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Chapter 48 I Can't Find Her (Part [-])
"How can there be an end without a beginning?" She finally replied to him.

Although he was ready, there was still uncontrollable grief in his heart.

Although she didn't directly answer him yes or no, this sentence already said everything.She actually told him that he and her hadn't started yet, so how could there be any talk of breaking up?

"Haven't you started yet?" He murmured in his heart, only then did he realize that although he had always loved her deeply, he hadn't shown it to her much.The only time she wanted to show her relationship was when they watched the sunset together on the reservoir. I still remember that time when he asked them what their relationship was, and she replied that they were friends.When asked about the relationship between friends, she replied that she didn't know.At that time, he thought that each other already understood in their hearts, but he was shy and didn't want to say it out.

In the following period of time, although they were very close, they didn't bring up that topic again.

"Have you really not started yet?" He was a little confused again. Although he didn't clearly explain the relationship between them, everything during that time has been revealed!

"All she needs now is this excuse." He thought subconsciously, and had already vaguely guessed everything.

But his heart was even more hurt and angry.

He stopped asking her why and other nonsense, and replied directly: "Hehe, that's right! We haven't even started murmuring yet!"

There was a burst of pain in his heart, remembering the first time she lied to him, she was reviewing in the classroom, how naive he was at that time, and he was so desperate to make excuses for her!I thought about her sweet words in the space and the scene at the station, and finally remembered the sentence she told him that she just wanted to study hard.All this deeply stimulated him!Then he seemed to wake up instantly, making him instantly feel how naive he is!

He smiled miserably again, and sent her a message: "Then I bless you, I hope you find someone who really likes you! I wish you happiness!"

He gripped the phone tightly, biting his lips with his teeth, and a faint salty taste spread in his mouth, but he didn't care about it!The eyes are full of grief and seem to have anger!

In the end, he seemed to have made up his mind and dragged her into the blacklist!The stabbing pain in his heart became more intense, his eyes darkened, and he fell limp on the ground, only then did he realize that he had no strength in his whole body!
Tears are bubbling from the corners of my eyes!

"So I still have so many tears to shed!" He smiled miserably, with indescribable desolation and sadness.

The starry sky outside the window dimmed a lot in an instant, and the bright moon also emitted hazy moonlight, shining on the window, pale and pale.

His heart slowly returned to calm.Suddenly, there was another panic!

So - didn't he lose her?
"Lost." He murmured, a bright light burst out of his dim eyes, and he growled, "No, don't!"

He frantically searched on QQ again, but how did he find it?Those names will be automatically removed from his blacklist.

So, he called her again without thinking of what to say to her.It's just that this can prove that he hasn't lost her yet!
However, at this moment, he discovered that her mobile phone had been shut down!

Machine hanged?how could be?Wasn't she still on QQ just now?That's probably a number change.

She changed her number, she changed her number, she didn't tell him that she changed her number!He felt a little sad again.So—how would he find her?
"What should I do? What should I do?" He kept asking himself, feeling as if his heart was being roasted by fire, anxious and painful!But he still didn't think of a way. How could he think of a way in that state at that time?

"I can't find you." He murmured, looking helplessly at the starry sky, with sadness and regret in his heart!
At this moment, he once again realized that he was so reluctant to part with her!
"I can't find it." His expression became even more downcast.

(End of this chapter)