Reborn Di daughter seeks the world

Chapter 356 The most painful thing in the world is not getting what you want

Donghua, in King Jing's Mansion, was lonely. A man in a chaste brocade robe stood in front of the window, watching the fallen leaves flying in front of the door. There was no emotion on his handsome and resolute face, only the black jade-like eyes It was dark and difficult to understand, as if he was thinking about something.

At some point behind him, a figure appeared. He stood and looked at the figure in front of him, a sigh flashed in his eyes.

"Have you really decided?" the man behind him suddenly asked.

Qin Jingyuan's jade-like eyes moved, and he lowered his brows slightly, not speaking.

Xiu Ziyu took a few steps forward, with a sad expression on his ferocious and terrifying face, he suddenly laughed at himself, "I used to swear that I would never turn my back on her in this life, but only recently did I realize that Some oaths are just oaths, and I am not as sensible as I thought, and she is more decisive than I imagined, so now, how can I make her forgive me?"

Qin Jingyuan glanced at him, but didn't speak.

"In the past, I blamed you for not remembering the old love, but in the end I found out that you were not the only one who hurt her. We all thought that we were loyal to ourselves, but we had already suffered from a disease called paranoia, and the disease was not serious. Light." Xiu Ziyu smiled wryly, "Recently I often have a dream, in which she wakes up alone in the snow and ice at the foot of Yandang Mountain, with corpses everywhere, blood flowing like a river, and the desolation in her eyes is like a sharp knife stabbing her. Into my heart. In the past, I always thought that I was the most painful person who lost all my brothers, but in fact we are not as good as her. She lost her parents, brothers and friends, the Chu family army, and Having lost all the glory of being Chen Ling, when she woke up again, there was no room for Chen Ling in this world. She lived for one day, proving the fact that the Chu family was destroyed, proving that she was betrayed by the person she trusted the most, proving that she lost Everything about her will never come back, and with all the hatred in her heart, her loneliness and pain at that moment must have made her want to die."

"Maybe we will say that she is not as fragile as imagined, but she is not as strong as imagined." Xiu Ziyu closed her eyes slightly, and pursed her lips, "I remember that Madam Chu was ill one year, when we were marching outside The military situation is urgent. When she heard the news, she was unexpectedly calm, and she only ordered the people below to take good care of her. However, after everyone left, she hid in the tent and burst into tears. She even said that she would kill herself. Mrs. Chu's life in exchange for Mrs. Chu's. Chen Ling is actually not as proud as we imagined, and all she needs is a warm home, and she has shouldered too many burdens."

Qin Jingyuan looked ahead, a glimmer of darkness flashed in his jade-like eyes, he frowned and said, "What do you want to say?"

"I don't think she wants to marry you." Xiu Ziyu said in a low voice, "In this world, the first person she doesn't want to be involved with is probably you first, and then me. She is getting farther and farther away from you. And we really don't need to add any troubles to her. "

Annoyed?Would marrying him, even in name only, be her trouble? !With one hand on his back, Qin Jingyuan looked at the peach tree above his head. This year the peach blossoms have withered, and the next year the peach blossoms will be in full bloom, and it will be full of spring, but there will be no one who appreciates the peach blossoms here anymore.

"If I don't do this, will she get closer to me?" Qin Jingyuan said suddenly, his handsome face was tense, "It doesn't matter if she doesn't forgive me, if I can have more time with her in this world There is only one way to get involved."

Xiu Ziyu looked at the man beside him in astonishment, he...

Has it come to this point?

Xiu Ziyu suddenly smiled, yes, they used to be each other's strongest opponents, but they were also the people who knew each other best.Young Master, she is not a person who will forgive others, perhaps because she is too clear about right and wrong in her heart, and they understand each other's bottom line.He has already made a mistake that the young master will never forgive, so even if the young master knows the truth, he may not forgive him, because what is lost will never come back, and a mistake is a mistake.

"Unexpectedly, the emperor would agree to your ridiculous request." Xiu Ziyu sighed, with a bit of thought in his eyes.

Qin Jingyuan smiled suddenly, "He didn't want to agree, but he had to agree, just like me back then."

"Jing Yuan!" Xiu Ziyu yelled, looking at him in a daze. He seldom smiled, so in the past, the young master always tried to break this calm face, but in the end she gave up for some reason. Until recently he Only then did I realize that it’s not that Qin Jingyuan can’t laugh, it’s that most of his smiles are only given to one person, and the rest is the exile of the world and himself, and at that time he will no longer be indifferent and indifferent to world affairs. Instead, he burst out all the darkness in his heart. In this world, there has never been a perfect person, and he, Qin Jingyuan, also has emotions.

