed again and again. Unfortunately, I didn't expect such a person to be blind. God is so short-sighted!

I heard an aunt complaining and sighing, feeling sad for a while, and took his hand: "Let's go up!"

Song Junxi smiled: "Okay!" as if he didn't hear the old lady's words.

In the evening, as before, I helped him to the bathroom and took a shower, and after helping him to lie down on the bed, I also lay down on the bed next to him.

But this time, I didn't fall asleep. I kept my eyes open and waited.

I don't know how much time has passed, Song Junxi turned over, sat up, still the same as yesterday, and slowly walked to the window.

That night, I purposely left the bedside lamp in front of my bed, just by the light, I could see the sadness on his face.

There was overwhelming pain in my heart. He didn't really let go, but he just didn't want us to worry.

He deliberately pretended to let go, so many days and nights, he didn't even have a rest, alone in the silent and lonely night, slowly enjoying such sadness alone!
Looking at him like this, I felt that my heart couldn't bear the pain anymore, so I gently lifted the quilt and walked in front of him slowly.

He stood there motionless, like a sculpture, but I couldn't bear it, so I threw myself into his arms. His stiff body softened instantly, and his hands slowly hugged my waist. I put my head on his chest, heard his rhythmic heartbeat through the pajamas, my nose became more and more sour, and my heart was filled with guilt, after a long while, I opened my mouth sullenly, and said in a low voice: "I'm sorry. "

The house was quiet.

Hugging is a very strange expression of emotion. Even though two people are so close, they can't see each other's expressions. It seems like the furthest distance in time!
Just like now, I can't see the sadness in his eyes.

After a long time, he gently raised his hand, patted my back, and said, "Fool!"

I couldn't say anything, I just stretched out my hand and wrapped it around his waist fiercely, with extra force.

His hands slowly moved to my face, and then gently held my face, he lowered his head, facing me.

His eyes were tightly facing mine, there was no light in them, and there was darkness and silence.

Obviously I can't see anything, but his affectionate look is like seeing me and me. He looked at me for a long, long time, and then I heard his voice, which seemed to be whispering softly. : "I don't regret it, do it again, even if it is death, I will still do it, no regrets, no complaints!"

All my tears flowed to him all my life, and all my emotions were poured into him. In an instant, my body seemed to be devoured by thousands of ants. I thought that there would always be a trace of regret for his pain, even for a moment. , but no!
He gave me four words, no regrets, no complaints!
I don't know what to say.

Speechless!

Knowing the result, I will still do this, no regrets, no complaints!
At this time, the night was very deep, and it was the hospital again, which was always silent.

The windows were closed tightly, and the wind whistled wantonly outside the window, but no sound came in.

The room was silent.

Great for making people weak.

My heart seemed to be lying on a piece of soft feathers, I softly called his name: "Junxi."

"Huh?" Junxi responded slightly.

In fact, I really want to tell him what I want to say, I want to say, I will always be by your side, until the day when you are very old and I am also very old, neither of us can walk or hold , we put on clean clothes, lay on the bed together, held hands, closed our eyes and said: "Okay!"Let's go together!
After all, I still didn't say it, I know, he must feel it, what I want to say, because I know he thinks like me.

What is love, why is it so bitter and painful, as long as you can hold it, you will still refuse to give up until death, and you will be willing to die.

But in the end, it all turned into Song Junxi's words! !

Song Junxi didn't speak, just hugged me gently in his arms, tightly!
His embrace is still as wide and warm as before, like leaning on him.

If he is really blind for the rest of his life, then I will accompany him for the rest of his life, and I will be his eyes.

Junxi is not willing to take the risk of surgery. For me, it is also the most important thing for him to live!
The two of us slept in the small hospital bed. I woke up in his arms in the morning. His eyes were open, obviously he had woken up early, but he just saw that I didn’t move, and he couldn’t bear to disturb my sleep. That's all.

"Morning!" I kissed him on the lips.

"Morning!" Song Junxi kissed me back!
I got up to wash my face, and when I was washing my face, I heard something fall to the ground.

He ran out quickly, Song Junxi was standing there, probably touched the glass on the table!
"Don't move!" He didn't wear shoes, and I was afraid of pricking him.

Song Junxi obediently stood there without moving, it was the first time I saw such a helpless expression on his face.

I cleaned up the shards of glass on the ground, found a mop to wipe the floor clean, and then put on his shoes: "I'll help you brush your teeth!"

He is tall, so I can't reach him naturally. He bent slightly and asked me to wipe his face.

During breakfast, he asked me if the weather was fine today, and I laughed, "How do you know!"

"I smell the sun!" Song Junxi looked at the window.

The last time I heard from those people, we haven't gone downstairs in the past few days!

I'm afraid he will be sad when he hears it, more precisely, I will be sad!
"The weather outside is fine today, shall we go for a walk?"

Hearing him say that suddenly, my expression froze for a moment, I nodded and said, "Okay."

