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Chapter 81 Wake Up (Part [-])

But now it seems to be a little different from what he imagined, it seems to depend on the results of the exam.In these three classes, some students with poor grades should be dismissed, and some good ones should be promoted from other classes. This is understandable.In the past, he didn't care about these at all, because how could he care about them based on his grades at that time?

But now?What about now after that period of time?He felt uneasy in his heart, and he really didn't have that kind of self-confidence.

"What if I get banned?" He couldn't help muttering to himself, feeling a little nervous.It seems that such a possibility is quite high, and my heart is getting more and more uncertain.

"What if it is really banned?" He murmured again, not knowing why he was afraid of being banned.It's just that there is a strong sense in my heart that I don't want to be brushed down, as if going to those classes means being inferior.

"Why are you worried about this? Didn't I not care about studying for a long time? Didn't I dislike learning a long time ago? Why did this happen?" He asked himself, feeling extremely puzzled, and his heart was extremely confused. contradiction.

"Why do you feel uncomfortable?" He was puzzled and pondered.Want to figure out why all this.

"It's not reconciled!" He sighed lowly. He didn't want to brush it down because he was not reconciled, and he was not reconciled to the waste of efforts in junior high school.Not reconciled to getting worse and worse grades.But what did he work hard for?He sighed helplessly.

"Whatever, if you are really rejected, then you should be removed. Just don't have to think about which class you will be in when you choose science! Besides, what does it mean if you get rejected? Does it mean that I am bad? It means Will I be bad in the future?" He comforted himself again, at this moment, he seemed to have changed back to his original self.Unknowingly, even he himself didn't realize this.

"It's the best if you continue to study. You can leave here and study with peace of mind. Who can tell what will happen after two years? Although other classes are a little worse, as long as I study hard in the future, I don't believe I can't get into a good university!" He said harshly, of course he didn't really hope that he would be rejected, it was just a comfort.At this moment, he seemed to have confidence again.

"Yes, it's time to study hard. No matter what, you have to study hard." A light flashed in his eyes, and he seemed to be much more energetic.

Gradually, he had a comparison by subject in his heart.He no longer wants to care about the idea of ​​which class he will be assigned to. Isn't it too childish to put his future on those emotions?And it's still useless.So he no longer considered choosing the science department to be in the same class as Sun Xiaohong, or to be in the same class as Yu Shu.

But choose science or liberal arts?He analyzed carefully and felt that his arts and sciences were not much different.However, science seems to be easier. Biology is my strong point, and I have always been good, and I am also one of the best in the class.Chemistry also seems to be okay, with a little more carefulness, I can get more than 80 points in the test.However, there are some problems in physics. In the past, when the multiple-choice questions were single-choice, the test scores were still good. Later, when it was changed to multiple-choice, it failed.It's okay to be careful though.Because I seem to be able to do those questions in the physics exam, it's just carelessness.

He also thought that science doesn't need to memorize so many things all day long, and his memory just isn't very good, which is very suitable.And it is easier to find a job after choosing a science major.

"Then choose science?" He whispered to himself, hesitating again.Because he wants to study psychology in politics, and he is very interested in psychology.And he also wants to be a writer in the future, to create and write novels, after all, he has read so many novels and experienced those painful tortures, so he always writes something.This made him hesitate again, not knowing how to make a choice.

After choosing science, he was afraid that after two years, his writing level would decrease.After all, science students seem to be working on questions all day long, so there is no time for them.

But choosing liberal arts is not conducive to future life.If you can't even solve your own life, how can you talk about writing?And he is still very interested in biology in science.

"Then choose science. After all, solving the problem of survival in the future is the most fundamental problem." He was thinking rationally, feeling a little ashamed in his heart, and facing the reality, he lowered his head and let himself temporarily let go of his ideals.

"As for writing novels. If you really have confidence in yourself, how can you be afraid that you won't be able to write good things in two years? If you don't have confidence, what else should you write?" He comforted himself and asked himself to put some put things down.

But with his personality, can he really let it go?

(End of this chapter)