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Chapter 22 Dignity Is What We Live For
Xiao Jiayi still couldn't get through the phone.No matter how many times I call, there will always be a tactful female voice on the other end of the phone: "Sorry, the person you dialed has turned off the phone." I don't like this voice, no matter how tactful it sounds, I don't like it.I feel hairy in my heart, any slight touch will make me fly into a rage, I want to scold others, but what I scold is not others, but myself.

I opened the car window very wide, and the hot wind "whistled" into the car, hitting my face head-on.I could barely keep my eyes open, so I leaned against the car window in a daze, holding the phone in my hand.I sent a message to Xiao Jiayi, and I asked him to call me immediately after turning on the phone.I have been waiting, waiting for his call, waiting for his voice, waiting for him to tell me in person: "Jiang Hui, I'm fine."

However, I didn't wait until I got off the bus, and I even began to wonder if I could wait in my life.

What did Tang Qiming tell Xiao Jiayi?I have no idea.

I stumbled off the bus, the hot sun hit me, I didn't feel anything, I just couldn't keep my eyes open.I got into the shade of the tree, avoided the sun, and arrived at the milk tea shop within a few steps.

Xiaoya was the only one who guarded the store.

Wearing a white and green uniform, she stood at the front desk and repeatedly wiped down the bar.Seeing me enter the door, she dropped the rag to support me, "Xiao Hui, I have some good news for you." She danced with her hands and feet, "A total of ten copies of 'Fresh Fruit Love Talk' were sold this morning. 'Fresh Fruit Love Talk' is more authentic than that one."

I found a random chair and sat down.

"Xiaohui, what's wrong with you? You don't look very good." Xiaoya put her hand on my forehead, "It's not hot, do you want some water?"

I shook my head, "No, I'm not thirsty, I just feel a little tired."

"It might be hot." She muttered, "Sit down for a while, and I'll add ice to your glass of water."

It's fine if she didn't say the last sentence, but when I said it, my heart hurt, but it was not easy to expose it in front of Xiaoya, so I fell on the table and remained motionless.

Pretending is a tiring thing.You obviously want to cry, but you still have to pretend that you want to laugh.We live against our conscience, forced to put on a mask.However, there are too many masks, and it is difficult to tell which one is real and which one is fake.In this regard, I have to admire Jiang Caiwen.All the while, she lived under a mask, at least, to me.To this day, I have not been able to see her true colors clearly.

"Just drink some water." Xiaoya put the cup in front of me.

I stretched out my hand to hold the cup, and my palm was cold for a while.

"Where are the other waiters?" I asked knowingly.After all, I can't accept Wang Xinrui's answer on the phone. I hope Xiaoya can give me another explanation.But she didn't, she gave the same answer as Wang Xinrui, and there is always only one correct answer.

"They all resigned. Last night they collectively wrote a letter of resignation, and went to work at the newly opened milk tea shop without waiting for your approval." Xiaoya was indignant.

"Why don't you leave?" I took a sip of ice water, "I heard that the milk tea shop pays employees twice as much as ours."

"You have to be trustworthy." She lowered her head and played with her fingers. "When I was young, my family was poor and I didn't study much, but I understand this truth. The last thing you can't lose is your conscience. If you even have a conscience Is it still a person if you lose it? How much money is there? Do you think it makes sense?!" She looked up at me with thick eyebrows and big eyes.

"There are fewer and fewer good people like you."

"It has nothing to do with good people or bad people. This is what everyone should do. It's just that many people have lost their nature, and I just did it. Therefore, I am not a good person. I just did what I should do. ’” she explained.

"Sister Xiaoya..." I grabbed her hand, "Thank you." I said, with moist eyes.

"Don't be like this. We should cheer up and run the milk tea shop well. I have this confidence."

"I'm going to close for a while," I said. "Until you find a new job, I'll pay you every month until you find a new job."

"Manager Jiang..." She paled, "You mean... I was fired?"

I realized that she called me Manager Jiang, not Xiaohui.

"You'll find a better place than here," I said.

"I don't want to leave, I finally found a stable job, I finally said goodbye to the days when I ate my last meal, and I finally had a boss who wouldn't look down on me...I don't want Go." She cried.

"Don't do this." I hugged her, "I will be uncomfortable."