I saw that he really wanted to go out for a stroll, so I immediately found a clean suit and changed it for him.

When he was about to go out, he took a scarf and tied it for him, and tied a scarf of the same color for himself, and led him out with his arm.

The sun is shining outside, the wind is light and the clouds are calm. Even in the depths of winter, it doesn't feel so cold.

In fact, I don't know where to go. There is no place to go shopping next to the hospital, and there is a community not far away.

Where there is a community, there is naturally a place for the elderly and children to walk and exercise. We decided to go there.

Sure enough, there were many old people basking in the sun and chatting there.

I helped Junxi walk along the gravel road for a while, people don’t get up so early in winter, and there will be an old man practicing swords there, with white hair and a youthful face, in good spirits.

There are fitness equipment in front of it. It is estimated that he would never come to this place to hang out before.

I see there's a swing out front, it's not a weekend so, no kids, the swing set is empty.

I remember when I was a child, every year during the Spring Festival, my father would always set up a swing at the door. It happened that there were two trees there, which was very convenient.
The children in our place will play on the swing during the first lunar month to get rid of illnesses and misfortunes, and they will be healthy and lucky throughout the year.

I also want Junxi to be healthy and healthy, good luck always be with me!
She blinked her eyes, turned her head, and said to Song Junxi, "Junxi, let's go on the swing!"

Song Junxi nodded slightly, and I helped him walk over.

"Sit on it, and I'll push it for you!" I carefully supported him, let him sit on it and helped him up before I said, "Are you ready, I'll push it for you!"

"Can you push it?" Junxi laughed at me!
"Don't underestimate me, I'm very strong!" In fact, I didn't dare to use too much force, after all, I was still pregnant with a child.

Standing beside him, I pushed him up as hard as I could. In fact, the height is not important, the most important thing is the mood. I want him to get better.

If there is a miracle, let it happen to Junxi.

I would like to use my ten years of life in exchange for him regaining his light!

The scenery around the square in this community is not bad. I pushed him slowly while telling him what I saw in detail. When I was talking, I realized that I was short of words and couldn’t describe the happiness here. Scenery, but Song Junxi was very interested, bent his lips, smiled, as if he really felt it, and said: "Sounds beautiful."

I nodded. What he said sounded beautiful, but in fact, he could see these things, so I didn't need to tell him.

He is such a perfect person, but now, he has such a big defect because of me.

I was behind him, with my hands on his body and my head resting on his shoulder.

In fact, when we were studying in the past, we had time to get along day and night. After we met, we seldom enjoyed such time leisurely and unscrupulously as we do now.

He was always busy with work or afraid of being discovered, but now he can finally be together in a fair manner, but his eyes are invisible.

After a while, the old grandpas who were sitting at the stone table and playing chess over there went home and just vacated their seats, so I helped Junxi pass by!
He was sitting opposite me, his sitting posture was still elegant, the sunlight refracted in his eyes, making his ink-like black eyes bright, this is not like the eyes of a blind man, he shouldn't be able to see like this!

Song Junxi's skin was white and transparent under the sun,

The outline is clear, but it doesn't give people that sharp-edged sense of harshness. The coldness is just right, perfect and impeccable!
I was always embarrassed in the past, but I never had the opportunity to look at him unscrupulously like now. After staring at him for a long time, my eyes finally fell silently on his slightly pursed lips.

His lips are very thin, very light in color and pinkish white.

It may be because he lost too much blood this time, and he is obviously weak!

Suddenly I really wanted to kiss him, but there were too many people, I was a little embarrassed, I didn't expect to have such an idea, my face turned a little red, fortunately he couldn't see it!

Still feeling uncomfortable, he brushed his hair to hide his nervousness.

"Let's go back!" We have been out for a long time, so as not to worry when the nurses make rounds.

"Okay!" Song Junxi also got up from the stone bench.

I supported him and walked forward slowly, and suddenly a dog ran over. I was always afraid of dogs, and seeing that dog was aggressive, I pulled Junxi to avoid it. Maybe I was too anxious and too nervous. I twisted my foot on the flat ground, and there was a sound of oops.

Junxi frowned and hurriedly asked me what's wrong?
I was afraid that he would be worried, so I said in a hurry, "It's okay!"

When I twisted my foot, I naturally tilted my body, and the center of gravity of my body suddenly fell on him, and he naturally felt: "Did I twist my foot?"

I don't want him to know, besides, I'm calcium deficient, and I often sprain my feet, it will be fine in a few days, it's okay.

"No, let's go back!" I tried to keep my steps steady so as not to be noticed by him.

I took a few steps forward, and the pain in my ankle was severe, but Junxi suddenly stopped: "Why don't you leave?" I looked at him and asked.

"I'll carry you!" Junxi held my arm stubbornly, obviously he was sure that my foot was injured.

"It's okay, I'm pregnant with a baby now, and if you carry me on your back, it's not good for the baby!" The only reason to obey him now is this.

