leave this sad place

Chapter 30 Inexplicable Heaviness

After having lunch together, the two strolled under the shade of the trees.The autumn wind blows down a few yellow leaves and lifts the bangs on Yushu's forehead, which makes Ouyang slightly stunned.At this moment, Ouyang realized that her name had been firmly engraved deep in his heart.

"Yushu, I really want to be with you every day!" Ouyang looked at her tenderly and sighed sincerely.

"I also want to be with you every day. But now, I—we have to study hard." Yu Shu was slightly taken aback, looking at him pitifully.

"Well, yes. Study, alas, study." Ouyang's eyes flashed a gloomy look.

"That's right, let's study hard. Otherwise, even if I won't be transferred to another school next term, what about the future? If we want to live together better in the future, we have to study hard." Yu Shu analyzed.

"Hehe." Ouyang smiled slightly, feeling that she was thinking farther than herself.It should be up to him to worry about the future.

"By the way, I almost finished my homework. Now, I—I want to finish that little bit of homework. So as not to be forgotten by myself." Yu Shu thought.

"Okay, let's go back to the classroom together." Ouyang said casually.

"Ouyang—" Yu Shu hesitated.

"What's wrong?" Ouyang was slightly taken aback.

"Are we still going together?" Yu Shu hesitated slightly.

"Well, yes, what's the matter?" Ouyang smiled slightly, isn't it normal to go together?
"But, have you ever thought about it, if we go together, can you concentrate on doing the questions and reviewing?" Yu Shu expressed her worries.

"It's okay. I decided to watch you do it. It feels good!" Ouyang still smiled.

"No, I don't want to affect you because of me. In that case, I——wouldn't I be harming you!" Yu Shu's eyes were a little anxious, how could she let him do that?

"That's it--" Ouyang thought for a while, although he didn't care about these things, how could he make her feel that she was influencing him?
"You, this time—you don't want to go." Yushu tried to persuade him, and then continued to comfort him: "I only have a little homework left, and it won't take long. When I finish it , let's go out and play together again. Isn't that good?"

"Okay, then you can do your homework." Ouyang thought about it, and it was the same reason.

"Then what are you going to do?" Yushu asked again with concern.

"Me? You can do whatever you want. You can read a novel, do a few questions, or go for a run on the playground." Ouyang has a casual face, mainly to keep her from worrying about herself.

"Well, that's good, I'm going to do my homework." After Yu Shu finished speaking, she waved at Ouyang and walked towards the classroom.

Ouyang watched her slowly walking farther and farther away, somehow, a kind of fear and sadness rose in his heart.It seemed that she was about to leave him like this, but he was here to watch her leave, there was no way to recover, and it was impossible to recover, what kind of desolation it was!

Ouyang shook his head secretly, and couldn't help feeling a little ridiculous for himself.What's wrong with me?What are you thinking about?It's not that she is no longer with herself.Maybe it's because I care too much about her, otherwise how could I have such an idea?Maybe this is the so-called chaos when caring, Ouyang secretly sighed.

After a while, Ouyang couldn't see her anymore.A feeling of disappointment welled up in my heart, and I looked around again, but there was no one there.Looking up at the sky again, I feel that the sky today is extraordinarily high and vast.Slowly, I felt as if something was missing in my heart, and there was a feeling of emptiness.

Ouyang thought about it carefully, but he didn't find out why.I went back to the dormitory and took out the questions to do. I was going to take this opportunity to write a few more questions, but found that I didn't have the slightest feeling of doing the questions, so I had no choice but to close the textbook.I took out novels to read again, thinking that I would be interested in this way, but found that I had no desire to read books at all, whether it was textbooks or novels.

