leave this sad place

Chapter 47 I Can't Find Her ([-])

After more than ten days like this, the Chinese New Year is coming soon.

However, Ouyang didn't feel any excitement in his heart. The Chinese New Year seemed to be a dispensable thing in his heart.

"What else can I do besides eating and drinking well? Besides, I'm not that particular about eating and drinking." He whispered, a trace of sadness flashed in his eyes.He also remembered that almost every Chinese New Year was spent with his grandparents, without a mother, let alone a father.Even sometimes, grandparents quarrel during the Chinese New Year.So for him, the Chinese New Year is not something to be happy and excited about at all.

"If I could celebrate the New Year with her, how wonderful it would be!" He thought of Yushu again, looking at the starry sky outside the window, his heart was full of longing, but he didn't have the strong burning feeling before, maybe he I feel a little tired of missing her.

"It feels like I haven't seen you for a long time, and I miss you again." He looked out of the dark window and whispered to himself, his face became a little melancholy.

"It's almost Chinese New Year, how are you at home?" He asked towards the starry sky.

"It should be very happy, but unfortunately I can't see it anymore." He answered quietly again.

He took out his mobile phone and went to her QQ zone to see what was going on with her recently.Look at what she said one after another, and then look at those comments, those messages.

Suddenly, his heart felt a twinge of pain again!Because he found that she and a netizen often said some witty and intimate things, weren't those words just what she and he loved to say before?

There was grief and indignation in his heart, why did this happen?
He looked at the starry sky without tears and closed his eyes.The words she said to him before popped up in his head from time to time, and the words he saw just now came back from time to time.These words appeared alternately in his mind over and over again, making his heart even more sad.

"Didn't she leave me temporarily because she had to study hard?" He said to himself again.

"All this is not true, why did she leave me like this? I must be overthinking!" There was still a trace of fantasy in his heart.

"Yes, I must be overthinking." Once again, he strengthened his faith in his fantasy!

"Why don't I ask her?" He was eager to know the reason of all this.I want her to tell him that what he saw and guessed is not true!

But he hesitated again in his heart, not knowing whether he should do this or not.If all his conjectures were wrong, wouldn't that mean that he didn't trust her?But the reality of all this is so obvious, and the illusion that he insisted on is just his extravagant hope.He knows, but he just doesn't want to admit it!
"Just this time, let's make it clear." His heart was heavy, and he seemed to have made a lot of determination.

He checked that her QQ account was still online.So, I sent her a message and said, "Are you still there?"

"Ah."

He thought about it and organized his language, but he still didn't know how to say it.

So, he asked dully: "Are we—are we still together?" This time, he hoped to get an affirmative answer from her, even if that answer made him very sad, and don't leave him with illusions like last time.

She was silent and did not reply to him.

He was a little anxious, why is it like this again - refused to give him an affirmative answer?

"Have we already broken up?" It's not that he doesn't know such a naive question, but he still refuses to admit it and still fantasizes about it.But this time, he wanted to wake himself up completely.

However, she still didn't reply to him.

"Just tell me the truth, I'm ready." He continued to ask.

"How can there be an end without a beginning?" She finally replied to him.

(End of this chapter)