leave this sad place

Chapter 31 The sense of distance

Ouyang looked up at the sun and saw that the sun was getting lower and lower, like an old man approaching death step by step, feeling a sense of loneliness in his heart.The setting sun is like blood and tears. Could it be the kind of heart-wrenching pain left by people in an unknown time and space through the ages?The stray wild geese looked extraordinarily lonely and desolate in the blood-red setting sun.A mournful cry made all this even more desolate and pathetic!
Ouyang was silent for a long time, and there was an indescribable touch in his heart.

Sighing slightly, he cursed himself secretly: What are you thinking about?It's nothing to just think about it!But Ouyang didn't find out why this happened today?Is something really going to happen?A lot of worries arose in his heart, he always felt that something was wrong, but he couldn't figure it out.For things that he can't figure out, he usually doesn't want to think too much and chooses to forget, but this time he secretly hid his doubts deep in his heart.

Ouyang decided to go out for a walk, anyway, he wouldn't be in the mood to do other things now.Maybe you will see some beautiful scenery, and you will feel better naturally.

I was wandering around outside the school, but somehow I came to the reservoir.Maybe it's subconsciously wanting to find a place to relax?He secretly guessed.

Looking at the splashing water, he wondered if there might be tears mixed in it?Tears of man, tears of fish; tears of joy, tears of sorrow.It was as if he saw an ocean made up of tears, and the waves were rolling towards him. He took a small step back in panic, and then realized that it was just his illusion.Hallucinations, he had hallucinations!The worry in his heart surged out again, drowning him and making him panic instantly.

As soon as he stretched out his hand, he pressed hard on the railing beside the reservoir, his knuckles raised and turned into that pale color.His face was also a little pale.Weiwei closed his eyes, and he couldn't help imagining terrible things in his mind.In the end, Yushu appeared, watching Yushu's face float in front of his eyes and slowly fade, fade, fade again, until it was transparent, until it dissipated in the world!He stretched out his hand involuntarily and grabbed it forward, not wanting her to just disappear like that.With a stagger, he almost fell to the ground!Illusion, it was an illusion again!

He quickly took out his cell phone and called Yu Shu.

When the phone was connected, it was still Yushu and the others who laughed happily.

"Hey, what's the matter?" Yushu asked cheerfully.

"I - I -" Ouyang didn't know what to say.

"What's wrong? Are you okay?" Yu Shu asked with concern.

"I-I, I'm fine, are you enjoying yourself?" Ouyang slowly recovered his thoughts.

"Well, I had a lot of fun this afternoon." Yushu replied in that light tone again.

"That's good. Keep playing, I'm fine." Ouyang An felt relieved.

"Okay, that's it." After Yu Shu finished speaking, she hung up the phone.

Ouyang breathed a sigh of relief in his heart, and when he heard the sound of "beep - beep -" on the phone, he felt a little lost for some reason.

I brushed my forehead with my hand, and the edge of my hand was wet, it was full of sweat!Only then did he suddenly realize that not only his forehead was covered with sweat, but even the clothes behind him were soaked in sweat.A gust of wind blew by, and Ouyang felt a bit chilly.Looking at the sky again, the setting sun had already set, and it was getting dark again, so I couldn't help but smile bitterly.

Ouyang walked slowly on the road, and saw the bright lights and bustling in the distance, but where he was, there were only street lights on both sides of him that were silent.Three or two pedestrians passed by him in a hurry, and he looked up at the starry sky again, feeling that those stars were not blinking at all, but were crying!
Quiet loneliness, silent loneliness, and that kind of loneliness that is not understood by others surged out like a flood, filling his whole heart in an instant.He walked more slowly and felt more lonely, not as good as an old man with crutches and staggering steps!

Back in the dormitory, he felt a dead silence in his whole heart, exuding a sense of desolation and despair!So, he took a few deep breaths, but he still couldn't adjust himself.He closed his eyes and lay motionless on the bed, trying to make himself fall asleep, maybe it would be better when he woke up, he thought to himself.

The whole night passed so unknowingly, and Ouyang didn't know when he fell asleep, but none of this mattered anymore.

Pulling open the curtains, he stretched out against the rising sun.The sun shines on his face, dyeing his face a healthy, soft gold that makes people look warm.The haze in Ouyang's heart was swept away, and he raised the corners of his mouth slightly. He put a warm, sunny, and genial smile on his face.It's another day, and that's what matters!
Ouyang thought about how to spend this day again, and it must not be like yesterday.It's a terrible feeling!But what should we do today?
Yushu agreed that she was going to review today, and she couldn't bother her anymore, as it would affect her.Ouyang suppressed the thoughts in his heart so that he would not go to her, so that she could study hard for a day without being affected.

Taking advantage of the time and mood, Ouyang decided to finish the homework first.Although the teacher doesn't check much, but I have to be responsible for myself.Besides, he has never failed to complete his homework before, so how can he pass the list this time?
So, he took out his textbook and concentrated on doing it. After a while, he finished the homework.Putting down the pen, he felt a little idle again.

Looking outside the window, the sun is bright and warm, and there are cotton-like white clouds floating in the blue sky.The evergreen old trees are more and more lush and luxuriant under the sunshine.He felt like a bird in a cage, impatient to think of the vastness of the world.

Ouyang walked on the tree-lined path, took a few deep breaths greedily, and thought of Yushu again.His expression darkened suddenly, feeling a little uncomfortable without her by his side, a little empty.I wanted to take out my mobile phone to call her, but I was afraid of disturbing her study.In case she was thinking, and he made a phone call and just interrupted her train of thought, wouldn't that be very annoying, so he held back again.

Looking alone, without her company, no matter how beautiful the scenery is, in Ouyang's eyes, it always feels like something is missing, and it doesn't look so exciting.Looking at it, he thought of her again, but he had to convince himself not to disturb her review.Just thinking about it again and again, and suppressing it again and again, made Ouyang feel that there was no fun in this day.So, he longed for the day when he could be with her soon.

Another day passed, and it was time to read in class again.

As soon as I started class, I naturally became busy.Ouyang wanted to go to Yushu several times so that he could stay by her side, talk to her, chat with her, but he couldn't go.Because she is busy studying and has too much homework to do.And he himself has decided to let her study hard and try not to disturb her as much as possible, so he has no choice but to suppress his thoughts and spend each day.I comforted myself: it would be fine until the weekend, and I would be free by then, and it would not be too late to find her by then.

In five days, Ouyang felt that May, five years, or 50 years had passed, which was extremely difficult!But these difficult days are finally over.

But has it really passed?
But Ouyang didn't know that there was already a slight distance between him and her, and they were no longer as close as before.

If you think about it again, if it has always been like this, will the emotion become more mellow with the passage of time like wine, or will it cool there like tea and become more tasteless?
(End of this chapter)