leave this sad place

Chapter 76

"Persecution, ridiculous persecution, I actually force myself to study hard. This kind of life is really disgusting. But what can I do?" Ouyang's heart was full of bitterness.

"How long does it take to study? Two years? Six years? Or longer." When Ouyang thought of the second year, third year and university, the antipathy in his heart became more intense.

"Why study? To learn knowledge? Or for a better job in the future? If you want to learn knowledge, will such knowledge really be useful in the future? If it is useless, then why do you still need to study? Isn't it a waste of time? Maybe it's to find a good job in the future, but is it worth it?" Ouyang was deeply puzzled and full of doubts.But no one could answer for him, nor came to help him, like a lost lamb full of fear and anxiety.Because others don't know him at all, understand him.Even if they knew it, they wouldn't care about his things at all, they would just think that he was just thinking wildly there.

Some doubts were deeply buried in my heart, planted in my heart like a seed.Maybe in the near future, it will take root and sprout, and it will bear fruit; maybe there will never be a little movement.Unknown things are not easy to guess, and the unknown future is even more difficult to guess.

I no longer have that kind of thought in studying, just like an army that has already lost its morale.In such a situation, although the person is still there, but the heart has long since drifted away?

Where did you go?I don't know, Ouyang's eyes became more confused.

"I don't know, I don't know what the study is for, and I don't know what the study is for here." He hated that he had no goal, just like a walking dead.

"For what?" He lowered his head, deeply saddened in his heart.He didn't want to think about it anymore, his ideal had already been shattered.From the moment he couldn't find her, his ideal slowly disappeared.

"Blue sky, white clouds, a beautiful blueprint. Blueprint, huh, blueprint. Why can't I remember what that blueprint is? Why can't I even forget my own blueprint? Why? What should I do? How to build it?" Ouyang grabbed his hair with his hands, as if he wanted to pluck out the hair one by one.

Ouyang subconsciously looked at Zhang Wenqiang on the other side.He, it's him, makes Ouyang suffer so much now!Ouyang stared at him with eyes full of hatred, wishing to tear him to pieces immediately.However, Ouyang's eyes showed a complicated expression again.

"Can you blame him? What's wrong with him? He doesn't know at all, what's wrong with him! Myself, everything is my fault. I am so stupid, so stupid, and I still can't let it go now. She! This—who can blame this? Idiot self! Stubborn self! Such a pitiful and pathetic self! So stupid, so stupid..." Ouyang murmured, the hatred in his heart turned into pain again, It tormented him one after another, as if to tear him apart.His expression became even more gloomy.

"I really want to leave, I really want to not stay here anymore." He muttered to himself in a voice that only he could hear, and the corners of his eyes were slightly rosy.

"Ouyang, what are you muttering about?" Jie'er's voice came from next to his ear, and Ouyang's body trembled slightly.An indescribable emotion welled up in my heart.

He really wanted to find someone to listen to him, he really wanted to tell Jieer these things by himself now!But he didn't dare, he had already lost his courage, and he didn't even know why.

(End of this chapter)