Engraved crush time

Chapter 21 Suddenly
Jiang Caiwen's whole body was nestled on the sofa, her eyes were empty and her expression was slack, she didn't even notice that I opened the door to enter the room, as if she had aged a lot overnight.

I stood in front of her, "What's wrong with you?"

She raised her head and glanced at me, and after a few seconds, she lowered her eyes again, nestling in the sofa dully, as if I was a transparent object.

"Do you have a fever?" I asked.I wanted to reach out and touch her forehead, but, just thinking about it, I didn't.I also know that I won't do it.

She didn't move and didn't answer me.

"Do you want some water?" I turned around to pour water, but she stopped me, "Xiaohui..."

I stand where I am.I realized she called me "Xiao Hui" instead of "Jiang Hui".

"I'm not thirsty..." Her voice was hoarse.I haven't heard such a hoarse voice for a long time. I still remember that she always scolded me with such a voice when I was a child. Every time, she seemed to tear her lungs apart and scolded me at the top of her throat.But now, she was nestling on the sofa almost peacefully, her voice hoarse.Such a scene made me feel a little sore in my heart.

I turned around and looked at her. Her hair was a little messy, spread out on the brown sofa cushions, revealing a strand of white hair.It's strange that just yesterday, when she slapped me, I hadn't seen white hair like this.

"Sit down." She raised her hand feebly, pointed to the sofa beside her to signal me to sit down, and then looked at me with half-closed eyes, "Let's quit."

"What?" I didn't understand what she meant.

She looked at me, "I mean, let's not do the milk tea shop business."

My palms felt numb.I don't know if it's because of the blood circulation caused by placing them on the knee for a long time, or because of a silent blockage of a nerve, in short, they are slightly anesthetized.So, I turned slightly sideways and rubbed my hands.It was at this time that I suddenly felt that I had seen through Jiang Caiwen's listlessness. In the final analysis, her listlessness was due to money.Because the operating status of the milk tea shop is directly related to my income, and my income is directly related to the 500 yuan I handed to her every month.

Women, the older they get, the more hopeless they become.They will always show their talents for some trivial matters, and even stand on the street and scold each other regardless of their image.However, in the final analysis, they are pitiful, because their youth has been worn away by the years, and their dreams have been stolen by reality. Now they only have those interests that can be grasped, because these interests are directly related to With three meals a day.Filling the stomach is always the most important thing.

"At the beginning, the boss handed over to me a good shop with a lot of customers. Now, I can't give them back a mess."

"Can you stop being so stubborn?"

"It's not thanks to you." I want to yell out all the things that are backlogged in my heart. Because I have no money to eat, I have to sacrifice my time to work part-time. I also want to live a life of being supported by my family. Every month, I use the living expenses given by my parents to go shopping in the mall and buy snacks and even cosmetics that girls like to eat, as well as clothes.But I don't have that capital, I can't pretend to be petty bourgeoisie or even noble, I have to stand in the mall and ask the customers who come and go over and over again: "Hello, do you want to try our new products here?" With a smile on my face, no customer wants to see the bitter face of the salesman, but only I know that I am crying in my heart.I carried the weight of life on my back prematurely, which allowed me to see the world clearly and see the hardships of life, and because of this, I lost the age of dreaming.

For a girl, once she loses her dreams, it means that she will age prematurely.

However, I still didn't say it out loud.I knew in my heart that whether it was suffering or being tired, it was enough for me to bear it silently.I can't beat life, I can't beat reality, so I can only bear it.Just like I endure Tao Wanyi and Xiao Jiayi being together, just keep it silently in my heart.

Jiang Caiwen didn't speak, she just lowered her body, as if she had collapsed on the sofa.I can't see her face, all I can see is her thinning body, and this body will sway in my mind when I close my eyes.Sometimes I also wonder, if Jiang Caiwen hadn’t reminded me over and over again that I was an orphan picked up by her when I was sensible, would I be like other children, lying on her back when I was very young? How about coquettish in your arms?I have no idea.

The whole house was quiet, and I could clearly hear the sound of cars and the air conditioner running outside the window, and I even wondered if she was asleep.However, this silence did not last long, my cell phone rang, and it was a series of unfamiliar numbers.

