queen i love you

Chapter 254: Are You Afraid (3)
Jiangnan sat quietly in the co-pilot. Ji Mengxi suspected that she was so absorbed in her thoughts that she completely forgot that she was in his car.

Sure enough, when he came back to his senses, several hours had passed.Glancing at the time, I was greatly surprised: "It's already so late, has it delayed your work? Just put me down casually, and I'll take a taxi back."

Ji Mengxi looked at her helplessly, and pursed her thin lips lightly: "I'll take you home."

Until the community put her down, Jiang Nan asked him, "Do you want to sit up?"

Ji Mengxi took a deep look at her, and wanted to say a few words of comfort to her, but it was really not his turn to say these words.He knew that Jiang Nan would not just stay for a few hours in vain, and she must have thought clearly about many things.A few years ago, I didn't think she was transparent, like a child in a daze.Only to find out years later, that was not what she was.

She couldn't think clearly about her feelings, so she thought about work. No matter how complicated the work was, it was always much simpler than feelings.In fact, many confused things are very much the same. When you can’t figure out what’s right or wrong, ask yourself if it’s worth it. If you can’t even figure it out.Just ask yourself why do you want to do that?I found that there is no reason, many things really just follow my heart.He guessed that she might have already got the answer to the question.

Sending Ji Mengxi away, Jiangnan turned and walked upstairs. He was supposed to be discharged from the hospital today, but he just came back without packing his things.She couldn't even think about it, too many things had already filled her mind.

At last I had the key with me, in the pocket of my coat.Open the door and come in, there is no one at home, it is very quiet.The inside and outside are clean and tidy. Wherever Bo Nanfeng goes, he is always meticulous.Before he moved in, Jiangnan's house was rarely this clean.

There are only a few unwashed clothes in the bedroom, including hers and Bao Nanfeng's.They were all hospitalized, and Bo Nanfeng went home to pick up things, and changed clothes by the way, because his arms were inconvenient, so he put them away first.Jiang Nan picked it up and washed it. Instead of throwing it directly into the washing machine as before, he put it in the basin and rubbed it with washing powder.From the shirt to the trousers, they were washed slowly, and when they were taken to the balcony to dry, the sun was almost setting.The fiery red sun fell into the sky, and half of the sky was red, fiery red, quiet and hot.Open the window, the evening wind blowing in is cold.

Jiang Nan withdrew his hand and closed the window again.Then mop the floor, wipe the coffee table... the wardrobe, the door panel, and even the kitchen, no corner is spared.When it stopped, it was completely dark.The phone in the living room kept ringing, Jiang Nan was so exhausted, he sat down quietly leaning against the door frame, and let the phone on the sofa sing loudly.After ringing several times, it stopped ringing, and the world suddenly fell into silence, boundless.Turning his head, he could see the kitchen window, dimly lit, far away at the end of the world.The headlights in the living room were not turned on, and the light in the room was very dark, and everywhere was hazy, with slightly cloudy outlines, like the outer flames of candlelight.

Looking around, Jiang Nan felt that it was too dark and oppressive. Something was blocking her heart, and it was difficult to breathe. The harder she tried, the more painful her heart became.She felt that longing was rushing in like a tide. She missed a person very much, and she missed him so much. When she thought of her tearful eyes, she looked like a person suffering from lovesickness, and was dying.

Stand up and burst into tears.

Where did Bo Nanfeng go? Why hasn't he come home yet?

Sobs overflowed from his throat, and he cried violently in an instant.

"husband……"

Cry until my throat is hoarse, sore and sore.After wandering around in the living room for a few times, I realized that the world was eerily quiet, there was no sound everywhere, only my heart was the most noisy.The world seemed to be empty without such a person. He picked up his mobile phone and called Bo Nanfeng, and the voice reminded him to turn off the phone.

Jiang Nan picked up his coat and went out, stumbled downstairs, and suddenly remembered something at the door of the building.He hurried back to open the door on the opposite side.

The lights in the room were not turned on, and there was a faint light seeping out, flickering gently in the living room.

Jiang Nan's heart suddenly calmed down, no matter how much panic he had seen, the dust settled after seeing that beam of fire, it was unbelievably solid.

In fact, she had thought it through very thoroughly, even if she went back in time and returned to the moment when she made a new choice, she would still push open the door and run for him without hesitation.No matter what lies ahead, whether it's a sea of ​​bitterness or an abyss, as long as it's his Bo Nanfeng, she will go there.She is just stupid, willing to die for what she believes.The mountains and rivers between her and Bo Nanfeng can't be seen by others, and only she knows how precious it is.Just like what Ji Mengxi said, even if some things are bad, even if they suffer, sometimes they don't think about the value.It's like a kind of belief. Whenever it is born from the bottom of my heart, I will yearn for it from my heart.

No matter how Bo Nanfeng came to her, she still loves him.And there is no reason to love someone.

Bo Nanfeng sat directly on the ground, quietly leaning on the sofa and playing with the matches in his hands.

He has such a habit, he likes to watch the match sticks burn out in his hands, and the short-lived light and warmth make him greedy and longing.The veins of the skin are roasted, even if it hurts, it will feel real.Those pinches of fire seemed to be burning in his heart. When he looked at it, he felt that no matter how dim it was, it was so good to look at.So I want to have more, thinking like this, I will double my courage, I will work harder, let myself survive well in order to strive for more, and one day I may really stand in the sun openly and calmly and peacefully absorb Such light and heat.It doesn’t have to be like now, looking at this beam of light is like cutting a hole in a cold, hard and thick wall, envious and expecting, but after all, it’s not my own, I’m afraid it will be disillusioned in the next moment, and the world will return to darkness and emptiness. Man, still scared.

"Crack." There was a sound.

Jiang Nan lit up the headlight in the living room, and when he approached, he saw a match burned out between his slender fingers, and Bao Nanfeng just stared at it blankly and forgot to blow it out.When the fire reached his fingertips, Jiangnan stretched out his hand to take it, and blew it lightly, leaving only a little sulfur smell.

Before Bao Nanfeng looked over, she had already sat on the sofa and hugged him tightly behind her, holding his neck tightly.

Ask him, "Why don't you go home and cook for me? I'm starving to death."

Bo Nanfeng's eyes were red, and at this moment they became warm again, as dazed as a child.The matchbox fell to the ground without making any sound.He raised his hand to grasp Jiangnan's, his palm was cold, without warmth, even his body was cold.Before she came over and hugged him in his arms, Bo Nanfeng thought he was about to be abandoned.Thinking that fate is so shallow, he will always be abandoned by important people.

The Adam's apple moved, and he didn't dare to look back, his voice was hoarse: "I thought you despised me and didn't want me anymore."

When Su Rui told the truth, he thought that way, looking at Jiangnan's black and white cut eyes, clean enough to reflect the blue sky and flowing clouds, how could he be tolerated.After all, he became scared, like a mouse fleeing across the street, he never thought it was a big deal to make a fuss like that, even standing in the sun felt ironic.After staying in the dark for a long time, sores and mildew appeared in his bones. At that moment, he faintly smelled a stench of decay, which came from his own body.And Jiang Nan stood there, staring at him fixedly, with complex lights in his eyes, he couldn't tell whether it was disgust, disappointment, or sadness.

(End of this chapter)