leave this sad place

Chapter 18
Time flies, and more than a month has passed.

I thought that everything was on the right track, that life and study would continue in such a flat but happy way, and there would be no more disturbances.However, Ouyang guessed wrong, all this is just the beginning!
Two months is not a long time, but it is enough to get to know someone well.

The meeting at the beginning is doomed to parting in the future.

It's time for Xiaolan, the intern teacher, to complete her internship task, so she-has to go.

The word "go" came too suddenly for Ouyang, so suddenly that he hadn't had time to prepare; so suddenly that he was at a loss; and even panicked!Because she is not just his teacher to him.

Just looking at her in a daze like this, watching her at the farewell party was moved and sentimental, even tears from her eyes.Forgot to say goodbye to her, said a treasure, forgot to give her a hug.Ouyang just watched her leave blankly, watching her go away. .Finally - disappear.

"She's gone." Ouyang murmured to himself, leaning on the chair and looking at the ceiling, his eyes were empty.He stood up abruptly again, and stumbled towards the outside of the classroom.

Looking around, where can I find a little shadow of her?
A gust of wind blows, leaving behind a sigh.

"She's really gone." Ouyang muttered to himself again, feeling a slight pain in his eyes.The old tree next to him silently watched what happened.

A bell rang, and it was time for class again.

This time Ouyang couldn't calm himself down and concentrate on listening to the class.Because he was thinking of her!Think back to every bit of time spent with her.

A never-before-seen longing flooded out like a flood, drowning him in an instant.

At this moment, Ouyang realized that he cared about her so much!I can't bear her!
Taking out his mobile phone, Ouyang secretly sent her a text message.

"Sister, where are you?"

"In the car."

"Sister, I—I can't bear you."

"I can't bear to leave you either."

"I mean - I can't bear you." Ouyang's eyes were slightly red.

"Ah."

After a long time, Ouyang asked "naively" again: "Can you not leave?"

"This is also impossible."

"Then when will we meet again?"

"It just depends on fate."

Ouyang doesn't believe in fate.But he also knew that after leaving this time, he was afraid that it would be difficult to see each other again in the future.

"But, I really want to see you again!"

"Study hard, maybe we will have a chance to meet again in the future."

"Well. We will definitely meet again!" At this moment, Ouyang seemed to have made up his mind.

"Then when you are in class, you can't do this anymore—playing with your mobile phone."

"Ah."

"Listen to the class carefully, I'm leaving."

"I will, sister, you should take care too."

"Ah."

Ouyang put away his mobile phone.Ouyang couldn't listen to what the English teacher said on the podium.The longing for Xiaolan in my heart became more and more intense until it occupied Ouyang's whole heart.

With the ringing of the bell, Ouyang ran out of the classroom frantically again.

With a sound of "touch—" Ouyang slammed his right hand on a tree, and blood slowly soaked out from between his fingers.Maybe this will allow the pain in the body to ease the longing in the heart.

With a cry, Ouyang looked at the empty sky, tears slid down his face and dripped down at his feet.

Sister, do you know how much I miss you?Ouyang whispered to himself.

The English class just now reminded me of you again, every word you said; every smile you showed; every warmth you gave me.Ouyang murmured.

Sister, remember what you said?In the future, I will no longer be alone, and you will be my sister, so I can tell you any sad things.you know what?How warm and touching this sentence is to me!I quietly kept it in my heart all the time.Ouyang slowly closed his eyes.

Sister, do you know how sad I was for you once again?I still remember that day when I called you from morning to afternoon, do you know how worried I was about you, worried about your accident?At night, when I finally got through, do you know how happy and excited I was at that time?And when I hear you're drunk, do you know how disturbed I am?I'm afraid that if something happens to you, you will be bullied by others. I wish I could grow a pair of wings and appear by your side in time to protect you.

But that night, sister, do you know how sad I am?That was the first time I yelled loudly and ran like a madman in the street!Silly and childish, right?But that time I was really heartbroken, heartache never before!
I don't understand what all this is for?And why is this happening.But I secretly warned myself: This is not love!
Sister, do you know how I spent that night?Lying on the bed blankly, thinking about everything that happened.I wanted to cry, but I didn't dare to make a sound, because I was afraid of being discovered, so I could only cry silently.It wasn't until the next morning that I realized that the pillow towel was already soaked, and I still pretended nothing happened.

Sister, do you know how much I hated myself at that time?I hate myself for being so weak in my heart, I can't stand a little emotional change!So when there is no one else, I deliberately still call you teacher. I want to use this method to numb myself and let myself pretend that nothing happened.But, do you know the longing in my heart?How I long to have someone who listens to my inner feelings like you!

Later, I thought I would successfully deceive myself, as if nothing had happened that day, you are still my teacher, and only my teacher!But I was wrong, so wrong.

It turns out that I have already had you in my heart, and there is a place where your mark has been branded, which can never be erased!
A drop of tear fell, reflecting the crystal luster, and the longing in my heart surged like the waves of the sea!

"Do you know all this? Sister." Ouyang vented his pain towards the lofty blue sky.

"Ouyang, are you okay?" Ouyang felt a hand suddenly appear on his right shoulder, and Li Ting's voice came from behind him.

"It's okay." Ouyang tilted his shoulders, but he didn't dare to turn his head, because he knew that there were tears on his face.

"Teacher Xiaolan is gone." Li Ting sighed slightly.

"Yes." Ouyang tried his best to calm his tone, so as not to let Li Ting hear something strange.

"Aren't you uncomfortable?" Li Ting was a little puzzled. Ouyang's voice sounded very "calm". Could it be that he is a hard-hearted person? .

"Uncomfortable, huh." Ouyang's heart can't be described as uncomfortable.

"How can you be like this? Do you have any conscience?" Li Ting was a little angry.

"Conscience, does it matter?" It seems that Li Ting misunderstood himself, but does he need to explain?Ouyang thought silently in his heart.

"You——, you are simply unreasonable!" After Li Ting finished speaking, he left angrily.

"Is it unreasonable?" Ouyang said to himself with a kind of misery.

"Misunderstood, then wait for him to misunderstand!" She smiled again, but this smile was extraordinarily weird, because it made people feel crying!It's a pity that Li Ting couldn't see him.

"Do you think so?" Ouyang asked the old tree next to him again, but the old tree was still silent, watching everything that happened in silence, as if nothing happened!

Ouyang shook his head, turned around, and returned to his classroom.Looking at Jie'er's eye circles are still a little red, feeling sad and distressed!
Looking at Li Ting again, there seemed to be a little bit of anger on his face.

"Is it necessary to explain?" Ouyang's eyes flashed a trace of desolation.

"Maybe everything will start again!" Ouyang whispered to himself, but only he could hear it.

(End of this chapter)