The Edge of Love and Pain: My Double Husband

Chapter 538 I Can't Make You Sad Anymore

We chatted for a while, and Fanyin suddenly changed the subject and said, "Is there nothing you want to do to me?"

"I'm not in the mood today."

"Why are you not in the mood?" He is in the mood every day.

"Although you said you didn't have sex with her, no matter how I think about it, I don't believe it." I said, "I don't blame you, it's just...she is so beautiful."

"It's simple." His voice lowered, and at the same time he lifted my chin, and said ambiguously, "Just see how much your husband can produce."

"You can produce a lot every day." I couldn't help but glared at him.

He immediately let go, lay down on his back and laughed for a while, and said in my extremely depressed face: "Thank you for the compliment."

I said, "Be serious."

"I'm serious." He suppressed his smile, turned his head to look at me, and said, "It's fine to be scolded by you for messing around, and you won't be rewarded if you don't. It's not good for you to do this, it will make me lose motivation."

His words are not only literal, but also express the meaning that I am the boss.

I was very happy in my heart, but I didn't speak.

He was silent again, and said: "I really can't prove my innocence in this matter, but you at least know me. I haven't lied to you on this issue."

Indeed, on this matter, he has always confessed straightforwardly, and he never lied to me.This is because he is conceited and is not afraid of me leaving him.

I leaned my head into his arms and said, "If you lie to me, I will no longer have the position to excuse you in my heart."

He stroked my head and said after a while: "She is really pretty, but my wife is a stunning beauty. I have a phoenix, so why do I need wild chickens?"

I asked, "Why didn't I feel that?"

"You don't have to think about it." He said proudly: "In short, don't deliberately say that she is more beautiful than you. I don't think you don't even have this bit of taste."

I try to say objectively that Ru Jiaojiao is very beautiful, but if we say she is beautiful, she lacks temperament, and her face is very unlucky, just like the plastic surgery template of an [-]th-tier star. Features, the women that Fanyin has found before are all beautiful, and they have their own advantages and disadvantages.As for me... Thinking of this, I asked: "Then what do you think of Sheng Mengmeng?"

"not bad."

"Compared to me?"

"Not as good as you."

Now I can be sure that he is talking nice words to coax me.

But I am still very useful: "Thank you for complimenting me so much."

He saw my reluctance, smiled, and leaned his head on mine again, with a slightly more serious attitude: "You know, I'm sick, just to vent."

I said, "Not everyone is, is it?"

"Most of them are, even if they don't, they don't want to be a wife." He said: "I was sorry for you before, but these few years, I really can't live without you."

That's how I spoiled the scenery: "What about Putao? Don't say you never thought of marrying her back home."

"I did move, but not because I wanted a wife, but because I wanted a stable cooperation." He said: "And then I gave up, and I still think that having you at home is enough."

In the past few years, I thought about it many times. He gave up on Pu Tao halfway. Is it because he found out that I might get the right to inherit?Or do you really think that as a wife I make him feel better than PuTao?
However, no matter what his thoughts were at the time, I don't need to ask anymore, let the answer remain a secret forever.

I said, "Actually, I don't think she's pretty or anything. The main thing is that it's important to save Niannian. I thought you would do anything for Niannian."

Without hesitation, he said, "If it weren't for you, I would do anything, anyway, I won't suffer."

I didn't say a word, thinking that this was really in line with my understanding of him.

"But if I do that, you really can't say anything, but you must be sad." He sighed and said softly, "I can't make you sad anymore."

I said, "Then you never thought that something would happen if you procrastinate Nian Nian?"

"Thinking about it, but I think I can keep going."

I know it's cruel, but I'm curious: "If something happened to her, would you regret it?"

I thought he would at least hesitate, but he didn't: "She'll be fine."

I didn't ask any more.

In fact, when asked to this point, it already seems that I am a bit vicious.This issue, for both of us, although we have different positions, is a cruel choice.

But after a while, he opened his mouth: "Before you said, you thought I was better for you than Niannian, and I was jealous of me and her, and I trained you for this. At that time, I thought you were really mentally ill , I don’t know what’s going on in my head, how could I be jealous of my daughter? Isn’t it right that I love her?”

I didn't speak.

I also feel like a psycho, but I really do.

