The Edge of Love and Pain: My Double Husband

Chapter 362 Like Me

"Thank you."

"Thank you?" He raised his eyebrows: "Hey, I'm actually more miserable than you think?"

I said, "I know your situation."

"That's just to listen to." He gently squeezed the cigarette butt, and said, "It's like when I hear you say this, I just listen to it. I think it sounds pitiful, but it doesn't seem to be miserable enough."

I said, "I'm not saying this to gain sympathy, I just want to say it."

"I know," he said, "but I never wanted to say it."

I couldn't help being taken aback.

"You are hurt, so you suffer. I suffer because it is shame." He said: "The higher you climb, the stronger the shame. It is given to me by others, and it is also given to myself."

I remember that Fanyin told me that Pu Lan's biological mother was a daughter-in-law.I'm not an authentic wealthy lady, so I don't know what it means, but from Fanyin's face at that time, I can see the contempt. Obviously, in his heart, or in their worldview, this is Pu Lan's. "short".

I said: "As long as you are outstanding, your background can be changed, let alone your father's background is good."

He shook his head: "It cannot be changed."

I said: "Actually, in this world, as long as you become a talent, all shadows can be erased, and it's not your fault..."

"It can't be changed." He repeated it again, rather helplessly said: "My mother is still alive and paralyzed on the bed. I visit her occasionally, but she keeps asking me for money. Back then she sent me back , I miss her, she also misses me, and often come to see me. I am afraid that she will have a hard time, so I give her some pocket money. She has been receiving it for more than 20 years. When I was in college, I started to pay off her gambling debts. She has been gambling Until last year, it was not because her conscience found out that she quit gambling, but because she couldn't walk anymore. Not only that, she also took drugs and marijuana, felt dissatisfied, and smoked K fans. But fortunately, now that she can't stand up and is paralyzed on the bed, I have already figured it out, even if she has cancer, even if it is for hospice care, I will never give her a pill of morphine."

Indeed, when Fanyin said it, I only thought it was a sentence, and now I heard him talk about it in detail, and I found it too shocking.

When he said this, he paused, and said: "Actually, I have enough money for her, but I hate her. She gave birth to me from the beginning to the end, and it was just a use, and I lived my life like this again. I want to break up with her, but she is too miserable, and I have to take care of her."

I asked, "Do you feel this pain?"

"Pain," he said, "but that was before. After I realized that there are such people in this world, I stopped suffering."

I didn't understand, so I didn't speak.

How can a mother not love her child?When I miss her, although I look like Fanyin Cheng, my liking for her is from the bottom of my heart, even uncontrollable.

I have struggled for so long in such a day, and incompetence is certainly on the one hand, and on the other hand, it is indeed for the children.Who wouldn't feel pain from the flesh that fell from his body?

He glanced at me, then smiled, and said, "The reason why I told you this is to persuade you to think about it from another angle. In this world, there are really some parents who really don't love You. No pretense, no matter what they say, no matter what you say. Just like some parents treasure their ugly, stupid and naughty children, no matter how good their children are, these parents will not love them. Moreover, such parents often lack the ability to love others. For them, children are not here to inherit their love, nor to enrich each other's lives, but to use them for their fame and fortune, and for the rest of their lives. , or an heir, or something else... Fundamentally speaking, they are not worthy of being parents, and, no matter how hard the children try, they cannot change them."

My heart couldn't help but tremble, and I didn't speak.

I have always thought that there are no perfect parents in the world. After all, I am not good enough, and my adoptive father is indeed very demanding.Although Fanyin's parents hurt him, their affection for him is unquestionable.No one is wrong, but we are all affected, and Fanyin was even tortured by this mess at home to get such a serious illness.Why?I do not know either.Anyway, the pain is on our own body.

I didn't think about it, maybe my adoptive father didn't love me at all, it wasn't affected by me being good or bad, but that he didn't love me at all.I believe that Fan Yin doesn't dare to think that way about old man Fan.

"Do you understand?" He said: "If you understand, it will really be a lot easier, you will understand that you don't have to behave in front of him, and you don't have to suffer for his attitude, and naturally you don't have to feel that no one will. I love you. Even a female monkey may abandon her baby monkey to starve to death due to hormones after giving birth. This is one of the laws of nature. It’s not your fault, you’re just unlucky.”

I said, "But if he's my real father..."

