If the deep sea is not happy

Chapter 14 In the old days, a cool teenage dream (1)
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Regarding the things you don't know, you are the proud little prince who attracts everyone's attention. I stand in a far corner and can only describe your face in my secret thoughts.

I think, is it because I am too stubborn, so God wants to arrange us together.Because two people who are too similar have always been incompatible.
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Excerpted from Mo Yi's diary.

"I have always had the habit of keeping a diary. I have hidden the secret thoughts of my youth in a small notebook. Now, I don't even have the courage to open it." Cheng Moyi supported his forehead and leaned wearily. on the glass window.As long as she recalls the past, there will be a dull pain in her head, as if to prevent her from recalling. "If you want me to say it myself, I'm afraid it will be more painful."

Looking at the woman in front of him, Jonas really wanted to lend her his arms, but he knew that the other party would not accept it.

He could see that she loved him.The man at the bar.

She said Jonas, do you know that at that time, I was so stupid, so stupid, looking at his indifference, but still wanted to lean forward and warm him with my sincerity.

Then she laughed like self-deprecating, how could she understand? For so many years, no one seemed to understand her heart except Xia Zhilin.

Xue Jinhan's indifference started from the first day of his freshman year in high school. From that day to now, Cheng Moyi has never seen him laughing again.His life seems to be occupied by sleeping and being in a daze. Every time he looks back, he either looks cold or lonely, and his intuition tells Moyi that something major has happened in Xue Jinhan's life-- Just like myself two years ago.

Although Mo Yi would take the initiative to bring Xue Jinhan a bag of warm soy milk every afternoon, every time he would say "thank you" expressionlessly, and then took out the change and put it in Mo Yi's hand.Sometimes, he would plug in a straw and take a few sips. Most of the time, the soy milk would lie on his empty table until it got cold and was thrown away.

Mo Yi wanted to rush up and question him, why bother to torture his body like this, but he didn't have enough confidence.

What was she to him?It's just that the teacher was frightened by his lust and didn't change her seat for two years, so he was at the same table with him for two years.How fragile this relationship is.Once they separated, the only connection, the excuse to talk, disappeared without a trace.

As a girl, you must have experienced the same thing when you were a student. When you sat at the same table with a boy, you could do any kind of tricky things. , It's your joy, you are very comfortable and happy with each other.You think that friendship is probably nothing more than this.

But one day, you suddenly separated, and you have new tablemates, and you gradually forget about each other and integrate into your new life.One day when you meet again, you may not even be able to say hello.You don't even know what posture to choose to face each other.The intersection of you has been staggered, and you may become the most familiar stranger from now on.

Are you willing?

Cheng Moyi was not reconciled, what's more, she didn't realize until now, maybe during those noisy two years, inadvertently, she seemed to fall in love with him.

What kind of silent intrusion is that?Unprepared, he easily broke into her soft heart and settled down domineeringly.

Mo Yi smiled wryly, looking at the indifferent young man standing in the corridor, with a long back, his hands in his trouser pockets, standing against the light, leaving Mo Yi with an incomprehensible posture.

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It has been a long time like this, Mo Yi can only watch him from a distance, not daring to go forward.She knew in her heart that this was not the third year of junior high school anymore, he was no longer that smirking bully, she and he were no longer at the same table, the difference in time now was enough to 'fulfill' their strangers.

Gathering up the courage to go out, Moyi stood beside him, but couldn't say a word.The crowd passing by gave curious eyes, watching this strange combination.

Xue Jinhan is a man of the hour in this school. Apart from the fact that the principal is his uncle, the bigger reason is that handsome boys are always the focus of girls, not to mention that nowadays, cold and handsome boys are more popular with little girls.

Xue Jinhan is such a person. The proud little prince at the beginning has grown into a rebellious king wearing a crown, controlling his own city, and looking down on all those who try to enter.

Mo Yi couldn't figure out the reason, and didn't know what kind of change made that warm person become so indifferent, without even the slightest smile.

She stood there, ignoring those probing gazes, raised her head to look at his perfect profile, and hesitated to speak.

"Those cherry blossoms are so beautiful."

When he finally said it, but the words were innocuous, Mo Yi wanted to bite his tongue off in hatred.

Xue Jinhan smiled, but nodded unexpectedly: "It's very beautiful." What came to mind was the frozen camera and the "when the mountain flowers are blooming, she is smiling in the bushes" in his mind. scenery.

It was a few days ago, Cheng Moyi went downstairs to buy things, walked along the cherry blossom avenue where the cherry blossoms were dancing, spread his hands, raised his head, and smiled like a child.Xue Jinhan hid behind the glass window on the second floor, pressed the shutter, and frozen the beauty of that moment.

