Your warmth, my love

Chapter 185 We Forgot Those Two Years

The matter between Lu Chengying and Zou Mo is just for nothing, now you are talking about the wedding with me, Zou Moyan, are you okay?
I helped my forehead, and suddenly felt a headache, "Mo Yan, do you think it's time for a wedding?"

"You do not want?"

Zou Moyan raised his eyebrows, and looked at me carefully. I felt very uncomfortable being looked at by him, and turned around to go upstairs, but after a minute, Zou Moyan grabbed me hard, and then asked me, "Why don't you want to?"

"Zou Moyan, what's the matter with you? We've done marriage justice. We're a legal couple now, but is it time to get married? Don't tell me that you want to hold a wedding with me to stimulate Lu Chengying, you are so weak Already!"

"He loves you very much," Zou Moyan looked at me, and pressed me down on the table step by step, "It would be a good thing for him to see us getting married, and it would be even better if he could be the best man."

Let Lu Chengying be the best man and watch me marry Zou Moyan, it would be better to kill him.

The current Zou Moyan is really strange to me, and his thoughts are indeed ridiculous. If Lu Chengying has a dual personality, then Zou Moyan has multiple personalities. Lu Chengying has two sides, positive and negative, while Zou Moyan has countless sides.

Such a man, I seem to be getting more and more incomprehensible.

"How much you hate and resent between you and Lu Chengying is your business, can you stop me from getting involved?"

Zou Moyan gently fiddled with my hair, and looked at me cautiously, "You are very resistant to me now."

"It's you who are contradicting me, Zou Moyan. I think you want to go to Gao Ziqian to see a psychiatrist? You were suspicious before, you were weird, and you toss around. At least you have a limit. Now, there is no limit to what you can do." No, now the basement is your sister, your uncle's only daughter, it's your business whether you let it go, it's your business what you want to do, don't ask me again, don't test me again, I'm sick of it !"

After saying this in one breath, I felt a little better. Zou Moyan didn't speak, but the kiss fell on my neck. He was very hard, and I felt a strong possessive desire in this force.

My whole body was pressed against the table by him, and he rushed in from behind, Zou Moyan was not very gentle, several times I felt so painful that I wanted to push him away, especially when my ribs were pressed against the table, it hurt me so much.

I'm angry, I'm bored, but I can't refuse him at this time, he is my husband, maybe he wants to do this kind of thing to soothe his heart, or maybe, he just wants me to prove that I love you he.

Especially Zou Moyan is very sensitive and fragile.

Now I'm curious, what kind of harm did Lu Chengying cause to Zou Moyan, making him feel inferior every time he met Lu Chengying, and lost his original appearance.

Zou Moyan enjoyed this posture very much. When we reunited, he was in his conference room. He was like this. Although we were moved by each other that time, we were both against each other. That time was not pleasant, but now, we love each other and we are legal. But it's still not very pleasant. This is not a matter of course when the love is strong, but an obligation between husband and wife.

He asked for it twice, and after that my legs were so weak that I couldn't stand, he still carried me to the upstairs bedroom.

Zou Moyan seldom uses measures. Before, he would sometimes choose to cum outside the body. Recently, he cums directly inside. Thinking of my biochemical child before, I still have lingering fears.

Zhou Luo said that Zou Moyan might not be a father for the rest of his life, he didn't say absolutely not, and Li Nan gave me contraceptive pills before, thinking about Zou Moyan's amazing physical strength and endurance, what if I got pregnant?
I can't bear the pain of the last biochemical, ecstasy, loss, like going from heaven to hell, or like a moment of beauty turning into despair.

I'm going to try to talk to Zou Moyan, of course, after everything is settled.

I slept well at night, maybe the exercise in the afternoon exhausted my physical strength, and Zou Moyan asked for it again at night. There was no conversation between us, only physical entanglement, and he no longer induced me to say those things Shameful love words, everything, like a piston movement.

Zou Moyan didn't go out the next day. He was dealing with some work matters in the study. I wandered back and forth in the room. I couldn't hold back anymore. I wanted to go out to get some air. I hesitated when I arrived at Zou Moyan's study. After a long time said:
"I want to go out for a walk."

"Now?" Zou Moyan looked at the time, and then made a phone call, "Cancel all my video conferences today, and ask Pan Yiming if you have anything to do."

After hanging up the phone, Zou Moyan came over and pulled me. Although his voice was not warm, it was much better than before: "Where do you want to go?"

"Anywhere, as long as it's not this house."

Zou Moyan's hands tightened slightly, maybe this sentence really made him not want to hear it, but I have no other way, if I keep holding it like this, I will get sick sooner or later, "It's okay to walk around."

Zou Moyan put on some clothes and went out with me. This is the first time I have walked out of the villa in the past few days. There is no scenery around. Although it is spring, there is no green that should be green, and there is nothing that should bloom Flowering, a scene of depression.

The villas are on the mountainside, walking down the path is going down the mountain, Zou Moyan took my hand and walked slowly, I kicked the small stones on the road, my heart was completely empty, I didn't want to think about anything .

After walking for a while, Zou Moyan said, "I know you're messing with me."

I didn't speak, Zou Moyan continued, "I also went to see a psychiatrist according to your advice. In fact, I am fine. On the contrary, you are too sensitive."

"Am I sensitive?" I smiled, "You say yes."

I'm sensitive?I'm so fucking sensitive!

"Jiajia, you are curious about how I became like this. In fact, you don't understand that I went through the six months in the mental hospital before. I never mentioned those things, and what I went through is far worse than what Lu Chengying is now. The experience is ten times crueler, maybe you say cruelty, but those who have never experienced the darkness never know the preciousness of the morning light."

This is the first time that Zou Moyan took the initiative to tell me about what happened three years ago. Zhou Luo said that when they rescued Zou Moyan, they found that he was basically only breathing. At that time, he had a serious physical problem. Gao Ziqian was raised there for more than a month, but he said he didn't know exactly what kind of half a year Zou Moyan went through.

"I still have this inexplicable fear of those things. When I saw you being kidnapped and bullied by Lu Chengying, I was really afraid that you would experience the things I experienced. Those things made you have no dignity and no hope. , a day without faith, without a reason to persevere." Zou Moyan was stunned, looking at me, "Lu Chengying is a puzzle, I don't know what he will do in the next minute, I checked him For three years, I never really got to know him."

"I understand the hardships you have suffered." I looked at Zou Moyan, and my heart was crushed for a while, and my comforting words turned into three words: "I understand."

"You don't understand, Jiajia, you will never understand how desperate and painful I am, and you will never understand the feeling that life is worse than death."

"Maybe I missed those times and I never knew about them, but I also want to tell you, Zou Moyan, do you know how desperate I was when I came back from San Diego? You haven't experienced the days of being chased by creditors every day to beg for life Have you ever been? I almost went to sea and became a hostess, almost went to be paid for by one hundred thousand yuan a month, and almost jumped off the roof of the hotel. That was the time when I was most desperate, I had no relatives, I wanted to cry Tears, but at that time I learned to be strong, I learned to face, I learned to wear the coat of a hedgehog, what about you?"

Zou Moyan stopped talking, but he was sweating a little while holding my hand. I looked at Zou Moyan, the blackness in his eyes gradually receded, and his expression began to ease. I knew that what I said had an effect, so I stood on tiptoe, facing He pressed a kiss on his chin, "Mo Yan, the past will eventually pass, and you are torturing yourself by remembering those things."

(End of this chapter)