I picked up my mobile phone and went to the bathroom to answer the call. Before I closed the door of the bathroom, I glanced at the living room again. To be precise, it was Jiang Caiwen, who was still lying on the sofa, motionless.

I pressed the answer button, it was Wang Xinrui.I didn't save her number, but I couldn't forget her voice.

"Miss Jiang Hui, long time no see."

"Why, is Miss Wang Xinrui going to buy me coffee again?" I sneered.

"If Ms. Jiang Hui is willing, we can drink now. However, before drinking, I thought, I have to give you a gift. It is a misunderstanding when we first met."

"I can't afford it."

"Don't say that, this small gift is specially prepared for you, you have to accept it no matter what, anyway, it's just a little bit of my heart." She paused, and then said: "You must also accept this small gift." See you, how is it, how do you feel?"

"What are you talking about?" I didn't understand what she meant.

"My new milk tea shop, it's not far from Qisehua, how about it, how do you feel?"

I didn't speak, but felt the strength in my body rushing towards my palm little by little, and the lines on my palm were mottled with a little bit of sweat.I put my palm on my pants and wiped it back and forth.But it was useless, soon, there would still be sweat crawling out.

"Miss Jiang Hui, six waiters from your Qisehua milk tea shop have already turned their backs and turned to our milk tea shop. How about it, do you want to turn to me too? I will double your salary."

I try my best to keep my inner peace, but in fact I can't, I have exploded.I gripped the phone tightly, "Wang Xinrui, if you want to punish me, just rush at me, and it won't get in the way of Qisehua."

There was a hearty smile on the other end of the phone, "Jiang Hui, why can't you get in the way of Qisehua? Isn't Qisehua not your family business? Tell me, is it in the way?"

"Family business? I'm just a migrant worker who helps people manage the store. I don't want the grievances between us to damage the interests of our boss. Let me remind you, Wang Xinrui, please stop here!"

"Migrant worker? You really know how to joke! Isn't Jiang Caiwen your mother? The registrant of Qisehua Milk Tea Shop is Jiang Caiwen, and you actually say that you are a migrant worker?!"

"What did you say?" My palms were sweating again, but this time I forgot to wipe them off.

"Miss Jiang Hui, I will not give up on Tang Qiming. Only I am worthy of him." She hung up the phone.

I put the phone in my pocket, and then turned on the tap. The cool running water slid across my palm, washing away the mottled sweat stains, and the palm lost the burning sensation and became as cool as water.I really hope that this drop of water can flow into the bottom of my heart, annihilate the burning in my heart, and return the coolness I lost.

Jiang Caiwen was still lying on the sofa, she hid her face, I couldn't see her expression, I thought she must have fallen asleep.The temperature in the living room is very low, she will definitely catch a cold if she sleeps like this.So I ran to the bedroom to get her a mattress.When I put the mattress on her body, she twitched all over, and then I saw her face hidden in the sofa, with mottled tears.

"What do you want to eat? I'll make it for you." I helped her wipe away the tears from the corners of her eyes and asked her in a low voice.I dare not look at her, I am afraid I will cry.

She shook her head, sobbing in a low voice, her tears rolled down on the sofa and dried up in an instant.

"Why didn't you tell me? Why did you hide it from me? Why did you tell me that you opened the Qisehua Milk Tea Shop, and you are the real boss. I will definitely not go there to work. So, the current Qisehua The flowers are still like a cloud of customers, tell me, don’t you?” I turned my face away and wiped away the tears that rolled down, “You have called me a broom star since you were a child, and this time your words have been verified again, look at it , I destroyed you, and I personally destroyed your milk tea shop. Next, what else will I destroy?" I cried.Tears could not stop pouring out.I finally understand why the boss of the milk tea shop asked me to take over Qisehua, and I finally understand why the boss only needs electronic work reports, because she is Jiang Caiwen, and because she is afraid of being recognized by me.And Sister Liu, that elegant woman, is just an actor hired by Jiang Caiwen to act in a scene, which made me believe that all this is the result of my hard work.

It's no wonder that Jiang Caiwen found the house I rented in the family courtyard. The person who sold this information was not Yang Shanshan, but me.As early as when I entered the milk tea shop as an hourly worker, I had already filled in this information one stroke at a time in my resume, so it was impossible for her not to know.

For a moment, I suddenly realized that the woman in front of me was completely unfamiliar to me.We have lived together for 18 years, day and night, but I didn't know she had a milk tea shop.

