leave this sad place

Chapter 147
"Oh, it's not a dragon's pond or a tiger's lair, it's just going back to eat." He sighed helplessly, comforting himself, feeling a little inexplicable.But it made him feel that it was already a dragon's pool and a tiger's den.

"What's the matter?" His eyes were slightly confused, and he quickly shook his head, feeling surprised, puzzled, and somewhat convinced by his own thoughts.

"Isn't it just to go back and have a meal?" There was a wry smile on the corner of his mouth, he stood up and walked towards the outside of the classroom.

"Are you back? When do you usually leave school at noon?" She opened the door for him, and looked at him who hadn't returned for a long time, with a few smiles on her face, but a few strange looks in her eyes.

"When get out of class was over, the teacher delayed the class for a few minutes." He looked at her sensitively and knew that what she wanted to know was why he came back a little late.As for the time when school ends at noon, she can find out from others.But such a simple greeting made his heart feel a little pained.

A trace of loneliness flashed in his eyes, a trace of sadness that even he had no time to experience.

"What are you doing standing outside the door? Come in quickly." She looked at him standing there in a daze outside the door, and called him,
"Oh." He sighed softly, this place still didn't give him a warm feeling.If this is home, why does it make him feel so strange and reserved?

"Here, here is the key to this door." She took a key on the table and gave it to him.

He took it, with some doubts in his eyes.

"This is a new one I made, to make it easier for you to get in and out in the future." She smiled and explained.

"Oh." He still said calmly, what else could he do besides accepting such an arrangement?But why do you feel somewhat disliked?Although such an arrangement is well-intentioned and for his own good, why do you still feel a little bit of disgust in your heart and want to resist?Who would be willing to be a puppet in whose hands?
"Wait for me for a few minutes, and we'll have dinner together when I make another dish." She said with a smile, then turned around and walked towards the stove, leaving him in a daze.

He stood there blankly, a little dazed.

He just wanted to come back and fill his stomach casually, but he didn't expect that she hadn't done it yet.If he knew this was the case, he might as well just find a restaurant on the side of the road and eat, so why come back and waste time?

He sighed slightly in his heart, he really didn't like everything like this.But I have to accept and adapt. What better way can I do besides this?
He silently walked to the table and looked at the several dishes on the table, including braised elbows, stewed ribs, and fried lean meat.Slightly stunned, these are enough to eat.

"Isn't there already these extra dishes on the table?" He asked subconsciously.

"But there are no vegetables, just wait a little longer. If you are hungry, you can eat by yourself first." She said without looking back.

Ouyang fell silent again, these dishes were rich enough for him, how could he usually eat so many dishes?Although she cooks so many dishes to eat well for herself, he really doesn't want to accept such kindness, even if she is his mother.

"Okay, okay, hurry up and get some food." She put the freshly copied dishes on the table.Seeing Ouyang standing there silently, like a strange guest.

"What's wrong?" she asked casually.

"No—it's nothing." He froze for a moment.

"Here, don't be dumbfounded, sit down and eat." She finished the meal and handed it to him.

He took it, and was a little confused again. He didn't know whether he should say something or not.

"Well, are you all right? Why don't you eat anymore?" She put down the bowls and chopsticks in her hands and looked at him, feeling a little puzzled.Could it be that I did something wrong by doing this?

Ouyang remained silent, did not say a word, did not eat a bite of food, there was a trace of grief lingering in his heart, but his face was blank.

"What's the matter with you?" She frowned, feeling very puzzled. Could it be that she was sorry for him?

"Didn't you promise not to cook so many dishes?" He sighed inexplicably, she was his mother after all, and what she did was for his benefit after all!But why do I still not like it?
"Not much, even if you can't finish it at noon, isn't there still night?" She smiled, but she secretly breathed a sigh of relief.

"Not much? It's enough for me. Do you know that just one dish on this table is enough for me to eat for a day?" Ouyang felt a little pain in his heart, and some words really made him unable to say it.And this is just for her to stop thinking about it, to make her feel at ease.

"Don't worry, if you can finish it, it won't be wasted." She comforted his heart, a trace of love flashed in her eyes, she didn't expect him to be so thrifty.And if such a dish can last him a day as he said, if it is true——, her eyes became a little sad, and the trace of love deepened even more.

"Okay, eat as much as you want in the future, don't do it again." He felt even more lonely in his heart, and let him bury some words forever, what's the point of saying them?

"Well, yes, yes, I will cook as much as I eat in the future." She answered very quickly, with a smile on her face.

He doesn't really believe in such words, but what else can he do?Shaking his head helplessly, he looked like a little adult, but he seemed to be really not young anymore.There are some things that he can only bear alone, and his heart is even more dejected.

"Eat vegetables, eat vegetables, eat them while they are hot." She picked up the bowls and chopsticks again, intending to pick up a braised elbow for him.

"I'll do it myself." He doesn't like others to bring him vegetables, and he doesn't like others to bring him a bowl full of vegetables. Although it is a good intention, he is not willing to accept such kindness.He likes to pick what he likes to eat, and as much as he likes to eat. This kind of unrestrained and natural way is what he likes.

She smiled at him and didn't pay much attention.

"Er—" He just took it into his mouth, and there was a dull pain, and then he remembered that his mouth was burned when he ate noodles this morning.

"What's the matter?" She asked with concern, feeling that he was meddling like an urchin.

"It's okay." There was a trace of bitterness in the corner of his mouth, he really didn't understand what was going on with all this!Why is it always so unsatisfactory recently?
"In the future, don't make me any breakfast." He put down the bowl and chopsticks, looked at her and said.

She looked at him suspiciously, with a somewhat abrupt feeling.

"I really don't have that much time for breakfast in the morning. I was almost late today." The bitterness in the corner of his mouth became more obvious.

And when I get up in the morning to make breakfast, it will disturb my sleep.He didn't say that, and he didn't want to say it.

"Okay." She nodded hesitantly.

In fact, you just need to get up earlier.She swallowed that too.Seeing how he doesn't get enough sleep every day, how could she have the heart to let him not have a good rest?

"But I'll buy you some bread and the like and put it on the table. Take it with you and eat it when you're free." She thought about it.

"Yeah." This time it's hard to refuse her kindness.He slowly bit the elbow in the bowl.

"In the future, don't buy any elbows or anything like that. They're just bones and there's not much to eat." Ouyang resisted the temptation of delicious food and said mercilessly.Tell yourself secretly that now is not the time to enjoy.

"Uh—okay." There was a smile on the corner of her mouth, knowing what he was thinking, but a bit of sadness flashed in her heart.

"Also, really don't do so much in the future." While eating, he kept reminding him.

She looked at all this with a smile, and a flash of joy flashed in her heart, because everything like this has such a taste of home.

"Okay, I'm full." He put down the bowl and chopsticks, controlled himself, and didn't let himself be greedy for the delicious food on the table.

"Well, you can do your own thing. I'll take care of it later." She smiled and glanced at him, and the sadness in her heart deepened.He ate quickly and ate a lot, but as he said, he didn't eat much.Looking at the yellowish hair on his forehead, it was caused by malnutrition, which made her sentimental but also a little moved.

Don't let him do that again, she told herself.

(End of this chapter)