"I'm already feeling uncomfortable." She pouted, "Since you've decided like this, I won't say anything. I don't want the salary before I found a new job. I don't want any salary that doesn't belong to me. I can’t take it, I only want the wages I earn.”

"Think of it as a bonus from me," I said.

"No, I will have a bad conscience. I haven't made any achievements, and I am already very happy with my own salary. I don't want your bonus either. But, can I have a small request?"

"You said."

"Even when the milk tea shop reopens, can you call me and call me back to work? If you have my phone number, I won't change the number. Can you?" She looked forward to it.

"If you want, you can come anytime after the opening." I helped her wipe the tears from the corners of her eyes.

"That's great." She laughed through her tears, "To be honest, I really envy you."

"What's there to envy?"

"Educated and knowledgeable, I will not be bullied wherever I go. You don't know, before I came to work here, I didn't know what a labor contract is. None of the previous bosses signed this thing with us. I just During the two years when I came out to work, relatives in my family introduced me to work in the factory. I was exhausted every day, not to mention earning no money, and taking risks all the time. Several of our sisters had their fingers broken by machines. The unscrupulous boss doesn’t even pay for medical expenses.” At this point, she showed a terrified look, “So, it’s great to study. Do you have a lot of books in the library of your university? I went to junior high school. Back then the library was pitifully small and not open to students, to be honest, I haven’t seen what a library looks like until now.”

"I'll take you to the library of our school when I have time."

"Really?" She jumped up for joy, but soon, she showed embarrassment again, "Will they not let me in? Don't they need some documents, I don't have one."

"Don't worry, if you don't want to go to work on Saturdays and Sundays, you can come to my school to find me, and I will take you there." My heart felt sore.Compared with Xiaoya, we are all happy enough, but we turn a blind eye to our own happiness, because we always take these things for granted.

However, there are so many things that are taken for granted in this world.It's just that you happened to be lucky, so you took it for granted to live a normal life.

Even meet someone and grow old with him.You feel like he's not going to leave, you're going to be like that for the rest of your life, it's a matter of course.

But one day, he just left without saying a word.

We have lost the "taken for granted" in our lives, and only when we look back do we realize that those things we take for granted are actually God's best favors for us.

After I settled Xiaoya's salary, I gave her another 1000 yuan as a bonus.She has done so much for our milk tea shop, this money is the reward she deserves.But Xiaoya refused to accept it. "Manager Jiang, don't do this," she said.

"This is your reward," I said.

"You guys have given me enough rewards." She put her wages into her underwear pocket, and her cautious look made me see my former self.

"Don't be stupid. Let's pretend together." I picked up the envelope containing 1000 yuan that she threw on the bar and stuffed it on her body, but Xiaoya kept hiding, "Manager Jiang, don't embarrass me." She He frowned and looked at me, "In the milk tea shop, I got something far more important than the bonus, that is dignity. In the two years when I first came out and worked hard, no one mentioned to me what dignity is, and I even doubted it. , Is it true that dignity only belongs to those who have some money, and we migrant girls don’t deserve it at all. I collected my self-esteem little by little, and I even forgot that I am still a human being and should have dignity. After coming to Qisehua, I realized that we are all the same and should have dignity." She looked around the empty milk tea shop with tears in her eyes, "So, Manager Jiang, thank you, you are a good person."

"Call me Xiaohui." I took her hand.

She smiled with tears in her eyes, "I really hate being here. I don't know if I will be so lucky to meet a good manager like you."

"Yes. In this world, there are still more good people than bad people, and there are many more, so those bad people who work for tigers will be swallowed up by good people sooner or later."

"I hope so." She sighed deeply.

Before leaving, she brought another basin of water, rolled up her sleeves, and wiped the tables next to each other.I advised her not to do this, because no customers would come, so it doesn't matter how clean it is.

She ignored me and just cleaned the table.The water stains splashed on her skirt, but she ignored it.So, I found a rag to wipe it with her, and before I put the rag into the water, she stopped me: "Xiaohui, go and do your work, I want to wipe it myself, and wipe it all over again."

"I am not busy."

"Then you go sit and rest." She pushed me away, "Don't worry about me. Maybe it's the last time, let me say goodbye to this job."

