The Pastoral Empress Merchant

Chapter 786 Extra Story [-]: Confession
Jue Lin took Mu Jinxi to the south of the Yangtze River. The scenery in the south of the Yangtze River is delicate, beautiful and diverse.Juelin felt that it was more suitable for Jin'er to appreciate slowly along the way, and he believed that it would help Jin'er's illness.

Mu Jinxi was naturally very happy.

In her opinion, coming out this time is the honeymoon of the two, and going to the world of two people, without bringing children.Of course, she is also a little worried about things in the capital. Her three children are still young, as well as the shops under her name, and other things. She has to worry about everything.But she also understands that she has a psychological problem now. If she guessed correctly, she should have postpartum depression.

She understands, but it is not easy to adjust well, otherwise she would not have this disease.

However, after leaving the capital, her mood improved a lot, and Jue Lin's feelings for her were naturally beyond words.Without two sons and a daughter around to make trouble, he can take care of Jin'er wholeheartedly.Jue Lin treats Mu Jinxi like a baby lump, if she tells him to go east, he won't go west, she can do whatever she wants.He did everything according to her wishes, and he did not forget what the imperial doctor said, and often said some sweet words to make her happy.

Seeing that the smiles on her face gradually increased, and the depression between her brows gradually faded, Jue Lin finally breathed a sigh of relief.

But it's not really all smooth and smooth. On the way, Mu Jinxi sometimes thinks of her three sons and daughters who are far away in the capital, and she can't help feeling guilty.

I am already a mother, how can I leave my young child behind and go out to play with Jue Lin?Is this too irresponsible and selfish?Thinking of this, she got into the horns again, which gave Jue Lin a big jump.Then he enlightened for a long time before finally pulling her out of the horns.

It has been more than half a month since the two stopped and went from the capital, and Mu Jinxi gradually got out of the shadow of postpartum depression and gradually returned to her previous appearance.

This incident made her reflect on herself.

She considers herself a strong person, and she also admits that she is under a lot of psychological pressure. No matter what kind of difficulties she encountered in her previous life, she has never experienced similar symptoms, self-doubt, and self-denial... She thinks very seriously. After thinking about it, she finally felt that maybe she was full of anxiety deep in her heart, so if something happened to her, she would fall into this predicament and couldn't extricate herself if she didn't pay attention.

Although it was related to the abnormal secretion of hormones in her body after she had just given birth, she also felt uneasy.

She always feels that she is from another world, not from here, and maybe one day her secret will be revealed.If the people in the family knew their origins, and knew that the real Mu Jinxi was long gone, and that she was just a ray of alien soul occupying the body of the original owner, they might not be able to accept it, and they would probably treat themselves like a monster and an enemy .

It's not that she has no confidence in her family, but that this world is a backward feudal society, and the ideological consciousness of the people is not as high as that of modern people. It is impossible for anyone to accept such bizarre things in their hearts, especially this one. The matter is still related to my own relatives.

After thinking a lot along the way, Mu Jinxi finally made a decision.

She wants to take this opportunity to confess to Jue Lin that since they are husband and wife and have three children, and two of them were conceived by her after time travel, and they were born after they fell in love, then there should be even more injustice between them. What a secret.If I don't talk about this matter, I will always keep it in my heart, maybe it will become an untimely bomb.

It was already a month later when we arrived in Yangzhou.At this time, Mu Jinxi seemed to Jue Lin to be almost better, and there was no problem.In fact, Mu Jinxi also felt that she was getting better, so she planned to find some time to have a good talk with Jue Lin.

When they arrived in Yangzhou, there were activities going on in Yangzhou city. After the two returned to the inn from the busy street to wash up, Mu Jinxi sat in front of the window, looking at the moonlight outside the window, wondering what she was thinking.

Seeing her silent appearance, Jue Lin's heart skipped a beat, thinking that she had started to get sick again.

"Jin'er? What's the matter? Are you unhappy?" He walked over and asked cautiously.