"Back then, I lost my dearest brother, the most respected teacher, and the most beloved woman. Before I had time to smile away my grievances with her, I watched the world with a smile." Qin Jingyuan closed his eyes slightly, his face With infinite regret, "I originally thought that as long as I was with her, it wouldn't matter if I lost my status as a prince. It has nothing to do with me. The sharp weapon in her hand is to charge forward for her. But it is too late. I destroyed everything with my own hands..."

"Jing Yuan..." Xiu Ziyu couldn't find any words of comfort at this moment.

"And I don't want to back off now. In fact, I was wrong. If I didn't have this powerful power, how could I protect the person I want to protect? I'm too naive." Qin Jingyuan opened his eyes and looked ahead, with awe-inspiring eyes. One piece, no longer depressed as before, but at the moment there is a bit of ruthlessness.

Xiu Ziyu didn't know much about the grievances between Emperor Donghua and Qin Jingyuan's father and son, but he wanted to see the current situation. From the moment the Chu family perished, he no longer wanted to be loyal to the current emperor.But he also understands that she has played a vital role in the way Emperor Donghua and Qin Jingyuan and his son have come to this point.

"Do you think she will know that you reversed the case for the Chu family?" Xiu Ziyu said suddenly, if she knew, would she...

"So what if you know, so what if you don't know, she is no longer what she used to be, and she will no longer have any relationship with Donghua." Qin Jingyuan said in a low voice, and some of them were just suspicions and guesses.

Xiu Ziyu was silent, her resoluteness to him also showed that she would not look back, and the past relationship was just a life-and-death relationship when they meet next time.

"Do you know where she is?" Xiu Ziyu asked suddenly, since she left Liyang City, she seemed to have disappeared.

Donghua claimed that she was going to pray for the Queen Mother.

"Where she should be." Qin Jingyuan's eyebrows seemed to be stained with ice. If he had known this would be the result, he would have detained that person in Donghua without hesitation.But he is not in a hurry, he knows that one day she will appear in front of him, but what will she look like at that time?Iron cavalry with silver guns, angry horses in fresh clothes?

Suddenly someone came in from outside, and said in Qin Jingyuan's direction, "Your Highness, Princess Ruiyang said she wanted to see you outside the gate of the mansion."

Qin Jingyuan turned his head, looked at the servant, and said indifferently: "What is it?"

"It's probably because of Zixuan." Xiu Ziyu frowned and said, "Zixuan is the last blood of Ruiyang Palace, how could Princess Ruiyang let him go."

"Tell her, this king doesn't want to see her, let her go back." Qin Jingyuan said indifferently.

Xiu Ziyu glanced at him, and said in a deep voice: "If this matter becomes serious, it may be bad. After all, Zixuan is the eldest grandson of Ruiyang Palace."

"Since I agreed to Qin Yi, I will naturally take care of Zixuan for him." Qin Jingyuan said softly, and he glanced at the servant standing respectfully not far away, "You tell Princess Ruiyang, if she hopes that she murdered Zixuan back then, If the daughter-in-law's matter is exposed, it might as well come a few more times. If she wants Ruiyang Palace to suffer setbacks because of her alone, I don't care."

"Yes!" The servant retreated in response.

Xiu Ziyu glanced at Qin Jingyuan, "Why have you never said this! Sister Chu Xi, she..."

"I only found out about it recently, and it was Qin Yi who told me in the end." Qin Jingyuan frowned tightly, and couldn't help but recall what Qin Yi said when he pulled him at the last time in his mind.

"Meeting her in the best years of my life became the luckiest thing in my life, but my luck made her unlucky."

"If my death can wipe away the sins of my mother's life, I am willing. I only hope that she can wait for me to reincarnate with me at Naihe Bridge. In the next life, I will definitely live up to her."

"Jing Yuan, the most painful thing in a person's life is not getting what they want."

"I have enjoyed all the glory and wealth in my life, but I didn't realize what is most important to me until the end."

"I will leave Zixuan to you. I believe you will make him a useful person, not like me, who is doomed to live a mediocre life. At most, he will be arty and elegant, and he will not become a usable talent in the end."

"If you can see that person again, please say to her on my behalf, I'm sorry, after all, I failed to keep my promise back then."

"And I also hope that you won't make the same mistakes I made. If you love her, then you must be ready to give up everything for her. You will never change."

Repeat the same mistakes? !Qin Jingyuan lowered his eyes slightly, the most painful thing in a person's life is not getting what he wants, yes, not getting what he wants, and he has already fallen into such a perplexity.

In Xiliang, in the private room, Ye Lingxi frowned as she listened to Ling Zhong's words.

Princess Donghua? !Qin Jingyuan, isn't he crazy? He has really put into action the vow he made in front of the queen mother back then. How hypocritical is he to keep pretending like this.

Seeing that Ye Lingxi was silent, Ling Zhong thought that there was one more thing he hadn't said, so he couldn't help but said, "Master, there is another thing. Qin Yi, the son of King Ruiyang, passed away half a month ago."

(End of this chapter)