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Chapter 156 Come Back

He stood up silently and walked into his room silently. "Maybe this world doesn't need too many words at all, because Dugu is the eternity in the world." Ouyang thought to himself, but he couldn't help feeling lonely.

The sleepless stars and the sleepless moon are looking for like wandering souls, but they don't know what they are looking for.Wandering in the lonely and cold universe and starry sky for tens of thousands of years, will you lose yourself and never find your way back?
How many times looking up at the starry sky has already unconsciously become a habit.What are you thinking about?What are you still missing?Ouyang felt a slight touch in his heart, a faint, intermittent feeling lingered in his heart like a wisp of smoke.

"I can never go back to the past." Too much emotion, but I don't know what I want to say.After all, beautiful stories are short-lived, and even sad things are not common, but ordinary days are long-lasting.But I couldn't help but miss the beauty of the past and mourn my misfortune in those boring days, so that even all the days seemed to become sad and melancholy.

Ouyang closed his eyes silently. It's not that he didn't know all this, but he just couldn't help thinking and believing that.

And now what else did he want to say?No matter how many words there are in the lonely world, it will not add any extra festive atmosphere, it will only make you feel more lonely.

The home, which had nothing to say, seemed even more deserted this time.

But time is passing by as always, and life is still living as always.

This kind of tranquility is not much different from the gloomy and sultry weather outside the window.Maybe the sound of thunder exploded, that is, a storm is coming as scheduled, and there is nothing to be surprised about.

The number that hadn't been asked for a long time rang again peacefully. Ouyang took out his mobile phone and looked at the caller ID on it.The lonely heart is like a stormy sea, wantonly rolling up monstrous waves.

He hesitated and didn't know whether he should answer the call, maybe a little discomfort in life would really usher in another storm, a storm that had been brewing for a long time and could easily destroy him.Such a strong feeling emerged clearly in Ouyang's heart.

But really just ignore it?Are you really going to spend the next school year like this?Can it really be done?Why is my heart still depressed, as cold and heavy as a stone?
The ringtone was silent, and Ouyang watched silently, as if nothing had happened and he didn't know anything.But his hands were trembling slightly, and there was an indescribable expression on his face, with a bit of pain and struggle.

The bell rang again and again, and it was still the same number, the one that had no name but only marked "that person".That person, invisibly, carried an obvious sense of estrangement. The fact that he didn't note his real name was not because he didn't know it, but just because he didn't want to see things related to him.Does all this represent a kind of hatred, or a kind of pain?But Ouyang still recorded that person's number, so what is it?Is it a faint reluctance, or a faint luxury?
With an inexplicable emotion, he pressed the answer button, but remained silent without making a sound.Because he didn't know what to say, and he didn't want to say anything.And inexplicably contradictory why did I really answer his call?
"Hey, why don't you say it?" A rude voice came from the other side of the phone as always.

Ouyang didn't want to answer such words, let alone this person who didn't like it at all.
"Hey, are you there?" With a hint of impatience, maybe this made the person feel a sense of being teased.

"Yes." Ouyang replied coldly, as if he would never say another word.

"Where do you live now?" Another questioning tone, as if such a question is normal.

Ouyang frowned, feeling very disgusted, a bit of disgust welled up in his heart.He didn't like to say one more word for such a question, so he remained silent again.

"Where do you live? I'm right outside your school now. Didn't you call me back last time and said you have something to say?"

"Oh." Ouyang still replied lightly, just saying that he was listening.But he didn't want to think about what happened last time.Tell them to come back, and now the mother has come back like this, if they really come, what will happen?Can you really say something clearly as you think?really can?If it doesn't work, it's better to adapt to the present, although sometimes there will be inexplicable heaviness and grief.But it takes courage to uncover some scars, especially the kind that hurt the heart.

"What are you going to do? Now that I'm back, you don't talk anymore. Isn't this just teasing people?"

"Amusing someone?" Ouyang said silently in his heart, with a burst of grief and a few hints of sarcasm in his heart.At that time, I really had the heart to die, and I would still tease people!Such a ridiculous statement made him feel resentful for no reason!
"Do you have anything else to say?" The voice of the person asking again came from the other side of the phone.

Do you want to say that you don’t want to?Ouyang fell into silence again, maybe he already had a very positive answer in his heart in those few days, but that was the past after all.People are subject to change, not to mention people's thinking?
Maybe it's not a question of whether you want to have a good talk, but a question of whether you should have a good talk.But such a so-called home, what else is worth sitting down and talking about?Is that another ray of fantasy at play now?

"What are you doing? Why don't you speak?"

"Yes." Ouyang's tone softened a bit, but still with that slight indifference.Such a trace of indifference seems to be innate, and even unconsciously it will be shown by that person.

And some problems must always be solved, and some things must always be done, as if it is destined.And this thing?Ouyang felt a little dazed in his heart, as well as a little bit of fear.

His fragile emotions no longer want to suffer any blows, and he is sensitive and knows that he is strong and extremely fragile at this stage.If you don't get the result you want; if you get hurt again, can you hold on?Will I let myself fall into that kind of inner pain again?Ouyang couldn't stop thinking in his heart, wanting to make a decision.

"Hey, where do you live now? I'll go find you." The voice of that person came again on the phone, still taking it for granted that it was just a very normal thing.

Ouyang hesitated again, wondering if he should tell him where he lived.If I tell him, will this temporary home be as precarious as it was when I was a child?And will he be as pestering as he was back then?These are things that are not sure, so I don't know whether I really want to tell that person.

"Maybe I just thought about it too much. Didn't that person say anything? Maybe he just came to see it. Besides, is it really useful to avoid it like this? Isn't it to solve those problems in the end? Otherwise, can I really not care about it? Then what else is there to be sad about?" Ouyang couldn't help comforting himself, but there were some indescribable emotions in his heart.I feel that my inner struggle has deepened, as if such a choice can affect my future life.

Troubled thoughts filled his mind, and he clearly felt that he was thinking too much again.Maybe sometimes there is no need to think about it at all. After all, everything is constantly changing. Who can really think clearly?
"I live not far from the school. I walked along the road outside the school gate and turned left at the first three-fork intersection. After walking a few more steps, when I saw the first noodle shop, Xiang Just walk in the alley opposite that noodle shop, and I'll wait for you there." Ouyang hung up the phone after speaking unhurriedly.Looking up at the sky outside, I feel that the sky is still a little low.

"I don't know if it's right or wrong." He murmured subconsciously.

(End of this chapter)