"What is the relationship between biological and adopted?" He said: "The root of your pain is that he is your father, which is not affected by biological and adopted. He is your father. You think he is the only one for you. But you Actually not, maybe he wants you just out of necessity, or maybe it’s just to satisfy his desire to be kind. After all, your father believes in Buddhism. No matter what, it’s not for the purpose of wanting a child and bringing him home to love. He doesn’t love you , What is the difference between biological or adopted? And you don’t need him long ago. You already have your own home, have the ability to create everything of your own, and have the ability to believe that there are many people in this world who love you, such as me. "

The last three words startled me, and I couldn't help laughing: "Your words change so quickly."

He also smiled: "Hurry up? I've been talking for so long, but it's all because of the last three words."

"Okay. Thank you." I said, "Let's just assume your words are true, then I'll answer seriously, I don't..."

"Okay." He interrupted me: "Stop talking."

I breathed a sigh of relief and didn't say any more.

After a while of silence, I saw him lighting another cigarette, and seemed to want to chat for a while.Today's conversation gave me a new understanding of him, and I felt a lot different. I was quite willing to talk to him for a while, so I said, "Actually, I still have one tangled thing."

"I know, I don't want to part with the child." He sighed, and said, "I think it's a gift, the lesser of two evils."

"But my family Niannian is already very sensible." I said: "But she is not very sensible. I sent her away without explaining. She must be sad. But if I explain, she will be even more sad."

He nodded and said, "I think it's just a lie."

"cheat?"

"Tell her that Dad is sick." He said: "Dad needs to be treated, and the disease will be contagious. My sister is too young, so I have to go there. She is an older sister, and I have to take care of my younger sister."

This is a good idea, Nian Nian also knows that her father is sick.I said, "But my husband hasn't come back yet, and he didn't tell her that he would be cured before he left."

"Just ask him to make a call."

"how to spell?"

"Isn't that simple?" he said, making a pistol gesture with his index finger and thumb.

Pu Lan even guessed this, does this prove that my IQ is too low, or his IQ is too high?I couldn't help but feel a little uneasy. I originally expected my adoptive father to help me figure out some tricks, but now with his attitude, I have to fend for myself.

I couldn't help but say, "You're so smart."

"I still know what you came to talk to your father about, but the talk fell apart." He said, "I won't give you any advice, lest you be afraid that I will harm you. Anyway, you have to be careful, things outside are difficult, and your mother-in-law will Trouble. There is no mother-in-law in this world who is willing for her daughter-in-law to arrest her son, but she also transferred her granddaughter."

I said: "I know, but if I don't transfer, my mother-in-law will definitely use the children to threaten me to do things. They are not particularly worried about my husband's situation, because I am the one who suffers the most and the most painful, so they all feel that it is still a problem. There is hope, but I can't."

He nodded: "I understand, but I do think your idea is too stupid. You can't beat your mother-in-law. "

"I can fight." I still know Mrs. Han a little bit, and I said, "Frankly speaking, I'm just a little uneasy about things outside. As for my mother-in-law, it's much easier to deal with."

He raised his eyebrows: "What do you mean?"

"I want you to help me." I said, "Although you are the one who cooks the braised pork well, I also contributed to the connection, right?"

He laughed again: "Please rely on your looks, not your wisdom. But... do you want to eat braised pork tomorrow?"

"Uh... I don't like it, but my daughter does."

"I'll make it for you to eat, be careful not to flash your tongue." He pinched his cigarette butt and said, "It's almost dawn, you go to sleep."

I said, "Good night."

"I won't sleep." He had already walked in, and his voice became farther and farther away: "I'll go pick a good piece of meat."

Then I lay on the bed for a while, feeling a little better because of Pu Lan's words.Thinking about it again, what he said is actually not unreasonable.If I hadn't gotten close to Pu Lan, even if Mrs. Han was dissatisfied, nothing would happen.But if you want to deal with outside affairs, you have to get closer, which is bound to offend Mrs. Han.

But it doesn't matter, this part seems to me to be still under control, after all Mrs. Han is a person who can communicate.

I slept until ten o'clock, and it was Niannian who yelled at me, because Lianyin wanted to breastfeed and cried into a ball, but the nurse brought her, but she couldn't coax her.Nian Nian was so anxious that I got up, and when I came out, Nian Nian was very responsible, especially towards my younger sister, she was a bit domineering.

After feeding the children, I cleaned up and went downstairs, and took the two of them outside for a walk to bask in the sun.Meet Pu Lan at the door, and he is teasing his two ferrets, the alert little animals he raises like dogs, turning their bellies and waiting for him to pet them in turn.

(End of this chapter)