queen i love you

Chapter 782

Jiang Nan took his arm: "You're right if you didn't check, maybe it's really Ruan Tianming, he is such a good person, he must be living a good life somewhere."

Qin Qiuyan sighed: "I'm just sorry for him. He begged me to let Su Rui live, but I didn't..."

"He will understand you and won't blame you, you have to believe it."

Outside the hospital is a long tree-lined road. In the midst of raging fire, the sun is covered by thick shade above the head, and the shadows of trees under the feet are mottled.The wind blows, the leaves rustle.

They were not in a hurry to take a taxi to the airport, and walked slowly hand in hand.It's like going to the wild, to the old.

An old song was playing on the roadside storefront, and the elegant melody resounded through the whole street, mixed in the lazy sunshine.

让 青春 吹动 了 你 的 让 它 牵引 的 梦

不知不觉 这 城市 的 历史 已 了 的 的
红红 心 中 蓝蓝 的 天 个 的 的

春雨 不 眠 隔夜 的 你 的 的 日子

让 青春 娇艳 的 花朵 绽开 的 的 红颜
飞去 飞来 的 满天 的 飞絮 幻想 的 的

秋来春去 红尘 中 谁 在 里 安排
Your hard-to-hide brilliance in the cold night of ice and snow

Take a look at me, don't let the confidante keep empty pillows

youth, no regrets, eternal lover

让 流浪 的 足迹 在 荒漠 写下 的 的

飘去 飘来 的 笔迹 是 深藏 激情 的 的

Who is wandering in the voice in the reincarnation of the previous world
痴情 笑 我 凡俗 的 的 关怀
Take a look at me, don't let the confidante keep empty pillows

youth, no regrets, eternal lover

Many years later, Lin Xiangyu still wants to think hard about her mother, the woman who rolled and laughed in the wind and dust, like a ghost from ancient times, returning at midnight with joy at midnight.Dressed brightly, with exaggerated make-up, she sat in front of the bed and smoked.

The slender fingers were slightly tilted, kicked the shoes and sat on the head of the bed in an unglamorous posture, smoking one cigarette after another.

It looks very much like a singer leaning on a prostitute during the Republic of China. If you look closely, it can be regarded as strange and charming.

At that time, Lin Xiangyu felt that the time with her was precious, and he always felt that it would not be long, like an indescribable feeling.

So, every night when Lin Le came back, she would wake up, huddled under the quilt with only her small head exposed, secretly looking at her.Sometimes, Lin Le would find her drunk, so naturally she wouldn't have any good things to say.

At that time, the adjectives Lin Xiangyu heard most about herself were "scumbag" and "sorrowful star". Grandma would call her that every day, and so would Lin Le.

At that time, I was young, I didn't know what it meant, how could I know that the disgust revealed in it was enough to step her into the dust.

She always wondered why her mother didn't like her?Everyone doesn't like her... Is it because she didn't do well?

It was only later that I realized that it was not at all. No matter how hard she tried, how well-behaved and obedient she became, Lin Le would never like her.Her birth was originally a mistake, the most stained symbol, Lin Le looked at her every day, afraid that she would suffer the same pain as being humiliated.How could it be possible to accommodate and like her?
Being able to give birth to her is already a great blessing.But Lin Xiangyu thought, why didn't she really favor her, why didn't she give birth at all?
Lin Xiangyu was not grateful to Lin Le, but thanked her for being pregnant in October and bringing her into this world.Because no one told her that her birth and pain were accompanied by her, and she was doomed early on.

If she knew that she would be so disgusted from birth, she would not have come to this world even if she tried her best.

It's too painful, the gloomy childhood, spent in beatings and scolding, cold-eyed and abandoned, without warmth.

Therefore, Lin Le doesn't like her, and those in the Lin family don't like her either.No matter how hard she tried, she could not win the world and win the mother's love.

Yes, what is maternal love?Lin Xiangyu never knew.

When I only look at others, I laugh and laugh, hand in hand.But what was it like?She doesn't know.

So after many years, I have to keep thinking about it.How does Lin Le feel about her?disgust?hatred?dislike?or something else?Has there ever been love, even a little bit that cannot be found...

No matter how unclean it is, it is still a life conceived in her body, a piece of flesh that fell from her body.When Lin Xiangyu was confused, he would also think, is there really a little bit?

The night before Lin Le passed away, she was by her side.The opportunity she finally won from her grandma can be with Lin Le.The happy look at that time is really silly when I think about it now, but I was so excited that I couldn't even swallow my meal.In fact, she hadn't eaten well for several meals at that time.Because grandma doesn't like her, and she is young and ignorant, she keeps arguing and thinking about her mother. When Lin's mother gets upset, she will directly take away her bowls and chopsticks and let her stand in the corner, and she won't be able to eat.

I was very hungry at first, but because of such a happy event, my stomach was so full that I couldn't hold down any food.She only ate one banana that night, for the first time, Lin Le allowed her to sleep with her in the ward at night.

Lin Xiangyu stood in the ward and cheered.

Lin's mother immediately scolded her: "Sangmen Xing, if you dare to kick your mother's wound, see how I will deal with you tomorrow."

Lin Xiangyu was very scared and didn't dare to laugh any more. He was also careful when going to bed at night, just afraid of bumping into Lin Le's wound and keeping a distance from her, so he didn't even dare to turn over.

So I didn't sleep well that night, and woke up many times in a hazy state.It seems that Lin Le is not asleep, his eyes are a little bright in the dark, looking at her, looking at her all the time.

Lin Xiangyu called vaguely; "Mom..."

I couldn't see Lin Le's expression, I just heard her say; "Go to sleep."

Lin Xiangyu was reluctant to sleep, it was the first time Lin Le was willing to look at her so seriously, as if he didn't dislike her.She has always looked at her, quietly watching from behind, looking at Lin Le's back and thinking, this is my mother...

The closest person to me in this world.

Every time Lin Le got off work, she just looked at her like this for many years.The world of a child is very simple. There are two beauties in this world, one is the mother and the other is herself.

In her memory, she thought Lin Le was extremely beautiful, and she thought that she would become like her when she grew up.How could he know that his appearance was bad, very bad, he couldn't hold his head up, and he was afraid that he would be so sad that he couldn't sleep at night, so he always had to find something to pass.And Lin Le was infected with the bad habit of smoking.

Lin Xiangyu still remembered the way she wore nail polish, and the color was also very bright, almost vulgar, so that she could cover up her habitually flicking smoky yellow nails.After dyeing the color, it still looks bright and young, and Kou Dan is gorgeous.

(End of this chapter)