The Pastoral Empress Merchant

Chapter 785 Extra Story Two: Postpartum Depression?
The two of them didn't know that what they said unexpectedly reached Mu Jinxi's ears.She naturally didn't believe it at first, but after thinking about it, she began to doubt it again.

It's not that she doesn't know that something is wrong with her, but she can't control it. She feels that she shouldn't be like this, but at the same time, she feels that this is different from the past, and such things have never happened before. Although her youngest son was also born prematurely, but that time Because Xiaobao had an accident, she was too worried, which led to the premature delivery.But her daughter's premature birth was really caused by her own negligence.

As a result, she became more and more uneasy and guilty, and her heart was always blocked. She felt that because of her negligence, her daughter was born with an unhealthy body. She is really a mother. Too much of a failure.She felt that Juelin was also blaming her. He had always wanted a daughter, and he was very happy when he found out that she was pregnant. Seeing that she was still busy with outside affairs, he tried to persuade her several times, but she didn't listen.

So Jue Lin must be blaming her, blaming her for being too stubborn, too strong, and harming their daughter.

Sometimes when she is in a normal mood, Mu Jinxi faintly doubts whether she is suffering from postpartum depression, but there is no one around her who can communicate with her, and no one can help her.After she had this suspicion, she also tried to adjust her mentality, but it was useless, she still fell into deep self-blame, and Jue Lin was busy these days and rarely stayed by her side, and she was even more helpless. Extricate yourself.

I wondered if Jue Lin really fell in love with the vixen outside as Caiping Caiqing said?Perhaps someone knew about the situation in the palace, so it was not impossible for those women to deliberately seduce Jue Lin.During this period of time, Jue Lin has been leaving early and returning late every day. Is it really because of business?
It was close to Haishi when Juelin returned home.When he returned to Jinglanyuan, the courtyard was quiet. He thought his wife and children had already fallen asleep, so he tidied himself up in the outer room before walking lightly into the inner room, only to see the man who should have fallen asleep. The man was sitting on a round stool, holding the child in his arms and shaking it gently, but his eyes were a little dazed, staring at a certain point, motionless.

He stopped and frowned, "Jin'er? Why are you still awake so late?"

Mu Jinxi, who was in a trance, was awakened by his sudden voice.She trembled violently, and turned her head to look over.

Facing Mu Jinxi's gaze, Jue Lin couldn't help frowning even tighter, and a strange feeling surged in his heart, but he couldn't tell why this strange feeling came from for a while.

He was about to say something when he heard the person sitting on the round stool say in a strange way: "You are finally willing to come back."

Jue Lin frowned into a mountain peak, "What's wrong?"

Could it be that something happened in the mansion again?
Mu Jinxi snorted softly, "I thought you were already fascinated by the vixen outside, and you didn't even know you were coming back."

Jue Lin couldn't help but slightly widened her eyes, it was hard to believe that such words came from her mouth.The strange feeling in his heart became heavier. After thinking about it, he walked over, sat down beside her, and looked at her seriously, "Jin'er, what's wrong with you? Why are you talking like this? Is there someone here?" What are you whispering in your ears? I came back so late because I was caught up in business, not because of some vixen, don't think about it."

"I'm thinking nonsense? Tell yourself, how much time have you spent in the mansion during this time? You've been tired of it for a long time, don't you want to accept the side concubine? Jue Lin, let me tell you, even a daughter It's my fault, but that's not the reason for you to accept the side concubine! One day when I'm around, you don't want to hug left and right!" Mu Jinxi became a little emotional while talking.

She hugged her daughter tightly, then glared at Jue Lin with some resentment, as if he had already betrayed her.

Jue Lin was about to be laughed at by her, at first he thought she was joking, deliberately teasing her, but when he reached out to hold her hand, she slapped him away forcefully, with such force that his There was a red mark on the back of the book.Only then did he realize that she wasn't joking, but was telling the truth.She really thinks so.

Jue Lin was shocked, unbelievable, his eyes flashed with surprise and uncertainty, and he couldn't react for a long time looking at the resentful person.

Jin'er, Jin'er, what happened?
When Mu Jinxi saw that he did not speak for a long time, she suddenly felt sad. An indescribable loneliness and incompatibility emerged from the bottom of her heart. She felt that she was now in an empty and lonely place, and there was no one around, only herself. , as if abandoned.

