leave this sad place

Chapter 120

"Woof, woof..." There was a bark of dogs, and a big black dog jumped out and jumped around Ouyang, wagging its tail happily.

Ouyang was slightly moved in his heart, after more than four months away from home, Xiao Hei still remembered him.But he almost forgot about this home and didn't want to go home.This made him feel slightly ashamed.

"Who is that outside? Is Xiao Ming back?" Grandpa's voice came from the wall, but the voice was not as tough as Ouyang remembered.

Ouyang quickly walked into the gate, and saw Grandpa standing at the gate looking around.Grandpa's eyes became a little cloudy, the hair on his head became looser, and he could no longer find a single black hair, and even his waist was bent a bit.

"En." Ouyang muffled, feeling his nose a little sore, but his heart trembling.

"Your grandma said that you will come back today. I was looking forward to it early in the morning, and I have been waiting." Grandpa's voice was different from last semester's. Grandpa was getting old, which made Ouyang feel a little sad again.

"En." Ouyang walked up to grandpa, as obediently as he did when he was a child, and listened to him tell stories.But this time, Ouyang no longer had the carefree joy of listening to stories in his childhood.

"This semester, I haven't come back once!" Ouyang felt very guilty in his heart. Seeing his grandfather's aging appearance, his heart couldn't help trembling, and there was even a faint sense of uneasiness and fear!
He was scared, he was really scared!He couldn't help thinking of the dead old people in the village one after another in his mind.

"Grandpa, in case, he—" he thought, his heart was filled with fear, and even his body trembled uncontrollably.

"Xiao Ming, are you cold? Go into the room and put on some of your old clothes." Grandpa watched Ouyang's body trembling constantly, stretched out his wrinkled and dry hands to hold Ouyang tightly, Try the temperature in Ouyang's palm.

"Go into the house and find a piece of clothing to put on. Your hands are cold." Grandpa said with concern again.

"Yes." Ouyang nodded, and never said "I'm not cold, so I don't need to wear it" like before.Because he didn't want to refuse, even if he was sweating from the heat now, he wouldn't refuse.

"Why didn't you come back this semester?" Grandma sat on the stool and asked Ouyang.

Ouyang's heart trembled slightly again, not knowing how to answer.He didn't think about these at all this semester, and he didn't even know what kind of existence this family was in his heart.When he was in school, he felt that going home was a kind of torture, because there was too much pain and dislike in it, but when he came home and saw his grandfather aging, he felt uncomfortable and guilty!
"Are you too busy studying?" Grandpa asked, and also found a reason for Ouyang.

Ouyang listened, feeling even more uncomfortable.Only the last month of this semester has been worked hard by me, and most of the others have been wasted by myself, so what can I say about being busy?Shame bit his heart like a poisonous snake.

"En." He finally nodded, enduring the great pain!Lies are the last things he likes to tell, but this time he told his most beloved grandpa, how can this not make him sad?But how could he not say so?
"Xiao Ming, don't put too much pressure on it, as long as you do your best." Grandpa comforted him from the side again, telling Ouyang to relax in his studies and not to take it so seriously, for fear of exhausting him.

But this made Ouyang feel even more sad. He is a person who likes to hide everything in his heart, so how can such words really play a consoling role?He thought of the time he had wasted, starting from the first year of high school, from the time he met Yu Shu.Those days of frustration, pain, and unexaminedness really deserve it!

"I must work hard, work harder!" He made up his mind again, feeling a little heavier on his shoulders, making his chest tight and even hard to breathe.

This time he felt that he was more serious than ever!
"When will you sign up? How long will you stay at home?" Grandma asked again.

"Ten days or so, I have to leave after the Chinese New Year, and I have to go to school in advance to make up lessons." Ouyang's heart darkened slightly, he was telling the truth, but his heart was not at ease.

Doesn't he want to go home?Doesn't he want to stay at home?At this moment, even he himself was a little dazed.

Grandpa nodded, with a hint of reluctance in his eyes, and said in his mouth: "Learning is important, learning is important."

This made Ouyang don't know what to say again, he had already seen the expression of his grandfather in his eyes and remembered what he said in his heart.However, this made him even more uncomfortable and depressed.

"Depressed? Stress." He mocked in his heart. He never thought that he would feel stressed that day, because he had never studied hard before.He doesn't like the so-called study at all, so how can he ask himself to study sincerely?But at this moment, he seemed to have some kind of enlightenment, as if he knew how to convince himself!
"Well, I will study hard." He looked into his grandfather's eyes, and there was not only reluctance in those eyes, but also a trace of pride and expectation.

He nodded solemnly, as if at that moment, he felt a flash of relief in Grandpa's heart.

"Let's take a good rest at home these few days." Grandpa said again to make Ouyang relax.

"Well." Ouyang nodded again, but he couldn't feel relieved at all. The more grandpa said this, the heavier his heart became.

Ouyang felt as if his heart was full of iron, heavy.But he wouldn't say this to anyone. He was introverted and used to being silent, and he had long been used to burying everything in his heart.What's more, he knows that these are just pressures!
"How can there be motivation without pressure?" He enlightened himself in his heart again, feeling the depression in his heart.But when he said this sentence in his heart, he forgot the one he said before: too much pressure will crush people!

Maybe he subconsciously thought that he would not have a lot of pressure. In terms of resolving the depression and depression in his heart, he was confident that he still had some ability to do a good job.

However, a little tiredness slowly grew in his heart, and Ouyang found that he hadn't had a good rest for a long time.I planned to take a good rest in the car, but it was impossible to really rest well.

"I just said I worked hard, but I feel a little tired." He felt a little bitter in his heart, and his eyelids became a little heavy.

"Aren't you tired? Go to your room and rest. I'll call you when your grandma finishes cooking." Grandpa saw that Ouyang was tired, and hurriedly told him to rest, for fear that he would be sleepy. .

"Well." Ouyang felt uncomfortable again, and he didn't know what to say when he got home.

Ouyang looked at his familiar room, looked at this neatly tidy room, lost his mind for a while, he knew that it must be tidied up specially for him by his grandfather today.

These little bits of love made him both happy and scared.

He looked at the bright sunlight in the room and felt a little uncomfortable, so he walked to the window silently, closed the window, and drew the curtains.The dark atmosphere slowly diffused again, and he actually felt a bit of a warm feeling, this kind of environment was what he was used to.Dark, dark, I don't know when he has long been used to the dark, gloomy and cold.

Slowly, another wave of fear grew in his heart, and he felt palpitations again and again for no reason.

"Do I really want to spend my whole life in such an environment?" He thought of those loneliness again, like a solitary soul wandering alone in the universe and stars!How does this not frighten him?
"No." He sat on the bed and whispered softly, comforting himself softly.

Another burst of tiredness came out.

"Don't think about that, go to sleep." Lying on the bed, he felt that his eyelids were heavy, and he couldn't open them even with all his strength.

He slept curled up, sleeping deeper in the darkness!

(End of this chapter)