leave this sad place

Chapter 149 Preaching
"Why did this happen?" He kicked away the stones on the side of the road, and the flames of anger burned blazingly in his heart.He didn't know how many times he had compromised this time.

Facing the helplessness of reality, he bowed his head again and again, he did not lose his fighting spirit like ordinary people and became mediocre.Instead, grief and indignation were brewing in the compromise again and again, and he used his poor arrogance to warn himself time and time again-it can't do this again!
Let yourself feel heartache again and again, want to hone your will in this pain, a kind of perseverance that no longer compromises, and dares to challenge the so-called reality!
"I will never do this again!" He warned himself harshly, wishing he could slap his mouth.I also remembered that when I separated arts and sciences in the past, I chose science because it would be easier for science students to find jobs in the future.And those leisurely feelings in the past are gradually worn away, and sometimes I want to write an article to express my emotions but I can't find the time.

And the frequency of Chinese writing in science is so rare, the content of each writing is not only an argumentative essay but also an argumentative essay!And the format is almost the same, saying a point and then demonstrating it with examples.It's ridiculous that some viewpoints are really hard to agree with, and some viewpoints are too absolute, and they even try to demonstrate it seriously.And the most ridiculous thing is that the teacher complacently recites those compositions that he thinks are excellent, but the examples in the content appear thousands of times, and some of them are wrong.This is how the article is written, and the rest is just out of form and wrong!
I really don't know who invented and created such a rigid thing?Deformed things can still spread, I really don't know if it's because of its weirdness or because of something else?Another sadness flashed across Ouyang's heart.

He was full of rich emotions that were about to explode, but he couldn't express it, it was inappropriate, he had to follow the guidelines, and wrote words that made him feel sick and wanted to vomit!Tortured again and again, having to bow his head in the face of reality again and again, made him resentful, made him just want to write his own words, words without the slightest shackles!
But how can it be?Unless he doesn't want to study anymore, unless he doesn't want to take the exam!
"This is a dance with shackles, and the top dancers can dance beautifully even with shackles on their feet!" This is a teacher's comforting words. At the end of the words, there is such a sentence: Unless You don't want to take the college entrance examination, otherwise you have to cater and adapt.

Ouyang thought back silently, just like he silently savored the teacher's words back then.

Not going to the college entrance examination?how can that be possible?How could the hard work of more than ten years be in vain without any results?So at that time, he was speechless and deeply felt the cruelty and helplessness of reality.

"If I were that kind of dancer, I would either break the shackles under my feet and dance; Capital speak out!Just like personalities, some personalities that no longer adapt to social trends.

Want to change it?But it is not that easy.So he had to bow his head and compromise to endure, but not to adapt.

"Maybe I'm not a top dancer, but I just want to be a thoughtful dancer who can embrace freedom." He murmured, putting an end to the question that was almost forgotten.

"I really can't do this anymore." He closed his eyes, recalling in his head that he had let go of his second hobby of playing chess because of studying; I am afraid that I can't help but do something that is not conducive to learning.And now?I have to compromise to do some things I don't like to do.

Ouyang's heart was even more painful, and his steps were a little staggering.

"Don't think about it so much, it's just a meal at noon." He comforted himself, looking at the classroom not far away.The life of these two days is really not good, so he wants to find a place to escape.

Boring, tedious study, the figure of the class teacher patrolling from time to time, this made Ouyang's bored heart even more bored.

At noon, Ouyang followed her and walked to the family's house, but he didn't know if he knew the family.

Looking at a middle-aged woman who was polite to her in front of her, she had a vague impression, but couldn't remember other information.

"Is this your son? I haven't seen him for more than ten years. I didn't expect to grow so big that I can't even recognize him." The woman glanced at Ouyang and asked her kindly.

Ouyang stood there silently, feeling uncomfortable all over.It's like watching a monkey show, but the monkey on that stage is still me.He didn't even bother to say hello or pay attention, because this wasn't what he liked.

"Don't stand there stupidly, just treat it as your own home, just find a place to sit down at will." The woman said kindly to Ouyang again.

Ouyang looked around slightly, found a place to sit down, took out his mobile phone and started playing on his own.But he didn't have any intention of having fun, and still felt uncomfortable all over.

"Well, the meal is ready, let's eat and chat later." After the woman told her, she got up and set lunch.

"This is from our hometown. I haven't seen her for many years, and I don't know if you still have any impression." She watched the woman leave, turned and asked him.

Ouyang looked up at her, but didn't answer, and didn't want to answer.There was still a trace of boredom in his heart.

"After you finish eating, if you want to go to school, you can go by yourself." She knew that he was a little dissatisfied, and comforted him.

He put away his phone and looked at her silently.If he really came for lunch, he could only say that he hated such an arrangement very much, but how could he refuse it again now?Do you want to walk away by yourself, will it embarrass her?But he really wanted to do this, he just wanted to leave, and he didn't have too many other thoughts.

"What are you two talking about? Come and eat soon." The woman brought out the dishes one by one from the kitchen.

Ouyang sighed helplessly, now he can only live with the situation, and he is ashamed to brush off the kindness of his master.

"How about trying this I made?" The woman brought vegetables for Ouyang with a smile.

"Thank you, Auntie, soon?" She also watched with a smile on the side.

Ouyang watched this scene speechlessly, he didn't like others to bring food for him at all.Although this is just a trivial matter, it is against my will, so why not accept it now?

"It's rude." She looked at Ouyang and said without saying a word of thanks, and blamed him a little.

"Hey, it's okay, child." The woman said indifferently.

Ouyang watched silently, feeling even more depressed, feeling like a puppet on a string.Moreover, he was still called a child, which made him feel a little helpless besides grief and indignation.

So he buried his head, and without saying a word, he picked up the rice, and then picked up the rice.

"Xiao Ming, it's only this time that your mother has been away for so many years. It's been a lot of hard work outside. When you grow up, don't forget your mother who worked so hard to raise you." The woman said to Ouyang with earnestness road.

what is this?Preaching?Do you feel like you're born rebellious?I don't like other people meddling in my own affairs, let alone outsiders?Ouyang's heart became even more disgusted, and there was even a trace of disgust.He buried his head, still munching on his food silently.I just want to finish eating quickly and leave!

"The situation of your family—" the woman glanced at her and paused slightly.

"Okay, finished eating." Ouyang interrupted the woman and put down the bowl and chopsticks with an indescribable indifference on his face.He looked up at her and saw her chewing her rice with half-joy.

"Are you full? There is still food here." The woman was slightly taken aback, and she was about to add more food to Ouyang.

Ouyang glanced silently, and walked out without looking back.Don't care about being polite anymore.

"Today's meal really shouldn't be here." He sighed inexplicably, his eyes became dazed again when he looked at the scenery on the side of the road.

(End of this chapter)