She didn't belong to this world in the first place, but for the sake of her relatives and lovers, she willingly stayed and took root here.But now she doubted and wavered.The man she thought might not be a good man. It is impossible for a man in this world to be a couple forever, but it is absolutely impossible for her to accept serving a husband with other women.

How could Jue Lin be like this? He clearly said that he would love her for the rest of his life and only love her alone. Why did he change in just a few years, and he didn't feel sorry for himself at all.If he does this again, she will leave Prince Mu's Mansion with the three children!
Mu Jinxi cried as soon as she said she wanted to cry, the tears rolled down her face like broken beads, and landed on the delicate face of the baby in her arms, which woke her up, she couldn't help but struggled, and made a slight protest sound.

Mu Jinxi was even more sad when she heard her daughter's voice, and hugged her tightly, feeling as if they were the only mother and daughter left in the whole world.

Jue Lin really panicked now, and didn't know how to deal with it.Jin'er's appearance is really unprecedented. He has never seen her with such a fragile side. In his impression, Jin'er has always been strong and cheerful, and she will be like this now, like a delicate flower that has been beaten by wind and rain Same.

"Jin'er, you, don't cry, what the hell is going on? If you have something to say, talk about it, your body is still weak, this is not good for your health." Jue Lin hurriedly sat beside her, ignoring her struggle and pushed her away. Picking it up and placing it on her lap, she frantically wiped away the tears that kept falling down her face with a handkerchief, caressed her thin back, and distracted herself from coaxing her daughter.I really wish I could have more hands.

"You also know that this is not good for my health, so you are still angry with me. Are you tired of me and don't want to be with me anymore? Are you still blaming me for not protecting my daughter well and causing her to give birth prematurely?" Mu Jinxi Weeping way.

Juelin felt a little headache, a little helpless, and a little confused, "Jin'er, why do you think this way? Where did your idea come from? It's too late for me to love you. How can I get tired of you? As for the matter of my daughter, I I never blamed you, I was just angry that you didn't take good care of yourself."

He loves his daughter, but loves her even more.When she gave birth to her second child, she was born prematurely, and she was pregnant again before she fully recovered. The daughter was not only prematurely born but also difficult to deliver, and her body suffered great damage.The imperial doctor said that if you want to regenerate, you have to wait at least a few years, otherwise... Does she know that he almost fell down on the spot when he heard what the servant said? How scared, how scared, and even regretful?
He can have no children, but he cannot live without Jin'er.Seeing her pale face lying in a pool of blood, he felt regret for the first time, regretting that he shouldn't have made Jin'er pregnant again, and it took such a short time.She hadn't fully recovered after giving birth to her second child, but he didn't take this into consideration and made her pregnant again. If it wasn't for him, how could she have endured this kind of pain.

How could he have the right to blame her like this?She couldn't let go of things outside. He knew very well that the Emperor Shang was won by her after a lot of effort, and she couldn't give up easily.This is not only about herself, but also about the Mu Palace and Xiao Mansion, and the many people living under her.If something happens, it's not just the couple who are implicated.

He was angry because he didn't take good care of her and protect her, and because he made her suffer.

As for what she just said... what kind of vixen, what is it all about!No vixen in the world can match her eyes and smile. For him, having her alone is enough. How can anyone else catch his eyes?Why does Jin'er have such an idea?

Jue Lin was puzzled.

Hearing Jue Lin's words, Mu Jinxi's sobbing stopped, "If this is really the case, then why have you always neglected me these days?"

snubbed?

Jue Lin was even more puzzled, "Why did I neglect you?"

Mu Jinxi complained: "You go out early and come back late every day, and you haven't said a few words to me for a day, and you don't coax me anymore, and you don't say you love me."

Jue Lin suddenly couldn't laugh or cry, he was angry and funny, it was the first time he saw such a willful and naive Jin'er.If she just had a quarrel with him, he would be very happy to see her acting like a baby with him like this, but it's obviously not a quarrel now.So his heart is bitter and sweet.

He imprinted a kiss on her forehead devoutly, held her in his arms, put one hand on her back and patted her comfortingly, lowered his head slightly and said softly: "Jin'er, I'm sorry. I'm wrong. I have a lot of official business during this period, and I forgot to take care of you when I was busy. The emperor has entrusted me with many things recently, and I can't push them away or hand them over to others. I can only do it myself. Come, so I left early and returned late."

