leave this sad place

Chapter 119 Time flies
"It's past one." He looked at the time and felt a slight chill on his shoulders, as if an invisible cold air hit him one after another.

He turned off his cell phone, opened his eyes, and looked around in the darkness.The snoring of his roommates roaring like thunder and rising and falling like frogs sounded in his ears. This kind of sound made him feel bored and even a little depressed!
How can others have so many thoughts on him!So sleeping is naturally easy to fall asleep, but what about him?Any sound of wind can wake him up from his sleep, and his drowsiness is only suspended on the surface of the dream, as if it is going to go with the wind.

He slowly closed his eyes, but there was no other movement.

He listened to the heartbeat quietly, "Pu-tong, pu-tong" sounded like sobbing.

A tear rolled down from the corner of his eye little by little, as if engraving something.

"Memory? Or the years?" He murmured in his heart, and then there was a dead silence in his heart.

In the morning, he was awakened by the light of the electric light again, and there was some pain in his eyes. He knew that it was a testimony of his insomnia, but he didn't want to know why he would suffer from insomnia again.Silence, like a stone stepped into the soil!
He knew that he had changed, changed again and again, how could he be the same as before?
Some people take a long time to grow up, while others just a moment is enough.And he, who is naturally sensitive and delicate, undoubtedly belongs to the latter.

The bell of "Ding—Ding" rang, and he looked up to the front. Some students walked towards the classroom quickly, some students trotted into the classroom, and he walked at a fixed frequency at a leisurely pace.

"Ouyang, I found a new game yesterday, it's very fun. Would you like to try it?" Chen Cheng took the phone and moved over, with residual excitement on his face.

"No, you can play." Ouyang smiled warmly, took out the textbook and arranged it on the table.

"Try it, it's really fun." Chen Cheng wanted to share his happiness, looked at Ouyang Hexu's face, and thought that he should be in a good mood today.

Ouyang shook it, and then took out a pen and draft book from his schoolbag, carefully and meticulously.He didn't want to care about those anymore, those games didn't mean anything to him and couldn't help him at all.

Seeing that he ignored him, Chen Cheng went to play by himself.He really likes this game, it doesn't mean to tempt Ouyang to play as before.

While flipping through the textbooks, Ouyang waited for the teacher to arrive.

It was about a month before the final exam, and his heart tightened slightly, his nerves twitched, and even the hand holding the pen unconsciously clenched even tighter.

"This time, I have to study hard and take the exam!" He recited firmly in his heart, and remembered what he said last night.

"Other things——" His eyes dimmed for a moment, and then became firm again, "Leave them all alone!"

This time, only he knew how determined he was. This time, even he himself thought that everything was really coming to an end!

In the busy time, time is easily overlooked, and it flows relatively fast.

Even the final exam passed without knowing it, Ouyang felt a little relieved in his heart, and could finally take a breath.

"This time, it shouldn't be as miserable as the semester." Ouyang cheered himself up slightly, he was confident - he must be better this time than last semester.

"There are more than 80 grades." He looked at it, feeling a little lost in his heart.

"But it's okay, it's an improvement compared to the last issue." He said, still feeling a little uncomfortable in his heart.Because how could such an achievement be enough for him?
"Keep going." He put away the report card and didn't take another look at it, nor would he take another look at it.

"This semester—" He slowly thought back to see what shortcomings he still has.

Only then did he realize that he had wasted a lot of time, that was the few weeks after school started.He played games with Chen Cheng in class. If the physics teacher hadn't woken him up, he estimated that this semester would be as muddled as last semester for a long time.

"I don't know how Chen Cheng did in the exam?" He remembered that Chen Cheng spent most of his time in the game, and he really didn't know how he studied and what he used to take the exam.

Thinking of this, his brows frowned slightly again. In the last month, Chen Cheng still persisted in asking him to play games together.

"This—" He felt a little disgusted in his heart, he didn't like someone to disturb him when he was concentrating on his work.But Chen Cheng, his only acquaintance in this class, and it was the last month, so he didn't care much.Thinking about it now, I feel a little uncomfortable, even a little uncomfortable.

"Maybe next semester, he won't be like that." He murmured.

He thought of the old classmate in the class again.

"Oh." He sighed, his eyes dimmed again.This old classmate seemed to have gradually alienated himself, and he himself hadn't spoken to her much, which made him feel a little uncomfortable again.Because she is not just his old classmate, in the past, she was his favorite girl.

Slowly, he thought of some other people, Yushu, Xiaolan, Jieer, and his parents.

The car started slowly, and the car was still crowded as if it was about to explode.

"Stop thinking about it so much." He sighed again.

"What's the use of thinking so much?" He looked at the rapidly moving scenery outside the window, and the fresh trees just disappeared in front of him one by one.

He looked, looked, felt his eyes a little dry, and slowly, waves of fatigue hit him.He remembered that he hadn't slept well and peacefully for a long time.

"We'll be home soon." He closed his eyes, feeling dizzy.In a daze, I thought of my grandpa and grandma again.

"I haven't seen them for a long time." Grandpa's loving face appeared in his mind again.

"It's time to go back." He opened his eyes and sighed.He didn't go home once this semester!
He has always had a faint resistance to going home, what a wonderful feeling!How many people are far away from home, heartbroken for their relatives in their hometown, but he would resist going home, and even feel a little fear of going home!
Fear, how could he not be afraid?There are too many "sharp weapons" buried in the house, causing him to bleed and cry inadvertently.

He really didn't know how he should feel at home.There are only grandparents in that family, and grandparents are still noisy in that family!Although they love him very much, they don't know and don't care much about his feelings!Those loves were blind and given all at once, which made him really unbearable.

What can he do?When he got home, he couldn't do anything, even the most basic housework was not allowed, and even his grandparents had a fight, so he could only lock himself in his room at a loss.That dark, small room that doesn't allow sunlight to penetrate makes him feel much warmer than the whole home. He often curls up on the bed, and the only thing that accompanies him at this time is the novel.In the dark night, quietly, let him understand again and again what is loneliness, what is loneliness, what is emptiness!

"You have to go back." He sighed, with a hint of helplessness.He looked at the gradually familiar scenery outside the window again, his heart trembled slightly, and his shoulders trembled accordingly.He knew it wasn't cold!
He closed his painful eyes again, feeling a great tiredness in his heart.

"Home—home!" He repeated in his heart again and again, the muscles on his face twitched slightly, and the pain seeped out from the crevices of the muscles again.

(End of this chapter)