Ouyang thought for a while, and ran to the playground, ready to relax, thinking that he would feel better this way.However, as he walked, Ouyang felt more and more lonely.Looking around me, I remembered that Yushu had gone to the classroom to do her homework, and looking around, there was still no one there!It was as if the whole world had quieted down at once, and only I was left alone!
Ouyang's heart gradually became a little restless, so he decided to run around the playground a few times.From the very beginning, Ouyang ran furiously on the playground with his fastest speed, as if he wanted to vent something, but he didn't know what he was venting!
Slowly, I felt my legs a little sore and swollen.Slowly, I felt my head was a little dizzy and heavy again.However, he didn't want to stop.Because he still has a little bit of strength, and if he doesn't use up that last bit of strength, he feels very unwilling in his heart.So he continued to run, at a slower pace than his usual walking speed.But that sliver of strength, somehow, always seems to be inexhaustible.

He staggered, staggered, staggered, and fell to the ground.Wanting to struggle to get up, slowly, he stood up and fell down heavily again.

This time, he lay on the ground, quietly, without any movement.If it weren't for the undulating chest and the heavy panting, one would think he was dead!
The inexplicable sadness welled up in Ouyang's heart again, he stared wide-eyed, staring blankly at the sky, as if asking what's the matter?Why is this so?
After a long time, he gradually calmed down, gradually regained some strength, sat up, looked at the empty playground and sighed slightly.This feeling is really uncomfortable!Especially this feeling is a bit inexplicable!

Suddenly, he thought of Yushu.Counting the time, she should have finished her homework, but why hasn't she come yet?Could it be—what happened?Ouyang suddenly felt worried, stood up, and ran towards her classroom, as if something invisible and terrifying was chasing behind him!
When he arrived at her classroom, he didn't see a single figure! "What's the matter?" He couldn't help asking out loud.But everything around was quiet, showing a dead silence, which made him even more worried!Feeling as if something was about to happen, it made him frightened. It was a kind of fear that was more terrifying than watching himself die!

So, he went around the school and searched everywhere, but he didn't think that he might miss it with her!Finally, he ran all over the school, but he still didn't find a trace of her.He stared blankly at the sky, feeling the sharp pain in the corner of his eyes, he wanted to cry!Then, a drop of tear slipped down with shining light, fell to the ground, and scattered and splashed like glass.He can't find her!

Finally, he calmed down slowly.It just occurred to me that I could call her and ask where she was.He hurriedly took out his mobile phone and almost dialed the wrong number.

The phone is connected,

Hearing Yushu's joyful laughter from inside, Ouyang's heart finally calmed down completely.

So he asked, "Where are you?"

"I'm outside."

"Why did you run outside?"

"After I finished my homework, I ran into a few friends as soon as I left the classroom. They asked me to hang out for a while. I couldn't refuse, so I had to go to play with them. I'm sorry, I can't accompany you in the afternoon .”

"Well, well, but why didn't you tell me? Then I'd be—worry."

"I was going to call you, but just for fun, I-I forgot. I'm really sorry."

"Okay, it's okay. As long as you have nothing to do, I'm at ease. As long as you have fun, I'm happy too."

"Hmm, how about? I'll accompany you tomorrow."

"Aren't you going to review tomorrow?"

"Oh, yes, then we have to find another time."

"Oh, then go and play with yours. I'm fine."

"Okay, that's it. Bye."

"Ah."

Ouyang hung up the phone with a sad expression.He just asked subconsciously, "Aren't you going to review tomorrow?" I didn't expect Yushu to value it so much. Couldn't she take some time out tomorrow?After thinking about it, she wanted to scold herself again. She didn't do that for studying hard and for a better life in the future.But what about myself?I am still thinking wildly here, giving birth to some inexplicable emotions!On the one hand, I want her to be with me all the time, and on the other hand, I want her to study hard.But how is this possible?Ouyang couldn't help but feel ashamed of his absurd idea!
The truth that you can't have both your cake and your bear's paw, why am I so confused here?

So, he secretly decided to let Yushu study hard first, so that he would not easily influence her.Although this decision was painful, he could only endure it in silence.

Ouyang breathed a heavy sigh of relief, but felt a little heavy in his heart!

(End of this chapter)