"I went out very early in the morning. You haven't woken up yet. How could I be willing to wake you up? It was very late when I came back, and I was afraid of disturbing you to rest. Every day when I come back, I have to sit by the bed and look at you." Take a rest, if you don’t believe me, you can ask the girls around you, they are loyal to you, and they will definitely not lie to you. I know you are in a bad mood, so I want to finish the work at hand quickly and spare some time, Then take you and your daughter out to relax."

Who knew that she would think wrongly, and it was so serious that he really didn't know what to say.

Mu Jinxi was startled, raised her head in his arms and looked straight at him, with suspicion in her eyes, "Really?"

Jue Lin looked directly at her, not avoiding her, "Of course, why do you doubt my feelings for you? I am busy with business every day, how can I have time to pay attention to other women? In my eyes, the All women are inferior to you!"

Looking at his affectionate eyes, Mu Jinxi was sure, thinking about it, it seemed that she was really too suspicious and sensitive.

Thinking of her changes during this period of time, she frowned, feeling a little melancholy, "Juelin, I think I'm sick. I don't want to think about you like this, but I can't control it. As long as others say a little bit, I will think wildly. I think you don't want me anymore, I think you are blaming me for not protecting my daughter well."

Looking at the creases between her brows and the uneasiness and depression in her eyes, Jue Lin's heart sank slightly, and she suddenly realized that maybe Jin'er was really sick, her heart was sick.

The premature birth of her daughter may have had a deeper and more serious impact on her than they saw.She has been unable to let go, and the pressure in her heart has accumulated over time, so she has become sensitive, restless, paranoid, thinking that he is blaming her, and then will get tired of her, and even abandon her for the side concubine.

Thinking of this, Jue Lin felt a pain in his heart.

It was his fault, he was too negligent to notice what was wrong with Jin'er.If he had noticed earlier, he could have taken corresponding countermeasures earlier, and Jin'er might not have been like this.No wonder Jin'er always felt that something was wrong during this time, he thought he was thinking too much...

He couldn't have looked at her more seriously and said: "Jin'er, look at me. What happened to my daughter is not your fault. I know that you are the best mother, and I also know that you are a precious daughter. I know even more that you are pregnant. Being busy with other things while pregnant is not because you are too strong, but because it is your responsibility. You know what responsibilities are on your shoulders, so you can't be willful, so you have to be pregnant. Busy outside."

"I know all of this. If you had listened to us and stayed in the mansion back then, maybe there would be no accidents, but it would affect many people and many things. Maybe because of your supervision, people under your command would make mistakes. It will cause a lot of loss and a lot of trouble. If this is the case, aren't we too selfish? Because we people in Mu Palace are not selfish people, you can't lose face of Mu Palace and Xiao Palace, so you hold on."

"I'm the prince of Prince Mu's Mansion. I should be the one to maintain the reputation of Prince Mu's Mansion, but it falls on you. How can I blame you? If you want to blame it, blame me for not protecting you and taking good care of you."

Mu Jinxi felt that she had been comforted, at least her uneasiness and loneliness were gone for the time being.

As soon as her mood relaxed, her spirit also relaxed, which made her feel a little tired in an instant, and couldn't help but yawned.And the doll in her arms, after waking up just now, was coaxed by her father for a while and then fell asleep obediently.

Seeing her yawn, Jue Lin's eyes were full of love and compassion, "Go to bed first."

"how about you?"

"I'll take my daughter out and come back."

Mu Jinxi glanced at her daughter and nodded, handed her to him, then went back to bed and lay down.

Jue Lin handed her daughter over to Nanny Qin. Nanny Qin didn't know if she heard the voice in the room just now, hesitated for a while, and persuaded in a low voice: "My lord, my little princess has been in a bit of a mood since she gave birth to the little princess. No, the little prince must not be angry with the little princess at this time, and he needs to give way to the little princess and coax her, it will be fine after a while."

If the little prince and the little princess get angry, the situation will only get worse.Everyone can see the situation of the little princess, but what can be done is extremely limited. The most important thing is the care and care of the little prince.The little prince must not be confused at this time.

Jue Lin nodded with a serious face, and lowered his voice to order: "Put the little princess away, and then call the two of you on the color screen to come over. This king has something to ask you."

Nanny Qin understood as soon as she heard it, she nodded, and hurriedly backed out with the little princess in her arms. After she was settled, she took Caiping and Caiqing to the side hall.

"What's going on with the little princess, tell me in detail." Jue Lin looked at the two kneeling in front of him coldly, and ordered in a deep voice.

