Engraved crush time

Chapter 14 Time will teach us how to forget
A clock is a cruel machine. It cuts the time into pieces with a "click" and does not allow you to say "Yes" or "No". We have no choice but to accept everything.The reason is simple, we are not the rulers of time, even we ourselves are being cut into pieces at the same time as time is cut off.

Soon, it will be June.I have to emphasize that Zhengzhou in June is like a steamer. Since the rainy season still lingers in the south, the northern cities become scorching hot and muggy under the scorching sun.More and more people are willing to stay in the house, including me. I stay in the milk tea shop all day long, sitting by the window for hours at a time. At that time, I watched the busy traffic with empty eyes. On the street, looking at the big sycamore trees outside the store, occasionally there is a breeze rustling, and a few withered and yellow leaves slowly fall down.

I have forgotten what I was thinking, or what I should be thinking.My mind is muddled, blurred like a paste, I can't remember many things, and I don't want to think about the future, I just sit there quietly, letting time be "clicked" "Cut into pieces, cut up my silence and my sadness together.

Tao Wanyi came to see me once, and it was still at the milk tea shop.I can't remember the exact time, it seems like yesterday, and it seems like a long time ago, I said, my mind has been muddled lately, it's blurred like a paste.However, I still remember that she was wearing a pink dress, which was from Lady Square, and I recognized the brand. This was also due to Yang Shanshan, who wanted to change her style to be a lady. How could she not patronize Lady Square when it came to dressing? !I still remember that it was an evening, and the setting sun had dyed the clouds in the sky red, and the whole city seemed to be coated with a layer of gold leaf, shining brightly.Every evening, there will be no business in the milk tea shop, so that's good, I have enough time to sit in front of the window and stare blankly.Tao Wanyi sat across from me at this time, I didn't notice it, because my eyes were fixed on the sunset outside the window, because I was in a daze all the time.

Tao Wanyi called me three times before I woke up like a dream.In fact, I don't know how many times she called me. She said she called me three times, and I only heard the last one.

"Why are you here?" I said dryly, trying to force a smile, but later I found that my lips were chapped and painful.

"What? You don't welcome old classmates?"

"That's not what I meant." I stood up to pour water for her, but she stopped me, "Jiang Hui, I'm not thirsty."

I turned around and smiled at her, "I'm thirsty." I licked my dry lips, mixed ice and water, the ice cubes hit the glass with a rustling sound, and the water droplets rolled, Tao Wanyi raised her eyebrows at me Thumb, "Cool!" she said, "Jiang Hui, I think you should be a bartender, and you will definitely be quite successful."

I took a sip of ice water and licked my chapped lips. The cold liquid began to work in my body, cooling everything from skin to blood.After a few seconds, I took another sip, gobbling it like a wolf.

"If you want to learn, I can introduce you to the teacher. You know, my father owns a foreign liquor store. In this respect, he knows a lot of superb bartenders."

"Thank you for your kindness, but I don't want to learn."

"It's okay, let me know when you want to learn someday, and I'll make arrangements for you." She stroked the drooping curly hair and tied them neatly behind the ears.

"Don't tell me, the reason you came to me is to tell me that you can help me find a bartender as a teacher." I picked up the glass and swirled the remaining half of the glass of water.

"Jiang Hui, I'm really convinced of you." She put on a helpless look, spread her hands out, very British style, "You are always so mean."

"It's not being mean, it's being honest." I said with a smile, "You should say that I don't understand hypocrisy."

Tao Wanyi also smiled, "Okay, I'll do it all." She made a gesture of surrender, "I found Xiao Jiayi, I think we will go back soon, you know, he took a month off I skipped class for a month. This semester is coming to an end, and we have to go back and take exams."

I noticed that she said "we" instead of "me and him".

To be honest, I also think "we" is easier to pronounce than "me and him".

"When are you leaving? Do you want me to see you off?" I drank the ice water in the glass.

