leave this sad place

Chapter 148 Compromise
He stood up and turned around, but she didn't see the loneliness in his eyes.

Do some things really keep it buried?Should some words really be buried in the heart forever?He was confused, and there was a faint worry flashing in his eyes.

Even if you don't say those words in your heart, what about the reality?Is everything in reality really possible to develop as I imagined?

What should come will come sooner or later, so can we wait until after high school is over?Can you let yourself spend the remaining year of high school smoothly with peace of mind?The confusion in his eyes deepened.The unknown future can bring hope and faith to the world because of its unknowability; but because of its unknowability, why won't it bring trouble and fear to people?

"Is it really possible to live in peace like this?" He murmured, thinking of her spending so much.There is still a year left, a year without a source of income.Such a year not only gave him some worries, but also gave him some anxiety and some hatred!Why do I still spend money here and not make money?Why can't I go out to work and earn money like others?

Because of study?Ridiculous study!Actually let myself come here for nothing to waste some time and money, and I don't know if I will use these so-called learned knowledge when I go out in the future!
Once again, Ouyang felt disgusted with learning and felt at a loss.How can he not be confused by the so-called learning without knowing it?

And why can't you even save yourself a little bit?There was a pain in my heart again.He really didn't want to go on like this.

"But what can I do?" He felt the deep helplessness again, wanting to resist but without a trace of strength.

His heart became more sad, but he also hid it deeper. He didn't want anyone to know, not even himself.

He lay quietly on the bed, wanting to take a good rest, but there were noises of one kind or another.He closed his eyes tightly, wishing he could cut off his ears so that he could have a good sleep.

But he couldn't fall asleep, and his head became more and more drowsy.There was a trace of depression in his heart, and listening to the sound of metal clashing made by her washing dishes and pans outside, the depression deepened.The last thing he likes is someone disturbing him when he is sleeping, but now?
He really wanted to yell at others like before: "Don't make those noises, I want to sleep!" But he held back, how can he do it now?
"It will be fine when she finishes it." He comforted himself from time to time, with a trace of helplessness and resentment in his heart.

"But I'm so sleepy, so sleepy..." His eyes became a little dazed, and he knew that he was about to fall asleep, but he couldn't really fall asleep no matter what.

He looked at his phone in a daze and from time to time, and the time passed by little by little.

After such a wasteful afternoon, he got up and sat on the bed with an annoyed expression.

He sighed again, who could be blamed for all this?Do you have to blame her yourself?Blame her for affecting my sleep?This - how can this be possible?But what to do?Do you want to let yourself go back to school early every time and go to the classroom to rest?But I don’t like it, although I have made mistakes, but it is not so easy to forget, to really not care.

"Now I should think about how to spend the afternoon?" He sighed helplessly, knowing that he must doze off again in the afternoon.But when he was sleepy and wanted to sleep, how could he avoid this natural physiological reaction?
"I'm leaving." He glanced at her, wondering what she was busy with at noon. Is it necessary to make it so complicated for a simple meal?

He closed the door and shook his head helplessly.Some miss their previous life, finish their lunch quickly, and take a good night's sleep.But now?When I came back for lunch, it was time to take a nap, and the nap was not a good night's sleep at all.

"Don't think about that, you will get used to it slowly." He comforted himself again, but he couldn't stop himself from feeling bored.

He still doesn't like this kind of life, this kind of everything!

I don't like it, but what can I do?

He walked slowly, his expression was full of sadness, and his steps were a little slow.Everything like this was beyond his expectation. He just wanted to solve the problem that was so painful and heavy that he could hardly breathe, but he didn't expect it to happen like this.

The problems that should have been solved long ago dragged on as before, and these helpless, depressed, and disturbed emotions were provoked for no reason.This kind of loss outweighs the gains, making his chaotic heart entangled like lines, and the more he pulled it, the more chaotic it became.

In the afternoon, just as he thought, drowsiness hit him one after another.He forced himself to keep himself from falling asleep, and drowsiness was like a dog's skin plaster that he couldn't get rid of.

The corner of his mouth was full of wry smiles, knowing that even if he really fell asleep, he would not be woken up by the teacher to punish him, but he never wanted to do that.

On such a day, he felt that he was a little muddled, as if he had done nothing and learned nothing.He really didn't want to experience such a day again, but life was still going on, and he, who didn't want to resist, had no other way but to adapt hard.

Fortunately, I don't have to go back to eat at noon today. The trouble is that I have to go to someone else's house for dinner at noon today.Ouyang listened to the news she told him in a daze.I really don't understand how she has the leisure time to communicate with her former classmates and friends after she has only been back for a few days.
Ouyang looked at her for a long time, and felt a bit of inexplicable anger in his heart. He really didn't have the habit of visiting.I don't want to go to other people's door, and I don't want others to go to my own door.Besides, where is the leisure now?The final exam is coming soon, and it is a lie to say that you don't feel a little pressure, you lie to others, and you lie to yourself.

"It's okay, just go to her house for lunch." She said cautiously, and also realized that such a request made him feel very disgusted, but she didn't want to give up.

"I don't want to go, and I don't have the time to go. I'd rather eat out than go." Ouyang refused without thinking, and didn't like the very stiff feeling of staying in someone else's home.

"But I've already promised him, so what if I don't go?" She said eagerly.

Ouyang suppressed the flame of anger in his heart, and really wanted to say: That's your own business.

"Isn't it just for lunch? It won't waste much of your time. You can just go back to school after eating." She persuaded from the side again.

A trace of sadness flashed in Ouyang's eyes, did he not keep up with her rhythm, or did she not understand herself at all?Why did I call her back!Why can't I just go through the last year of high school if I want to stop the pain?And her?It's just looking for trouble, which makes Ouyang feel very bored. I really wonder if it was a mistake to ask her to come back, a mistake that I regret the first time!
Ouyang looked at her fixedly, like a passerby.She didn't understand the current situation at all, the relationship between her and him was not what she imagined.Invisible cracks had already been formed, but instead of mending, she destroyed them recklessly, forcing him to do something he didn't like.I don't know if all this is due to her ignorance - not seeing the real distance between him and her, or is it due to her ignorance!

"Okay." He nodded slowly. Although it was a trivial matter, it meant that he went against his will again and did something he didn't like.

"Take it as my last compromise." He closed his eyes and sighed inwardly, feeling that his patience was about to reach its limit.

"I'm going to school." He walked out resolutely, his face was numb, but his teeth were clenched tightly, and he was not as calm as he imagined.

"Remember to go early at noon." She did not forget to remind her, a smile gradually appeared on her face, but she didn't know that his heart was about to go mad with anger!

(End of this chapter)