sadomasochism double

Chapter 70

Sometimes, I'm really bored.

But he still enjoys it.

Ding Wei let me follow him.

Anyway, it doesn't matter if he loves me or not, the important thing is that he loves me.

but……

What's the point of that?Wasn't it because of the future?Besides, what I am most afraid of touching now is feelings, or Zhuo Yang's feelings.

I may believe in his sincerity, it's just that I don't believe in myself.

During the seven years we were together, we didn't fall in love with each other, so why did we fall in love with me only half a year after the divorce?
Don't really say... I don't believe it.

Zhuo Yang was as thick-skinned as ever, since he came next door to me, he made the wall near my bedroom very thin for some reason.

At first I thought he was going to walk in through the wall, but what I didn't think of was that he just scraped the wall thin, and then said good night to the wall every night.

I know it was said to me.

only……

Compared with that slight touch, I was more confused.

Is this the life I want?After leaving a cage, it seems that there is no change at all. Didn’t I come to another cage?

To be honest, I am thinking of going to another city to start a new life.

I began to pay attention to the city profiles in some magazines. If I liked it, I would go to Baidu to search for the living price level of that city.

I thought I was doing it very secretly, but I didn't expect to be discovered by Ding Wei.

"Do you want to travel? Or do you want to move?"

I closed the webpage, sniffed, the weather has warmed up recently, and I actually caught a cold.

"No... just to see..." The places I didn't go to when I was young, I want to go one by one now.

For a moment, I wanted to leave everything behind and live like a walker.

"If I were you...it's okay to change your way of life." Finally, Ding Wei looked at me thoughtfully.

To be honest, Ding Wei's words moved me very much.

I had the impulse to resign immediately, but the reality is... I met Zhuo Yang as soon as I got home.

"Why did you come back so late today?"

He was leaning against the door, his dark blue tailored suit looked like a crown of jade, and from a distance, he looked well-dressed.

I'm in a good mood today, and I can chat with him a few words.

"No... I'm having dinner with my friends outside..." But he, dressed so neatly, is he going out to socialize again?

"Aren't you going to ask me where I'm going?" Zhuo Yang leaned against the door and looked at me directly, with an inexplicable smile on his handsome face.

This kind of Zhuo Yang made me a little strange, and I felt that this person's spirit was becoming more and more abnormal.

After closing the door, he also threw away the answer.

"Mind my business."

At night, I am planning my future life.I'm a person who can't stand places that are too hot, but I can't stand places that are too humid, so I have to choose a city that suits me.

I just read it on the Internet for a long time and consulted countless magazines, but finally found no clue.

But... there is no reason to leave now, I told myself that I can find it slowly.

Looking up, the alarm clock next to the bed has already reminded me of ten o'clock, which is my usual wash time.I got up from the bed, ready to take a shower and go to bed.

jingle--

The doorbell rang at this moment.

"Who?"

After opening the door, Zhuo Yang stood at the door with a tired face. Seeing me open the door, before I could speak to him, he had already grabbed my hand and pulled me in directly.

Hey... this seems to be my home.

My complexion is not very good, especially after I entered the room, I threw away Zhuo Yang's hand immediately, "What are you doing?"

He obviously didn't smell of alcohol, and he wasn't drunk.

Zhuo Yang sat down on my small sofa, took out the bag behind him, and shook it at me, "I brought you something to eat."

I paused, then narrowed my eyes suspiciously, "You're so good?"

Zhuo Yang seemed to be in a good mood, and pouted at the things on the table, "Heaton's blueberry double layer...you are not the favorite..."

I took a hesitant look at the beautifully packaged cake, and I could imagine that the dessert inside was as delicate and perfect as its appearance.

I swallowed, but finally shook my head.

"Forget it...you suddenly fed me food...who knows if you want to fatten me up and eat me..."

Seeing that I was not moving, Zhuo Yang took the initiative to help me unpack the package.

"I just want to fatten you up and eat you, can't I?"