Mu Jinxi turned her head and met his worried eyes, she couldn't help but soften her heart, and said with a smile: "No, I'm very happy, I've been here for so long, and I haven't walked outside properly yet. It’s just that I suddenly miss Xiaobao and the others.”

Jue Lin sized her up without any trace, and after making sure that she didn't see any strange look on her face, he was relieved, sat next to her and gently held her shoulder and said, "Don't worry, someone will take care of you at home." Yes, and before going out, I made it clear that if my grandmother can't take care of me, I will send her to my father-in-law, so the children will be fine. Xiaobao has grown up, and he will help take care of his younger siblings .”

Mu Jinxi sighed softly, "Will Xiaobao be angry that we didn't bring him when we came out to play by ourselves?"

"How could it be? It's not like you don't know how sensible Xiaobao is. He knows that I'm taking you out to relax, and he pretends to be a little adult and tells me to take good care of you and take you to see the scenery." Jue Lin laughed softly. road.

Mu Jinxi couldn't help laughing at the thought of Xiaobao's usual dignified appearance, "Yeah, Xiaobao has always been very sensible. I don't know if he feels scared when I'm sick these days."

During the period after giving birth, she was always in a bad mood, and she kept falling into a depressed mood of self-blame and guilt, and ignored the people around her.Xiaobao is still so young and has a little sense of insecurity, so I don't know if it scares him or not.

Mu Jinxi secretly decided that after going back, she must comfort her elder son well, soothe his wounded little heart, and not let Xiaobao feel that a mother who has other children will not want him as an elder son up.

In fact, in her heart, she may love Xiaobao more.Because Xiaobao suffered a lot before returning to Prince Mu's Mansion, especially before he crossed over here, while his younger siblings enjoyed unprecedented care and a lot of love since they were born. I have never tasted the bitterness.But Xiaobao didn't know how much he had suffered since he was born.

So she prefers Xiaobao more in her heart, and always feels that she owes Xiaobao a lot, even though it is the original body who owes Xiaobao, not her.

Jue Lin was silent for a while before saying: "No, Xiaobao is just... just a little worried about you."

Of course there is fear, but of course I can't tell Jin'er about it, lest she think too much.Not to mention Xiaobao, even a big man like him was scared. What the imperial doctor said kept echoing in his mind, making him still uneasy.

Mu Jinxi turned her head to look at Jue Lin, stretched out her hand to touch his face, and said with some guilt, "I'm sorry Jue Lin for making you worry."

Jue Lin stretched out his hand to touch her little hand, and shook his head lightly, "We are husband and wife, so there is no need to say sorry, as long as you are well in the future."

"Don't worry, it won't be like this in the future." Mu Jinxi laughed, with a familiar light shining in her eyes.

He smiled and said nothing, but he agreed with her words very much in his heart.It is true that such things will not happen again in the future. He has already decided that when he goes back, he will ask the imperial doctor to give him a pill. After taking it, he will not have to worry about Jin'er getting pregnant again.Now that they have three kids, that's enough.

Of course, he won't let Jin'er know about this, lest she think too much.

The two cuddled together intimately and talked for a while before Mu Jinxi suddenly looked straight, stared at Jue Lin and said, "Jue Lin, I have something very important to tell you."

Seeing her serious face, Jue Lin couldn't help but raise his heart, and the smile on his face slowly disappeared, looking at her worriedly, and said in a deep voice, "What do you want to say?"

Although she had already spoken, Mu Jinxi had no idea what to say.She frowned and thought for a while before she slowly opened her mouth and said, "Juelin, I don't know if you can accept it after I say it, but... I thought about it for a long time and decided to say it, because we are husband and wife, yes A lover is to be with you for a lifetime."

Jue Lin's eyebrows jumped, and he realized that what Jin'er was going to say should be a big thing, something that was important to her and him, otherwise Jin'er wouldn't say such a thing.It's just that Jin'er is hiding something important from him?He thought he knew Jin'er well enough, didn't he?
"You say, I'll listen. As long as it's your business, I think I can accept it."