Of course, I also know that what I don't know is far more than this.In front of me, she was never real except in rage.

"Let's go out and get something to eat." I wiped away my tears.In front of Jiang Caiwen, I learned to endure, and learned to shed tears into my stomach.I don't want her to see my fragility and submission, like peeing, I seldom shed tears in front of her, no matter how loudly she slaps her, I always look at her, neither crying nor fussing.This is the only way for me to resist her, the only way for a weak and helpless girl to resist the world with her humiliating pain.

"Let's close the milk tea shop." She said quietly, her voice was weak and fragile, and in an instant, I saw my young self in her, weak and helpless. "I went to see that new store. The store is bigger than Qisehua, the decoration is better than Qisehua, and the price is cheaper than Qisehua. We can't compete with them, and we don't have the capital to compete. Let's give in and close the store."

She let out a long sigh, as heavy as those sleepless nights.At that time, I fell asleep with such a sigh on my pillow every night, gloating in my heart, and secretly proud of myself, but now, all I have left is the despair of being unable to struggle.

Both Jiang Caiwen and I were silent.

Sometimes, the essence of silence is a kind of suffocation. We struggle hard and linger for breath in this suffocation, but in the end, it is nothing but exhausting futility.

I'm not reconciled to it ending like this, I'm not reconciled to the results of Jiang Caiwen's hard work being destroyed in my hands so easily, and I don't know how she will hate me in the future.So, I got up off the couch and walked straight out.

Jiang Caiwen called me, one after another, I ignored her, and I didn't look back, I just walked out, all my strength was accumulated in my legs, all my strength.

Before I went out, Jiang Caiwen stopped me, and she stood behind me with bare feet and disheveled hair, "Where are you going?"

"leave me alone."

"I don't care who cares about you?!"

I raised my head to meet her eyes, her eyes were wide open and bloodshot.

"I don't want to owe you." I said, "The milk tea shop became what it is because of me. I will return you an undamaged seven-color flower, and I will return what I owe you."

She smiled, tears rolled down her face, she turned her face away and wiped away the tears, "I gave you your life, do you want to give it back to me?" ?”

I was stunned.

"Jiang Hui, you can't pay me back, you can never pay me back in your life." She stopped laughing and turned into a howling wolf.The sound came out of her lungs and hit my heart.

She has never shed tears in front of me, this is the first time.I looked at her tears, and felt cold: Is this Jiang Caiwen?Is it Jiang Caiwen who slapped me up?Is it Jiang Caiwen who is strong in heart and fierce in appearance?Yeah?Yeah?I asked myself repeatedly, but I forgot to comfort her, or rather, I never knew how to comfort her.So, I watched her weeping in bewilderment, tears dripping down her face onto the polished floor.She was still barefoot, and her trousers were baggy, revealing half of her calf.

"It counts as much as I can pay back." I said, "I don't want to owe you anything in this life, not at all."

She stopped crying, looked at me, and kept silent. Then, she let go of my hand, walked back to the living room with a bowed body, and sat on the sofa in a trance.

"When I was in psychology, the teacher once told us about the sense of security. She said that everyone's personality is deeply influenced by the mother, and this influence is more obvious in the infant period. I don't know. What did you do to me as a baby to make me feel so stubborn and so helpless. Every time I feel panicked, I can't hold on to anything I can rely on. I have no parents. Without a home, all I have are living debts. Every time I add more, I feel uneasy and at a loss. So, I really don’t want to owe you any more, not at all. Don’t worry, I will try my best to pay you back. I will pay you back what I owe you." My voice was not suppressed in any way, it could even be said to be cheerful, when I thought that I would return all the things I owed Jiang Caiwen to her, and I would have to clean it up, I felt calm.This kind of peace is an insurmountable joy, and only I know what this joy means to me.

Jiang Caiwen didn't speak, she didn't even look up at me, she just slumped down on the sofa.She looks very quiet, and I know that this quietness is the result of her disguise. In front of me, she is best at disguising.

I closed the door and saw various advertising leaflets stuffed in the iron gate of Xiao Jiayi's house opposite.I walked forward, carefully took out those advertising papers, and then held them in the palm of my hand, clenched into a ball.