I don't know what to say.So I ran to the bar to read the materials, halfway through I heard Xiaoya crying, sobbing softly.I stepped out from the bar and stood behind her hesitantly.She didn't look at me, she was just cleaning the table, her tears fell on the clean floor.

"I really don't want to leave here." She lowered her head and said.

I walked forward and hugged her, and said, "Miss Xiaoya, I'm sorry."

She pushed me away, wiped her tears and said, "Don't get your clothes dirty."

I hugged her even tighter, tears also fell down, "It's okay, it's okay..." This is all I have left, repeating it over and over again, never before or after.

Xiaoya wiped down all the tables in the shop before leaving.All the tabletops become shiny because of fresh water.Xiaoya was standing in the middle of the hall, her body was straight and her hands were clasped.I stood beside her and found her smiling.Her face was full of spirits, and her whole posture seemed to be one man in charge of the other.

I called her and she ignored me.

She just stood there blankly, with piercing eyes and a charming smile.I know that she is having her last dream.In this dream, there is her dignity deeply buried in her heart, as well as her own little happiness.

After a long time, she sighed deeply and returned to normal.She came up to me and hugged me.She said, "Xiaohui, I'm leaving."

"Ah."

"You must notify me when the milk tea shop reopens. No matter where I am, I will come back." She asked me to promise.

I said yes, I promise.

She stopped talking, turned around and walked out.All I can see is her back, I know she is crying, she doesn't want me to see it.

Later, she walked out of the milk tea shop, walked into the scorching sun, and walked into the tide of people coming and going, and I couldn't find her figure.I raised my head and looked at the shadow covered by the sycamore tree trunk. There were sporadic sunlight overflowing through the gap of the shade, which hurt my eyes. I closed my eyes subconsciously, and tears burst into tears instantly.

No one can see, which is nice.

I paced back to the bar and continued to read the documents on the computer.I have to calculate various costs, the store needs to be sold and transferred, and the rent is almost enough for Jiang Caiwen to live on.As for the utensils in the milk tea shop, I definitely won't sell them, I have to pack them all up, whether Jiang Caiwen wants to or not, I have to put them away.Someday, they will see the light of day again.

I stared at the computer with my chin resting on my cheeks. Maintaining this position for a long time made my neck ache.I raised my head and twisted my neck, and it was at this time that I realized that there was a person sitting in the milk tea shop by the window.She lowered her head and played with her fingers.

It's Jiang Caiwen.

I put a glass of water in front of her.She froze for a moment, shifted her gaze from the bottom of the cup to me, raised her head, and looked at me expressionlessly.

"Don't call me when you come." I complained.

"I just want to take a look." She picked up the glass.I noticed that the corners of her mouth were dry and cracked, and it occurred to me that she must not have had lunch, or even breakfast.She is always like this, and every time she feels unhappy, she will solve it by not eating, so when I was in the second grade of elementary school, I learned to cook.Because when Jiang Caiwen is unhappy, it's fine if she doesn't eat, and she doesn't know how to cook for me.I couldn't bear the stomach cramps that hunger brought me, so I had to learn to cook.To this day, I have never forgotten the scene of my first cooking. I followed Jiang Caiwen's example and turned on the gas stove carefully. I wanted to cook instant noodles.When Jiang Caiwen cooks instant noodles, he always cuts some green pepper slices and beats two eggs in the pot.I wanted to do the same, so I went and chopped green peppers.I don’t know if it’s because the knife is too heavy or because I’m too weak. It took me a long time to cut a green pepper. The water in the pot screamed. Chili's knife was not stabilized and fell from the chopping board to the table.I was afraid that the knife would fall on the floor, so I subconsciously stretched out my hand to block the knife, and just like that, the tip of the knife cut my finger unsuspectingly.A burning pain spread out along with the bright red blood.

The time of youth is always like a dream. Before we can fully see the so-called happiness or pain, this dream has come to an end, and the only thing left is waking up at dawn.

