leave this sad place

Chapter 74
But what is the use of meeting like this?Seeing each other is better than not seeing each other, but when we are gone, we miss them even more!

Miss, he still cares about her so much, he can't let her go!Although she no longer belongs to him.

"Being in love with each other is worse than forgetting each other in the rivers and lakes, not to mention that you and I don't have any relationship at all." Ouyang said to himself, feeling a little melancholy again.

But she never looked this way, which made his melancholy heart more haggard, like a bloody flower that is about to wither.

"Broadcast gymnastics for middle school students starts now..." The rhythm of gymnastics came from the speaker.The teacher who was supervising on the stage was still shouting, "The ones behind, hurry up! Didn't you see that the morning exercises have already started?"

Ouyang looked back and saw that many students were still jogging on the road between the dormitory and the playground.Look at those students who have already stood in line, some are doing exercises seriously, and some don't jump at all.

Without those restraints, Ouyang wouldn't have come to do morning exercises at all.Today, for some reason, I feel even more disgusted.

"Why do we have to come to do morning exercises? Is there something tough about exercising your body? Can such morning exercises really work?" Ouyang was puzzled and asked with some doubts.

"Couldn't it be possible to change the time? Why do you insist on choosing it in the morning?" He also thought of the students in the third year of high school and those students in the first and second year of high school who don't live on campus, because they don't use it for morning exercises.He couldn't help sighing again: "If I don't live on campus, I don't have to get up so early every day, how wonderful it would be!"

Slowly, he stopped and didn't want to continue doing exercises, but he didn't know why.Maybe it’s because he doesn’t like this arrangement, he feels restrained, like wearing shackles, which disgusts him; maybe it’s because he’s tired, doing this kind of monotonous and boring thing repeatedly every day, it’s too boring, and he feels tired ;Maybe I'm lazy, I don't want to get up so early; Maybe I feel it's unfair
Too many reasons, too many excuses, maybe none, maybe all, he doesn't want to think about it so much anymore.

Ouyang looked at the students around him who were still doing morning exercises seriously, and felt a sense of loneliness in his heart.Watching them bouncing has nothing to do with me; watching them laughing and laughing has nothing to do with me; watching them busy has nothing to do with me.Their romps are theirs; their joys and sorrows are theirs; their youthful zeal is theirs, and forever theirs!
And what about myself?The melancholy on the face, the pain in the heart, the sadness that flashed in the eyes, and the faint tingling, the slightest unwillingness or the sadness of grief and indignation and powerless shouting.. These are my own!
"My ridiculous self, my pathetic self! So ignorant, so confused!" He scolded himself again.I feel that I am out of tune with them, and I am completely a person from two worlds.But in his world, he is the only one!

Staying alone in a world without people, all you have is endless desolation and loneliness!

Exile the ocean of the heart, just like wandering in the cold and lonely universe starry sky.The boundless expanse creates endless bursts of emptiness.

This made Ouyang feel the gnawing loneliness again.

Maybe all the inner feelings have the inner imagination and emotional changes quietly.

"The ones in the back, what are you doing? Why aren't you moving?" The teacher on stage supervised and shouted loudly again.Those who were lazy and didn't do it consciously started to do exercises. After all, the majesty of the teacher is still there.

But Ouyang stood there straight, looking at the teacher on the stage, without moving.

(End of this chapter)