leave this sad place

Chapter 171 Pursuit
"Stop talking—" She finally couldn't help stopping him.

"I won't say anymore, do you want me to hold everything in my heart like before? Don't you know that some things will be held in your heart for a long time, and it will make you bad?" Ouyang's voice was low, It seemed to be crying, but not a single tear was left.He had shed enough tears, and he never wanted to be as vulnerable as before.

"Okay, I won't say anything." Glancing at her with red and swollen eyes, Ouyang also fell silent, no longer interested in continuing.

After a long time, it was quiet again, and the breeze could not make any ripples.

"This semester is about to end, and there is only a little more than one semester, can't you hold on?" She gritted her teeth and asked him again.

"Persistence? Just let me go back to school again? Do you know that I don't want to go to that place at all!" Ouyang's voice was a little angry.

"Do you think that every head teacher will treat his students like parents treat their children? My grades are not worth mentioning in his eyes! Do you still expect him to discipline me well? There is no return Is there any teacher who is willing to do his best to do things like this? It may not be true that some teachers don’t know me at all, and they don’t even know my name.” Ouyang’s eyes darkened slightly.

"Are you trying to say that there will always be something I care about in the school? Do you know where my seat is? It's in a corner of the last row in the classroom!" Ouyang's voice suddenly became severe again. As if there was great pain in my heart.

"Do you think it's sad?" He asked her again, his voice was low, and before she could answer, he continued: "Do you know why I'm sitting there? I moved there on my own initiative Yes! Do you think I’m particularly hateful? The one I moved there is still complaining about it! But do you know why I moved there? Do you know the pain in my heart at that time?” Questions one after another, Ouyang's heart became more and more angry.

"Do you know? Will you know? I am insignificant in the class! It doesn't make much difference whether I exist or not!" Ouyang closed his eyes in pain, and that place gave him only indifference.

"Do you want to say that it is my own problem, who told me that I am so introverted, I always don't like to talk, I don't like to communicate with others! Maybe, it's all my fault, my own fault, it's my own fault Caused by it! But have you ever thought about pushing all kinds of mistakes on a person who is already in great pain and scolding him? What kind of cruelty!" Ouyang's eyes closed even tighter, as if his heart was filled with great pain.

"Cold school, indifferent classmates, sometimes I feel that I am just a passerby. Character, learning, physical fitness, and ability. Do you think that the current school really pays attention to the ideological and moral of students? Grades are the trump card, only The grades are good, and all other problems are no longer a problem! Even a small mistake can be understood as inevitable, and even a serious mistake can be regarded as excusable! And the school will protect you, the teacher will pay attention to you from time to time, and when you feel a little unwell, you will be kindly asked 'what's the matter with you?' But what about those with poor grades? The teacher simply dismisses you, even I don’t remember who it was! If you make a mistake, who will show you sympathy? You can deal with it as you please, and you can say ‘this is the rule’ in a majestic and plausible way! There is no distinction between teaching and learning, is this still a school? Is it still a school that pays attention to the shaping of people's thoughts? Is this kind of school just for the sake of better learning and poor learning? What is the so-called education? Is it something like this that is going to be handed over to me? Do you still want me to stay in such a place and study hard?" Ouyang said, his heart was full of anger unconsciously, and there were too many things he didn't like.

"And some of the things I'm learning now are basically for the college entrance examination. I will learn the content of the college entrance examination. If I don't take the college entrance examination, I won't learn it. What is the use of such things after I learn it? Can I even use it when I go out? I didn’t even know if I could get in. And because of the college entrance examination, I finished all subjects one after another in the second year of high school, and the rest of the time was spent on reviewing. I didn’t teach any new content at all for more than a year. Is that necessary? ?And did it really take so much time to review? Day by day, the pressure of the college entrance examination has to be endured for a year, and you can't relax at all. Wouldn’t it be over if there was the slightest accident during the exam? Wouldn’t it be over after so many years of hard work? Do you know how cruel and realistic this is? Sometimes when I think about it, I—— "As he spoke, Ouyang couldn't help feeling panic again. Such a result was the last thing he wanted to guess.

"What if I really failed in the college entrance examination?" Ouyang couldn't help expressing the long-standing worries in his heart.

"Don't think so much, we didn't ask you so much." Listening to Ouyang's non-stop talking quietly, and seeing him fall into the pain of being helpless about the future, she couldn't help comforting with him.

"What if I really fail?" Ouyang asked helplessly again, as if falling into a cold pool of water, struggling and waving his arms.

"Just take it easy and take the exam. Everything will be fine when you are in college." She comforted him again.

"University? Hehe, university. Will everything be fine in university? It's not the same as learning to read!" Ouyang's eyes lit up slightly, and he broke free from that daze.Now is not the time for him to be so confused, he secretly warned himself in his heart.

"At least it's easier than it is now, and I won't be so tired." She comforted him with some information she heard.

"What about after college? It's not the same as finding a job! And looking at the current situation, college students are flooded like Chinese cabbage. It's still unknown whether they can find a suitable job. Even if they find a job, the salary is not enough. Ordinary, what is the difference from going out to work now?" His head gradually cleared up, and he also slowly remembered the purpose of his conversation.

Listening to his words, she slowly recovered her silence.

"And such a choice must cost a lot, and it is not worth it at all." Ouyang originally wanted to say such a sentence, but he was temporarily replaced by: "And these are all based on my normal performance in the college entrance examination Yes." So as not to give her more worries.

"Then you can play normally." Seeing his frustrated look, she couldn't help but said.

"Perform normally?" Ouyang twitched the corner of his mouth bitterly, and now his only little confidence had been wiped away by the repeated mock exams.

"Do you think I can still perform normally?" Ouyang's heart also slowly became bitter.

"Why not?" She asked him, wondering why he didn't have the confidence to do something as simple as normal performance.

"Why can't I? Seeing myself getting worse in the exam every time, no matter how hard I try, there is no change at all. Do you think I will still have confidence? Do you know? Sometimes I don't want to take the exam at all. I've even developed a slight fear of the exam." Ouyang's eyes dimmed slightly, and his voice became low, with an indescribably hoarse taste.Then he continued: "And I'm not even sure if I can persist like this until the end of the college entrance examination."

"It's okay, just take your time." She comforted him a little helplessly.

"Take your time, take your time, is there still time to take your time now? Can the school give me special care and let me take my time?" Ouyang roared in a low voice, the torture in his heart made him even more painful.

"What's more, these are not what I'm after at all!" He subconsciously said his own voice.

(End of this chapter)