Engraved crush time

Chapter 24 I wish you could hear me

"Are you sure you want to go back to school?" Jiang Caiwen leaned against the door and asked me, "You should train for a few more days."

"I'm done," I said, "and I have to go back and study for the final exam."

"You can also review at home!" She emphasized, "You take the textbook back and just review at home. It's still cool at home."

"Let's talk." I changed out of my pajamas and prepared to go out.

"I really don't understand what children think nowadays, and they don't want to stay at home." She complained, "Is there anything else you forgot?"

I shook my head, "No, I didn't bring anything with me when I came back."

"Then I'll cut a watermelon and eat some watermelon before leaving. It's so hot outside." She said and walked to the freezer.Soon, she carried the watermelon to the dining table, and with a "prickly" sound, the sweet water vapor permeated the air.

"Come and eat!" she called me, "This watermelon is really good."

"I don't want to eat it," I said.

"It's all cut." She seemed a little disappointed.

"mom……"

She looked up at me with a strange light in her eyes.

"Thank you for these few days."

"See what you're talking about." She lowered her head, I couldn't see her expression, but I knew she wasn't feeling well. "It was my fault in the past. I shouldn't...have been so mean to you. What's wrong with you? You're just a child. It's all my fault." Her voice was pitiful, as if there was only heavy gas left. In between, I saw her crying.Tears dripped down her wrists.Her skin has become dark and loose, I know, she is getting old.

Aging is a process that none of us can escape. No matter how handsome or beautiful you were when you were young, in the end, there are only memories left.

It's just that I don't know what kind of happiness Jiang Caiwen can recall.

Her life was more miserable than I imagined, and I even began to doubt whether she was happy at all. It is no wonder that when Xiao Jiayi was here last time, she said: "You said, they are all women, why do they have to bear different things?" What about suffering? Is it a woman’s mission to endure suffering?”

"Come and eat some watermelon." She was afraid that I would see her cry, so she turned her back and wiped her tears.

In fact, she doesn't know, I have seen it, her tears, her sorrow, and her helplessness.I also finally understood her sleepless sighs, which echoed and echoed in the empty night.

Over the years, she still hasn't been able to forget the man who abandoned her, that is, the father I haven't met.She hid this pain for so many years, and swallowed the pain accumulated every day in her stomach.

"Mom, stop torturing yourself." I comforted her.

She didn't speak, just turned her back to me.I know that she is unwilling to expose her pain to me.

"Eat some watermelon," she said, turning around.

I picked up a piece and put it to my mouth, the bright red juice flowed out from the corner of my mouth, Jiang Caiwen said it was right, this is a good melon, very sweet.

"Oh right." I wiped the juice from the corner of my mouth, "Didn't Xiao Jiayi leave me a package or something when she returned to Guangzhou? Where is it?"

"I forgot about it if you didn't tell me." She moved around, "I'll look for it."

Soon, her figure flashed out of the bedroom, but there was a small box in her arms, a small box similar to a cube.The outside of the box was covered with wallpaper, and the small circles of spotted red circled around and around.

"That's it," she said, "I don't know what's in it."

I took the box and it's very light.I even wondered if there was anything in it.I didn't open it in front of Jiang Caiwen, the things in this small box only belonged to Xiao Jiayi and me.

I hugged the box and walked out, Jiang Caiwen stopped me, "Have you stopped eating watermelon?"

"I'm full," I said.

"Let's go later, it's still hot now." She said.

"No, I still have something to do." I have already opened the door.

"Xiaohui, about the milk tea shop..." She was extremely calm, "I have decided to sell it. I am also tired these years, it is time to rest."

"This is the painstaking effort you have made in your youngest years." I reminded her.

She smiled, and the wrinkles on the corners of her eyes were clearly visible in front of my eyes. "It's all over," she said.

"Leave it to me," I said, "Leave it to me."

She didn't speak anymore, it was a tacit consent.

"I'm leaving." I held the box in my arms.

"Come back when you have time, and be with me when you come back. You can also call your classmates to our house to play." She sent me outside the door.

"I see." I waved at her.For the first time in years, I waved to her on the way out the door, not even as a kid.

She also waved her hand and smiled at me, "Be careful on the road."

I went downstairs, the sun was burning my skin, I hid in the shade, and then slowly opened the cardboard box.Before the box was opened, I had countless guesses in my heart, but when all the dust settled, all that was left was a quiet loss.

——a princess hat woven from wicker.

Because of too long time, the branches, leaves and flower buds have withered, leaving only a rough model, which is not as fresh and beautiful as Xiao Jiayi wove it by herself when she was a child and put it on my head.Could it be that after time has passed, all that remains is this withered memory?Is that so?I have no idea.

I held the willow branch in my palm and walked into the sunshine.The scorching sun scorched my whole body, and the fine sweat soaked through my palms and passed to the willow branches. I didn't dare to let go.I'm afraid that even this last withering will disappear after letting go, so where should I go to find these unforgettable memories?I'm afraid I won't be able to find it in this lifetime, Xiao Jiayi, tell me, don't you?