After going downstairs, I threw the ball of advertising paper in the trash can of the community.I heard someone calling me from behind, I turned my head, and then I saw Tao Wanyi.

"Why are you here?" I frowned and watched her come out of the shade.

"I went to Qisehua to look for you but didn't find you, so I came here to try my luck, but I didn't expect me to be so lucky. Just as I was about to go upstairs, you appeared in front of my eyes." She took off her sunglasses and her voice was calm.

"Would you like something to drink?" I said.

She shook her head, her wavy hair dangling, "Jiang Hui, I just want you to tell me, where is Xiao Jiayi?" There was something like light in her eyes, which looked erratic under the bright sunlight.

I shook my head, "I don't know."

She smiled, "It's impossible for you not to know. Only you know where he is."

"I really don't know." I looked up at her.The sun was hitting her face, and I could see the sweat overflowing from her forehead.

She lowered her head, "Jiang Hui, you know, I can't do without him, I can't live without him. Over the years, I have gradually understood the truth that some people are destined to come to this world for a certain person , and only with the appearance of this person, can she find the belief and meaning of life, Xiao Jiayi is the belief and meaning of my life, I love him more than myself. Without him, my life is nothing."

I didn't speak, because for a long time, my mind was in a mess. The hot sun shone on my body, but I didn't feel hot. The whole person seemed to have lost consciousness, with an erratic expression.

"He ran back from Guangzhou," I said, "yesterday, but I really don't know where he went, because he had already left when I woke up in the morning."

"Where will he go when he leaves?"

"I don't know." I stared blankly ahead, my vision becoming very clear.

"Jiang Hui, it's impossible for you not to know." Tao Wanyi smiled, her smile was cold and sarcastic, "The last time I came back from Guangzhou to find Xiao Jiayi, you gave me this answer, Jiang Hui, how much do you know?" Like to lie, or..." She paused for a moment, her eyes fell on me, "It's still because you are afraid."

"What am I afraid of?" I demanded her.

"I'm afraid I'll snatch Xiao Jiayi away from you." She gave me a cold look, "Actually, you've always been afraid, since you were in junior high school. Since the day I got close to Xiao Jiayi, you've been hostile to me You don't want to say a word with me, you don't want to talk about Xiao Jiayi with me, you are afraid that I know all Xiao Jiayi's habits and all Xiao Jiayi's little secrets, and squeeze you out of his place in his heart. You are afraid that from now on You become even more destitute and have nothing..."

"Enough." I cut her off.

"Jiang Hui, please don't be so selfish, you also know that you are not worthy of Xiao Jiayi." Her voice was hard, like a rock, uneven, with sharp edges and corners, hitting my weakness.

"Tao Wanyi, as I said, I don't know." I reminded her, "I don't know where he is." After I finished speaking, I walked out of the community.The sun was so bright that it hurt my eyes, and I felt that some wet liquid was about to flow out, so I raised my head and looked at the distant sky.This trick was useless, and the tears rolled down unstoppably and into my mouth.I swallowed the salty tears, the pain of all these years, but they kept coming out and flowing into my mouth, salty and bitter, always reminding me of the road I have traveled.

"Jiang Hui." Tao Wanyi called me from behind me, "No matter where Xiao Jiayi goes, I will find him, I will follow behind him, I don't care if he really loves me, but one day, he You will find that the one who really loves him is not you, but me—Tao Wanyi. For him, I am willing to do anything, and I am not even afraid of death."

I didn't look back, I just kept going.The outside world is very big, full of traffic, people coming and going, I really hope that I just walk into this noisy world, hide in it, no one can see my sadness, no one can see me shed tears .

Don't even see Tang Qiming.

But in fact, God played a joke on me again, and Tang Qiming was sitting on the steps at the gate of the community.I don't know how he got here, I never mentioned it to him, not even Yang Shanshan, I never told her.I am too lazy to think about these problems. Thinking about these problems is very tiring, and I have no energy to think and ponder.So, I pretended not to see him, and walked around the road with my head down.I thought I had successfully avoided Tang Qiming, I thought my sad appearance would not be seen by him, but I didn't.Because when I turned around, I realized that he was right behind me.

The fence of the community is covered with green ivy, and the leaves are connected like a green waterfall.Tang Qiming and I stood in front of this waterfall, and the distance between them was only about five meters.Putting his hands in the pockets of his jeans, he said, "Jiang Hui, shall we go home? Shall I cook for you?"