Mu Jinxi thought for a while before saying: "You know me... I believe you also know that there are many differences between me and before... It's like two people, you, don't you doubt it?"

Jue Lin was taken aback, "Doubt? Suspect what?"

Mu Jinxi looked at him deeply, "I suspect that I'm not actually Mu Jinxi."

Jue Lin's eyes widened slightly, and then he couldn't help laughing, not taking her words seriously at all, "You are not Mu Jinxi? Then who are you? Jin'er, you... Even if I haven't seen you for many years , I can’t recognize you, but it’s impossible for Xiaobao not to recognize your family members. And you are Mu Jinxi, and you look like Mu Jinxi! Jin’er, what are you thinking?”

What kind of mess is this?

Mu Jinxi looked away, landed on the moon outside the window, and said faintly: "I am Mu Jinxi, but not Mu Jinxi. I come from a world that you can't imagine, a world thousands of years later. It turns out The Mu Jinxi who saved you back then is dead, and I am just a ray of soul from another world. After the original Mu Jinxi died, I occupied her body and replaced her as Mu Jinxi. The skin is still the original skin, but the soul is no longer the Mu Jinxi you first knew."

"Do you understand me when I say that?"

Jue Lin was stunned, as if he couldn't react, his brain seemed to straighten up and start working.He stared blankly at Mu Jinxi without any response.

"Jue Lin? Did you hear what I said?" Mu Jinxi frowned and looked at him suspiciously.

Could it be that she was scared stupid by her words?Jue Lin couldn't help being frightened so much?

"Jue Lin, you should give me some reaction!" She stretched out her hand and gently pushed him.

Jue Lin shook her body, blinked her eyes, and finally came back to her senses, but she stretched out her hand and pressed her forehead, with a worried expression on her face, "Jin'er, I think you must be sick again, otherwise How can you talk nonsense?"

What is Mu Jinxi and not Mu Jinxi, why is the original Mu Jinxi dead, and she is a ray of soul from another world?What a mess!Isn't Jin'er getting better now? Why is it getting worse all of a sudden, and suffering from hypochondria?

Mu Jinxi rolled her eyes, pulled his hand off, and said seriously: "Jue Lin! I'm not sick, and I'm not joking with you. What I said is true! I'm not you guys. People here, in my own world, I am dead, and Mu Jinxi in this world is also dead, so I became Mu Jinxi. My original name was not Mu Jinxi."

"You actually know that I am different from the boudoir ladies you have seen and known. Let's just say that marriage is fine. In my world, the law stipulates monogamy. A man can only have one Legal wife, that's why I ask you to be devoted to me, and you can't take concubines after marriage. In my world, women and men can work outside to make money, and do whatever they want, instead of staying in the backyard like you here. Godson."

"In my world, I am a female president. I manage tens of thousands of employees, hundreds of millions of assets, and dozens of large and small companies under my name, involving all walks of life. So I run the Fortune Restaurant , Fangrong Pavilion, Heng Fuxuan is so proficient." Mu Jinxi looked at him and said slowly sentence by sentence.

Jue Lin's complexion was getting uglier and more solemn, and nothing was revealed on his face, but turbulent waves arose in his heart.Because he kept thinking of the past along with her words in his mind, the more he thought about it, the more frightened he became. Even though his reason was still clamoring that what Jin'er said was false, in fact he already believed it in his heart.

Because apart from this possibility, there is no other better reason to explain Jin'er's difference.I'm afraid that if you search the whole of Dachu, or even the whole world, you won't be able to find another person like Jin'er.

Seeing Jue Lin's complexion and the complex emotions in his eyes, Mu Jinxi knew that he actually believed her words, but he might still be struggling and hesitating in his heart, because the facts she said were too unbelievable and unbelievable .

Mu Jinxi sighed silently, wanting to get up and let Jue Lin calm down and think about it, but just as she lifted her butt, her hand was held.