"I haven't been here for a long time." She sighed slightly. "It feels like a dream. In the blink of an eye, six years have passed like this. Six years ago, I put all my money on this place." At that time, there were no milk tea shops in Zhengzhou. Many people thought that I would fail. Even Xiao Jiayi’s mother persuaded me, “Why do you have to work so hard as a woman? Put this money in the bank or do business. If you have a small business, you will have no worries about food and clothing.’ But, I’m still young, and I have to do something. So, I took out all my savings to buy this store and started milk tea. On the first night of opening, I stood at the door of the milk tea shop, looking at the neon signboard, and felt an unprecedented peace in my heart. I know that from now on, even if the whole world abandons me, my milk tea shop will not abandon me, it will stick to it. There, waiting for me to carefully prepare the milk tea." She took a sip of water and paused for a few seconds, "But now, I am back to the original point. This is probably the essence of life, time and effort will be let down, in exchange for nothing but It's an old dream."

I didn't know what to say, but just stood quietly in front of her.

Jiang Caiwen stopped talking, and her eyes fell on the busy street through the clear glass windows, very focused.What she was looking at, I don't know.

The morning glow in the evening gradually dyed the sky red, and the whole city seemed to be shrouded in brightly lit candles.Jiang Caiwen kept staring out the window without speaking.I always feel uneasy when she looks like this.To be honest, I wish she could yell at me or hit me like she used to, because then I would feel at ease.

"Let's go eat something. There is a dumpling shop on this street that makes very authentic dumplings." I said.

She shook her head, "I'm not hungry."

"If you are not hungry, you have to eat something. You haven't eaten all day." I hate myself, if I would lie like other girls, I would definitely hold Jiang Caiwen's hand coquettishly and pull her to eat Something, she's sure to go too.I know that I can't do it in front of Jiang Caiwen, or rather, I can't do it in front of anyone.

"I'm really not hungry," she said, her voice hoarse.

"Then shall we go out for a walk? This is not far from my school, shall we go for a walk around my campus?"

She raised her head and glanced at me, "Jiang Hui, don't you hate me?"

I'm surprised she asked me that.Those youthful years came rushing in turbulently, hitting my heart.I think we can't obliterate the memory of something in this life, we can't obliterate it in this life.The things that stick to our hearts are like tattoos that grow on our bodies.We'll grow, and they'll grow, that's all.

"I don't know." I didn't lie, I can't tell what "hate" is anymore.

"I see." She lowered her eyes.The room became gray and I couldn't see her face.I wanted to turn on the light, but she stopped me, "Don't turn on the light, I'll just sit for a while and leave."

"Do you want me to buy you something to eat?" I said, "The hot dry noodles here are also good."

"Do you eat these every day?" she asked me.

"It's like this when you're busy," I said.

"How can you always eat these? There is no nutrition."

My heart aches.I felt like I was going to cry, but luckily the room was dark so she couldn't see.

"Just get used to it." I whispered.

"Come back to eat often in the future. I will make braised pork ribs for you. You can tell me what you want to eat, and I will make it for you."

I think I heard it wrong, Jiang Caiwen has never talked to me like this before, and I even began to wonder if the person sitting in front of me is Jiang Caiwen.

"I know you hate me." She didn't look at me, she just lowered her head, as if talking to herself, "Just like I hate you, there is a barrier between us, mother and daughter."

I don't understand what she's talking about.

"I have repeatedly reminded you that you are an orphan when you were very young. But in fact, you were an orphan. Your father abandoned you and your mother for his bright future, and your mother, always I think it was because of you that the man she loved so much left her. Before you were born, your father repeatedly emphasized that it must be a boy, and he always wanted a boy. It's a pity that your mother gave birth to a girl by mistake, and she gave birth to a girl."

"So you know them?"

She nodded acquiescingly, "I don't just know them. I was even there when your mother threw you on the bench in the hospital. I heard you cry in your swaddling baby, and the cry was clear and chilling. I walked forward and put You were hugged in my arms, and your crying gradually became weaker. Later, you stopped crying and fell asleep quietly. It was then that I suddenly realized that without you, I might still be alive That's fine, and you're going to die without me. I regret the bad decisions I made, but I feel good that I made it right."

"Does your mistake mean taking me home?"

"No." She raised her head, with something like light in her eyes, "I was the one who threw you on the hospital bench."

I sat on the chair paralyzed, with no strength at all.

"It's me," she repeated, bowing her head. "It was I who threw you on the bench in the hospital. It was I who decided not to want you. It was me." Her voice was very low, as if it was coming out of her throat.