"Tang Qiming, I have no home." I reminded him, tears were about to come out, but I clenched my teeth and swallowed them back.

"No, you have a home." His voice was low, "Where I am is home, and we have a home wherever we go."

"Tang Qiming!" I interrupted him loudly, "I said, it's just a game." I didn't want to face him, so I turned around and walked forward. You can reach out and touch it.

"Playing house when I was a child was also a game." Tang Qiming's voice reached my ears, and I stopped involuntarily, "But why... why haven't you let it go until now?"

Tang Qiming is so stupid. The most stupid thing about a man is to compare himself with another person. This is also their nature-aggressive and aggressive, unwilling to give in.But in fact, such a comparison is meaningless, because no matter what angle he compares from, he can't compare Xiao Jiayi from my heart.Some people, once you recognize it from your heart, it is a lifetime thing.In this life, you can only live with such a person in your heart, no matter where you go, this is the case.

The breeze blew my hair up, bangs covered my eyes, and the tiny hairs scattered on my eyelashes, tickling.I think it's time to cut my hair, only short hair can adapt to the summer heat.

I was too lazy to talk, so I just held my head up and walked forward.Large swathes of people gather and disperse before my eyes. I have no way of knowing where they are going, where they will get on the bus, and where they will get off the bus. I also have no way of knowing whether they are happy or sad.Because this place is called a city, we are all just beasts trapped in the city, no matter how we go, we cannot get out of the cage of sorrow.

I walked very fast, I just wanted to get rid of Tang Qiming.So when crossing the road, I ignored the red light and just kept going.The black car slammed on the brakes right behind me, and the driver poked his head out of the window and scolded me: "I want to die!"I actually forgot to go forward, just stood on the side of the road blankly, not knowing how to dodge.I think, I really want to die, I really want to say goodbye to this world.

Tang Qiming pulled me and walked to the side of the road, apologizing to others while walking.His humble appearance is very handsome, with red lips and white teeth, no less than the popular niche of TBV.Standing beside him, I will only feel inferior. Wang Xinrui is right, I am not worthy of him, I am not worthy of anyone, this is my fate.

Standing on the sidewalk, I broke free from Tang Qiming's hand.There is a park beside the road, covered with greenery.I had nowhere to go, so I went to the park.Most of the parks are elderly people, gathering in groups to dance or play chess.I ran through the shady shrubbery to the meadows deep in the park.I thought I got rid of Tang Qiming, but when I turned around, I realized that he was standing behind me.

He sat next to me.I turned my face away and avoided him.He also knows what's going on, but just sits silently and doesn't speak.There was a wind blowing the trunk, making a "whoop" sound, palm-sized leaves of the sycamore tree fell down, and fell in pieces in front of my eyes.I hugged my knees and looked at the falling leaves, full of thoughts.A crisp child's voice disturbed my thoughts, and I came back to see a pair of seven or eight-year-old children. They tasted the ice cream in each other's hands and expressed their emotions in words. "Your ice cream is better than mine." The girl said, and the boy immediately brought the ice cream to her mouth, "Then you have another bite." The girl really leaned forward and took a big bite, and the white cream stained her face. On her face, she didn't wipe it off, she just smiled.

My eye sockets were instantly moist.I was afraid that Tang Qiming would see it, so I buried my face in my arms.My mind is full of Xiao Jiayi's appearance when he was a child. Every time he went to school, he would secretly give me two candies. I was reluctant to eat them, so I hid them in my pocket.Every time I go to class, I always touch my pocket habitually, and I feel at ease when I touch those two candies.After school, we went home together. On the way, I always took out two candies. These two candies sweetened our way home.

But time eventually abandoned us.It seals our purest time in the amber-like memory, which is crystal clear and sparkling under the refraction of the sun, but no matter how vivid and innocent it looks, we can no longer have it.All we have left are memories, tearful memories, like Amber.

Qingmei lost her bamboo horse.

When I think of this sentence, I feel pain in my heart, and only when I am in pain do I know that some people, once they turn around, it is a lifetime.

When I was twitching from crying, Tang Qiming put his hand on my shoulder.I shook off his hand, and soon, he stretched out his hand again and hugged me from behind.His lips came close to my ear, and the warm air sprayed on my face, and I heard his voice clearly: "Jiang Hui, don't be sad, there is me, and me."