Tang Qiming is not at home.I took out the key and opened the door, and what I saw was a messy room with a mess on the floor.I thought it was stolen, and when I was about to call Tang Qiming in fright, his figure got up from the bedroom.

He was shirtless, sleepy and sullen.

I can clearly see the red burns on his arms from the long sleep, one after another.

"You're back." He didn't look at me, he walked barefoot on the messy floor, his toes made strange noises as they landed on the plastic bag, "Are you cured?" He asked me, still without looking at me.Just standing next to the water dispenser and pouring water, the sound of "dong dong dong" covered the short silence.

"Didn't you have breakfast?" I asked him.

He picked up the water glass and drank water "gudong gudong" and ignored me.

"I want to eat something, let me make it for you." I said.

He still ignored me, put down the water glass, stepped on the plastic bag with bare feet and walked straight to the bedroom.

I watched his back disappear before my eyes little by little, and there was nothing but empty loneliness and silence.

I don't know what to say, so I can only go to my room.I put the flower crown that Xiao Jiayi left me under the box, and then I was silently in a daze.The cicada outside the window kept barking, which made me upset, so I got up from the bed, closed the window, and drew the curtains by the way.

It was at this time that Tao Wanyi's call came in.I saw her name flashing on the screen of the phone, and my heart throbbed. After a long hesitation, I pressed the answer button.

"Jiang Hui," her voice was extremely tired, as if she hadn't woken up, "Did Xiao Jiayi contact you?"

"No." I told the truth.

"Jiang Hui, help me, tell me where he is." She begged me.

"I really don't know." I frowned. "I've been trying to call him, but his phone keeps turning off. I can't reach him."

"Where can he go? Even his parents don't know where he went." Her voice was broken, and I even heard her cry, "I'm afraid that something will happen to him."

"He's not a kid anymore," I said.

"No, Jiang Hui, you don't know." She explained to me, "You don't know how stubborn he is, and you never will. Do you have time now? We'll meet, right now."

We made an appointment.Before going out, I came to Tang Qiming's bedroom again.His door was open, and I could clearly see his figure lying on the bed.He buried his head in the bedding and I couldn't see his face.

"Tang Qiming, I'm going out." I said holding the door.

He ignored me, didn't move, just continued to sleep, although I knew he wasn't asleep at all.

He didn't speak until I turned to leave.I know he hates me.This kind of "hate" is silent and invisible, but it is overwhelming.

Tao Wanyi was already waiting for me at the appointed place. She was wearing an ink-colored skirt, and her messy hair covered her face. All I could see was her figure, and she looked very lonely in the noisy coffee shop.

"Tao Wanyi," I called her.

She looked up and I noticed that she was very pale and bloodless. "You're here. What do you want to drink?" She forced a smile.

"No need," I immediately sat opposite her, "what's the matter with you, are you uncomfortable?"

"Recently I have been suffering from insomnia. I can't fall asleep every night." She smiled palely, "When Xiao Jiayi is not around, I always do this, as if I have lost my soul."

"No one can't do without someone." I said.

"No, Jiang Hui, you don't understand." She smiled wryly, "I just can't leave Xiao Jiayi, ever since the moment I fell in love with him, I knew that I would never be able to leave him in my life, without him I would live without him." It doesn't make sense."

I lowered my head, not daring to look at her face.

"For him, I am willing to do anything, even to die. Jiang Hui, you don't understand how much I love him, you don't understand at all." Her voice was crisp, like glass, "So, Jiang Hui, please, please tell me where he is, I know, and only you can find Xiao Jiayi."

I didn't know what to say, so I was in a daze.The coffee shop is very noisy, the sound of CDs, talking and laughing, the greetings of the waiters... But for me, these sounds seem to be isolated from my world, and all I have left is silence.

Tao Wanyi was still babbling vaguely, her voice was intermittent, like falling beads, fragmented.I always listened to the next sentence and forgot the previous one, but she didn't bother with me, she just kept talking.She didn't stop until she said she was tired, and lay down on the table to drink ice and water.She looked very haggard, and I asked her several times if she was not feeling well, but she didn't answer me, she just shook her head.

Later, she lay on the sofa almost paralyzed, and even her voice became extremely weak, "That's it, Jiang Hui." She said, "If he contacts you, please tell me."

I said yes.

She stood up and walked out unsteadily.I stepped forward to support her, but she pushed me away, "I'm fine." She said.

I could only stop where I was, and watch her go down the stairs holding on to the railing, and then staggered into the black car at the entrance of the cafe.

She rolled down the car window and waved to me, and I clearly saw the tears twinkling in the corners of her eyes.

However, she didn't cry, she was still smiling at me.

Soon, the car started slowly.Tao Wanyi rolled up the car window, I couldn't see her hiding in the car window, but I knew she must be feeling bad.At this moment, I suddenly felt that I began to envy Tao Wanyi, envied that she loved Xiao Jiayi more than me, envied that she was more suitable for Xiao Jiayi than me, but, Xiao Jiayi, where are you, can you hear her calling for you ?Promise me, if one day you come back, please cherish Tao Wanyi and be with her well.I wish you, forever and ever, grow old together.This time, it is a sincere blessing.

I hope you can hear me.

(End of this chapter)