Your warmth, my love

Chapter 184
I don't even know what's wrong with me, the tears came down like I couldn't control it, now, who of us is clean?Who can escape the relationship of all this?

Our hatred, our ignorance, our resentment, everything about us is tightly entangled, like a banyan tree with intertwined roots, twisting and embracing each other.

We hate each other, we lick each other's wounds, we do everything until we die.

As soon as I came out of the basement, I saw Zou Moyan smoking in the living room. He looked at me, threw the lighter in his hand on the table beside him, and snorted coldly: "Don't worry?"

I didn't say anything, and walked to Zou Moyan's side, picked up the cigarette in front of him, and lit it skillfully.

I took a deep breath, and after being with Zou Moyan, I never smoked again, because I knew that no matter what happened, this man would help me and love me, even though there were many unpleasant things happened between us things.

"You think too much." I blew out a smoke ring, looked at the exquisite crystal chandelier hanging in the air in front of me, and said casually, "I can't find you, look around."

"Do you think I will attack them?" Zou Moyan didn't know what was going on, and said in a cold tone, "Think I will kill Lu Chengying?"

"People are with you, you can do whatever you want, I don't care."

"Jiajia, you can't say what you mean, don't you feel uncomfortable now? Don't you care about Lu Chengying?" Zou Moyan twisted the cigarette butt in the ashtray irritably, "Are you going to let them go?"

I really feel like crying without tears. I really don't know where Zou Moyan's weird idea came from: "Zou Moyan, what's wrong with you? Why do you feel inferior when something involves Lu Chengying?" Appearance? Don't you know what kind of person I am? I'm standing in front of you honestly, I don't want to beg for mercy, I don't want to participate, I just want to be alone, okay? "

Zou Moyan snatched the cigarette from my hand, the cold light in his eyes was like a sharp sword, "You have to know, if you beg for mercy, I will prepare other ways to slow down his death."

"That's your business."

I stood up and prepared to go upstairs, Zou Moyan was still sitting on the sofa, I didn't want to talk to him, so I went back to the room directly.

Zou Moyan seems to have a short-circuited brain right now. He can't listen to what I say, making it look like Lu Chengying and I really have something to do. Now I still use such inexplicable thoughts to think about these things, I am really not enough up.

What about his wisdom?What about his EQ?
Why is it that I haven't done anything yet, and I am contradicting myself like this.

I was lying on the bed not long ago, Zou Moyan came back, he went to the bathroom to wash up and went to bed, the smell of body wash wafted into the tip of his nose, I felt the place around me collapse, and his hands clasped my waist forcefully .

I didn't move, and looked at the tulle curtains. It's already early morning, and it's already bright outside. With the continuous force of that palm, I probably understood what Zou Moyan meant, but now I'm not in the mood at all, especially Seeing the bloody scene, I didn't even have any interest.

Zou Moyan rubbed his hands for a while, but he didn't make any offensive moves. I was relieved, but he said, "I know you haven't slept."

"I can't sleep." I looked at the window, "Maybe I took too much sleep-soothing medicine before, but now I don't want to sleep."

Zou Moyan stood up and looked at me: "Are you blaming me?"

"When did you put that bag of pills in my pocket?" I said lightly. I have to ask about these things sooner or later. Now that he mentioned it, I naturally want to know the truth: "How can you be sure that I will give you to eat?"

"I'm not sure, but if you want to see Lu Chengying, you have to do so, otherwise you won't have a chance to escape."

He just admitted it.

"You should follow me as soon as I go out. Go rescue Zou Xue first, and then go find me."

"If Lu Chengying doesn't show up, I won't be able to locate Zou Xue."

"Actually, you can tell me, and I can cooperate with you."

Zou Moyan paused, "I didn't think that much."

"You don't believe me." I turned around and looked at Zou Moyan, "You want to hear what Lu Chengying will say to me, and you also want to know what I will tell him, you don't believe me, at any time, once Lu Chengying is involved , you won't believe me."

Zou Moyan pursed his lips, and said after a long time, "I trust you, but I don't trust him. Men know men too well, so I can't miss a single point."

"I'm not stupid. I can't figure out what you are thinking, but I can get a little idea. Everything is a deliberate play by you. Even the thing you said that Zou Moyun rescued Lu Chengying is yours." One of the plans, because then you can catch him again, maybe you enjoy the fun of catching him, not how to torture him."

