leave this sad place

Chapter 49 That Person ([-])

It was another sleepless night, and he lay quietly on the bed, tasting the bitter fruit of grief.

"Is it right or wrong this time?" He murmured, eyes with deep confusion.His rationality told him that all of this should have been the case long ago, and hesitating and hesitating there would only bring more pain in the future!However, he wondered why he was so sad and reluctant to give up?If this is true, how can you not feel a little bit happy?What kind of reasoning is this?Those who do the right thing will only be sad and uncomfortable!
He watched the orange sun rise slowly outside the window.The soft golden light sprinkled on his body, but he couldn't feel any warmth at all!The clear and melodious singing of the birds made his heart even more disturbed, even sad!All the vibrant atmosphere seemed out of tune with him.He got up, came to the window, stretched out his hand, closed the window, and then drew the curtains!
He stood there fixedly, a cold and gloomy atmosphere filled his room, it seemed that this place no longer belonged to this world, he felt as if he was isolated from the whole world!
"So what if you die in the world?" He looked a little sad and murmured in a low voice.

A dark negative emotion permeated his heart, he felt as if he was lost in a corner of the world, curled up and shivering alone, no one saw, let alone knew!
He lay on the bed again and read the novel.Maybe only that virtual world really belongs to him.

Time has become blurred in his consciousness.He didn't care about those at all, how could he pay attention to the real world living in that fantasy world?

"Today, it's New Year's Eve." He wanted to twitch the corners of his mouth and make a festive gesture, but he didn't succeed.If grandpa hadn't told him that it was Chinese New Year today, he would still be silent in that illusory world.

"Why do you think of her again?" He whispered, his mind was full of bits and pieces of her.

"Has it faded?" He whispered again, and there was no such burning feeling in his heart anymore.

"Maybe I can really let her go like this." He said quietly, unable to tell what kind of emotion was in his heart.

"Reluctant?" He frowned slightly, but not as tightly as before.

"Does your heart hurt?" There were still stabbing pains coming from that place slowly, but he didn't want to cover it with his hands anymore.

"If it hurts, let it hurt!" He was a little sad and angry, but let go of his heart, wanting it to hurt once and for all.

Then, he continued to read the novel, as if he took all of this very lightly, and he didn't even care about it.

Grandpa and grandma often accommodate him, as long as he doesn't lie in bed and read novels during the New Year.

Although he likes this kind of doting, he knows intellectually that this is not acceptable, but what can he say?Tell them to control themselves a little bit more?It might as well manage himself better, but his perseverance is not as strong as he imagined.Every time he was on vacation, he felt that he was indulging himself, indulging his laziness.

It was evening in the blink of an eye, but at this time someone came to the house, someone he hadn't expected.

That person is his father.

(End of this chapter)