Mo Yi didn't understand the meaning of his rare smile, but he was happy in his heart: "He finally smiled."

"But..." The next second, Xue Jinhan lowered his head and said in a low voice, "What do you mean you've been looking at me?" At the age of 16, he smiled so evilly, he didn't look like the chubby little boy in junior high school at all. Overlord.

How can people change so fast.

"How could I look at you? Even if I look at you, what's the matter, is it possible that you still have to pay for watching you?" After sitting at the same table with him for two years, Cheng Moyi probably dared to provoke him.Obviously, she can endure with a stubborn mouth no matter how much he bullies her, but as long as he takes the paper that was torn apart by him on the first day of meeting, and then threatened by the drawing paper that she glued, she will feel like facing a big enemy Fearful and uneasy, he is obedient to him.

It's just that now Xue Jinhan understands what kind of mood it is, just like him, in order to protect the dignity of his biological father who has never met, he can turn against his mother, and it doesn't even matter if he is misunderstood as unfilial.

Her words made him smile evilly, and there was an unpredictable expression on his clear face, which was fleeting.

Mo Yi was bold and cautious, for fear of offending him again with inappropriate words.It's not that she's afraid of him, but that she feels in her heart that he is now a vulnerable group, and she can't take advantage of his danger to avenge the "humiliation" she suffered in those two years, although it's just lip service.

"Xiao Jinzi, did something happen to you?"

Xiao Jinzi.

Xue Jinhan smiled inwardly, this girl is really brave enough to say nothing, she clearly saw that he was not in a good mood, yet she dared to call her a smart nickname for him.Back then, he didn't know how many times he had pulled her braid because of this, but now that he thinks about it, it's really naive.

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However, when he thought of the incredible things that happened during these days, his smile dimmed.Pretending to be indifferent, put away his smile, showing a mature appearance: "No one can help me with my affairs, so you should stop asking for trouble."

"How can there be no solution to the matter?" Moyi retorted, his eyes were full of stubbornness, "Didn't I walk out of the shadows just like the pain of losing a loved one?"

How can this be a thing?The loss of relatives, and the betrayal of relatives, I am afraid that the latter is even more unacceptable.

Xue Jinhan lowered his head, and fixedly looked at the girl beside him who was half a head shorter than him. Her face was pale, with two blushes, pink lips, and big black and white eyes. Mole of tears.

However, Xue Jinhan never saw her cry after tearing up her painting when they met for the first time.I don't know if she was crying secretly, anyway, he has never seen those crystal clear pearly tears again, what's more, it's the stubborn arc raised at the corner of her mouth.

His heart was unbelievably soft when facing her, but his fingers covered her narrow chin, and what he said was: "You better not get involved in my affairs. And , stay away from me, or you must be the one who gets hurt."

There was a faint smile on his face, but there was no warmth in his voice.

There was an extremely warm sun pouring down from the top of his head, as gentle as water, but Moyi only felt a bone-chilling cold.Xue Jinhan's fingers were cold, he locked her chin and squeezed hard, as if he was going to crush her.

After a long standoff, he turned his head.The light in her eyes was so bright that it burned his heart, making him unable to look at each other any longer.Withdrawing his hand, he turned around coldly, leaving Cheng Moyi alone in the sunshine of April in a daze.

She couldn't figure out why he was in such a state, she shook her head irritably, and simply stopped exploring.

That night, Cheng Moyi skipped class.

Throughout the evening self-study, Xue Jinhan was absent-minded, and an inexplicable anger surged up.He stood up under the teacher's inspection and walked out of the classroom door, attracting exclamations from a group of girls.Although the teacher was angry, there was nothing he could do about it.

In the dark campus, he walked aimlessly, not knowing where that dead girl could hide.Impatient in my heart, I wandered to the playground.

There were no lights in the playground. With the light cast from the nearby classrooms, he faintly saw a thin shadow sitting under the basketball hoop, lonely and warm.By coincidence, he bypassed her sight and sat quietly behind her.

In the empty playground, Cheng Moyi recalled the scene when Xue Jinhan scolded her to get out, it was so cold that it almost froze her heart.She put her arms around her knees and buried her head there, sobbing softly.There was a wind blowing, and it was cool for a while.

Xue Jinhan sat close to her, wanted to hug her, say sorry to her, warm her, hesitated, but never had the courage or excuses.

How can there be such a person who slaps someone and coaxes them with sugar.

There was no moonlight, no lights, hiding in the dark, Xue Jinhan closed his eyes, and quietly felt the warmth of Moyi's breath, which made him addicted.However, he couldn't accept it.Perhaps, the harm his mother brought to him was really too great, and even affected his values.

What an irony.

(End of this chapter)