These two are caring and confidant maids by Jin'er's side, and they couldn't be more clear about Jin'er's affairs.

Caiping Caiqing and the two were eager for him to ask, and the two of them described the situation of the little princess recently, in every detail.At the end, Caiping pleaded: "My lord, this servant knows that you are busy with work, but you can't ignore the little wangfei! If this continues, the little wangfei will really fall ill, and she hasn't recovered yet! Little lord, just smoke Spend more time with the little princess!"

She believes that as long as the little prince spends more time with the little princess, the little princess will definitely get better and return to her previous appearance!

Jue Lin frowned tightly, his eyes darkened, he waved his hand, and let the three of them back out, his thoughts were churning, and it took him a while to force himself down and get up and go back to the inner room.

The next day he went to the palace, called the imperial physician, and questioned the imperial physician.

The imperial doctor pondered for a while before saying: "My lord, the old minister is not sure about the situation of the little princess. But there have been such examples in the past. In the past, there were also women who had a big change in temperament after giving birth. Thinking more is indeed a bad thing for the body and spirit, and some women are still stuck in it because of this, and can't get out, and finally end up insane."

Jue Lin's heart sank, and his hands tightened.

so serious?

"Is there a way to save it?" He asked anxiously.

The imperial doctor thought for a while, shook his head, and said: "It's hard to say the specifics, and you can still prescribe prescriptions for physical recovery. But the old minister thinks that the most important thing is to let the little princess open her heart and relax. The little prince can take it with you." The little princess goes out to relax and enlighten the little princess more. She also needs to stay with the little princess more and caress her uneasy emotions. getting more serious."

Jue Lin listened carefully, nodding his head from time to time.

After leaving from the imperial physician, Jue Lin turned around and went to the emperor, told the situation, and then told the emperor directly that he was going to take a vacation, and it would be indefinite!He wants to take Jin'er out to relax, and he will not come back until Jin'er is better.

After hearing the ins and outs of the matter, the emperor couldn't say anything, but felt a little guilty. After all, he had been doing things for Jue Lin during this period of time, keeping him so busy that he couldn't even care about Jin'er's accident.

So the emperor waved his hand and agreed to Jue Lin.

When Mu Jinxi saw that Jue Lin came back early today, she was surprised but also very happy. After Jue Lin said that she wanted to take her out to relax, she became even happier. It was the first time since she gave birth that she showed her heartfelt love. The happy smile made Juelin more sure that he did the right thing.

The old princess expressed her support after hearing her grandson's decision.She was also aware of Jin'er's situation, but she said and did everything that should be said and done, but with little effect. She was also very anxious.

Maybe letting Juelin take Jin'er out for a walk to relax will make things better, and everyone can rest assured.

Although Xiaobao is only a child, he is a sensitive child. Of course he knows that his mother has changed so much.It's just that he knew about his mother's situation but didn't know what to do. He was also very anxious. He asked Jing Lanyuan to accompany his mother to talk every day when he came back from school, but his mother still didn't change back to her previous appearance. He didn't know how many times he secretly cried.

When he came back from school that day, he heard a servant say that his father was going to take his mother out to relax, so he immediately ran to Jinglanyuan.

"Daddy, do you want to take mother out to relax? I want to go too!" He can take care of mother!
Jue Lin pulled his son aside and said seriously: "You can't go with your parents, you have to stay in the mansion to take care of your younger siblings."

"Ah?" Xiao Bao's round eyes widened.

"You also know that my mother is in a bad mood recently, and my father wants to take her out to relax, so that my mother can recover quickly, so I can't take you there. You have to stay in the mansion to take care of your younger brothers and sisters, otherwise your father and mother will not worry. "

Xiaobao was a little disappointed, but nodded sensiblely, "Okay, I will stay in the mansion to take care of my younger brothers and sisters, Daddy, you must take good care of your mother so that she can get better, you don't have to worry about the mansion, I will see It's on." Xiaobao assured by patting his own little chest.

Jue Lin stretched out his hand and rubbed his son's head, and smiled comfortingly, "Okay, Dad believes that you can take care of the house. If you have anything to do, you can go to your uncle and grandpa, you know?"

"Mmm! Daddy, you must take good care of your mother!" Xiaobao repeated worriedly.

"Don't worry, after father and mother come back, your mother must have changed back to the previous mother!" Jue Lin said confidently.

He will definitely pull Jin'er out of this vortex, and let her be the confident and cheerful Jin'er before!

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