He continued: "But these days, I suddenly figured it out. You are not blaming me for being too kind to her, but because I am treating you too badly. Before, you might think that Fanyin is such a ruthless person, so you gave up hope. Yes, but after having Niannian, you start to have comparisons, and you will feel sad. People don’t suffer from the few but the unevenness. I have always understood this truth, but I have never thought about you this way. In the final analysis, it is because I have so easily gained so much from you that I thought it was all my own."

What he said was heart-to-heart, and he immediately dispelled most of the depression in my heart for many years, which made me a little at a loss, and I didn't know what to say to answer.

But he didn't need me to say anything, but continued: "For so many years, I have been enjoying your sacrifice for granted. You are afraid that I will commit suicide and your father will kill me. I have a headache, but I always try my best to protect me at critical moments. Everyone may not be able to see clearly when looking at me, but you know better than anyone else what kind of person I am. I am cruel, shameless, cruel, ruthless... I am not worthy of anyone's love. Although I always knew that you were good to me, but only recently, I realized very deeply that you are the best person in this world to me, and I am the one who treats you the most. The bad one."

I believe that what he said didn't mean to belittle himself at all, because he is just so hateful, and he just doesn't deserve anyone's love.

He continued: "When I saw you for the first time, I thought that although you were a bit pretty, you looked dull and unintelligent. I didn't like you. You said you loved me at that time, and I thought you were mentally ill. Crazy, and even if I wasn't, I'm not the kind of man you'd want to be with. I know there's a lot in me that would interest a woman, especially one as poor and inexperienced as you. I've always known Love is actually very hypocritical. People who like to do things under the banner of love are most willing to get something through it. This is what my parents taught me, especially my father, he likes to threaten me like this, and my mother , she doesn't do anything for me, she always hides from me like the plague, she is afraid of me, but she says she loves me. I watch these people, and I feel that love is such a meaningless, fake emotion for masturbation , its existence may be just to make the mating behavior between people more decent. So I am very disgusted when you say you love me, especially when you say you love me while making demands on me, which affects my normal life, I think you have ulterior motives, but your methods are naive. So I keep challenging you and irritating you, not only wanting you to get out of my life, but also wanting to see your face when you can't bear it anymore."

I asked, "Are these your previous thoughts, or are they fused with his memory?"

"Mine." He said with a chuckle: "Those psychiatrists and psychiatrists say that my personality has no feelings. I think, if the feelings they talk about are the hypocrisy of those fake love names, then I really don't have them, and I don't have them." There is no need to have it. Real gold and silver, rich nectar, delicious food, beautiful women like clouds...everything is more real than this."

In fact, in my opinion, although old man Fan is shameful, his love for him is true. This time the old man was arrested without any refusal at all, and he was just begging me to give Fan Yin a slim chance of survival.He thought the same as Mrs. Han, thinking that I was holding back Fanyin just like my father.Maybe I will also feel that this matter is also due to my internal response, and this idea is not a fantasy. I arranged to kill the stewards of the small family. This incident directly caused the dominance of the Fan family to be severely shaken, although it was because of me. I accepted the wrong information, but now that I think about it, the information was given by Pu Lan, but my father should be behind the manipulation.

As for Mrs. Han, she also cared about him very much. Although she did not do it perfectly and forced Fanyin to stay in that position, it was because if the position was changed, Fanyin's first life would be lost.

I said, "I thought you at least understood that they love you very much, so you respect them...especially your mother."

"That's because they have status. I know that I can't say such things. It will affect my image and my career." He smiled bitterly and said, "But you are different. I have said countless times Doubting your sincerity, you proved me wrong countless times like a slap in the face, until now, I have come to this point, and you are the only one by my side."

I said: "You offended my father. It's normal for others to avoid suspicion and stay away from you. After all, people have a heart to protect themselves and are afraid of getting burned. Your father has also lost power, and your mother must also be thinking of a way. We are still in the end. It’s safe, it must be the result of your family’s hard work.”

Otherwise, with my father's energy, he should have found us long ago.Li Yu helped us cover up, but Li Ang started from scratch, and it is said that he is a level more cunning than old man Fan. If he tries his best to help my father find us, he will certainly succeed.

(End of this chapter)