I cried even harder.I don't remember anything but crying.

Later I was tired from crying and fell asleep with my head on his lap.The scent of flowers hit me, and I felt like I was back when I was a child. Xiao Jiayi waited for me to go to school at my door every morning. His clothes were always so clean and tidy.There is an unwritten rule in our school that boys must have short hair to go to school.Xiao Jiayi's hair was cut very short, no different from a crew cut, with her forehead exposed and no bangs.But even so, his face is still handsome, just like little Wu Yanzu.When I was in the second year of junior high school, there were senior girls who kept asking people about Xiao Jiayi. Every time there was a beautiful girl standing at the door of our class and looking around, I subconsciously felt nervous. I buried my head in the piles of textbooks. One could see that I was pale.Xiao Jiayi would always show me the love letters she received.At that time, the love letters written by girls all used pink letter paper, which had a slight fragrance.I don't know if it's the smell of the letter itself or the perfume that the girls put on on purpose.I don't like the taste, so every time I use this as an excuse to refuse to watch it.Xiao Jiayi seemed to see my displeasure, and whenever a girl wrote him a love letter, he put it in the drawer and didn't read it himself.Until Tao Wanyi became Xiao Jiayi's deskmate, no girl ever wrote a love letter to Xiao Jiayi.

I don't know how long I slept, I just felt my stomach growl, and then I opened my eyes sleepily.Tang Qiming is fanning me with a plantain fan, no wonder I feel so cool when I sleep.I lifted myself up from his lap, and he grinned at me, put down his fan and slapped his thigh.

I'm embarrassed, "Is it all sour?"

"It's fine," he said.

I grabbed the fan to fan him, and the cool breeze blew on his face, which was very comfortable.

"Where did you get the fan?" I asked him.

"It happened that an old man passed by here selling this kind of fan, so I bought one. It's very cheap, only five yuan."

I didn't speak, just came back and swayed the fan.

Tang Qiming looked up at me, "Are you hungry? Let's go eat something?"

I said, "OK."

He stood up from the grass without moving, his body arched and his legs hanging down.I felt even more guilty, my face turned red, and I said, "You should wake me up."

"It's rare for you to sleep so soundly." He smiled at me and moved slowly.After a while, he stood up straight, "Let's go."

He reached out to take mine and I put it behind my back.But it was still in his hands.His hands were wide and warm, and soon, dense sweat covered my palms.I struggled to take my hand out of his palm, but instead, he grabbed it even tighter.He was so strong that he squeezed my palm so painfully.I yelled "Ouch", but he smiled at me, "You know it hurts too?"

This is said as if I am not made of flesh and blood, but made of steel.

I didn't answer him, just walked with my head down.The palm of my hand is held by him. The advantage of this is that I don't have to look at the traffic lights or the traffic. I just follow him. I will walk when he walks, and I will stop when he stops. The whole world becomes very safe in an instant.

It's three o'clock in the afternoon.I don't know why I slept for so long, anyway, I slept comfortably, so I wanted to continue to sleep.If it wasn't for my stomach growling, I think I could have slept longer, and Tang Qiming's thighs would have been sore and numb for a longer period of time. Thinking of this, my face turned red.So, I said to Tang Qiming, "Let me treat you to McDonald's." After ordering this, the only thing I can eat is fast food, because I am so hungry that I can't walk.

Tang Qiming didn't look back at me, he just looked at the road.The traffic in Zhengzhou is not very good. There are many cars coming and going in the city. The traffic is fast, but it is easier to get lost.

There is a McDonald's across the intersection.

Tang Qiming didn't respond to me.I thought he didn't want to eat, so I stopped talking and just followed him.After the green light came on, the aunt and uncle on the electric scooter flew past us "swish, swish, swish". Tang Qiming held my hand tightly, looking cautious.After crossing the intersection, he hesitated for a moment, then took my hand and walked into McDonald's.

The air conditioner in McDonald's is fully turned on, and it feels cool as soon as you enter the store.There were not many people coming to eat at this time, so the shop seemed a bit empty.We sat by the window. The advantage of sitting here is that we can see the bustling city when we look up.Tang Qiming asked me what I would like to eat, and I said whatever.A waiter happened to pass by our table, so he asked the waiter, "Do you sell 'casual' here?"

