leave this sad place

Chapter 173
The endless sea of ​​questions, it is hard to tell how heavy the pressure is, and there is a slight bit of bitterness at the corner of Ouyang's mouth.In such a tense place, he had to continue to stay, because he didn't have the slightest ability to resist.

The atmosphere became more and more tense, the battles became more intense each time, and the cruel reality had to make myself stronger.Looking at the clouds in the sky, and the flowers blooming and falling in the courtyard, he doesn't have that indifference, and he can't show that indifference.The solemn, heavier heart kept him so busy that he had no choice but to continue running in fear.

It was time for the final exam again. Although he had undergone countless intensive training for the exam, it had no positive impact on Ouyang at all.The training that was supposed to make him relaxed and natural made him still feel extremely nervous when facing the exam.The hope that was full of longing was exchanged for the incomparable loss again and again. Such a blow was still so heavy to him.

Taking a deep breath, he told himself secretly: This is just an exam, it doesn't matter if you fail the exam, it's not the college entrance exam anyway!But his heart didn't feel relaxed at all, even though the exam this time was not a college entrance exam, even though he had really experienced countless exam trainings.But this time is the last final test, and this time it is the result of my own review this semester!As for his review results this semester, Ouyang knew it clearly in his heart, even if he didn't want to believe it, the results of that test after test were still written there bloody in red pen.So glaring, how can he really not care?That free and easy state is still out of reach for him.

But no matter what, he didn't want to really give up on this exam, just because he still couldn't give up in his heart and still had obsessions.

He took another deep breath, and took heavy steps, but felt as if nothing existed under his waist.Such a weird feeling, yet so clear.Sitting quietly in his position, he forced himself to calm down, forced himself not to think about anything, and waited for the invigilator to arrive.

He closed his eyes and acted as if he closed his eyes and rested his mind, but he couldn't achieve the tranquility like still water in his heart.The ripples continued, circle after circle, farther and farther away, he knew that his heart was not calm again, or it was impossible for him to truly calm down.Because of nervousness, because of that little nervousness, a little bit of worry is still there.

The speakers were broadcasting over and over again the things candidates should pay attention to, and there was a burst of whispering, as noisy as sparrows.Wei Wei listened attentively, and many students complained about the invigilator who did not show up for a long time.

Slowly opened his eyes, looked at the time, it was almost time for the exam.But there was still no trace of the invigilator.No wonder so, Ouyang sighed slightly in his heart: I hope that such a situation will not happen during the college entrance examination.Unknowingly, there was a faint sense of loss in my heart.

The noisy classroom became quiet in an instant. Ouyang looked up and saw that the invigilator who came late was handing out the test papers without saying a word, his indifferent face was as stiff as a cold stone.

I don't know how long it has passed in a daze, and I feel dazedly that the last final exam is over.Listening to the vague words coming from my ears: how did you do in the mock exam this time?Are you sure?He heard another vague voice answering: what is not sure, it is not like that.But the exam is over, so I can finally relax a little bit.

"Mock exam? Only a traditional person like myself is still stubborn to return this mock exam to the original final exam." With a soft sigh, Ouyang miraculously lost the feeling of ease after the holiday. I want to relax myself, and I don't have that kind of worry about the result of this exam.

What is the use of worrying about the fact that it cannot be changed?Maybe I just got used to it!Ouyang secretly guessed in his heart, but guessed wrongly again.Not without worry, not really getting used to it.

When he knew the test results, his heart trembled again.The result of the exam this time was that he didn't even reach the second line!He wanted to laugh, but his heart couldn't stop the pain.

I thought that the possibility of me only reaching the first line was very small, and I thought that no matter how bad I was, I would not be able to fall below the second line.But now?But what about the facts?why?

With trembling hands, he looked at the sky in confusion.Are you really arrogant?Is it really my own carelessness?Resisting the pain in my heart, I checked my test paper over and over again.Although I am only one point away from the second line, although the points lost because of my carelessness make me want to give myself a big ear.But the fact is the fact, the fact is that this time he did not reach the second line!
It's so ridiculous, he never paid attention to the second line, but he failed to reach the second line for the first time!It's so sad, he thought he could accept even the worst result, but he didn't want to accept such a fact!
"What if I was like this during the college entrance examination? What if I really can't even get into a secondary school?" He asked himself over and over again, until his whole body couldn't stop shaking.

Silent sky, why don't you speak?Cold tears fell silently down his cheeks.

I thought I had become strong enough; I thought I would not be sad and shed tears so easily; I thought I could really face all the results calmly.Why is this so?Could it be that I really still can't see it, can't let go?
Recalling the past, when I was in math class in junior high school, I didn't have to listen to the teacher's lectures at all, and my math scores were still among the best in the class.There are even some questions that even the teacher can't answer, but I can solve them by myself. "Mathematical genius" is such a good title, but I am secretly happy and don't want to admit it.During the high school entrance examination, there were only four or five students in this class who were admitted to this school, and I was one of them.In the first year of high school, when there were no subjects in arts and sciences, among more than 1000 people, I was able to rank among the top [-], and even broke into the top [-], and this was achieved after failing to pass English and seriously hindering my progress.After thinking about it, tears flowed from Ouyang's eyes again.

But now?I didn't even reach the second line!
I have seen too many people passing away like meteors, but I never thought that such a thing would happen to me one day.I don't know when, I fell down again and again, when I thought I had reached the lowest point, I suddenly discovered that the pit I fell into was a bottomless abyss!

The arrogance of the whole body has long been worn away, but the bony arrogance pierces the pain in my heart again and again.What kind of unwillingness is it to see one after another surpassing oneself?Are you really worse than others?Is it true that no one else is working hard?Why is this happening?Why is this the result?

Everything that used to be is gone long ago, but there really is nothing, will there be nothing left?

Another silent cry, another time of heartbreak.A lot of unwillingness, a lot of things to say, but he had to keep silent.

I don't like this kind of education model; I don't like this kind of school; I don't like too many eccentric teachers in this school, and I don't even like any classmates in my class.The tense school, the oppressive surroundings, and even the so-called home didn't have the slightest feeling of intimacy, but was very uncomfortable.

Alone, like a ghost lost in the darkness.

Fear, depression, and suffocation surrounded him, everything was so excusable, everything was so unforgivable!He was silent again and didn't want to speak, and felt tired again and again.

"Maybe I really shouldn't go on like this, maybe I really should leave here." He murmured again.

(End of this chapter)