Reborn Totalitarian Queen

Chapter 902 Misunderstanding, the mystery of life experience (4)
No one knew how completely her peaceful life was overturned when she first entered the military camp, how much anxiety and fear she had.

It was the first time she went to the battlefield with the army to kill, but she couldn't do it. She was cornered several times and almost died.

The first time she raised a knife to kill someone, the enemy's blood sprayed out and splashed all over her face, she couldn't straighten up with vomiting, tears flowed down, and then hid in the tent by herself, when she couldn't eat a bite of food for three days, she She hid at the right time, so that no one could see her cowardly and panicked side.But for half a year after that, he was haunted by nightmares and skinny, and could only be covered by thick armor.

In those three years, she walked step by step, and she felt like she had passed through a baptism from hell and nirvana.

She is bloodthirsty, she is invincible, in Yin Shao's hands, she has been honed into an unprincipled butcher's knife, from body to soul, has been soaked in the blood of others, there is no cure.

She can't cry, and she doesn't want to laugh, and she only knows to kill to vent her emotions when she is in the most pain and despair.

Now she, even if she changed her shell, the inner soul tempered by poison and blood would never be able to get rid of it.

Her cruelty and willful persistence are so unreasonable in Duanmuqi's eyes, but only she knows that this is a road of no return. On this road, she, like Su Lan, is eternally helpless. There is no way to turn back.

Duanmuqi stood in the room without moving, a lamp was like a bean, and the shadow of the lamp fell on his face that turned all sentient beings in a trance.

"Drive!" Behind the hillside in the distance, accompanied by her clear shout, the horse's hooves sounded and walked away quickly.

Great Wall came in from the door with a worried expression, and couldn't help but turn around to look, "Young Master, in fact, Miss Fourth doesn't really want to protect the Empress Dowager, does she?"

She was just looking for something to do, and wanted to find something for herself to do.

"But if she said it, she wouldn't just talk about it." Duanmu Qi said, looking away indifferently, and walked out.

Xuanwang Mansion.

Yin Zhan also didn't sleep for two days and one night. When he came out of the palace early in the morning, he locked himself in the study room by himself.

"My lord." When Wei Heng pushed the door in from the outside, he was leaning behind the case and closed his eyes to rest, with an indescribably tired expression on his face, he didn't open his eyes, and just asked, "Is she okay? "

But after waiting for a while, Wei Heng didn't reply.

Yin Zhan opened his eyes suspiciously.

Song Chuxi had already walked up to him, looking at his tired face and forced a smile. "Why don't you go to rest?"

She asked casually, with a very peaceful tone. After bypassing the case, she handed him a cup of hot tea in her hand.

Yin Zhan's eyes followed her all the time, and fell on her face for a moment. He reached out but didn't take the tea bowl. Instead, he held her hands together with the tea bowl.

He didn't speak, Song Chuxi lowered her eyes to meet his gaze, and said proactively, "I'm fine."

The newly brewed tea was slightly hot along the outer wall of the cup.

Yin Zhan took out one hand and put the cup on the table, while pulling her to sit on his lap with the other hand, holding her in his arms.

Song Chuxi didn't refuse, and let him circle her with lowered eyes.

Yin Zhan didn't speak, just kissed her sideburns lightly, and hugged her quietly without saying a word.

In the early morning of this day, the snow outside had a faint tendency to increase. Even if the brazier was lit in this room, people could feel a cold chill that could not be resolved.

Song Chuxi has been traveling outside for two nights and one day. In fact, her body doesn't feel any chill anymore. It's just because the place in her heart is empty, and she has long since indifferently felt all the feelings.

At this moment, Yin Zhan hugged her without saying a word.

His generous and warm palm wrapped her cold fingers, and the warmth melted away from the fingers bit by bit, as if the blood that had been frozen into ice melted bit by bit, and slowly poured into the atrium again, And this kind of warmth slowly flooded her frozen emotions, making her smudged chest very uncomfortable.

"Don't be sad, it's all over!" Yin Zhan opened his mouth as if sensing her emotional fluctuations.

I don't know if it's because he hasn't spoken for a long time, but his voice is deep and too hoarse, without bone-crushing tenderness, but he broke through all her disguises so unexpectedly, and fell into the bottom of my heart easily .

Song Chuxi looked down at the hands they held together. After a long while, the corners of her lips curled up into a calm smile, and she said lightly: "Well! I'm not sad, Su Lan, she...this...for her , not a bad ending."

At the end, there was some incoherent choking.

Compared with living in pain, death is the best relief.

She tried hard to convince herself, telling herself that she shouldn't be sad, but——

Reluctant.

Trying her best to hold back, Song Chuxi's tears finally fell unexpectedly, hitting the back of Yin Zhan's hand bit by bit.

Yin Zhan didn't try to persuade her anything, he just raised his hand and wiped away the tears on her face bit by bit with his fingertips.

In the past, she never cried, but after the reunion, he saw her cry again and again.

I can't tell what kind of feeling it is in my heart. When we were together before, her stubbornness and strength always made him secretly sulking, but now, every time he met her finally overwhelmed, weak and crying, he would feel like a knife twisting his heart. at a loss.

He didn't want to see her deliberately pretending to be strong, and her tears made him unbearable, and he was flustered and at a loss.

He just hugged her silently, using a lot of strength, as if he wanted to use the strength transmitted from his arms to support her through this most difficult moment.

He couldn't stop her tears, and he couldn't smooth out the pain in her heart. The only thing he could do was—

It's just for companionship.

Song Chuxi suppressed and choked for a long time, until finally, Yin Zhan's sleeves were wet with her tears.

"I'm fine." She wiped her tears and looked back at him apologetically.

Her eyes were red and swollen, but it was only after close contact that Yin Zhan's eyes were also bloodshot.

Song Chuxi was stunned for a moment, and then realized belatedly that he probably had no intention of resting during the past two days and nights.

Song Chuxi suddenly felt a little guilty, raised her hand and touched the corner of his eyes, "I made you worry about me again."

Yin Zhan didn't say anything.

He wanted to worry about her, but sometimes he was powerless.

"I asked someone to ask, that person suffered a serious injury this time, even if he survived by luck, it won't last long after that, everything is on the verge of breaking out, what are your plans now?" Yin Zhan asked.

(End of this chapter)