I can't taste the blueberry double layer.

Zhuo Yang, on the other hand, looked at my sullen look, a little astonished, and seemed a little disappointed.

"Don't you like this the most? What's the matter? I don't have a good appetite recently..." And, before I could answer, he nodded to himself, his face full of doubts, "No... It’s the pastry chef from before...the taste should be the same..."

I have a spoon in my mouth, and I don't know what to eat.

The cake still tastes the same as before, with the sourness of blueberries in the sweetness, but I don't know when... I don't like this taste anymore.

Putting down the spoon, I shook my head and answered Zhuo Yang's question.

"It's not about the cake." I took a sip of water to dilute the sweet taste in my mouth, "It's because I don't like this kind of cake anymore... It's me... I've changed..."

It's me, the feeling of the past is finally gone.

No matter how good the cake is, I found that I waited for seven years, and at the end I didn't want to eat it anymore.

I got up to see off the guests.

Zhuo Yang didn't intend to leave, and squeezed my hand when I stood up, "What you said... I don't remember your preferences, your birthday, or your hairstyle...you insisted Sentence me to death... don't you want to know my answer?"

I shook my head.

But Zhuo Yang squeezed my hand and laughed.

"You have a sweet tooth and are allergic to seafood. In addition to cakes, fig snacks are also your favorite... Your birthday is on the fourteenth of July, the legendary Ghost Festival. As for your hairstyle... You said your face It is more suitable for straight hair...so you have always liked long straight hair...An Yue...I haven't forgotten anything...But you, have you forgotten..."

The force from the hand is getting stronger and stronger, and I feel a little pain.

With a hiss, Zhuo Yang let me go quickly.

"What you said will be with me no matter what happens."

"That's my stupidity." I retracted my hand lightly, blew, wanted to laugh, but found that I was a little weak.

"Zhuo Yang, forget it, that's all in the past. How can a person love another person for the rest of his life... You can't do it yourself... Are you sure I can?"

After finishing speaking, I got up and walked to the bedroom.

Soon, I heard footsteps and a door closing.

For some reason, I leaned on the bed, covered with soft pillows, and sighed involuntarily.

"Are you going on a trip? Or are you planning to run away?"

Suddenly, the sudden voice in the room made me throw away the pillow and stand up. I glared at the man who shouldn't be here, "Why haven't you left yet?"

Zhuo Yang was leaning against the door, the suit jacket on his body had been thrown somewhere by him, the tie was hanging loosely around his neck, his meticulous hair was also messed up by him at this time, the whole person looked a little sluggish.

"I just... don't want to go back alone and guard the silence of the room..."

Zhuo Yang was leaning against the door, I could see that he seemed to want to come in, but seeing how I flinched, he retreated to his original position helplessly.

In the end, his eyes stayed on the magazines I scattered on the ground, and his expression became a little inexplicable, "You want to escape?"

I have to say that Zhuo Yang still understands me this time.

I snatched the travel magazine from Zhuo Yang's hand, and said angrily, "Does it have anything to do with you?"

Zhuo Yang stood behind me for a long time without speaking.

It was only when I put away the magazines that he said slowly, "Where do you think you can go alone?"

Zhuo Yang's words made me a little reconciled, and wanted to retort stubbornly, but Zhuo Yang sneered and continued, "Leave the place where you have always grown up, and go to a strange place, where there is neither me nor Ding Wei. ...you are all alone..."

Zhuo Yang is right, even after divorce, I have always been a flower in the greenhouse.I haven't experienced wind and rain, so I can't bloom my own unique fragrance.

But even a fattened bird wants to spread its wings and fly, to the distant sky to see what the world looks like.

So... I laughed, and after putting all the magazines back on the bookshelf, I turned around and said to the indifferent man in front of me, "Perhaps, you are right. But I haven't tried... How do I know I can't... I think, Living well in another strange city will not be as difficult as making you fall in love with me..."

(End of this chapter)