"Tomorrow afternoon, I've already booked the ticket. I'm here just to say goodbye to you."

say goodbye?I laughed in my heart, do I need to say goodbye?Do we have "farewell" to "dao"?You just want to show off to me, to prove to me that you are capable enough to take Xiao Jiayi away, and you have to find an excuse to say goodbye with the excuse of long live friendship.

It's ridiculous.

"Will the summer vacation come back?" I regretted saying this, I didn't have any purpose, at least, there was no purpose or symbolic meaning when I blurted out this sentence, but I saw Tao Wanyi's face change , became pale, she showed her white teeth and smiled weakly at me, "I think, maybe I won't come back." She emphasized her tone: "It should be like this."

"pretty good."

"I think I have to go. Xiao Jiayi and I have an appointment to have dinner and watch a movie together in the evening." She stood up.

"Oh, let's go then."

When she was about to walk out of the milk tea shop, I stopped her, and I remembered what Jiang Caiwen told me, so I took out my wallet, counted out ten red banknotes and walked up to her, "What are you doing?" She looked at the banknotes in my hand in bewilderment, her face full of confusion.

"My mother said that you visited her last time and bought a lot of gifts. She said she was sorry and asked me to pay you back the money for the gifts."

"Don't be like this." She pushed my hand, "I should go to see my aunt, and I should also go shopping. You make me feel very embarrassed."

"But if you don't accept it, I can't explain to my mother, and I will be very embarrassed."

She gave in anyway and took the money from me.Then I walked out with a red face, and the high-heeled shoes made a non-stop sound of "tick-tick-tick" on the ground covered with fallen leaves. The sound of "tick-tick-tick" was very much like the sound of a clock shaking.

I suddenly have a feeling that time is the real winner, it is cutting me off bit by bit, I can't see what I will look like in the future, I can only drag my scarred body forward slowly Crawl and let time cut me to pieces until the end of my life.

After Tao Wanyi left, I sat in front of the window again, silently groping for the empty glass.No one can see that my quietness is fake.In fact, I am playing, playing with my toy, and no one knows what my toy is, my toy is time.

Until now, I am still playing with my toys, sitting quietly in front of the window, letting time cut me into pieces.Before I was completely cut into pieces, Jiang Caiwen called me. She seldom called me. Every time she called, she had a very strong purpose. This is the relationship between us. We have lived together for 19 years It is no wonder that Tao Wanyi said that I was mean, because I was raised by a mean woman. In those days cut to pieces by time, at the age when I needed love the most, no one regarded me as the apple of the eye, no one People will miss me, I don't need much, but God is reluctant to give me even a little.In this way, I grew up coldly.

"Xiao Jiayi returned to Guangzhou in the afternoon, do you know?" She continued without waiting for my answer, "He left a package for you and asked me to hand it over to you, but I don't know what it is. Come back and pick it up when you have time."

"it is good."

It seems that Tao Wanyi came to see me yesterday afternoon, because I remember she said: "I have already booked the flight tomorrow afternoon." But why do I feel like it has been many days, I don't know, I don't know anything , just said "yes" to Jiang Caiwen in vain.I know, I'm just saying it, and she knows it too.

It's always like this, the conversation between me and her has never gone around in circles, even when I was very young, it is the same, she will not explain a certain truth to me like other parents and practice it personally Show me, she will only tell me what I should do and what I should not do. If I do something wrong, all that awaits me is a slap, a crisp sound on my face, and a burning pain.There are often such scenes in TV dramas. In order to achieve a certain effect, the director will paint some red liquid on the corners of the mouth of the person being incited, but he will not understand that the sound of "cracking" is better than the red liquid. Liquids are even scarier, because whenever this sounds in my world, all I have left in my ears is something like "buzzing..."

Later, I always thought, if I hadn't been adopted by her, would I have died long ago?If I had died at that time, would I not have so many involuntary things now? !

Thinking of this, I actually found myself laughing.Really, laughing.

(End of this chapter)