She looked down at him and asked silently.

Jue Lin opened his mouth, and said in a hoarse voice with some difficulty in his throat: "Wait. What you said just now... You said that you are a strand, a strand of soul, so what will happen to you in the future? Will there be any danger? No, will you suddenly leave at some point, just like you suddenly came here?"

He can accept anything, but he can't accept that Jin'er will disappear without warning one day.The thought of this possibility made him extremely flustered and frightened.

He pulled the standing up person into his arms, and hugged her tightly, as if he was afraid that something would happen to her.

"Jin'er, I don't care whether you are a human, a monster or anything else, as long as you are by my side. Tell me honestly, will you stay here forever?" Or is it just a temporary stay?

Juelin never thought that he would face such a problem one day. He thought that he would be happy for the rest of his life, because he had Jin'er by his side, and they had three children.But now Jin'er tells her that she doesn't belong to this world?

Jue Lin felt that his mind was buzzing, his head was about to split, he was startled and frightened, and he held Jin'er tightly with both hands.

Mu Jinxi was stunned, it seemed that Juelin's reaction was somewhat unexpected.

Shouldn't Juelin be suspicious and afraid?Why is it different from what she thought?Shouldn't ordinary people be afraid when they hear such, such strange things?

"Well, I don't think I should leave. If I wanted to leave, I would have left a long time ago. Now I feel that my soul has been completely integrated with this body. The original Mu Jinxi should go to reincarnation, I feel I won't see her anymore." Mu Jinxi replied honestly.

Jue Lin immediately asked worriedly and anxiously: "The original Mu Jinxi is still there? Will she hurt you?"

Mu Jinxi twitched the corners of her mouth, "She was still there when I first came here, maybe because I couldn't let go of my parents, elder brother and little treasure, but after the conditions of our family gradually improved, she seemed to have left. I can’t feel the remaining thoughts of her.”

As she was talking, she couldn't help but glared at him, "Anyway, the original Mu Jinxi once saved you and gave birth to Xiaobao for you. You should thank him anyway, why are you so ruthless?"

Jue Lin frowned, thought for a while and said seriously and solemnly: "I really should thank her, but the person I like is you, not her."

To him, the Mu Jinxi he knew and liked was the one in front of him, not the one already... This may sound cold and heartless, but it is the truth, what he is loyal to is his own heart.

Mu Jinxi stared at him blankly, seeing clearly the feelings he had for her in his eyes.Even though they have the same body, but they are two different souls, Jue Lin likes himself, so he really shouldn't be required to express anything to the original Mu Jinxi.This is unfair to both him and the original Mu Jinxi.

Forget it, anyway, what she just said was just a joke, and she didn't really want Jue Lin to have any feelings for the original Mu Jinxi.

"About this issue, let's think of a solution in the future. I am very grateful for everything she has done, but the gratitude cannot be transformed into feelings. I think if she is still there, she will understand. Both she and you are kind A person who does not belong to him will not force something that does not belong to him." Jue Lin said.

Mu Jinxi nodded slowly.

"Jin'er, are you sure you won't leave here suddenly?" Jue Lin still felt uneasy.

"Probably not. Since I have been here for such a long time, I should not leave unless I die."

Jue Lin covered her mouth and stared at her, "You are not allowed to say this word, we will all be fine."

Mu Jinxi opened her almond eyes and nodded.

And then... no more.

Mu Jinxi was already mentally prepared for Juelin's possible reactions and endings, but Juelin's reaction was not what she expected!Later, he just asked how he came here, and whether he would leave suddenly again. She repeatedly assured that he would not, so he accepted her explanation with half-belief.

Then, as if this incident had never happened before, what to do, she wondered if she didn't speak clearly enough, that's why Jue Lin looked like this.

But I have to say that the big stone in her heart was finally let go, and then her mood improved, and her postpartum depression soon recovered.

But soon she realized that something was wrong, and Jue Lin, who had heard her secret, quickly showed a bad reaction.

(End of this chapter)