My face turned red in a flash.

Tang Qiming didn't bother me, stood up and went to the front desk to order food.When he came back with the plate, I realized that he only ordered a set meal for me, and he only ordered a Coke.

"You hungry?"

He took a sip of Coke, "I don't eat fast food."

I was shocked, living with him for so long, I didn't even know this, and the chicken nuggets stuffed in my mouth became tasteless.

He lowered his head and bit the straw, "Fast food is not nutritious, and it doesn't taste as good as home-cooked food." He took a sip of Coke, "However, many people like fast food. Because they can eat it when they enter the fast food restaurant , no need to waste time waiting for food, unless there are a lot of people, you have to line up. You can leave after eating, and you don’t need to clean up the table or wash the dishes. Everything is disposable, and you can go out after wiping your mouth. It’s like treating love Same."

I just kept my head down and ate my hamburger, I didn't dare to look up at him.

"Eat slowly." He reminded me, continuing to bite the straw.

"In fact, fast food is very satisfying." I said, the chicken burger in my mouth was not completely swallowed, "You don't eat it because you are not really hungry. If you are really hungry, you will definitely eat it."

He didn't refute me, he just drank Coke.

After a brief silence, his phone rang.He took out his cell phone and glanced at it, but he didn't answer it and let it ring.

I reminded him, "Why didn't you answer the phone?"

He smiled at me, and then put the straw into his mouth, I thought he was going to drink Coke to moisten his throat.But he didn't, he was biting the straw.He put the phone on the dining table and ignored it.

I didn't bother to bother and continued eating my burger.I'm really hungry, so I don't care if it is nutritious or not, these are meaningless to a hungry person.When you're hungry you just want to eat, and you'll eat anything that fills you up.

Tang Qiming's phone rang for a while and then stopped.He picked up the phone and turned it off.He remained expressionless throughout the whole process. I don't know whose call made him so indifferent.

"Where do you go after eating?" He asked me without looking up at me.

"Let's go to the milk tea shop." I said.I'll have to go back and see what can be done.

"I'll go with you." He paused, "I have nothing to do anyway."

"Forget it, I'll go by myself. It's such a hot day, you can go back later." I wanted to avoid Tang Qiming. When I was with him, I couldn't calm down.

He didn't speak, just flipped through the McDonald's promotional pages.He rested his cheek on his left hand, and the scar on his arm was clearly exposed.

I took a sip of Coke, pointed to the scar on his wrist and asked him tentatively: "Is this scar...is it because of someone?"

"how do you know?"

When he said that, I was convinced. "Of course I know." I deliberately said it seriously, with a confident look, "I also know who you are because of."

"Then who are you talking about?" He looked at me, frowning.

"It's Wang Xinrui."

"She told you?"

"It seems that I guessed it right?" I laughed.

He lowered his head and remained silent.

It seems that my guess is right, it is Wang Xinrui - the woman who made him willing to leave a scar on his body to commemorate, and now stays in this crowded city.I don't need to know why Wang Xinrui left Tang Qiming, it has nothing to do with me.However, now that Wang Xinrui is back, it's time for Tang Qiming to leave me. This is an obvious fact.

I took a sip of Coke, everything that should come will come, and everything that should go will also go.We live in this world, and we are originally fighting alone.We can't control anyone, not even ourselves.After the hustle and bustle, what awaits us is only a long silence. When I think of what we once had, I feel a little sore in my heart.

I thought, I should bless Tang Qiming, just like I bless Xiao Jiayi.

They were both good people, and they were both destined to be happy.

And my existence is just a foil.

In this world, there are many people like me. The meaning of existence is to set off, to set off the happiness and happiness of others, and to set off the eternal life of others.

I drank the Coke in the glass in one go.The sun was shining brightly outside, I stood up from my seat, and I said, "I'm going first."

"Jiang Hui." He stopped me when I left my seat, "Remember to come back for dinner tonight."

I smiled, "Break up?"

He didn't speak, just picked up the cup and drank the Coke.How stupid he is, the glass is already empty, and he can't suck the Coke no matter how hard he sucks.

It's like, after the container of love is empty, no matter how you pour it, love won't come out.

What is left is only the gradually thinning taste.

It won't take long for the smell to disappear.

(End of this chapter)