Junxi frowned: "Then I'll hold you so that I won't crush the child!"

I quickly waved my hands: "No, that's dangerous, what if I fall?"

I have to be responsible for leading the way, being hugged by him, and telling him when I see the way will take time after all.

Song Junxi's eyes darkened and his brows were frowned. He obviously thought of something.

At the end, she pursed her lips: "Then I'll support you!"

"I called the nurse to come here to find us!" Junxi grabbed my arm: "Don't bother others, we can do it!"

Very stubborn, very persistent!
How could he be overwhelmed by this little difficulty!
He supported me, I leaned on him, and I tried my best to let myself walk along the side, not blocking the path of others while walking.

When the two of us limped to the ward, Zhibin stood at the door of the ward and looked around: "Where did you two go? How did you become like this!"

He hurried over to support Junxi with one hand and me with the other, and then Junxi continued to say, "Xia Xia sprained her foot, call the doctor to come and have a look!"

The doctor came to look at my feet and found nothing serious, just a small sprain, but I can’t use my strength these days. I would have rubbed some safflower oil on it and it would be fine soon, but I’m going to be pregnant, and I can’t even touch those things. of.

The doctor asked me to alternately cover it with hot and cold water, and it will improve a little faster, and the cold water can also relieve the pain.

Junxi couldn't see how my foot was hurt. Even though the doctor said it was fine, he was still very worried. Since we came in just now, he hasn't relaxed his brows.

After about a few minutes, I went to bed and sat down. Junxi got off the bed and sat opposite me, holding my foot and whirling gently: "Is it this one?"

In fact, the one in his hand was the uninjured one, but I still nodded, not to worry him, the injured foot had a swollen ankle, and I couldn't move it even now.

For the past two days, Junxi and I have been unable to see each other, and we have injured our feet, so we can only obediently stay in the ward.

Fortunately, we have Zhibin as our company to relieve our boredom, but the days are not boring!
I also asked Zhibin to buy me The Legend of the Condor Heroes. I used to be lazy and Junxi always read it to me. Now, it’s my turn to read it to him!

At noon, I fell asleep while reading for some reason.

He vaguely heard Junxi and Zhibin talking.

"Wilson has already contacted the doctor, and I decided to have an operation!" Song Junxi said firmly.

"Brother, you can think clearly. This is not a minor operation. If the operation fails, what will you ask Xia Xia and the child to do? Besides, does Aunt Yao agree? She is here first, but you are really the only one left!" Li Zhibin raised his voice. After a few minutes, his expression seemed to be very serious.

"What I am doing now is also a drag on them. Xia Xia is most afraid of dogs. The day she sprained her ankle, she was too scared when she saw the dog, and she was afraid that the dog would bite me, so she sprained her ankle in a hurry. Such a simple thing I am afraid of. If I can't take care of her, then what's the point of my life!" Song Junxi's words revealed a bit of self-mockery.

In this case, he has never shown such a tone in front of me.

"Agree or not, I have to do this operation!" Song Junxi repeated his opinion again.

"But Xia Xia, how do you tell her, if..."

"The operation must be successful, and I'm still alive. I haven't had time to do many things I promised her!" Song Junxi's words came into my ears clearly.

There was a long silence in the ward, Li Zhibin did not speak, who knows if he will be so lucky, after all, it is such a difficult operation, even doctors who have had successful precedents may not be completely sure, everyone's Circumstances are different, and such operations require something called a miracle.

"If..." Junxi's voice broke the silence of the ward, his voice was hollow: "If the operation really fails, take good care of my mother and Xia Xia for me!"

"Song Junxi, I won't take care of you for you, you think beautifully!" Li Zhibin directly interrupted him, and it was the first time he called Junxi by his name like this since I knew him for so many years.

Song Junxi glanced at me subconsciously: "Keep your voice down, don't wake her up!"

"I don't care, let me tell you, I won't be your mouthpiece. I'll see how you tell her about your surgery! You've been wrong for ten years, so in the end, don't you want to be happy in vain!" Li Zhibin said. Butt sat down on the edge of the bed.

Obviously in a bad mood!

I know that I woke up at an inappropriate time, and Junxi told Zhibin when I fell asleep that he didn't want me to know.

I thought, to hear him say it to me himself!

I closed my eyes and actually fell asleep. When I woke up, it was already completely dark. Li Zhibin had already ordered takeaway and sent it directly to the ward.

The meal was very quiet, Zhibin didn't talk much, and left sullenly after the meal, as if he was angry with someone.

While I was packing my things, I asked Junxi, "What happened to Zhibin?"

"It's nothing, you're in a bad mood!" Junxi didn't intend to tell me the truth.

I packed everything up, wiped his face and hands with a towel, and washed his feet.

He also looked tired, half lying there with his eyes closed.

The lights in the room were on, but I didn't seem to feel any light, and felt that there was darkness in front of me!
Is he still refusing to tell me?
(End of this chapter)