I panicked.

"Why are you a girl? If you were a boy, maybe he wouldn't have left us for those so-called futures? Do you know that you made me what I am now, lonely and lonely all my life? I live in pain." She just whispered and didn't notice that my face was turning pale.

She won't see it either.Because of the dim light, because of tears in my eyes.

I didn't notice at all that the lights on the street came on, unsuspectingly.When I raised my head to look out the window again, the whole city was already flickering with neon lights and brightly lit.I leaned against the wall, feeling weak.Jiang Caiwen was still sitting in front of me, she was crying, tears streaming down her face, her voice was very weak, intermittent, vaguely absent.Her shoulders shook as she wept, as if enveloped in an unprecedented sadness.

I remained silent, leaning against the wall without saying a word.

The day Jiang Caiwen abandoned me, did you cry as much as you do now?I have no idea.I just feel that since she has made up her mind to abandon me, why bother to hug me back.If, on that day, no one cared about me in the hospital, would I have been sent to an orphanage, or starved to death, or taken away by bad guys, then I would definitely not have endured so much pain now, no When you meet Xiao Jiayi, you won't run into Tang Qiming.What will be waiting for me, I don't know.

I stood up from the chair unsteadily, and then walked towards the street with people coming and going in a chaotic manner. I didn't know where to go, so I just kept walking.The lights of the city were very blurred, and I felt that my eyes were becoming more and more blurred. I thought it was lights flickering, but when tears rolled down my face, I realized that I was crying.

What are you crying for?I laugh at myself.My father left without even looking at me after I was born, and my mother, even if I was a piece of meat that fell from her heart, she was willing to abandon me, and she was willing to abandon me.Why should I cry? Why should I cry?From the beginning I was abandoned, no one will understand how sad I am.

What is the use of my sadness?No one will think about me.The biggest reason why I live in this world is to be a foil, to foil how beautiful Tao Wanyi is, how worthy of Xiao Jiayi, to foil how happy and happy they are, and it is precisely because I have nothing that I can witness their prosperity .

I kept walking forward, and the tears couldn't stop pouring out.Passers-by who come and go are looking at me, and I can't control that much.I have nothing left, and all I have left is sadness.Later, when I was tired from walking, I sat on the side of the road, buried my head deeply in my knees, and tears dripped down my trouser legs, wet.

I was crying so sad that I didn't even know that someone came to me. I didn't raise my head until I saw his white canvas shoes. It was Tang Qiming.

I don't know how he appeared in front of me, and I don't know why he appeared in front of me every time I was sad.This is very bad, all my weakness and powerlessness are seen by him, this is very bad.

He stretched out his hand and handed me a tissue. The pure white tissue seemed to be coated with gold leaf under the warm yellow light.

I didn't pick up a tissue and just cried.

Tang Qiming bent over to help me wipe away my tears, "Stop crying, if you cry again, you can perform on stage, and you don't even need to paint on makeup."

"Don't worry about it." I turned my face away.

"I don't care who cares?"

"Don't worry about anyone, let me fend for myself."

"What about me?" He squatted beside me, looking dejected.

"You still have Wang Xinrui."

"No." He interrupted me, "I have nothing but you. If one day, you also leave me, then I really have nothing." started.

The night sky of the city is devoid of stars.Too much neon flickering hides the real face of the starry sky, just like, too many fake smiles hide sadness.

I am silent.

Tang Qiming stood up, "Let's go home." He said, "I made the meal, and I called you but your cell phone was turned off, and then I came to the milk tea shop to look for you, and I happened to see you coming out of the shop. You ignored me several times and just cried. Now we have cried enough, let's go home—go home and eat." He laughed.

"No appetite."

"I'll have an appetite when I go back." He pulled me up and held my hand tightly.The lights along the way were dim, and all I could hold was Tang Qiming's warmth.

When I passed the milk tea shop, I couldn't help slowing down my pace.Jiang Caiwen was still sitting in the store, the lights were not turned on in the store, I couldn't see her face, she was hidden in the dim light.

Tang Qiming was going to ask her to have dinner together, but I stopped him.I don't know how to face her.Before that, there was only silence between us.

Perhaps, silence is the only way to communicate, licking each other's wounds alone.

