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Chapter 13 I'm Fine

It has been three days.

During these three days, Xiao Jiayi never came to look for me, and never even sent me a text message. My mobile phone was quietly stuck in my pocket, neither loud nor noisy, as quiet as a sleeping child .

In fact, this is also very good. After all, I have let go of the burden in my heart, and I no longer have to be cautious and fearful that others will peep at my secrets.As usual, I went to the milk tea shop to take care of the business. As usual, I drank the white fungus and lotus seed soup cooked by Tang Qiming at night, letting Huarun's white fungus roll into my stomach.

This was supposed to be my life. If there wasn't so much greed, everyone would have a good life.

The contradiction is here, no one will sincerely say: I am fine.

Tang Qiming always tried to talk to me.He sat next to me while I was drinking soup, pressed the remote control aimlessly, and the TV screen rotated back and forth, jumping from the news channel to the entertainment channel, and Tang Qiming's deep voice was mixed with the melodious female voice: "Soup How is it, sweet or not?"

I didn't look at him, just ate the soup by myself, "It's okay."

"Then drink more." He changed the channel again, and Jane Zhang's "We Agreed" MV was presented in front of my eyes like this.My hand trembled, and the small ceramic spoon almost fell to the ground. It hit the wall of the ceramic bowl and made a "jingling" sound. The sound was so humble that Tang Qiming didn't hear it, so he put the remote control on the narrow strip in front of the sofa. On the wooden table, he said: "Jane Zhang's singing skills are really good, she can always sing the bitterest things in people's hearts."

I didn't respond to him, and lowered my head to stir the white fungus soup. The pale white soup formed a vortex under the stirring of the spoon, and my vision was also enveloped by the vortex, slowly becoming blurred.Therefore, I always feel that the vortex in the bowl will become bigger and bigger, and one day, it will sweep me in together, and there will be no redemption.

"By the way, Jiang Hui, whose song do you like most?"

"Liu Ruoying." I raised my head slightly, but my eyes did not fall on Tang Qiming, "I think her singing is very flavorful."

"Then we have the opportunity to listen to Rene Liu's concert."

"Let's forget it. If you like someone, you should keep him in your heart, so that you can think of him all the time."

"Hey, if you like someone, you should go to her concert, sing with her to the rhythm of the music, applaud for her, shout for her, and be crazy for her. If you can't even do these, then you may not It’s just that I really like her. Like and love is originally a crazy journey, if you have never been crazy, then you definitely don’t know how deep love is.”

I slowly put down the stirring spoon, and put the bowl on the table. The brightly colored stage background was swaying on the TV screen, and I felt a little dizzy in the dim living room. Tang Qiming took the opportunity to grab my hand , I wanted to pull my hand out like an electric shock, but he grabbed it even tighter.His palm is big, cool and full of strength, he approached me calmly, the soft sofa made a "creaking" sound, just when his hot breath came to my face, I stretched out the other Put your hand on his lips, "I'm tired."

Tang Qiming smiled. He pushed my hand away and kissed my forehead, "Good night."

I stood up in a panic, dropped the unfinished white fungus soup, and slipped into the bedroom. After closing the door, I locked the door behind me. I leaned against the wooden door and stared blankly at the dark room. The world is very quiet, I can still hear Jane Zhang singing from the living room, but I don't know what is going on in my mind.

I lay on the bed as if paralyzed, the soft quilt blocked my face, and it became difficult to breathe instantly, which made me exhausted, so I turned over, leaned my back against the bed, and took out my phone.

"Why haven't you slept so late?" Jiang Caiwen's voice was tired.Her opening remarks made me feel very unfamiliar, and I was at a loss for a while. In my memory, I will always be in a passive position, allowing her to scold, scold and even slap me. Now, her voice suddenly becomes softer , echoing in my ears like a homely chatter.

"Why are you not sleeping yet?!"

"When people are old, they always suffer from insomnia."

My heart suddenly twitched. It stands to reason that I should be happy. Watching the woman who tortured me when I was young grow old little by little, witnessing her suffering and downfall, this should be what I was looking forward to. But now, everything I expected has become a reality. I have seen and heard everything, but I am not happy at all.

"You should go out for a walk, perform yangko, dance and so on during the day."

"Twisting Yangko? Those who twist Yangko are all old women in their seventies and eighties. I'm only 43 this year!"

I couldn't help laughing when Jiang Caiwen's resentful tone reached my eardrums. I was surprised even by myself. I never thought that there would be a day when my relationship with Jiang Caiwen would be harmonious and intimate, but in fact it is so subtle The relationship with me was very short, and it was only for a moment, so that later I often wondered, has such intimacy ever appeared?Yes, I doubted myself, just like that afternoon when I was young, she put her hand on my forehead and said to me after a long conversation: "Xiao Jianghui, can you play with uncle here for a while Mom, go to the bathroom." But then I not only waited for her to return, but also waited for her to slap me in the face, and to this day, the burning pain still lingers.

"Xiao Jiayi still often eats with you?" I hesitated and brought the topic here.You guessed it, this call I made was "Drunkards Don't Want to Drink".

"No, he hasn't come for several days." Jiang Caiwen's voice changed, becoming cold.

I said "oh" and just wanted to say good night to her and hung up the phone when Jiang Caiwen started to ramble, she said, "I called Xiao Jiayi's mother back two days ago and invited her to live in Zhengzhou for a few days. She happily said yes, and said that she would bring you a gift. When he comes back, don't hide from him. Don't let him laugh at the daughter I raised for her lack of quality and education. And... Also, a few days ago One day when I was wandering around the gate of the community, I met a beautiful girl. They said she was your classmate in junior high school. She also bought a lot of gifts and came to our house to sit for a while. I asked her to eat at home, but she declined. I I don’t have the good fortune to touch you, to eat the gifts that your classmates bought me, so you treat people to dinner another day, and return the money for buying gifts to them. You don’t have to give me money this month, and I will buy the money. A gift. Oh, by the way, her name is Tao Wanyi."

"I see." I said, "Then hang up if you have nothing to do, and I won't disturb your rest."

"Hang it."

The phone stuck to my face, and fell little by little until it landed on the bed and hit my leg, and I woke up like a dream. For a moment, I suddenly felt that tears were about to fall, but I It took a lot of effort to swallow them alive in the stomach.

I was thinking about whether to call Tao Wanyi, ask her out for dinner another day and return the money to her, but when I opened the phone book, I realized that I didn't have her contact information at all.

In fact, I never thought about asking for her contact information, whether it was junior high school or when she stood in front of me again after four years, I never thought about it, what do I want her contact information for?Contact feelings?Do we have feelings to connect with?

Thinking of this, I couldn't help laughing bitterly, and saved her phone number in the phone book. Every time I saw her name, I had to remind myself: "I'm not as good as Tao Wanyi, I'm not worthy of Xiao Jiayi"?

Ironic.

(End of this chapter)