Zou Moyan was stunned for an instant, the corner of his mouth twitched, and then he turned his head to the side. I knew I was right. Zou Moyan left the room, but I didn't chase after him. After a while, I heard the sound of a lighter clicking. , he is smoking.

I can't sleep either, it's dawn early, in this early morning, we each have our own concerns, like two tigers who have just finished fighting, covered in bruises, resting and recuperating.

I never asked how Zou Moyun and Lu Chengying were doing. There were only four people in the entire hall of the villa, Zou Moyan and I, and two servants.

After staying in the villa for a day, I felt more and more meaningless. After that night, Zou Moyan and I didn't talk anymore. We would still eat and sleep together, but most of the time it didn't feel like that anymore.

I also gradually understood that the two blank years before had allowed me to grow up long ago. Although I was still hypocritical and willful as always, when I encountered problems, I knew how to deal with them. At that time, every time I saw him, I felt like I had no brains. Yes, thinking about it now, I am much more sensible than then.

People always have to stumble and grow, I am growing, and so is Zou Moyan.

On the third day, I still couldn't help but went to the basement. Zou Moyun didn't respond when he saw me coming, but it was Lu Chengying, sitting on the edge of the cushion, who had been looking at me straight from the moment I walked in. His expression was still the same. It's very bad, the clothes on his body are wrinkled and stained, completely inconsistent with the glamorous him that he wanted before.

It seems that he should have survived the high fever. Lu Chengying stood up and looked at me tenderly, "Are you okay?"

I nodded, "Yeah."

"Jiajia, you are such a kid who likes to lie." Lu Chengying brought over two small boxes on one side, which showed anti-inflammatory medicine and fever-reducing medicine, and I looked at the box without taking my eyes off it.

Did Zou Moyan deliver the medicine?

After all, I was worrying too much. Zou Moyan really won't kill Lu Chengying. Maybe he knows many things in his heart, but he just doesn't want to say them.

Or maybe I bet right, the more I care about Lu Chengying's affairs, the more Zou Moyan insists on it, the more I ignore it, the more he can calm down and deal with it.

I don't think I have anything to say when I stand here. As soon as I turned to leave, Lu Chengying said to me behind me, "Jiajia, I don't regret any of this, even if I'm in jail, I don't regret what happened back then , if I do it all over again, I will still do it.”

"Understood."

"Am I obsessed with my obsession? Then you are my obsession?" Lu Chengying said mockingly, "The most fulfilling thing about me is that I never force you."

That's right, Lu Chengying really didn't force me, he respected me no matter what happened, from being caught and raped by Zou Moyan in San Diego before to when we lived in the same rented house, he really never forced me, he said, Ask me willingly.

"Thank you. But for the things you did before, if you were wrong, you were wrong, and I still can't forgive you."

"As long as you remember me, if you can't be together, it's better to let you remember me in your heart. When you live happily with Zou Moyan, your heart will still hurt when you think of me. I am used to being arrogant." , either I make you hurt, or I make you happy, I can only choose one.”

I stopped in my tracks and wanted to say something. The words in my head turned for a long time, and finally I opened the basement with big strides.

Will you still do this, Lu Chengying, don't you know that your good deeds to me are a burden?Can't you see how much I hate myself for being so heartless?
Back in the living room, my cell phone rang. I saw Jing Qi's call on the top, and I felt a little sick. I thought about his relationship with Lu Chengying and didn't answer it. The phone rang several times, but I didn't answer it. Finally, Jing Qi sent it. A short message, "I'm at the airport and I'm going to the United States, He Jiaran, maybe you guessed my origin and intentions, but I personally have absolutely no malicious intentions. Before I leave, I have something to express to you. The address is yours. It’s in the rented house, cherish it, don’t read it.”

I don't know what Jing Qi sent me, and now it seems that nothing is important, I dare not think about it, I don't want to reply, so I just threw the phone on the bed beside me, ignoring it.

I read the book all afternoon, and when Zou Moyan came back in the evening, he came to the bedroom to see me first, and after confirming that I was here, he changed into his home clothes and went to the study.

The only difference between me and Lu Chengying now is that he is in the basement and I am in the house.

Apart from eating, Zou Moyan is very busy, and he can only see him when he is sleeping. I don't know if what I said before was too serious, but that is what I want to say in my heart, and it is an indisputable fact.

The dinner was very light, and Zou Moyan ate very quietly. When I was almost finished, he said, "What are you going to do for the wedding? Chinese style or Western style?"

(End of this chapter)