The dinner made by Tang Qiming was very sumptuous, and the table was filled with colorful flowers.I don't know why he made so many dishes, obviously, the two of us can't finish it.

He brought me some food, which was braised pork ribs. "It's the first time I've made this, and I don't know if it's delicious. Try it and see if it tastes as good as your mother's."

"How do you know I like this?" I didn't move my chopsticks, but just glanced at the ribs in the bowl.

"Is this important?" He continued to serve me food.

I was silent, just staring at the food in the bowl in a daze.

"Eat quickly." He reminded me.

"I can't eat, I have no appetite." I said and stood up.

"Where are you going?" He dropped the bowl and chopsticks, and stood up with me.

"Go to sleep for a while." I glanced at him, his face was full of panic and anxiety, as if I was a child. "You can eat." I added.

"I'm going to put hot water for you to take a bath."

He pushed the chair away and walked to the bathroom.He walked very fast, like running, even when I called him, he didn't look back.Soon, I heard the sound of running water coming from the bathroom.I know he is adjusting the temperature of the water.

He shouldn't have treated me like this, I can't pay him back, I just feel bad conscience.

I took out my phone, turned it on, and text messages were sent over.I thought it was Xiao Jiayi, and I was very happy.But soon, my joy was blinded by reality, it was Tao Wanyi.All text messages were sent to me by Tao Wanyi.She said in the message over and over again: "Jiang Hui, please, tell me where Xiao Jiayi is, I really can't live without him."

I was silent, leaning against the porch in a daze, not even knowing that Tang Qiming had come out of the bathroom.

"The water temperature has been adjusted, let's go wash."

I woke up like a dream, and when I looked up, I found that his face was covered with water, and his clothes were soaked.

"The shower head was a little loose, I fixed it." He smiled at me as he wiped the water off his face.

"Tang Qiming," I called him.

"Here." He put on a military posture with a serious look.

"Can you tell me what you said to Xiao Jiayi?" I begged.

Tang Qiming's seriousness collapsed in an instant.He hung his head loosely, "You still care about him so much."

I am silent.

"No matter what I do, you will feel that I am inferior to him, right? Because he occupies all your childhood memories, because you were once childhood sweethearts, so no matter what I do or how I do it, you will not recognize me from the bottom of my heart. You'll think I'm not as good as him, won't you?"

"Tang Qiming," I interrupted him, "that's not the case."

"What's that?" He asked.

"I don't know." I leaned against the wall, exhausted, "I'm very tired, please, don't ask me again. I just want to know what you guys talked about, because Xiao Jiayi is gone, no one knows Where did he go?"

He smiled, embarrassedly, "Jiang Hui, if I was the one who left that night, would you have thought the same way, asking Xiao Jiayi where I went over and over again? Would you?"

"Don't be like this, Tang Qiming." I didn't even have the strength to speak.

"Answer me, will you?"

"I can."

"Really?" He was surprised.

"Did I lie to you?" I said.

"We talked a lot," he said, "I mean me and Xiao Jiayi. He told me about when you were young, about those ignorant times that threw you away, that you liked chocolate candies and your mother's braised pork ribs. He We talked very happily, and we drank some wine. I felt sleepy in the middle of the night, so I got up and went to sleep. Before going to bed, I told him that you will have a good life with me. He said yes .You know what happened afterwards, when he woke up in the morning he was gone. I don't even know when he left."

"Then why did you move my phone? You also deleted his contact information and text messages."

"I didn't delete it." He explained, "I just charged your phone for you."

"Oh." I lowered my face, "I see," I said, "I'm going to take a shower." After I finished speaking, I went to the bathroom.

The shower was still on and steam filled the tiny bathroom.I closed the door and stood under the shower head without even taking off my clothes.I adjusted the temperature of the water to be very cold, just like taking a cold bath. The icy cold water rushed down from the top of my head, splashed into my eyes, and then rolled out of my eye sockets again. I couldn't tell the difference. Know if you are crying or not.

It's Xiao Jiayi, it must be Xiao Jiayi.Except for him, no one else can step into this house, and no one else will tamper with my mobile phone except him.But, why did he delete his phone number, why did he delete those text messages he sent me, why did he leave without saying goodbye, why did he avoid me, why... these are all reasons!
No one can answer me.

I think, this world is probably like this, it will never tell you the final outcome.In this way, you will continue to look forward to the unknown beauty after being burned again and again, and it is precisely because of these expectations that you will live.

But whether it was a meager hope or a still more bleak despair that awaited us after the long ordeal, I do not know.

Tang Qiming was knocking on the bathroom door, "Jiang Hui, call me." He said, "Do you want me to take it in for you?"

"No." I yelled, wrapped in a towel and went to open the door.I opened the door just wide enough for a phone gap.But at the moment when he took the phone, Tang Qiming still found out.Before I could hold the phone tightly, he pushed open the door of the bathroom, and the phone fell to the ground with a "slap".

"Jiang Hui, what are you doing!" He stared at my wet clothes, furious.

I bent down to pick up the phone, it was still ringing.

"You put cold water? Not warm water?"

I didn't answer him.

"Jiang Hui!" His voice was deafening, "Are you crazy?"

I smiled at him, "I just feel hot! I want to take a cold shower."

"You know you'll catch a cold?" He briskly turned off the shower and turned up the temperature.

"How could it be!" I held the phone, "Go out first, I'll answer the call, it's from me, Jiang Caiwen, my mother." I waved at him, but he stood there motionless.

Soon, the cramped bathroom was filled with steam.I stood at the door and pressed the answer button. Jiang Caiwen's voice was old and hoarse, "Xiaohui, let's find an intermediary company to sell the store tomorrow."

"Why sell it?" I was surprised.

"This money is reserved for you to go abroad."

"I never thought about going abroad." I argued.

"But I thought about you."

"It's ridiculous. When did you think about me? When you dumped me in the hospital? Did you think about me when you reminded me over and over that I was an orphan when I was a child? What do you say now? I thought about going abroad. It's ridiculous!" I noticed that Tang Qiming looked at me again, and he was frowning and frowning.

"Jiang Hui..." Her voice was still hoarse and calm, "I'm doing it for your own good."

"Don't order me what to do and what to do under the guise of being good for me. Before me, you still had the authority to let me obey your orders, but now, I am 20 years old, how should I go, How to live, I have my own ideas. I don't need your fake mercy." After I finished speaking, I hung up the phone, I don't know if I will become irritable if I continue to talk.

Tang Qiming put his hands on my shoulders, "Why bother? She is still your mother after all."

"Did your mother abandon you on a hospital bench when you were a baby? Did your mother remind you over and over that you were an orphan when you were a baby? Surely she wouldn't, But these tricks, Jiang Caiwen, that is, my mother, used all of them on me." I was trembling all over, and even my teeth were bumping up and down.

"Jiang Hui, everyone has their own difficulties that they cannot express."

He was fine, but comforted me.

"That's because you have never experienced it before, so you will never know how deep this scar is!"

"You're not me, how do you know that I don't know?" He smiled, and then left the bathroom sadly, before leaving, he closed the door and reminded me, "Go take a hot bath, or you will get sick Fall."

I didn't speak, just stood there in a daze.I resent Jiang Caiwen in my heart, I think I will resent Jiang Caiwen for the rest of my life, resent her for abandoning me, resent her for provoking my scars again and again when I was young.I also know that my resentment is only because I failed to get love. At the age when I needed love, encouragement and hugs the most, Jiang Caiwen abandoned me.After all, I hate her so much because I care about her.Every one of us is like this, the more we don't get the warmth, the more we miss it.

When I came out of the shower, Tang Qiming was still sitting at the dining table, and the dishes on the table hadn't been touched at all.Seeing me coming out, he raised his head, looking devastated.

I didn't ask him, just went to the bedroom.He stopped me behind me, "Aren't you going to eat something?"

"I don't want to eat anything." Without even turning my head, I walked into the bedroom and closed the door behind me.

I was too lazy to turn on the light until I climbed into bed.My mind is full of Jiang Caiwen hiding in the dim light, I think I should do something, so I took out my phone.

I sent a text message, not to Jiang Caiwen, but to Wang Xinrui.

Soon, she replied to me.Concise and concise, only three words: "See you tomorrow."

I bury myself in my pillow.This is the last way, I said to myself, Jiang Hui, I'm sorry.

(End of this chapter)